The Given Day (41 page)

Whereas his time in Special Squads had been marked by a self- loathing so acute he now wondered how he'd managed to do any of it, his time doing BSC work in hopes of forming a union with true bargaining power made him feel a sense of purpose that bordered on the evangelical.

This, he decided one afternoon as he returned to the station house with three more testimonials from patrolmen in the One-Oh, was what he'd been looking for since Salutation Street: a reason why he'd been spared.

In his box, he found a message from his father asking him to come by the house that night after his shift. Danny knew few good things had ever come from one of his father's summonses, but he caught the streetcar out to South Boston just the same and rode across the city through a soft snow.

Nora answered the door, and Danny could tell she hadn't expected him to be on the other side of it. She pulled her house sweater tight across her body and took a sudden step back.

"Danny."

"Evening."

He'd barely seen her since the flu, barely seen anyone in the family except for the Sunday dinner several weeks back when he'd met Luther Laurence.

"Come in, come in."

He stepped over the threshold and removed his scarf. "Where's Ma and Joe?"

"Gone to bed," she said. "Turn around."

He did and she brushed the snow off the shoulders and back of his coat.

THE GIVEN DAY"Here. Give it to me now."

He removed the coat and caught a faint whiff of the perfume she wore ever so sparingly. It smelled of roses and a hint of orange.

"How are you?" Danny looked in her pale eyes, thinking: I could die.

"Just fi ne. Yourself?"

"Good, good."

She hung his coat on the tree in the hallway and carefully smoothed his scarf with her hand. It was a curious gesture, and Danny stopped breathing for a moment as he watched her. She placed the scarf on a separate hook and turned back to him and just as quickly dropped her eyes, as if she'd been caught at something, which, in a way, she had.

I would do anything, Danny wanted to say. Anything. I've been a fool. First with you, then after you, and now as I stand here before you. A fool.

He said, "I--"

"Hmm?"

"You look great," he said.

Her eyes met his again and they were clear and almost warm. "Don't."

"Don't?"

"You know what I mean." She looked at the floor, hugging her elbows.

"I'm . . ."

"What?"

"Sorry."

"I know." She nodded. "You've apologized enough. More than enough. You wanted to be"--she looked up at him--"respectable. Yes?"

Christ--not that word again, thrown back in his face. If he could remove one word from his vocabulary, erase it so that it had never taken hold and thus he never could have used it, it would be that one. He'd been drunk when he said it. Drunk and taken aback by her sudden and sordid revelations about Ireland. About Quentin Finn.

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Respectable. Shit.

He held out his hands, at a loss for words.

"Now it's my turn," she said. "I'll be the respectable one." He shook his head. "No."

And he could tell by the fury that sprang into her face that she'd misinterpreted his meaning yet again. He had meant to imply that respectability was a goal unworthy of her. But she took it to mean it was something she could never attain.

Before he could explain, she said, "Your brother's asked me to marry him."

His heart stopped. His lungs. His brain. The circumnavigation of his blood.

"And?" The word came out as if strangled by vines.

"I told him I'm thinking about it," she said.

"Nora." He reached for her arm but she stepped away.

"Your father's in the study."

She walked away down the hall, and Danny knew, yet again, that he'd failed her. He was supposed to have responded differently. Faster? Slower? Less predictably? What? If he'd dropped to his knees and made his own proposal, would she have done anything but run? Yet he felt he was supposed to have made some kind of grand gesture, if only so she could have turned it down. And that would have somehow balanced the scales.

The door to his father's study opened as he stood there. "Aiden." "Danny," he corrected him through gritted teeth.

In his father's study, the snow falling through the black beyond the windows, Danny sat in one of the leather armchairs that faced the desk.

His father had a fire going and it reflected off the hearth and gave the room a glow the color of whiskey.

Thomas Coughlin still wore his uniform, the tunic open at the neck, his captain's bars sitting atop the blue shoulders while Danny wore street clothes and felt those bars smirking at him. His father handed him a scotch and sat on the corner of the desk.

THE GIVEN DAYHis blue eyes cut through his glass as he drained it. He poured a refill from the decanter. He rolled the glass back and forth between his palms and considered his son.

