The Gilded Hour (35 page)

He said, “Are you struck speechless?”

“Not quite,” Anna said.

“Then I still have work to do.”

•   •   •

A
NNA
REMEMBERED
THAT
just the night before she had found his kisses almost too much, as consuming as fire. He was showing her now how little she knew, leading her down and down into an embrace as bottomless and wide as the sea. The part of her mind that was still aware of the world asked her questions: about the sisters who were hopefully in their rooms on the other side of the house, about the way her sense of propriety had disappeared without a whimper, about Jack himself. She wondered at the simple beauty of him, at heavily muscled arms and shoulders and a chest
so hard beneath his clothes that he might have been wearing a leather chestplate. She wondered at the strength he held in abeyance and how his hands—broad, callused, big-knuckled—could be so gentle. She lay back on the narrow bed and pulled him down with her.

Then she sat up again. “Wait—”

Jack reached into a pocket and pulled out a square of brown paper, no larger than a silver dollar.
One male capote
, the labeling read.
Finest sheep gut. Twenty-five cents.

He said, “You look surprised.”

“Um,” Anna said. “Because I am surprised. Where did you get this?”

“Schmidt’s on the Bowery, near Canal.”

“The druggist?” She sat up and turned the wrapped condom over to study it from all angles, and then she handed it back to him. “With Comstock on the prowl lately, I’m surprised he hasn’t been arrested.”

“He doesn’t advertise,” Jack said. “And he has a very small customer base for such things. None of whom want to see him go to jail.”

“How many druggists are there who sell these?”

“This type?”

“Any type.”

He shrugged. “Pretty much every druggist has some kind of condom to sell. This particular brand is harder to find.”

What a strange conversation,
Anna thought, but then asked the next question anyway. “What’s unusual about that brand?”

Jack thought for a minute. “This is Jacob Goldfarb’s work. He runs the business out of his apartment on Forsyth. The whole family works together. They use lamb intestines. Before you ask, they don’t keep sheep in a two-room apartment, and I have no idea where they get the raw material. I would guess from butchers.”

“A family business that produces lambskin condoms,” Anna said again. She heard the disbelief and irritation in her own voice, and shook herself. “Well, good for him, and for you too. But we don’t need it. I have a cervical cap.”

It was Jack’s turn to look surprised. “A what?”

“Sit down,” Anna said. “And I’ll explain it to you.”

He looked as frustrated as a man could be, which Anna understood, because she felt much the same. “Just a short explanation,” she said, and
took one of his hands between both of her own, traced the long strong fingers, and began to talk.

•   •   •

F
IVE
MINUTES
LATER
Jack said, “I’m not the only one who planned ahead, am I?”

Anna grabbed him by the ears and kissed him until he stopped laughing.

Between kisses he unbuttoned and untied and unveiled, layer after layer, only to stop, transfixed by nothing more than the hollow at the base of her throat. He lay his head on her breast and drew in her scent and held it, as an opium eater held smoke until he stood on the brink of nothingness. Jack ran a hand over her chemise, his knuckles brushing against her breastbone as he opened the first button. By the time he reached the fifth she was distinctly light-headed.

“You smell of lavender.” He nuzzled under her arm and inhaled deeply. “And oranges and cinnamon.”

“You have a poetic nose,” she said, her voice catching. “I couldn’t smell like very much other than sweat and talcum powder and soap. And,” she added, shifting under him, “your clothes may be very comfortable for you, but they are quite itchy on the outside.”

He said, “Paying attention to the wrong things, Savard.”

She knew a challenge when she heard it. He wanted evidence of the history she had related to him while they sat on the new bridge. Anna ran her palm down his chest over a tightly muscled abdomen to his groin and traced the shape of him.

“Oh,” she said. And then: “I have seen many penises, you realize.”

He gave her an elaborate frown. “A very technical term.”

“I’m a doctor,” Anna said. “I don’t have use for anything but technical terms. I suppose you think of it as a cock.”

He pressed his face to her shoulder and laughed.

“Or do you prefer dick? Or wait, what would it be in Italian?”

He was laughing so hard that he shook. Irritated and charmed in equal measure, Anna used the blunt edge of a fingernail to skim over the bulge of his erection. He drew in a sharp breath and stopped laughing.

“So,” he said, catching his breath. “Since you’ve seen so many examples, how do I compare?”

