The House of Thunder (35 page)
Susan pretended to put the capsule of methylphenidate in her mouth, palmed it instead, and drank two long swallows of ice water.
Henceforth, she wasn’t going to take any of the medications that she was given. For all she knew, these people were slowly poisoning her.
Because she was a scientist, it naturally occurred to her that she might be the subject of an experiment. She might even have willingly agreed to take part in it. An experiment having to do with sensory manipulation or with mind control.
There was sufficient precedent to inspire such a theory. In the 1960s and 1970s, some scientists had voluntarily subjected themselves to sensory deprivation experiments, settling into dark, warm, watery SD tanks for such extended lengths of time that they temporarily lost all touch with reality and began to hallucinate.
Susan was sure she wasn’t hallucinating, but she wondered if the second floor of the hospital had been adapted for an experiment in mind control or brainwashing techniques. Brainwashing sounded like a good bet. Was that the kind of research the Milestone Corporation was engaged in?
She considered the possibility very seriously for a while, but at last she discarded it. She couldn’t believe that she would have permitted herself to be used and abused in this fashion, not even to further the cause of science, not even if it was a requirement of her job. She would have quit any job that demanded her to test her sanity to the breaking point.
Who would engage upon that sort of immoral research, anyway? It sounded like something that the Nazis might have done with their prisoners of war. But no reputable scientist would become involved with it.
Furthermore, she was a physicist, and her field in no way touched upon the behavioral sciences. Brainwashing was so far outside her field that she could imagine no circumstances under which she would have become associated with such an experiment.
No, she hadn’t walked into this with her eyes open; she hadn’t come to this place willingly.
McGee had scheduled Susan for a physical therapy session at ten o’clock Thursday morning.
Murf and Phil came for her at a few minutes before ten. As usual, they kept up a steady line of amusing patter all the way downstairs to the PT Department. Susan wanted to tell them that, in her humble opinion, they were definitely Academy Award material, but she didn’t break her cover. She only smiled and laughed and responded when it seemed appropriate.
During the first part of the therapy session, Susan did all of the exercises that Florence Atkinson suggested, but at the halfway point, she complained of painful muscle cramps in her legs. She winced and groaned convincingly, though she actually had no cramps. She just didn’t want to exhaust herself in a therapy session. She was saving her strength now, for she would have desperate need of it later.
She intended to escape tonight.
Mrs. Atkinson seemed genuinely concerned about the cramps. She cut short the exercise part of the session and gave Susan a longer massage than usual, plus ten extra minutes in the whirlpool. By the time Susan had taken a hot shower and had dried her hair, she felt much better than she had felt at any time since she had come out of her coma.
On the way back to her room, in the care of Phil and Murf once more, Susan grew tense at the elevators, wondering if another “hallucination” was planned for this moment. But the elevator was empty; the ride upstairs was uneventful.
She hadn’t decided exactly how she should handle the next apparition.
She knew how she
wanted
to handle it. She wanted to respond with blind rage, with a furious assault that would drive them back in surprise. She wanted to claw their faces and draw their blood, lots of blood, which would be more proof that they weren’t ghosts or hallucinations, She wanted to hurt them, and then she wanted to defiantly accuse them.
wanted
to handle it. She wanted to respond with blind rage, with a furious assault that would drive them back in surprise. She wanted to claw their faces and draw their blood, lots of blood, which would be more proof that they weren’t ghosts or hallucinations, She wanted to hurt them, and then she wanted to defiantly accuse them.
But she knew she couldn’t do what she wanted. As long as they weren’t aware that she was wise to their games, she had the advantage. But the moment she revealed her knowledge, she would lose what little freedom to maneuver that she now had. The charade would end abruptly. They would stop trying to drive her insane—which seemed to be their single-minded intention—and they would do something even worse than that to her. She was sure of it.
She ate every bite of her lunch.
When Millie came to take the tray away, Susan yawned and said, “Boy, am I ready for a nap.”
“I’ll close the door so the hall noise won’t bother you,” the sharp-faced blonde said.
As soon as the nurse had gone, pulling the door shut behind her, Susan got out of bed and went to the closet, slid the door open. Blankets and pillows for the room’s other bed were stored on the closet shelf. On the floor were Susan’s battered suitcases, which supposedly had been salvaged from her wrecked car.
She dragged the suitcases into the room and opened them on the floor, praying that no one would walk in on her during the next few minutes. She rummaged quickly through the contents of the bags, putting together an outfit that was suitable for a jailbreak. A pair of jeans. A dark blue sweater. Thick, white athletic socks and a pair of Adidas running shoes. She shoved that bundle to the back of the shallow closet, then stood the suitcases in front to conceal it.
She shut the closet door and hurried back to the bed, got in, put up the safety railing, lowered the mattress, put her head down on her pillow, and closed her eyes.
She felt good. She felt as if she were in charge of her life again.
Then she had another unsettling thought; lately, she seemed to have an endless supply of them, and this one was especially unsettling. She wondered if she was being watched by concealed, closed-circuit television cameras. After all, if they went to the trouble of hidden rooms and secret doors, wouldn’t they also put her under twenty-four-hour observation? And wouldn’t they now know that she had found the mezuzah and that she was preparing to escape?
