The Handmaid and the Carpenter
CONTENTS
To Marion Jeanne Hoff
And Nathanael said unto Philip,
Can there any good thing come out of Nazareth?
…
—John 1:46
AUTHOR’S NOTE
The Bible is poetry. As such, it is open to interpretation. Here is one more writer’s imagining of events that took place long, long ago. I have taken great license with the varying and often contradictory “facts” about Mary, Joseph, and the birth of Jesus; but then, I am in good company in doing so.
A word about dates. In this novel, Jesus is born in 4
B
.
C
. That is because Matthew and Luke place Jesus’ birth at the end of the reign of Herod the Great, who died in 4
B
.
C
.
PROLOGUE
Nazareth, province of Galilee, Palestine
SEPTEMBER, A.D. 9
Joseph
VERHEAD, ABOVE THE FLAT ROOF HE LIES
on, the moon is full and patient-seeming. Thin black clouds drift across it like floating veils. He can make out the silvery olive trees near the house, the gentle rise of hills behind them, even the high walls of limestone beyond that. The long grasses move in the night wind, and he strains to hear better the faint sound of some animal he cannot identify. His back pains him and he cries out, shifting one shoulder reflexively. The movement causes him to draw in a sharp breath; he holds it, then lets it slowly leave his body. Better. This is the way, to release without protest. He hears someone coming and struggles to sit up. One of his sons? No. It is his wife, when he wanted so for her not to know he had left her side. His cry must have awakened her, and now she has come to him in haste, barefoot and sleep-tousled, a shawl wrapped carelessly about her.
She sits beside him. “Why are you come here again?” She runs her hand, so light and cool, across his brow. “You must stay in the house and save your strength.”
He takes her hand and lays it over his chest, and she smiles her slow smile. The sight of her face brings him joy, as it always has. Yet in her eyes, even as she stares into his own, an unnavigable distance. So it will be, then, unto the end.
He points to the trees, the hills. “Look. As though it were daytime, as though night has not come at all, nor ever will.”
She nods sorrowfully, understanding him, and stares out at the land. He studies her profile: her high forehead, her strong nose, her soft mouth, the unloosened hair still so black it glints blue.
She turns back to him. “Come. Let us go into the house. Shall I help you?”
He shakes his head. “I wish to remain here.”
She sits quietly for a moment, then lies down next to him. “Are you hungry?”
“No.”
From the bodice of her gown she pulls out a small cloth and unfolds it. “I have brought pistachios. And also I have dates.”
“No,” he says, more gently.
“Have you great pain?”
“Greatest is the pain that comes from the unanswered question in my heart.”
“Joseph. When will you believe?”
“I pray to now.”
“Then I shall pray with you, that you may know that what the angels have told you is true.”
CHAPTER ONE
Nazareth
JANUARY, 4 B.C.
Joseph
UTSIDE, A THUNDERSTORM RAGED. A GREAT
wind frightened the animals and bent the trees low to the ground, shaking their leaves almost off their branches. But inside the house of just-married Simon and Esther, there was light and laughter. A long table covered with a striped cloth was pushed up close to the wall, and it was laden with earthenware platters decorated by palm fronds and piled high with eggplant and olives, with spit-roasted beef and lamb and fish, with rounds of flatbread, with grapes and oranges and figs and sweet cakes.
Beneath the table, sixteen-year-old Joseph sat cross-legged in silence, watching sandals and ankles and hems of tunics go by. No one had seen him—he was almost totally obscured by the tablecloth—and he enjoyed the anonymity. He was of course a man now, but he could not resist on occasion returning to the pleasures of boyhood. This was one such pleasure: to sit hidden and watch the elders as they drank ever more wine and acted ever more foolish. In the corner, he saw old Samuel weaving as he stood with his feet far apart, trying to focus on the face before him. Wine had sloshed from his wooden cup to dribble down his mantle. “You will soon be on the floor,” Joseph muttered, and was startled to hear a voice say, “I am surprised he is not already.”
Joseph turned to see a girl squatting just behind him. “You have found the seat of honor,” she said. “May I join you here?”
There was something familiar about her. “We are known to each other?” he asked.
She nodded. “You have seen me many times. And you spoke to me when last you saw me. You came to the well when I was there last summer. I was gathering water with my mother; you were passing by with your father, Jacob.”
“Your memory serves you well. And I remember now, also. You are called Mary.” She was a wonder to behold, with her black curls escaped from her braid, her cheeks flushed dusky rose, her gaze so direct and yet mysterious. She tucked her hair behind her ears, and he saw the lines of her high cheekbones beginning to assert themselves. Her lips were full and pink. He was suddenly dry-mouthed, his heart knocking about in his chest like a caged animal wild to be released.
“Yes, I am Mary,” she said. “And you are called Joseph.”
And her voice! Low and musical, laughlike. The utter completeness of her beauty was astonishing; it made for a rush of emotion in him so strong it felt like anger.
“You have…grown,” he told her, and his voice cracked, causing him to blush to the center of his soul.
She appeared not to notice but instead stared calmly into his eyes. “And you also.”
“How old are you?” he asked.
“Newly thirteen. And you?”
“Seventeen in two days.”
They regarded each other carefully, and then he ducked down and pointed to the people before him who had joined hands and made a circle to dance. They whooped and called out to one another, stamped their feet, threw their heads back and laughed. “They rejoice so!” Joseph said, caught between wanting to admire them and to ridicule them. “It is as though King Herod has died and the Messiah has come, both together!”