Anna said, “We’ll never know, will we, unless you take your pants off.”

•   •   •

S
OMETIME
LATER
WHEN
they were glued together by sweat from knee to belly to breast, Jack said, “You look like you just spent a whole day in the desert sun.” And realized that as unusual a woman as Anna might be, she was unlikely to take this as a compliment, though he meant it as one. He had never seen anything more beautiful than Anna flushed and breathless and undone, her hair rioting around her face.

She had to make an effort to focus her gaze on him. “What?”

“Nothing important.” Jack rolled to his side but kept his face right next to hers, feathering small kisses over her jaw and her neck until she shuddered.

“So,” she said. “That’s what all the fuss is about.”

He hummed agreement, wondering if there was anything he might say here that wouldn’t get him in one kind of trouble or another. She hadn’t been a virgin, but her surprise had been genuine. Then it occurred to him that this was a question he could ask Anna, just as long as it didn’t sound like a question.

“That wasn’t your first climax.”

“Um, well. It was the first one I didn’t arrange on my own. Oh look, now you’re blushing. Many women masturbate, you know. It’s exactly that fact that has the Comstocks of the world up in arms. They think we’ll do away with men entirely and let the undesirables do all the reproducing.”

“But this was different. I hope.” He rubbed his face against her breast to give himself time to digest this new, oddly intriguing idea and his voice came muffled.

“Oh, yes.” She slid down too, so they were face-to-face once again. “We don’t have to talk about this if it makes you uneasy.”

“That would be a shame,” Jack said, pulling her closer. “Because I have a lot of questions I never thought I’d be able to ask.”

She gave him her widest, most brilliant smile. “I’ve got a few of my own. And—” She hesitated, but then pushed on. “I’ve never been able to really study a male body. Or rather, I’ve only been able to study the very old and the very young. And the dead.”

Jack wondered if there had ever been such an odd conversation between two people in this particular situation. Most men would be shocked, and many of them would run in the other direction. Anna knew that, which
meant she trusted him. He lay back and put his hands behind his head, stretched out to his full length despite the undeniable proof that the conversation had only reawakened his interest.

“I’m yours to command,” he said. “Until it’s my turn.”

•   •   •

T
HEY
WALKED
BACK
to Waverly Place but talked hardly at all. Anna’s thoughts were humming through her, taking her further and further away. She was feeling guilty, but if she said so to Jack he would think it was about what had happened between them, and that wasn’t the case at all.

“Regrets?”

“Oh, no, not a single regret.” She took his arm.

“But you are arguing with yourself, I can almost hear it.”

“I am, I suppose.”

“Are you going to tell me about it?”

She thought she must. It was another test, and a necessary one.

“There are some things I should know better than to joke about,” Anna told him. “I’m unsure whether to tell you why, if it might be more than you want to hear. In technical, medical terms,” she added.

“I like hearing about your surgeries, and I’ve got a strong stomach.”

“Well, then. Listen. A few months ago I had a patient, a fifteen-year-old with abdominal pain. Her mother brought her in.”

She paused, but he didn’t give the least sign of hesitation or boredom. And so she told him about Kathleen O’Brien, who had brought her fifteen-year-old daughter to Anna’s office to be examined. Mrs. O’Brien was embarrassed but determined, and after some close questioning, Anna realized what she was asking. Her daughter was very ill and needed surgery, but they didn’t have the money to go to one of the bigger hospitals. She was worried not just for her daughter’s health and well-being, but for her immortal soul. The girl had fallen into the sin of self-gratification.

She felt Jack start in surprise, and so she slowed down a little as she sought the right words to talk about a sincere, religious woman who believed that her daughter’s trouble could be cut away.
You can make the trouble go away,
Mrs. O’Brien had said to her.
Just take it all away, and she won’t be plagued by temptation.

While Anna told him about that meeting with Mrs. O’Brien and her daughter, she watched Jack’s expression go flat and thoughtful.

“She wanted you to operate and—”

“Yes. She wanted me to operate and remove everything external that made her daughter female. Not the internal organs; she wanted her to be able to have children. But everything else genital.”

Jack looked dumbfounded. “Where would she get an idea like that, that such a thing was even possible?”