"Eddie tells me you went native."

Danny caught himself rolling his own glass between his palms and dropped his left hand to his thigh. "Eddie over- dramatizes."

"Really? Because I've been given cause to wonder lately, Aiden, if these Bolshies didn't rub off on you." His father gave the room a soft smile and sipped his drink. "Mark Denton is a Bolshevik, you know. Half the BSC members are."

"Gosh, Dad, they just seem like cops to me."

"They're Bolsheviks. Talking of a strike, Aiden? A strike?" "No one's said that word in my presence, sir."

"There's a principle to be honored here, boy. Can you appreciate that?"

"And which one is that, sir?"

"Public safety above all other ideals for men who hold the badge." "Putting food on the table, sir, that's another ideal."

His father waved at the sentence like it was smoke. "Did you see the paper today? They're rioting in Montreal, trying to burn the city wholesale right to the ground. And there's no police to protect the property or the people and there's no firemen to put out the fi res because they're all out on strike. It might as well be St. Petersburg."

"Maybe it's just Montreal," Danny said. "Maybe it's just Boston."

"We're not employees, Aiden. We're civil servants. We protect and we serve."

Danny allowed himself a smile. It was rare he could watch the old man get worked up needlessly and be the one holding the key to his release. He stubbed out his cigarette and a chuckle escaped his lips. "You laugh?"

He held up a hand. "Dad, Dad. It's not going to be Montreal. Really." His father's eyes narrowed and he shifted on the edge of the desk. "How so?"

"You heard what, exactly?"

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His father reached into his humidor and removed a cigar. "You confronted Stephen O'Meara. My son. A Coughlin. Speaking out of turn. Now you're going from station house to station house, collecting affi davits regarding substandard working conditions? You're recruiting for your purported 'union' on city time?"

"He thanked me."

His father paused, the cigar cutter wrapped around the base of the cigar. "Who?"

"Commissioner O'Meara. He thanked me, Dad, and he asked Mark Denton and me to get those affidavits. He seems to think we'll resolve the situation very soon."

"O'Meara?"

Danny nodded. His father's strong face drained of color. He'd never seen this coming. In a million years, he couldn't have guessed it. Danny chewed on the inside of his mouth to keep a smile from breaking wide across his face.

Got you, he wanted to say. Twenty-seven years on this planet and I finally got you.

His father surprised him even further when he came off the desk and held out his hand. Danny stood and took it and his father's grip was strong and he pulled Danny to him and clapped him once on the back.

"God, you made us proud, then, son. Damn proud." He let go of his hand and clapped his shoulders and then sat back on the desk. "Damn proud," his father repeated with a sigh. "I'm just relieved it's all over, this whole mess."

Danny sat down. "Me, too, sir."

His father fingered the blotter on his desktop and Danny watched the strength and guile return to his face like a second layer of skin. A new order of business in the offing. His father already beginning to circle.

"How do you feel about Nora and Connor's impending nuptials?"

Danny held his father's gaze and kept his voice steady. "Fine, sir. Just fine. They're a handsome couple."

THE GIVEN DAY"They are, they are," his father said. "I can't tell you what a trial it's been for your mother and me to keep him from sneaking up to her room at night. Like children, they are." He walked around to the back of the desk and looked out at the snow. Danny could see both their faces reflected in the window. His father noticed it, too, and smiled.

"You're the spitting image of my Uncle Paudric. Have I ever told you that?"

Danny shook his head.

"Biggest man in Clonakilty," his father said. "Oh, he could drink something fierce and he'd get a sight unreasonable when he did. A publican once refused him service? Why, Paudric tore out the bar between them. Heavy oak, Aiden, this bar. And he just tore a piece of it out and went and poured himself another pint. A legendary man, really. Oh, and the ladies loved him. Much like you in that regard. Everyone loved Paudric when he was sober. And you? Everyone loves you, don't they, son? Women, children, mangy Italians and mangy dogs. Nora."

Danny put his drink on the desk. "What did you say?"

