The Complete Private Collection: Private; Invitation Only; Untouchable; Confessions; Inner Circle; Legacy; Ambition; Revelation; Last Christmas; Paradise ... The Book of Spells; Ominous; Vengeance (98 page)

I felt the vomit coming just in time to turn my head away from Sabine. I retched into the mulch at my feet. Strained tears streamed from the corners of my eyes, down my nose, and across my lips.

But he loves me. He said that he loves m—

“Reed, I am so so sorry,” Sabine said.

“No,” I heard myself say. “No.”

I drew the back of my hand across my mouth. Looked again. Josh reached up and cupped the side of Cheyenne’s neck lovingly, his eyes worshipping. He let his hand slide down and nudge her blouse off her shoulder as she ever-so-slowly unbuttoned it.

“No!”

That was it. No more. I turned and shoved Sabine out of the way. Ripped open the door to Mitchell Hall. I was about to bang on the door to the art cemetery when I saw that it wasn’t even all the way closed. With both hands, I shoved it open. It banged against the wall. A painting crashed to the floor. Cheyenne jumped up with a gasp and righted her shirt, covering her lacy, barely-there bra. Her skirt was on the floor. Her thong and perfectly tanned ass exposed.

“Reed,” Josh said. “Reed, what are you—”

“Shut up,” I said, tears streaming from my eyes. “I don’t want to talk to you. I don’t even want to look at you!” I wiped my face quickly
and held my breath, not wanting to give Cheyenne the satisfaction of seeing me this way.

Josh pushed himself up onto his elbows and stared at me. His T-shirt—the very T-shirt he’d put on this morning right in front of me—was pushed all the way up to his pecs. His cords were unbuttoned, unzipped. I felt bile rise in my throat again and swallowed it back. Why had he not jumped up like Cheyenne? Why was he not begging for forgiveness right now? Was every single minute of that morning a lie? Did I really mean that little to him?

“Calm down, Reed,” Cheyenne said huffily, doing up her buttons. “I know this is hard for you, but at least try to retain some dignity.”

And that was when I finally did it. That was when the tenuous rope inside me finally snapped and I slapped Cheyenne as hard as I could, right across her pretty little face.

“You pathetic, two-faced little whore!” I shouted, storming into Billings House with Sabine and Constance right on my heels. Cheyenne raced ahead of me and jogged up the stairs in her high heels.

“Leave me alone, you psycho!” she shouted back at me.

I took the stairs two at a time and followed her to her room. All the doors in the hallway were already open. Girls crowded into doors in their pajamas, watching as we tore by.

“Reed! What’s going on?” Rose asked.

Like I could answer that right now. I had a blonde to disembowel.

He’d said he loved me. He’d said he loved me.

But she’d just taken it all away.

Cheyenne tried to slam her door in my face, but I flattened my hand against it and pushed my way in.

“Get out!” she shouted at me, backing toward the window.

“Not until you admit what a fraud you are,” I told her.

“You’re crazy, Reed. You’ve finally snapped,” Cheyenne ranted, laughing nervously.

“Oh, I’m crazy. I’m crazy?” I blurted. “You walk around here for days blabbering on about Billings and integrity and image and sisterhood and bonds that will last a lifetime and meanwhile you’re spending every single free second you have seducing my boyfriend!”

There was a general gasp and twitter behind me. I turned to look. Every single one of our housemates was either gathered near the door or out in the hall.

“That’s right, girls! Your fine, upstanding leader was just strad-dling my boyfriend in the art cemetery,” I said, knowing they would all find out through the rumor mill anyway. “And yet she’s the one walking around telling all of us who’s good enough to be in Billings. Who has the right qualities. This backstabbing
slut
is passing judgment on everyone else!”

“It wasn’t just me, Reed. I didn’t throw myself at him,” Cheyenne said. “You saw him. He was a willing participant. He even invited me there.”

My vision blackened over. I honestly felt as if I might faint. When I whirled on her again, I had to grab her dresser to keep the dizziness at bay. It was one thing if Cheyenne had gone to him. If she’d known he’d be there like he was most nights and had walked in wearing her sexy little outfit all toned and blond and sexpotted out. I would still never forgive him, but it would somehow make it better to put the fault squarely on her.