Anna was glad, even relieved, to see him struggling to grasp what she was telling him. She felt the old anger flaring up and had to force herself to provide the facts without emotion. There were physicians, she told him, who subscribed to a theory that women who are overly sexual in nature—who show interest in sex, or who turn to what they call self-gratification—are prone to develop sexual mania. “The worst part is, they convince a woman that she is at fault, that there’s something wrong about her essential self that needs to be—that must be cut away.”

Jack said, “There’s a lot of talk about masturbation ruining a boy’s health in religious circles, I’ve heard it spoken of myself. But as far as I know, nobody cuts boys to cure them of the inclination. And there are surgeons who do this to women? Reputable surgeons.”

“If you want the details I’ll give you the journals to read the articles.”

“I think I’ve heard enough of the details. But do they achieve the end they’re hoping for?”

“What do you think they hope for?”

He lifted a shoulder. “Biddable wives.”

“That’s the least of it. They want obedient, cheerful women who know their place and never ask questions and never, ever complain and above all are ladylike, which means, it seems, that they have no interest or pleasure in sex. They keep performing these surgeries, so maybe they think they are achieving something. The alternative is even worse, that they know that the operations are the equivalent of vivisection—” She stopped herself and swallowed. “—and carry on regardless. I ask myself how much these men who call themselves healers must truly dislike and even hate women.”

“Mostly I would guess that women frighten them.”

“That a mother would want such a thing for her daughter, that is what shocked me into paying more attention to the medical journals on this subject.”

“It can’t be very widespread,” Jack said.

“It’s not common,” Anna said. “But it’s done with some regularity.”

“If you can think of it dispassionately, and forget you’re dealing with human beings, it might seem reasonable. A doctor who is developing a new treatment or surgical instrument has to run tests as he fine-tunes his invention. The charity wards in big private hospitals are often where you’ll find women who are part of some experimental protocol. Once the surgeon has perfected the procedure, then he presents it to other specialists at meetings or writes it up for a journal, and he starts offering the same services to the wives of rich men, and charge the world for it.

“Sophie says it is my cynical side, but I truly believe that gynecology has become popular as a specialty because rich men have wives, and doctors have anesthesia.”

After a long moment Jack said, “Cynical or not, it makes some sense. Men of science want fine shirts custom-made from England and expensive carriages and ponies for their children. I can see how it would come about,” he said. “I wish I couldn’t.”

Anna felt some of the tension running away from her. “To be clear,” she said. “It’s only a small number of surgeons who do this kind of thing.”

“Not small enough,” Jack said. “And I do understand what you mean about not making light of the subject. But you know that you can tell me anything. I like that you like—what happens between us. I wouldn’t want it any other way. So do we understand each other?”

“Yes,” she said, able to smile now. “On that point, yes. But I still don’t understand where you came from. If there are more men like you out in the world, they are hiding themselves very well.”

“My background is unconventional,” he said. “And I haven’t even told you all of it. That’s what we have in common. It’s worth—”

“Everything,” Anna murmured.

“Yes,” he said. “Everything.”

They walked the rest of the way in silence.

B
Y
W
EDNESDAY
A
NNA
had all but convinced herself that it would be premature to make any announcements to her family. She couldn’t say the words
I am going to marry Jack
because she had no foundation on which to base such a claim. Try as she might, she couldn’t remember Jack actually asking her to marry him. His sisters acted as if he had, but they could have misunderstood him.

By Friday, when she still hadn’t had any word from him, she was sure that she had created the whole idea of marriage out of her imagination and nothing more. Except the sex. That she knew she hadn’t imagined. That she remembered in such detail that it was all she could do not to blush when it came to mind, something that seemed to happen a lot, despite her best intentions. The conversation that followed was almost as clear in her mind.

She hadn’t realized how much she needed to talk to a man about Mrs. O’Brien and her daughter. How desperate she had been for reassurance that there were men in the world who would object and object strongly, if they knew.

When Jack had been gone for almost a week Anna came home from the hospital to find his sisters in the parlor. Apparently they had sent a note in the morning, to which Aunt Quinlan responded with an invitation for the evening. And why, Anna wanted to know, hadn’t her aunt sent word to her at the hospital?

