The Day the Rabbi Resigned

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The Day the Rabbi Resigned

A Rabbi Small Mystery

Harry Kemelman

TO

STEPHEN R. VOLK,

WELCOME TO THE FAMILY
!

1

The evening at the Bergsons' had been pleasant, even gay at times. But as Rabbi David Small, both hands clutching the wheel, drove the short distance home, he was aware that his wife Miriam was annoyed with him. It was not that she did not speak—she was always careful not to distract him with casual conversation when he was driving—but he could detect it in the set of her chin and in the way she sat upright, her back barely touching the back of the seat. As always when he reached their house, he let her out and then drove into the driveway to park the car in the garage. Normally, she would wait for him to rejoin her and they would walk up the steps together and he would unlock and open the door. But tonight, when he let her out at the curb, she used her own key and entered the house alone.

“Something bothering you?” he asked when he came in a couple of minutes later. Although of average height, he looked shorter because of the scholarly stoop of a man who had spent his life poring over books, an effect heightened by his tendency to thrust his head forward as he peered at the world nearsightedly through thick-lensed, wire-rimmed glasses.

She was slim, with the figure of a young girl, but there were fine lines at the corners of her eyes. Her heart-shaped face, though youthful, showed its maturity in the set of her firm chin. Her blond hair, now occasionally tinted, or as she would say, “touched up” at the hairdresser's, was piled on top of her head as though to get it out of the way. She stood very straight and looked at him accusingly.

“You weren't very sociable tonight,” she said coldly. “In fact, you were positively hostile.”

“Only to that idiot Ben Clayman,” he said. “And maybe to his friend, Myron Levitt, the G.E. fellow who came from Rochester a couple of years ago.”

“But why? What did Ben Clayman say or do?”

“He asked me if I had visited Morris Fisher at the hospital. I told him I hadn't got 'round to it yet, and when he looked disapproving, I asked him if he had been. He admitted he hadn't, and then added, ‘But I'm not his rabbi,' and that really annoyed me. So I explained to him that visiting the sick was enjoined on all Jews, and was not a special rabbinic function.”

“You lectured him.”

The rabbi smiled. “Yes, I suppose I did.”

“I heard you,” she said, and then added, “from the other side of the room.”

“I guess I did raise my voice a little. Several others had joined us, and Arnold Robbins kept bleating, ‘But you're our spiritual leader.' Now that really ticked me off, and I told him if it was a spiritual leader the congregation wanted, they should have got a Protestant minister or a Catholic priest rather than a rabbi.”

“You didn't!” She was shocked, but she couldn't help smiling.

“I certainly did.” He nodded in smug satisfaction. “And then this Levitt person said his rabbi in Rochester, who had married him, was a veritable saint, and he was sure it was responsible for the success of his marriage. Now, how do you respond to that kind of idiocy? So I said that no doubt it was the reason for the low divorce rate in the Jewish community of Rochester.”

“Oh, David, you didn't.”

“I did, and I don't think he even realized I was being sarcastic. When I asked Clayman if he had any complaints about
his
marriage—at which I had officiated, if you remember—someone said he wouldn't dare say so if he did, and that broke it up.”

“Ben Clayman is one of your most loyal supporters. I don't know why you'd want to antagonize him.”

“Oh, I didn't antagonize him, just kidded him a little.”

“Well, then, Arnold Robbins. You know, David, it seems to me that lately you've been awfully short-tempered with a lot of members of the congregation.”

He grinned at her. “You think they might fire me?”

“Of course not, but—”

“Because as you know very well, the Board of Directors has tried to fire me a dozen times. They tried the very first year I was here. I had to fight to keep my job. Each time I justified it on the grounds that the congregation as a whole wanted me, and that it was only the board that was hostile. But maybe that was only a rationalization for what was actually plain stubbornness on my part.”

“That was then, but now the board is behind you, a hundred percent. You've won them over. Now they like you, and you're presuming on it.”

