The Last Confession of Thomas Hawkins (13 page)

‘Oh,
mon dieu.
Up! Up!’ she said, after I’d bent myself double for a long, back-breaking minute. As if she had not been the one keeping me there. Mrs Howard gave a curtsey and handed a sheaf of papers to her mistress. What a curious, uncomfortable situation for both women. I wondered why the queen allowed it.

‘
Thom
as
Hawkins
,’ the queen said, rolling my name around her mouth as if it were one of her sugared confections. She opened up a letter and read the first few lines – or pretended to. She folded the letter and dropped it on the sofa beside her. Settled back against a cushion. ‘Well, sir – I hear you fought a great battle in the park. Saved poor Howard from an unhappy reunion with her husband. He is a beast, of course – quite the worst man in England. Mrs Howard has not been as fortunate as I in her choice of husband.’ Her eyes gleamed. She had placed emphasis upon the word
choice
. Henrietta had
chosen
to marry Charles Howard.

The queen glanced at her servant, her husband’s mistress, her once-friend. ‘How long have you been married, Howard? I forget.’

I doubted that very much.

‘Two and twenty years, Your Majesty. I was sixteen years old.’ Mrs Howard’s voice was clear and perfectly composed. But there must be pain somewhere, buried deep. Twenty-two years, married to such a man! How had she survived him all this time?

‘Sixteen,’ the queen snuffed, as if that were quite old enough to know better. She skewered me with her gaze. ‘
You
are not married, sir.’

‘No, Your Majesty.’

‘
No, Your Majesty
,’ she mimicked, with surprising skill. ‘
God forbid, Your Majesty. Why should I marry my red-haired
trull
when she opens her legs and her pocket for free
?’ She caught my look of dismay. ‘You are surprised I know of this? I surprise myself, sir. I soil my petticoat walking through your sordid little life, hmm?’ She lifted the hem of her gown as if in disgust, revealing a pair of exquisite red-heeled slippers, her plump feet bulging over the top.

There followed a short pause, while everyone pretended not to be mesmerised by the queen’s feet. And then she dropped her gown, and turned quite serious. ‘Well, Howard. Tell Mr Hawkins of your troubles.’

Mrs Howard folded her hands. ‘I humbly beg Her Majesty to first permit me to acknowledge the many kindnesses she has bestowed upon her most grateful servant? My pleasing suite of rooms, my position at court, the happy and contented life I lead here full of diverse entertainments and friendships – these are blessings indeed and I am most grateful for Her Majesty’s generosity.’

The words were spoken with a grave sincerity – and fell from Mrs Howard’s tongue with such fluency I was sure she must have spoken them a thousand times before. To my eye, Mrs Howard did not seem happy nor content, but sometimes words such as these must be spoken, by rote and ritual, to appease those with power over us.

The queen’s eyes were hooded. ‘You are indeed most fortunate, Howard,’ she acknowledged, ‘in your
diverse
friendships.’ She waved at her most grateful servant to continue.

‘My husband and I are estranged,’ Mrs Howard began.

‘Estranged! Aye, as a wolf is estranged from a rabbit,’ the queen interrupted. ‘You must know of course, sir, that Mr Howard was servant to the late king.’

I nodded. And how extraordinary this was, that such a turbulent, ill-tempered man should fawn about the court when it served him. I knew also – as the whole world knew – that the old king had fallen out violently with his son some years ago and the two courts had been torn in half as a consequence. Some had remained loyal to the king, others had followed the Prince of Wales into exile – a short stroll away in Leicester Fields. Mrs Howard had been an integral part of that secondary court. Had it been loyalty on her part to leave the old court behind? Or had she simply seized the chance to escape her husband?

‘Now he serves no one save himself,’ the queen said. ‘And has no income of his own. He has squandered it all – all of his inheritance, and his wife’s too. Every last penny.’ She dropped a macaroon in her mouth and bit down, closing her eyes in pleasure. Waved again at Mrs Howard to return to her story.