To this question—whispered as she kissed Aunt Quinlan hello—she got the answer she expected: “You would have found a reason to stay away.” Anna didn’t believe it was true, but it might have been even a month ago. She greeted Bambina and Celestina with hugs and kisses and apologies for her weeklong silence thinking,
If Jack can disappear from the face of the earth, well, then so can I
.

If only Sophie were there, she wouldn’t have been quite so nervous. But Sophie was out on a call. Anna steeled her resolve; she could do this without Sophie at her back, and if not, she had no business even thinking about marriage. And so Anna let herself be steered to a chair, accepted a cup of milky sweet tea, and listened as everyone talked at once in an attempt to relay what had been happening in her absence.

Rosa sat between Bambina and Celestina with a small tooled leather case in her lap, laid open to reveal a sewing kit complete with scissors, an ivory thimble, a paper of pins and another of needles, a measuring tape, and a whole rainbow of cotton threads and fine woolen yarns.

“I’m going to learn to sew.” She was smiling, a full and open smile, a rarity. Somehow the Mezzanotte sisters had managed to jolt her out of a steadily darkening mood, and Anna was truly thankful to them.

There were gifts for everyone, an embarrassment of riches: Lia had a sewing box too but was far more interested in a doll made, it seemed, of boiled wool; Mrs. Lee was busy arranging a double armful of roses—the sinfully expensive roses Anna had made such a fuss about—and peonies and lilac in three of the largest vases; on the table peeking out of a storm of tissue Anna could make out hand-hemmed and embroidered handkerchiefs, a beautiful wool shawl, several folded lengths of knitted lace, and a half-dozen other bits of finery.

“We have things for you too,” Bambina said. “But I think you’ll be more interested in this.” She pressed a letter into Anna’s hands, the plain brown envelope nothing out of the ordinary, but for the outline of a small box, barely one inch square.

“It arrived this morning with instructions to deliver it to you today,” Celestina said.

Anna found herself unable to look away from the letter and her name written across it in Jack’s strong hand. She wondered if she could find the patience to wait through the rest of the visit. When she looked up again she realized that everyone was watching her study the letter.

Aunt Quinlan gave her a sweet and almost melancholy smile. “Anna,” she said. “You’ll want to change for supper and I’d like to show our guests the garden. We’ll sit in the pergola and enjoy the weather for a bit.”

It was difficult, but Anna managed to leave the room without jumping for joy. She went straight to her room and closed the door behind herself.

•   •   •

S
OPHIE
GOT
HOME
and was sent straight upstairs by Mrs. Lee, who announced that Detective Sergeant Mezzanotte’s sisters had come and brought Anna a letter from Chicago. Right now the guests were sitting in the pergola with tea, but Sophie had a job to do. Before Mrs. Lee’s curiosity got the better of her, Sophie had to find out what was in that letter from Chicago.

She found Anna sitting at her desk, the letter open on her lap. On her palm she held a package smaller than a matchbox, tied with a thin silk ribbon the color of buttercream. She smiled when Sophie came in, a rueful smile that said Mrs. Lee’s curiosity was not unfounded.

“I’m glad you’re here,” Anna said. “I’m almost afraid to open this.”

“A ring?”

“I think so.”

“I take it you knew it was coming.”

Anna made a humming noise, one that Sophie recognized as a plea for understanding.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

She shrugged. “I thought it would be better to wait until he gets home from Chicago. In case things changed.”

Sophie sat down with a sigh. “Your cynicism costs you dearly sometimes, doesn’t it? Take heart, Anna. Your ring can’t be any worse than mine.”

She held out her hand to display the evidence. “Or are you unsure you want to accept it at all?”

For a moment they studied Sophie’s ring. Diamonds the color of tobacco in a setting that jutted up like the prow of a ship.

“You could put out an eye with that,” Anna observed. “What was Cap’s mother thinking?”

“It came from her mother-in-law,” Sophie said. “He’s apologized more than once, but if I don’t wear it—”

Anna rolled her eyes. “He’s terribly traditional for all his wickedness.”

Sophie said, “Will you open that, please?”

“I don’t see why I need to wear a ring at all,” Anna grumbled as she loosened the ribbon. “Men don’t wear engagement rings. And I’ll have to leave it off for most of the day while I’m at the hospital.” She unfolded the tissue, her whole face creased in a combination of irritation and worry.

“Well,” she said after a moment. “It’s not so bad as I feared.”