His father turned from the window. "I'm not blind, boy. You two may have told yourselves one thing, and she may very well love Con' in a different way. And maybe it's the better way." His father shrugged. "But you--"

"You're on thin fucking ice, sir."

His father looked at him, his mouth half-open.

"Just so you know," Danny said and could hear the tightness in his own voice.

Eventually his father nodded. It was the sage nod, that one that let you know he was acknowledging one aspect of your character while pondering flaws in another. He took Danny's glass. He carried it to the decanter with his own and refi lled them.

He handed Danny his glass. "Do you know why I allowed you to box?"

Danny said, "Because you couldn't have stopped me."

His father clinked his glass with his own. "Exactly. I've known since 344DENNIS LEHANE you were a boy that you could occasionally be prodded or smoothed, but you could never be molded. It's anathema to you. Has been since you could walk. Do you know I love you, boy?"

Danny met his father's eyes and nodded. He did. He always had. Strip away all the many faces and many hearts his father showed the world when it suited him, and that face and that heart were always evident.

"I love Con', of course," his father said. "I love all my children. But I love you differently because I love you in defeat."

"Defeat?"

His father nodded. "I can't rely on you, Aiden. I can't shape you. This thing with O'Meara is a perfect example. This time it worked out. But it was imprudent. It could have cost you your career. And it's a move I never would have made or allowed you to make. And that's the difference with you, of all my children--I can't predict your fate."

"But Con's?"

His father said, "Con' will be district attorney someday. Without a doubt. Mayor, defi nitely. Governor, possibly. I'd hoped you'd be chief of police, but it's not in you."

"No," Danny agreed.

"And the thought of you as mayor is one of the more comical ideas I've ever imagined."

Danny smiled.

"So," Thomas Coughlin said, "your future is something you're hell- bent on writing with your own pen. Fine. I accept defeat." He smiled to let Danny know he was only half serious. "But your brother's future is something I tend to like a garden." He hoisted himself up on the desk. His eyes were bright and liquid, a sure sign that doom was on the way. "Did Nora ever talk much about Ireland, about what led her here?"

"To me?"

"To you, yes."

He knows something.

"No, sir."

THE GIVEN DAY"Never mentioned anything about her past life?"

Maybe all of it.

Danny shook his head. "Not to me."

"Funny," his father said.

"Funny?"

His father shrugged. "Apparently you two had a less intimate relationship than I'd imagined."

"Thin ice, sir. Very thin."

His father gave that an airy smile. "Normally people talk about their pasts. Particularly with close . . . friends. And yet Nora never does. Have you noticed?"

Danny tried to formulate a reply but the phone in the hall rang. Shrill and loud. His father looked at the clock on the mantel. Almost ten o'clock.

"Calling this home after nine o'clock?" his father said. "Who just signed his own death warrant? Sweet Jesus."

"Dad?" Danny heard Nora pick up the phone in the hall. "Why do you--?"

Nora knocked softly on the door and Thomas Coughlin said, "It's open."

Nora pushed open the doors. "It's Eddie McKenna, sir. He says it's urgent."

Thomas scowled and pushed himself off the desk and walked out into the hall.

Danny, his back to Nora, said, "Wait."

He came out of the chair and met her in the doorway as they heard his father pick up the phone in the alcove off the kitchen at the other end of the hall and say, "Eddie?"

"What?" Nora said. "Jesus, Danny, I'm tired."

"He knows," Danny said.

"What? Who?"

"My father. He knows."

"What? What does he know? Danny?"

"About you and Quentin Finn, I think. Maybe not all of it, but 346DENNIS LEHANE something. Eddie asked me last month if I knew any Finns. I just chalked it up to coincidence. It's a common enough name. But the old man, he just--"

He never saw the slap coming. He was in too close and when it connected with his jaw, he actually felt his feet move beneath him. All five foot five of her, and she nearly knocked him to the floor.

"You told him." She practically spit the words into his face.

She started to turn and he grabbed her wrist. "Are you fucking crazy?" It came out a harsh whisper. "Do you think I would ever--ever, Nora--sell you down the river? Ever? Don't look away. Look at me. Ever?"