“I don’t believe you. I’ve seen you. I’ve seen the way you’re all over him all the time. This was all you.”

“Oh, yeah? Here!” Cheyenne reached into her Kate Spade and pulled out her cell, tossing it at me. “Check the first text message.”

She was bluffing. She had to be bluffing. I opened the text window and my vision blurred again. There was Josh’s cell number across the top of the screen, clear as day. The message read:

cant wait anymore. NEED u. now. 2nite. meet me. art cemetery. after cmte meeting.

Every ounce of rage I had within me exploded at that moment. I reached back and hurled her phone at the wall, shattering it into a million pieces, one of which nicked Cheyenne right in the face. Cheyenne yelped and cupped her chin.

Mrs. Lattimer chose that moment to show up.

“Girls!” she shouted. “That is enough!”

The shock, the horror, the disgust, was evident in her eyes as she took in the scene. Cheyenne, still haphazardly dressed. The pieces of the phone all over the floor. The mask of purple fury that I knew was covering my face. Her mouth formed a thin line of determination. I had never seen her look so grim.

“To your room, Miss Brennan. Now.”

“Who the hell does she think she is? She thinks she can just do whatever she wants?
Have
whatever she wants?” I ranted, whisper-shouting myself hoarse as I paced in front of Sabine. She sat in the center of her bed, knees together, watching me as I walked back and forth. Only her eyes moved. It was as if she was afraid to shift position lest I pounce. Not that I could blame her. I was rabidly out of control. “
Who
ever she wants?”

My voice cracked and I stopped pacing, covering my mouth with my hand as the images came rushing back to me. Josh’s hand on her bare skin. That adoring look in his eyes that used to be reserved for me. He’d looked at Cheyenne the exact same way he’d looked at me this morning when I’d told him I loved him. The
exact
same way.

My other hand went to my stomach. How could he? How could he do this to me? Was this the reason he’d wanted me to quit Billings so badly? To keep me and his other woman apart? Less chance of me
finding out about her if we weren’t living together, I suppose. And, oh my God. That night. That night Cheyenne had been out so late and I thought she’d been with Sabine . . . Had she been with Josh then, too? He’d been exhausted and cross and impatient the next day. Had this been going on this whole week? Had they been lying to me from day one? I couldn’t believe Josh could be that manipulative. That cunning. No. Not Josh. Not possible.

But then, I would have never thought this was possible. Never in a million years.

“She is out of control,” Sabine agreed. “You used to be friends, no? Even if you have had problems this year, it’s no excuse.”

I took a deep breath to quell the nausea. Wiped a stray tear from under my eye.

“‘Out of control’ is an understatement,” I blurted. “You know she’s been trying to force you, Constance, and Lorna out of here since that first day, right? She doesn’t care if you quit Billings or get expelled. Whichever happens first is fine by her.”

Sabine’s jaw dropped. “Expelled? She wants us expelled? My father would murder me!”

“She doesn’t care. As long as you’re not living here,” I muttered.

“But . . . but I haven’t done a thing to deserve it,” Sabine said, standing. “I’ve done everything she asked. Running her errands . . . cleaning her room . . . stealing things and putting them back. I’ve done nothing wrong. She is the one who’s manipulating everyone. It’s not fair!”

I leaned into my desk and stared out the window at the lights on
the quad. “You’re right. Cheyenne’s the one who should get expelled, after everything she’s done.”

My words hung in the air between us. Sabine was perfectly silent. Perfectly still. My heart started to pound anew. Cheyenne. Expelled. Cheyenne. Expelled.

This was supposed to be a perfect year. New and free of drama. And it would have been, if not for her. She had ruined it all. Ruined Billings. Ruined Josh. Ruined everything. I looked at Sabine. Her eyes were wide. We were thinking the same thing. My skin tingled.

“What if she did get expelled?” I said slowly.

“It would be over then, no?” Sabine said tentatively.

“God, can you even imagine how peaceful it would be here without her?” I said, looking around our room. “Without her torturing you guys? Without her stomping and shouting and ordering people around?”

“We could just be students again,” Sabine said, sounding wistful. “We could be normal.”

She was right. If Cheyenne were gone, the newbies would be spared any more stress. They wouldn’t have to go through all the crap I’d gone through last year. I was certain that without Cheyenne leading the pack, the hazing would end. Portia was too self-involved to be bothered, and Vienna and London would rather be primping and partying than plotting. Without Cheyenne, Billings would be free.