He shook his head. “No such thing. It's just that I got older and they got younger.”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean that when I came here I was under thirty and the board members were in their forties and fifties, even a couple in their sixties. When I disagreed with them on something, they regarded it almost as an impertinence because in their eyes I was a youngster, a kid. But now I'm fifty-three, and I'm older than most of the members of the board. The older ones either died off or moved to Florida, out of the area anyway. I've officiated at the weddings of most of the present members of the board, anyway, all those who married local girls. One or two of them I even prepared for the Bar Mitzvah ceremony. Ben Clayman for one. So now I'm the old man, and they, even those who are about my age, are the youngsters. I suspect that even when I appear harsh and unyielding, they take a kind of pride in my being a crusty, irascible old curmudgeon who won't compromise the least bit on principles.” He grinned. “If you're worried about my antagonizing Ben Clayman, I overheard him later explaining to his G.E. friend that it was my modesty and humility that led me to deny my spiritual leadership.”

“And if they do think of you as their spiritual leader, is it so bad?”

“Miriam!” He sounded shocked. “It's not our line of work at all. We make no pretensions to having an inside track to the Almighty. A rabbi, unlike a Protestant minister or a Catholic priest, has not received a call from God. I got my call from Jake Wasserman, the chairman of the Ritual Committee at the time. I studied for the rabbinate as I might have for any other profession, the law or medicine. I chose the rabbinate because of my fascination with the Talmud. As a rabbi, my function is to sit in judgment on disputes that are brought before me, to advise on all matters relating to our tradition, to teach our tradition and guide the congregation in it, and to be the resident subsidized scholar of the community. I don't bless people or things, and I have no special role in our service. I don't know what spiritual leadership involves, but it suggests trying to be more than human. And I suspect that trying to be more than human, you are apt to end up being less than human.” He chuckled as a thought occurred to him. “Do you suppose the children of ministers are frequently on the wild side because they've been disillusioned by seeing their fathers as they really are, as ordinary human beings who are annoyed when the toast is burned, and downright angry when their wives scratch the fender of the car backing out of the garage, rather than the unworldly, spiritual beings seen in the pulpit by the congregation?”

“All right, so you're not a spiritual leader, but you give sermons.”

“Yes, because the congregation expects it, perhaps to relieve the tedium of our long services, or maybe”—he grinned—“to assure them that I'm doing something to justify my salary. Traditionally, the rabbi's contract called for him to deliver only two discourses during the year, and the discourse was not a sermon, not an exhortation, but rather a scholarly dissertation.”

“You do a lot of counseling.”

“Only because I'm available. They come to my study at the temple because I'm usually there during the day. They tell me what's troubling them and I listen. I suppose just unburdening themselves helps some of them. To some I give commonsense advice, and maybe that helps. And I know about various social agencies that they can apply to for help, say, for the care of an elderly parent. But I have no special expertise in the field.”

“You want to know what I think, David? I think you need a vacation.”

“The trouble with a vacation is that what you leave is no different from what you have to come back to.”

“Yes, but
you're
apt to be different. Would it be any different in another congregation?”

He shrugged. “Who knows? This was a new congregation when I came to it. Maybe an older congregation, in a city, perhaps, where they were more knowledgeable about their religion, might be different. Or maybe it was because I got off on the wrong foot with this one and there's been a sort of tradition of doubt and suspicion about me ever since.” He canted his head to one side and eyed her speculatively. “You know, Miriam, thinking back, the most enjoyable time I had in the years that I've been here is the year I taught the class in Judaic Thought at Windermere. I wouldn't have got the chance to give the course if I hadn't been the rabbi here.”

“Are you saying you wish you had gone into teaching instead of the rabbinate? That you'd rather be a teacher than a rabbi?”

“Well, as a rabbi I
am
a teacher. It's just that the class I've been given to teach, these youngish, successful, professionals and executives who by and large make up the Jewish community of Barnard's Crossing, don't seem to profit by my teaching. I was far more successful with the younger people in college, and it was more satisfying.”

“David,” she said accusingly, “this isn't something that just popped into your head because of what Ben Clayman said tonight.”

“No,” he admitted, “I've been thinking about it for some time.”