•   •   •

W
HEN
THE
M
EZZANOTTE
sisters had gone and everyone else had retired, Sophie knocked on the door of the little parlor and went in without waiting. Aunt Quinlan slept very little—she claimed it was one of the few advantages of old age—and Sophie often sought her out like this when the house was quiet. Now she sat beside her aunt and for a moment took comfort in the familiar.

Sophie’s memories of her earliest days in the house were very clear. In the beginning this spot had been the only place where she felt truly at ease. Desperately homesick and grieving for her family, Sophie was at first surprised and then relieved to find that Aunt Quinlan understood: silence was sometimes what was needed.

Within weeks Anna and Cap had won her over, but she continued to visit Aunt Quinlan to hear her stories, which were Sophie’s stories too, of her grandmother Hannah, who had been Aunt Quinlan’s half sister, and of other aunts and grandmothers from Montreal to New Orleans. One underlying idea repeated itself in all the stories: Sophie’s grandmothers had been great healers, brave women who dealt with the worst fate had to offer and never became bitter.

The women who went before her—the dark-skinned women—had lived on the very edge of the white world, in places and times where survival was not guaranteed, even to women with paler skin. The stories Aunt Quinlan told were something Sophie needed in a city where she was reminded that she was not white, day in and day out. As she had been reminded by Sam Reason, who thought her not black enough, and by Jack Mezzanotte’s sisters, who had seen her as too black.

Now Aunt Quinlan rocked quietly and waited for Sophie to find the words she needed.

“Everything is changing at once,” she said.

A low hum of agreement was all the reply she got.

“And I’m worried about Anna.”

“You don’t approve of her choice?”

“His sisters are the issue.”

“Not really,” Aunt Quinlan said. “Not unless you allow them to be a problem.”

But Sophie would never forget the look on Bambina Mezzanotte’s face
when she realized that the black woman being introduced to her was Anna’s cousin.

“Do you think Anna saw?”

Aunt Quinlan didn’t seem to have an opinion. It was true that Anna was unlikely to stand quietly by while someone was being treated badly, but whether or not she had witnessed the exchange, the issue remained.

“If his sisters disapprove, then his parents—”

Aunt Quinlan’s hand pressed Sophie’s shoulder firmly, cutting her off. “If Jack Mezzanotte is the man I think he is, he won’t let himself be derailed so quickly. Do you want to talk to Anna about this?”

Sophie tried to imagine the conversation, and could not begin to put what needed to be said into words. She shook her head.

“Better to wait, I think,” Aunt Quinlan agreed. “It might never be necessary. Now tell me about Cap’s cousins.”

It wasn’t so much Cap’s cousins as his aunts on behalf of his cousins. When it became clear that Cap would not live long enough to have children, they had begun a tug-of-war for his worldly goods. Cap thought the primary battle would be over the house on Park Place, which had come down to him through the female line when his mother died without a daughter. There were other properties, some more valuable, but the house on Park Place held special meaning in the family.

“Then let them have it,” Sophie had said. They sat with Conrad going over the complicated provisions of a last will, something she had neither heart nor patience for. But Cap insisted because, he said, she needed to know what battles would come.

“I don’t want the house if it means a battle,” she told him. It was a sore subject between them, the house he loved so much and wanted her to love. If he had had his way, they would have married and raised a family in the house where he had been born and raised, and damn the disapproval that greeted them every time they went out onto the street. The things he took for granted—the things he loved about his life—would be gone, and not be available to their children.

Aunt Quinlan wanted to know how the question had been resolved.

“Cap thinks I can turn the house into a school or infirmary. At any rate, he refuses to change the provision in the will. Once we are married it will
come to me. Along with all the rest of the property and all his holdings. I never realized how much work money could be.”

Then her aunt said something that had shocked Sophie to the bone.

“Take advantage. Take the resources he is giving you, and start again. You can go anywhere. Back to New Orleans, if you like, to buy back the building where your father’s infirmary was so that you can reopen it.”

Her expression must have been transparent, because Aunt Quinlan squeezed her shoulder gently. “I’m not telling you to go, far from it. I want you as near as I can have you. But you should be thinking about a larger life, Sophie. You stand on a precipice with the world spread out before you.”

“After Switzerland,” Sophie said, her voice catching.

“It’s a terrible price to pay,” her aunt said. “I know.”

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