Tears began to spill out of her eyes. “I don't remember,” she moaned.
I doan eemembah.
The blonde man got ready to cut herânot because he was angry with her but because when you let a lady like this get away with one lie it always led to anotherâand then reconsidered. It was, he decided, perfectly possible that she had temporarily lost her grip on such mundane things as telephone numbers, even those of important clients like Beaumont/Stark. She was in shock. If he had asked her to dial the number of her own agency, she might well have come up just as blank.
But since it was Thad Beaumont and not Rick Cowley they were talking about, he could help.
“Okay,” he said. “Okay, sis. You're upset. I understand. I don't know if you believe this or not, but I even sympathize. And you're in luck, because it just so happens I know the number myself. I know it as well as I know my own, you might say. And do you know what? I'm not even going to make you dial it, partly because I don't want to sit here until hell freezes over, waiting for you to get it right, but also because
I do
sympathize. I am going to lean over and dial it myself. Do you know what that means?”
Miriam Cowley shook her head Her dark eyes appeared to have eaten up most of her face.
“It means I'm going to trust you. But only so far; only just so far and no further, old girl. Are you listening? Are you getting all this?”
Miriam nodded frantically, her hair flying. God, he loved a woman with a lot of hair.
“Good. That's good. While I dial the phone, sis, you want to keep your eyes right on this blade. It will help you keep your happy thoughts in good order. ”
He leaned forward and began to pick out the number on the old-fashioned rotary dial. Amplified clicking sounds came from the message recorder beside the phone as he did so. It sounded like a carny Wheel of Fortune slowing down. Miriam Cowley sat with the phone handset in her lap, looking alternately at the razor and the flat, crude planes of this horrible stranger's face.
“Talk to him,” the blonde man said. “If his wife answers, tell her it's Miriam in New York and you want to talk to her man. I know your mouth is swollen, but make whoever answers know it's you. Put out for me, sis. If you don't want your face to wind up looking like a Picasso portrait, you put out for me just fine.” The last two words came out
jest fahn.
“What . . . What do I say?”
The blonde man smiled. She was a piece of work, all right. Mighty tasty. All that hair. More stirrings from the area below his belt-buckle. It was getting lively down there.
The phone was ringing. They could both hear it through the answering machine.
“You'll think of the right thing, sis. ”
There was a click as the phone was picked up. The blonde man waited until he heard Beaumont's voice say hello, and then with the speed of a striking snake he leaned forward and drew the straight-razor down Miriam Cowley's left cheek, pulling open a flap of skin there. Blood poured out in a freshet. Miriam shrieked.
“Hello!”
Beaumont's voice barked. “Hello, who is this? Goddammit, is it you?”
Yes, it's me, all right, you son of a bitch, the blonde man thought. It's me and you
know
it's me, don't you?
“Tell him who you are and what's happenin here!” he barked at Miriam. “Do it! Don't make me tell you twice!”
“Who's that?”
Beaumont cried.
“What's going on?
Who is
this?”
Miriam shrieked again. Blood splattered on the wheat-colored sofa cushions. There wasn't just a single drop of blood on the bodice of her dress now; it was soaked.
“Do what I say or I'll cut your fuckin head off with this thing!”
“Thad there's a man here!”
she screamed into the telephone. In her pain and terror, she was enunciating clearly again.
“There's a bad man here! Thad THERE'S A
BAD MAN Hâ”
“SAY YOUR
NAME!” he roared at her, and sliced the straight-razor through the air an inch in front of her eyes. She cringed back, wailing.
“Who is this? Whâ”
“MIRIAM!”
she shrieked,
“OH THAD DON'T LET HIM CUT ME AGAIN DON'T LET THE BAD MAN CUT ME AGAIN DON'Tâ”
George Stark swept the straight-razor through the kinked telephone cord. The phone machine uttered one angry bark of static and fell silent.
It was good. It could have been better; he'd wanted to do her, really wanted to have it off with her. It had been a long time since he'd wanted to have it off with a woman, but he had wanted this one, and he wasn't going to get her. There had been too much screaming. The rabbits would be poking their heads out of their holes again, scenting the air for the big predator that was padding around somewhere in the jungle just beyond the glow of their pitiful little electric campfires.
She was still shrieking.
It was dear she had lost all her happy thoughts.
So Stark grabbed her by the hair again, bent her head back until she was staring at the ceiling, shrieking at the ceiling, and cut her throat.
The room fell silent.
“There, sis,” he said tenderly. He folded the straight-razor back into its handle and put it into his pocket. Then he reached out his bloody left hand and dosed her eyes. The cuff of his shirt was immediately soaked in warm blood because her jugular was still pumping the claret, but the proper thing to do was the proper thing to do. When it was a woman, you dosed her eyes. It didn't matter how bad she had been, it didn't matter if she was a junkie whore who had sold her own kids to buy dope, you dosed her eyes.
And she was only a small part of it. Rick Cowley was a different story.
And the man who had written the magazine piece.
And the bitch who had taken the pictures, especially that one of the tombstone. A bitch, yes, a right bitch, but he would dose
her
eyes, too.
And when they were all taken care of, it would be time to talk to Thad himself. No intermediaries;
mano a mano.
Time to make Thad see reason. After he had done all of them, he fully expected Thad to be
ready
to see reason. If he wasn't, there were ways to make him see it.
He was, after all, a man with a wifeâa very beautiful wife, a veritable queen of air and darkness.
And he had kids.
He held his forefinger in the warm jet of Miriam's blood, and quickly began to print on the wall. He had to go back twice in order to get enough, but the message was up there in short order, printed above the woman's lolling head. She could have read it upside down if her eyes had been open.
And, of course, if she had still been alive.