She came closer and peered from beneath the cloth to see the dancers, then sat next to Joseph. “It makes me happy, their happiness,” she said, and there was in her simple statement a truth that made him ashamed of his ambivalence.
“Of course it makes me glad as well,” he said. What was it that she smelled of? It was a scent of air and water, of salt and bread, of the white blossoms that flowered on the olive branches. Of apricots and nuts. Of earth. He felt himself growing dizzy. He leaned back onto his elbows and looked at her. “Where are you from?”
She cocked her head, puzzled. “Nazareth.”
“No,” he said.
She raised an eyebrow. “No?”
He shook his head. “No.”
“I am from Nazareth! Unless you mean…ah. I was born in Sepphoris, but I came to Nazareth when I was just—”
“No,” he said yet again.
She stared at him, then lowered her eyes. “I believe you must know of my extraordinary circumstances.” She looked up again. “Is that what you mean to say?”
He shrugged. “Perhaps.” He didn’t know what he was saying. The girl confused and unsettled him.
She smiled, a warm, rich thing, full of its own intention—he had never seen such a smile. But then her face grew serious. “Behold; by a way known only unto you and God, you have come to know of my great secret, of my strange beginnings. I have never spoken of this to anyone, nor have my parents. But I will reveal all to you if you promise never to tell another. Will you promise?”
He smiled uncertainly. She remained somber-faced and did not speak, waiting for him to agree to what she had asked. “I promise,” he said.
She nodded and resettled herself, sitting back on her heels and again anchoring her hair behind her ears. “So be it. We have agreed that this will be known only to you and to my parents, now and forever, unto the end of the earth.”
“Yes.” His chest inflated with his importance.
She leaned in closer and spoke quietly. “I was found beneath a date palm tree at the edge of the great Plain of Esdraelon. I was wrapped in cloth spun of gold, wearing a crown of jasmine flowers. Beside me were gifts of incense and linens, of spices and jewels, left for the one who would take me unto herself and raise me as her own.”
He tried not to laugh.
“Ah,” she said. “I see that you cannot believe. You must not feel ashamed. It takes a man of rare qualities to—”
“I believe,” he said. “I do! I believe!”
Now she laughed. “Then you have believed a lie. But the circumstances of my birth are yet more miraculous than what I have told you. My mother, Anne, was barren; but late in her life, an angel appeared before her and said—” Mary stopped and turned her head in the direction of a voice calling her name. Her high brow, her strong nose. “I must go,” she told him, pulling up her head covering and starting to crawl away from him.
He put his hand on her back. “Wait!” When Mary turned to him, he found himself frustratingly wordless.
Again, they heard her name being called, more insistently this time.
“I must go!”
“Until the next time!” he managed.
She rose too quickly and knocked her head against the underside of the table, then turned back to Joseph, giggling.
He did not smile. He would kill the table, for hurting her.
He lay down on his stomach to watch her walk across the room. Her gait was slow and easy. She moved with her back straight and her head high, and her bearing suggested something beyond the normally erect posture seen in Nazarene women, who were so used to carrying heavy loads upon their heads. Mary took her mother’s hand, then turned to look in Joseph’s direction and smiled. His breath was tight, his belly aching. He watched as she and her parents headed out into the rain, then sat up and returned his attention to the flush-faced revelers and silently invited them to his own ceremony, now that he knew with certainty to whom he would be betrothed. It was as though it were written in the stars, and always had been. And always would be.
“MOTHER?” HE CALLED.
It was late into the night, and Joseph could not sleep. He had lain for at least an hour turning from one side to the other on his pallet, staring up at the ceiling, occasionally reaching out his hand to run it slowly along the mud wall, cool after the storm. He had touched himself, lightly and with wonder, understanding now the reason for his manhood.
“Mother!” he called again.
It was his father’s frame that suddenly filled the low and narrow doorway. Joseph’s mother had become an increasingly sound sleeper. Also she had begun to grow a mustache.
“What is it, my son?” Jacob asked. “Are you ill?”
“No.”
“Then why do you call so persistently, when your mother and I need to take our rest?”
He did not answer, and his father moved closer. “Joseph?”
“When will we see those people again?”
“What people?”
“The people who came to the wedding party tonight.”
His father lifted his shoulders and made a sound deep in his throat. “We all live in the same small village. We see one another often.”
“No, but…the people Anne and Joachim, and their daughter, Mary. When will we see them again?”
“Ahhhhhh,” his father said. “Have you interest in Mary?”
Joseph said nothing.
His father clapped his hands together and his voice rose high and tight in happiness. “I have waited long for this moment! I shall invite them to Sabbath dinner next week, that you may look again upon your Mary. And then we shall see what will happen.”
“I know already,” Joseph said.
His father scratched at his side and yawned. “We shall see. And now you must sleep, that you may grow strong and healthy and into a husband fit to father many sons.”
Joseph turned onto his side and closed his eyes.
“I am happy for you, my son.”
“And I too, Father.”
“Good night, Joseph.”
He listened to his father’s footsteps move away from him in the dark. Had his father felt this, this reeling sensation, big as all of the heavens, for his now snoring wife? Impossible.
Joseph drew in a deep breath and let it out. He closed his eyes tighter. But still he did not sleep. He saw again every move she made, heard again her every word. And waited for morning, which would bring him one day closer to his own wedding day.