I would just love to see her face if she got expelled. Would love to show her once and for all that she couldn’t mess with me. That I wasn’t going to just let her get away with stabbing me in the back.

I couldn’t believe I was seriously considering this. Couldn’t believe I actually had it in me. But then I thought of Josh again. His face. His hands. His eyes. And I knew that I could do it. I was more than capable.

“Do you think we could do it?” I said quietly.

Sabine bit her lip. “I wouldn’t even know where to begin.”

I sat down shakily on my desk chair. My computer screen was dark, but just looking at it gave me an idea. God, if only Noelle were here. She would know exactly how to exact revenge on Cheyenne, and exactly what strings to pull to get the job done. But I didn’t even have a clue where she was, how to get in contact with her. She had long since changed all her numbers and e-mails, as if she wanted to cut off everyone completely. Cut me out of her life. But I had a feeling she would want to hear about this. Would want to help. She, after all, cared about Billings more than anyone. And one of her worst fears had been finding out what would happen if Cheyenne took over.

I stared at the computer. I knew someone who might know how to find her. Someone I’d been “talking” to nearly every day. Maybe it was finally time to broach the subject I had been avoiding for so long. Could I do it? And if I did and he helped me find her, would she be there for me?

I hit the space bar, bringing the screen to life.

“What are you doing?” Sabine asked.

I typed in Dash’s e-mail. “Calling in reinforcements.”

I composed a quick message, but the second I hit the send button, I wanted to call the e-mail back. My whole chest filled with dread.
What was I thinking? I was not Noelle. I had made that abundantly clear over the past few weeks. I couldn’t get someone expelled. Not even Cheyenne. I wasn’t a schemer. I didn’t have it in me. This was not me.

And on top of all that, what if Dash didn’t write me back? We never mentioned Noelle or Josh in our e-mails. What if bringing her up now somehow tarnished our banter? Brought it into the realm of the real? Potentially, I had just screwed up beyond all repair. Lost Josh and Dash in one horrifying, heartbreaking day.

I closed the computer with a click and tried to swallow against my suddenly dry throat.

“Maybe we should talk about something else,” I said, my voice hollow.

Sabine laughed nervously. “Yes. Good idea.”

We had come dangerously close to the abyss. It was time to turn back.

That night I lay in bed, unable to sleep, staring at the ceiling. The images kept coming over and over. Cheyenne’s bare legs. Josh’s chest. Cheyenne climbing on top of him. His hand on her neck. On her shoulder. His eyes as he took her in. Her hands slowly unbuttoning her shirt. Her bra. Her thong. His unzipped pants . . .

I flipped over, face to pillow, and groaned. Tears squeezed their way out onto the pillowcase.

How could he do this to me? How?

I couldn’t breathe. I lifted my head and my heart stopped. Red and blue lights flashed against the windowpane. A million flashback images from last year flooded my mind. I jumped from my bed and shoved the curtains aside.

There was an ambulance pulling past the girls’ dormitory circle. I spotted it as it whizzed up the drive toward the end. Toward the
second circle. Toward the boys’ dorms. No siren. No noise. Just the silent scream of the lights.

I held my breath and clung to the curtains until it was out of sight. Then I opened the window and listened. Heard the distant pop of car doors closing. The sound of voices carrying through the clear night. And then, nothing.

I looked at the clock. Four hours until breakfast. Four hours to wait and wonder what the hell was going on now.

The next morning I was itching to get out in the world and find out what had happened, but I had to wait for Sabine. Considering the night I’d had, I was in no shape to traverse campus and deal with all the wagging tongues and curious eyes on my own. She dressed as quickly as she could, and we were just walking out of our room when we heard Cheyenne screech. There were pounding footsteps, and two seconds later she was in the hall in her pink bathrobe, clutching what looked like the tattered, stained, and slashed remains of the tartlet outfit Sabine had worn the day before.

“What is this?” she shouted at Sabine, storming over to us. She shook the garments in her fists.

“Oh, right. I tried to wash them since you were so kind as to let me borrow them, but the campus machine went crazy and just tore them all to shreds,” Sabine said innocently.