He leaned forward and kissed Miriam's cheek. “Good-night, sissy,” he said, and left the apartment.
The man across the hall was looking out his door again.
When he saw the tall, blood-smeared blonde man emerge from Miriam's apartment, he slammed the door and locked it.
Wise, George Stark thought, striding down the hall toward the elevator. Very fucking wise.
Meantime, he had to be moving along. He had no time to linger.
There was other business to take care of tonight.
Thirteen
SHEER PANIC
1
For several momentsâhe never had any idea how longâThad was in the grip of a panic so utter and complete he was literally unable to function in any way. It was really amazing that he was even able to breathe. Later he would think that the only time he had ever felt remotely like this was when he was ten and he and a couple of friends had decided to go swimming in mid-May. This was at least three weeks earlier than any of them had ever gone swimming before, but it seemed a fine idea all the same; the day was clear and very hot for May in New Jersey, temperatures in the high eighties. The three of them had walked down to Lake Davis, their satiric name for the little pond a mile from Thad's house in Bergenfield. He was the first out of his clothes and into his bathing suit, hence the first into the water. He simply cannonballed in from the bank, and he still thought he might have come dose to dying thenâjust
how
dose was not anything he really wanted to know. The
air
that day might have felt like mid-summer, but the
water
felt like that last day in early winter before ice skims itself over the surface. His nervous system had momentarily shortcircuited. His breath had stopped dead in his lungs, his heart had stopped in the very act of beating, and when he broke the surface it was as if he were a car with a dead battery and he needed a jumpstart, needed it quick, and didn't know how to do it. He remembered how bright, the sunlight had been, making ten thousand gold sparks on the blue-black surface of the water, he remembered Harry Black and Randy Wister standing on the bank, Harry pulling his faded gym-trunks up and over his generous butt, Randy standing there naked with his bathing suit in one hand and yelling
How's the water, Thad ?
as he came bursting up, and all he had been able to think was
I'm dying, I'm right here in the sun with my two best friends and it's after school and I have no homework and
Mr. Blandings Builds His Dream House
is going to be on the Early Show tonight and Mom said I could eat in front of the TV but I'll never see it because I'm going to be dead.
What had been easy, uncomplicated breath only seconds before was a clogged athletic sock in his throat, something he could neither push out nor suck in. His heart lay in his chest like a small cold stone. Then it had broken, he sucked in a great, whooping breath, his body rashed out in a billion goose-pimples, and he had answered Randy with the unthinking malicious glee which is the sole province of little boys:
Water's fine! Not too cold! Jump in!
It occurred to him only years later that he could have killed one or both of them, just as he had almost killed himself.
That was bow it was now; he was in exactly the same sort of whole-body lock. They had a name for something like this in the armyâa cluster fuck. Yes. Good name. When it came to terminology, the army was great. He was sitting here in the middle of a great big cluster fuck. He sat on the chair, not in it but on it, leaning forward, the phone still in his hand, staring at the dead eye on the television. He was aware that Liz had come into the doorway, she was asking him first who it was and then what was wrong, and it was like that day at Lake Davis, just like it, his breath a dirty cotton sock in his throat, one that wouldn't go either way, all the lines of communication between brain and heart suddenly down, we are sorry for this unscheduled stop, service will be resumed as soon as possible, or maybe service will
never
be resumed, but either way, please enjoy your stay in beautiful downtown Endsville, the place where all rail service terminates.
Then it just broke, as it had broken that other time, and he took a gasping breath. His heart took two rapid random galloping beats in his chest and then resumed its regular rhythm . . . although its pace was still fast, much too fast.
That scream. Jesus Christ Our Lord, that
scream.
Liz was running across the room now, and he was aware that she'd snatched the telephone receiver out of his hand only when he saw her shouting
Hello?
and
Who is this?
into it again and again. Then she heard the hum of the broken connection and put it back down.
“Miriam,” he managed to say at last as Liz turned to him. “It was Miriam and she was screaming. ”
Except in books, I've never killed anyone.
The sparrows are flying.
Down
here
we call that fool's stuffing.
Down here we call
it
Endsville.
Gonna hook back north, hoss. You gotta lie me an alibi, because I'm gonna hook back north. Gonna cut me some beef.
“Miriam? Screaming? Miriam
Cowley ?
Thad, what's going on?”
“It is him,” Thad said. “I knew it was. I think I knew it almost from the first, and then today . . . this afternoon . . . I had another one. ”
“Another
what?
” Her fingers pressed against the side of her neck, rubbing hard. ”Another blackout? Another trance?'
“Both,” he said. “The sparrows again first. I wrote a lot of crazy shit on a piece of paper while I was knocked out. I threw it away, but
her
name was on the sheet, Liz,
Miriam's
name was part of what I wrote this time when I was out . . . and . . . ”
He stopped. His eyes were widening, widening.
“What? Thad, what is it?” She seized one of his arms, shook it.
“What is it?”
“She has a poster in her living room,” he said. He heard his voice as though it were someone else'sâa voice coming from far away. Over an intercom, perhaps. “A poster from a Broadway musical.
Cats.
I saw it the last time we were there.
Cats,
NOW AND FOREVER. I wrote that down, too. I wrote it because he was
there,
and so I was there, part of me was, part of me was seeing with his eyes . . . ”
He looked at her. He looked at her with his wide, wide eyes.
“This is no tumor, Liz. At least, not one that's inside of my body. ”
“I don't know what you're talking about!”
Liz nearly screamed.
“I've got to call Rick,” he muttered. Part of his mind seemed to be lifting off, moving brilliantly and talking to itself in images and crude bright symbols. It was this way when he wrote, sometimes, but it was the first time he could remember ever being this way in real lifeâwas writing real life? he wondered suddenly. He didn't think it was. More like intermission.