The Complete Malazan Book of the Fallen (1242 page)

But they were stealing from her this one last act – this journey of love and grief – and the unfairness of that howled in her heart.

Soldiers fought around her, sought to protect their fallen queen. Bodies fell to either side. It seemed that the Liosan were now everywhere – the Shake and Letherii lines had buckled, companies driven apart, hacked at from all sides.

And still he seemed a thousand leagues away.

Draconic sorcery detonated. The bed of bodies beneath her lifted as one, and then fell back with a sound like a drum. And Yan Tovis felt a sudden absence.
Skwish. She's dead.

A trickle of strength returned to her, and she resumed pulling herself along.

Her bones were rattling to some distant sound – or was it inside her?
Yes, inside, yet still…distant. As far away as hope. And that is a shore I will never reach.
It shook through her. Shook even the corpses beneath her, and those to the sides.

Two stood to either side of her, two of her own, the last two, fighting.

She did not have to look to know who they were. The love filling all the empty spaces inside her now could take them in, like flavours. Brevity, who imagined that her friend Pithy was still with her, still fighting for the dignity they had always wanted, the dignity they'd once thought they could cheat and steal their way to find. Sharl – sweet, young, ancient Sharl, who knew nothing of fighting, who knew only that she had failed to save her brothers, and would not fail again.

There were all kinds of love, and, with wonder, she realized that she now knew them all.

Before her, five simple paces away – could she walk – lay the body of her brother.

Another concussion.

Pully. I am sorry.

There is no glory in dying young, unless you were old first.

No witches now to steal her strength. She lifted herself up, on to her hands and knees, and made for Yedan. As she drew up alongside, she saw the hand nearer her move.

Pulled herself up, knelt at his side, looked down into his face, the only part of him that had not been chewed and crushed beyond recognition. She saw his lips moving, leaned close.

‘Beloved brother,' she whispered, ‘it is Yan.'

‘I see it,' he whispered.

‘What do you see?'

‘I see it. Yan. It's there, right before me.' His broken lips smiled.

‘Yedan?'

‘At last,' he sighed, ‘I am…home.'

Their queen and the body of their prince, they were now an island upon the sea, and the last of them gathered round, to hold its ever shrinking shoreline. And, above it all, three black dragons warred with ten white dragons, and then there were only two against ten.

Surrounding the island and its shore, the Liosan pushed in on waves of steel and fury. Theirs was the hunger of the ocean, and that was a hunger without end.

But the ground trembled. It shivered. And the source of that steady, drumming thunder was coming ever closer.

 

Leaning like a drunk on the dais, Nimander struggled for a way through this. It would seem that he had to veer, and soon, and then he would have to somehow resist Silanah's will. He would have to fight her, try to kill her. But he knew he would fail. She would send his own kin against him, and the horror of the blood that would then spill was too much to bear.

Sandalath Drukorlat still sat on the throne, muttering under her breath.
I could kill her. After all, do I not already have Tiste Andii blood on my hands? And then, should we by some miracle prevail here, why, a usurper could take this throne. That, too, has been done before.

And the new kingdom of Kharkanas shall be born in the ashes of murder. Yes, I could do that. But look upon her, Nimander – she does not even remember you. In her madness, I am my father. Sandalath, do you truly not remember? Withal and I – we lied to you. A terrible accident, the suicide that never was.

Shall I lie to you again?

No, I cannot.

There were ghosts in this palace – in this very room. He had never before felt such palpable presence, as if countless ages had awakened to this moment. As if all of the fallen had returned, to witness the end of every dream.

‘Apsal'ara,' he whispered. ‘I need you.'

Came an answering whisper, ‘
It's not her you need.
'

 

Smiling down on the broken form of Anomander Rake, Sandalath slowly drew her dagger.
But he doesn't have the sword. He hasn't done what he vowed to do. How can I kill him now?

Look at him, though! This…thing. Against mighty Draconus? Impossible. I suspected it, back on the island. That broken window, the body lying on the cobbles. How few his followers then, how pathetic his lack of control.

A new voice spoke. ‘Orfantal will die if you do not release Sila nah.'

Sandalath looked up. Her eyes widened. A ghost stood before her, where Anomander – in that bold, deceitful moment of bluster – had been a moment earlier. A woman, young, and she knew her –
no, I do not. I will not. I refuse. How can my thoughts summon?

Silanah? Who was speaking of her? Was it me?

To the ghost standing before her, she growled, ‘I do not know you.'

Smiling, the ghost said, ‘But you do. You knew me all too well, as I recall. I am Phaed. My brother,' and she gestured down to Anomander, ‘is of such honour that he would rather give you your end, here and now, than hurt you further. Nor will he threaten you with what he cannot do in any case – no matter what the cost – to his people, to those doomed humans upon the First Shore.'

‘I only want my son,' Sandalath whispered. ‘He took him, and I want him back!'

‘This is not Anomander Rake,' Phaed said. ‘This is his son. How can you not remember, Sandalath Drukorlat? Upon the islands, across the vast seas – you took us in, as if we were your children. Now Nimander is here, begging you to release Silanah – to end the destruction of Kharkanas.'

Sandalath sneered. ‘I can taste lies – they fill this room. Ten thousand lies built this keep, stone by stone. Remember what Gallan said? “At the roots of every great empire you will find ten thousand lies.” But he was not blind then, was he? I never trusted you, Phaed.'

‘But you trusted Nimander.'

She blinked.
Nimander?
‘You are right – he does not lie. What a damned fool, just like his father, and see where it has got us.'

‘Your son Orfantal will die, Sandalath Drukorlat, unless you release Silanah.'

‘Orfantal! Bring him to me.'