She opened her eyes and looked around the room, seeking places where cameras might be concealed. The heating vents in the walls, up near the ceiling, offered the only logical hiding places. There were two vents in two different walls. If cameras were placed in the heating ducts—a few inches behind the vent grilles in order to avoid detection from the glint of light on their lenses—and if they were properly positioned, fully motor-driven for the widest possible lateral view, aimed downward, and equipped with remote-control zoom lenses, then they would be able to cover most if not all of the hospital room.
For a few minutes Susan was sick with despair. She hugged herself and shuddered.
Gradually, however, her spirits rose somewhat, for she decided that there mustn’t be any cameras. If there were cameras, she would have been observed handling the mezuzah this morning. It wouldn’t have been necessary for Millie to question her about lost jewelry. If they had seen her with the mezuzah, they would have been afraid that she was aware of their charade, and they would have called a halt to it.
Wouldn’t they?
Probably. There didn’t seem to be any point to staging more “hallucinations” if she could no longer be fooled by them.
Yet, although she was pretty sure they wouldn’t go on toying with her this way, she couldn’t be absolutely positive about it, for she didn’t know what motivated them.
She would just have to wait and see.
If she managed to get out of the hospital tonight, she would know that there hadn’t been any TV cameras in her room.
On the other hand, if she started to sneak out of the place and got as far as the stairs and discovered the four dead men waiting for her there, smiling ...
Although she now knew they
weren’t
dead men, she nevertheless shuddered again.
weren’t
dead men, she nevertheless shuddered again.
She would just have to wait.
And see.
15
Later Thursday afternoon, a fast-weaving loom of wind brought new gray cloth for the rents in the clouds, patching over every last glimpse of blue September sky. The hospital room darkened early again.
A crash, a roll, and an echo of thunder preceded a violent fall of rain. For a while, fat droplets of water snapped bullet-hard against the window in great profusion and with the sound of a dozen submachine guns. The wind hummed, then moaned, then howled like a wild thing in pain, then roared. In time, the storm abated somewhat, but only temporarily ; it settled into a rhythmic pattern that alternated between fury and docility, between a torrential downpour and a pleasant drizzle. Cloudbursts were followed by the soothing pitter-patter of light autumn showers.
Although the storm waxed and waned, the day grew steadily darker, not brightening for even a moment, and Susan looked forward to the coming nightfall with barely containable excitement—and with fear, too.
For nearly an hour, she pretended to nap, her back turned to the closed door, while she watched the raging storm. She need not have continued with the ruse, for during that time no one came around to check on her.
Later, she sat up in bed and switched on the television set, in front of which she passed the rest of the afternoon. She didn’t pay much attention to the programs that flickered across the screen. Her mind was elsewhere, preoccupied with plans and schemes and dreams of escape.
At five o’clock sharp, Nurse Scolari, who had come on duty at four, brought another dose of methylphenidate and a fresh carafe of ice water. Susan faked the taking of the capsule, palmed it as she had done with the first dose that morning.
At suppertime, McGee came in with two trays and announced that he was having dinner with her. “No candles. No champagne,” he said. “But there are some delicious-looking stuffed pork chops and apple-nut cake for dessert.”
“Sounds terrific to me,” she said. “I never liked the taste of candles, anyway.”
He also brought several magazines and two more paperback novels. “I thought maybe you might be running out of reading material.”
He stayed for more than two hours, and they talked of many things. Eventually, the strain of playing the innocent, the stress of pretending to love him when she actually despised him—it all became almost too much for Susan to bear. She had found that she was a pretty good actress, but she had also learned that deception exacted a high toll from her. She was relieved and exhausted when McGee finally kissed her good night and left.
She was relieved, yes, but she was also curiously sorry to see him go. Until he was walking out of the door, she wouldn’t have believed that she could be sorry to see him go; but when he crossed that threshold and disappeared into the corridor, Susan felt a sudden and unexpected loss, an emptiness. She knew she might never see him again—except in a court of law, where he would stand trial for his part in her kidnapping and peculiar torture. In spite of the fact that she knew him to be a fraud, she still found him to be good company. He was as charming as he had ever been. He was still a good conversationalist. He still had an excellent sense of humor and an appealing, infectious laugh. Worst of all, he still seemed to glow with love for her. She had tried hard to see through him, to discern the duplicitous bastard beneath the surface saint, and she had tried with all her might to hear the lies in his love talk, but she had failed.
If you know what’s good for you, forget him, she told herself angrily. Just put him out of your mind. All the way out. Think about getting out of here.
That’s
what’s important. Getting out.
That’s
what’s important. Getting out.
She looked at the bedside clock.
8:03.
Outside, lightning briefly drove back the darkness.
Rain fell and fell.
At nine o’clock, Tina Scolari brought the sedative that McGee had prescribed. Putting her cupped hand to her mouth, she pantomimed taking the sedative; she quickly washed down the nonexistent pill with a swallow of the water that the nurse offered her.
“Have a good night,” Tina Scolari said.
“I’m sure I will.”
A few minutes after the nurse had gone, Susan switched off the bedside lamp. The night light cast its phosphoric luminescence across the room, leeching all color from the chamber, so that everything appeared to be either ash-gray or the ghost-white of moonglow. The night light was no threat to the crowd of shadows, but it was good enough for what Susan had to do.
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