‘I will, once you relinquish the throne and all the power it grants you. Once you free Silanah from your will.'

She licked her lips, studied the ghost's strangely flat eyes.
I remember those eyes, the knowing in them. Knowing that I knew the truth of her. Phaed. Venal, conscienceless.
‘You are the liar among us!'

Phaed cocked her head, smiled. ‘I never liked you, it's true. But I never lied to you. Now, do you want to see your son or not? This is what I offer.'

She stared at the ghost, and then looked down at Anoman — no, Nimander. ‘You have never lied to me, Nimander. Does your sister speak true?'

‘Do not ask
him
!' Phaed snapped. ‘This negotiation is between you and me. Sandalath, you of all people should understand what is going on here. You know the way of Hostages.'

‘Orfantal is not a Hostage!'

‘Events have changed things – there are new powers here.'

‘That is not fair!'

Phaed's laugh stabbed like a knife. ‘The Hostage whimpers at the unfairness of it all.'

‘Don't.'

‘Oh, shall I show some mercy, then?'

‘Stop it!'

‘Very well,' said Phaed, ‘I will give you this…gift. Retire to the chamber in the tower, Sandalath. You know the one. Lock the door from within, so that no one else may enter. Remain there. Await your son. And when he comes, why, then you can unlock your door. To take him into your arms.'

My room. My sweet, perfect room. If I wait there. If I hide there, everything will be all right.
Tears streamed down Sandalath's face. ‘Yes,' she whispered. ‘My son.'

‘Will you yield the throne?' Phaed asked. ‘It must be now. Once you have done that, then you can go to your room, Sandalath. Where you will be safe, and where you can wait for him.'

There was no end, it seemed, to what could spill down from her eyes. She rose, the dagger falling to clatter on the stones.
My room, yes. It's safe there. I have the lock, there at the door. The lock, to keep me safe.

Silanah – hear me. I will see my son! They will bring him to me! But first, I must release you. Eleint, you are free.

And soon, we will all be free. All of us hostages. We will finally be free.

After Sandalath Drukorlat, making sounds like an excited child, had rushed from the throne room, Nimander looked across at the ghost of Phaed.

Who stared back, expressionless. ‘I vowed to haunt you. My brother. My killer. To torment you for the rest of your days. Instead, you deliver me…home.'

His eyes narrowed on her, suspicious – as he knew he would always be, with this one.

‘Join your kin, Nimander. There is little time.'

‘What of you?' he demanded.

Phaed seemed to soften before his eyes. ‘A mother will sit in a tower, awaiting her son. She will keep the door locked. She will wait for the sound of boots upon the stairs. I go to keep her company.'

‘Phaed.'

The ghost smiled. ‘Shall we call this penance, brother?'

 

Blows rang, skittered off his armour, and beneath the banded ribbons of iron, the scales and the chain, his flesh was bruised, split and crushed. Withal swung his mace, even as a spear point gouged a score above the rim of his helm, twisting his head round. He felt a shield shatter beneath his attacking blow, and someone cried out in pain. Half blinded – blood was now streaming down the inside of his helm, clouding the vision of his left eye – he pushed forward to finish the Liosan.

Instead, he was shield-bashed from the side. Stumbling, tripping in a tangle of dead limbs, Withal fell.
Now I'm in trouble.

A Liosan loomed over him, thrust down with his sword.

A strange black flash, blocking the blow – a blur, and the Liosan howled in agony, toppling back.

Crouching now over Withal, a half-naked woman, her muscles sheathed in sweat, an obsidian knife in one hand, dripping blood. She leaned close, her face pressing against the visor's bars.

‘Thief!'

‘What? I – what?'

‘My armour! Your stole it!'

‘I didn't know—'

‘But you stood long – and there's more standing ahead, so get off your arse!'

She grasped him by the collar of his hauberk, and with one hand pulled him to his feet. Withal staggered for balance. Brought his shield round and readied the mace.

They were surrounded. Fighting to the last.

Overhead, two black dragons –
where in Hood's name did they come from?
– were at the centre of a storm of white- and gold-hued dragons. They were torn, shredded, hissing like gutted cats, lashing out in fury even as they were being driven down, and down.

The half-naked woman fought beside him with serpentine grace, her ridiculous obsidian knives whispering out like black tongues, returning wet with blood.

Confusion roared through Withal. This woman was a stranger – but that was impossible. Through the grille of his visor, he shouted, ‘Who in Hood's name are you?'

 

Sharl sank back, knees folding, and suddenly she was lying on the ground. Figures crowded above her, twisted faces, thrusting spear shafts, feet fighting for purchase. She'd lost her sword, and blood was welling from somewhere below her rib cage. Her fumbling fingers probed, found a puncture that went in, and in.

‘Ah, I am slain.'

‘Can you breathe? Take a breath, woman! A deep breath, and that's an order!'

‘C-captain?'

‘You heard me!'

Sharl couldn't see her – somewhere behind her head – and her voice was barely recognizable, but who else would it be? Who else could it be? The ground trembled beneath her. Where was that trembling coming from? Like a thousand iron hearts. Beating.
Beating.
She drew fetid air into her lungs. Deeper, and deeper still. ‘Captain! I can breathe!'

‘Then you'll live! Get up! I want you with me – till the end, y'understand?'

Sharl tried to sit up, sank back in gasping pain. ‘Been stabbed, Captain—'

‘That's how y'get into this damned club! Stand up, damn you!'

She rolled on to her side – easier this way to draw up her legs, to make her way to her hands and knees.

Brevity was gasping out words. ‘Girl without a friend…Nothing worse! Know what happens when a girl's got no friend?'