‘Mr Howard has made certain demands of His Majesty. And violent threats against me.’

The queen swallowed the confection, sucking the sugar from her teeth. ‘Demands and threats! Insolent rogue – he is
abominable
. D’you know, Mr Hawkins, when Mrs Howard was a young woman he abandoned her in some hovel in . . . I fear I cannot even pronounce it. Holl-born?’

‘Holborn, Your Majesty,’ Mrs Howard offered.

The queen threw me a mock-baffled look, as if Holborn might be somewhere upon the moon. ‘Abandoned her to starve along with their baby son, while he rollicked about the town with whores and scoundrels. Mrs Howard grew so desperate she even thought to sell her own hair. But you could not get a fair price for it, could you, Howard?’ She leaned forward, conspiratorial. ‘Mrs Howard is quite famed for her fine chestnut hair.’

I could not think what to say to this and so said nothing, glancing instead towards Mrs Howard in the hope I might offer some silent expression of sympathy. But her head was tilted in mild contemplation, her eyes cast softly to her feet – as if she were listening to a piece of light chamber music and not the horror that was her marriage.

And still I wondered: what did the queen want of me? I was beginning to suspect it involved Charles Howard – his
certain demands
and
violent threats
. In fact, I seemed to have blundered into a rather devious trap. Easy to miss in such a room, with its velvet curtains, its fine old portraits of grave old men covering the walls. The blazing fire and towering heaps of confectionery.

‘The truth is,’ the queen said, ‘I am concerned for my poor Howard. Her husband has always loathed her with a demonic passion but he has kept his temper and his distance for years – I never could fathom why. Now it transpires he was harbouring certain expectations, following His Majesty’s coronation. A position. An income. He has been
disappointed
in those expectations.’

‘He blames Mrs Howard for this,’ I guessed.

The queen bridled. ‘No, sir – fie! I should think not! Mr Howard knows full well –
as the world knows full well
– that his wife has no influence upon His Majesty. Not this much!’ She pinched her finger and thumb together, allowing no space between them.

I gave a hurried bow of understanding.

‘Mr Howard is determined to create scandal and disruption. He demands that his wife is returned to his . . . shall we say into his custody?’ She nodded grimly to herself. Custody. That seemed a fitting word for it.

‘But, forgive me – he cannot crave such a reunion.’

The queen slid her gaze towards Mrs Howard, and I thought I caught a flicker of fellow feeling. ‘No indeed. Mr Howard is more cunning than he seems. He was a soldier for many years, and a good soldier relies upon strategy more than brute strength. Mr Howard does not want his wife, but in law he may insist that she is returned to him. He has persuaded the Archbishop of Canterbury to write in support of his suit.’ She gave a sour look that made me very glad, in that moment, that I was not the Archbishop of Canterbury. ‘It is all a game, naturally: to cause his wife distress and to force the king’s hand.’

She paused, quite furious. Half the world knew that Henrietta Howard was the king’s mistress – but it was an unspoken fact that could be ignored by the court and parliament. Charles Howard’s threats to expose the affair in such a public and sordid manner, and to involve the Church, could not be dismissed lightly. At the very least the king would appear ridiculous, at worst, weak and vulnerable. Not a favourable situation, barely six months into his reign.

The queen, meanwhile, seemed to have recovered herself. ‘Now. I shall tell you a fine tale, sir. It will shock you. A few weeks ago I was working alone, there at my desk, when the door was flung open
boof!
and Mr Howard burst in, snarling and snapping like a rabid dog. Raving drunk of course – the man is seldom sober. He
must
have his wife back. He
insists
upon it. If I do not give her up at once he will
drag
her from my carriage by her hair the next time we venture out. “Well, sir,” I said. “Do it if you dare.”’ She squared her shoulders at the memory. ‘He stormed up and down,
comme ça
,’ she pointed with her finger, whisking it back and forth, ‘raving and cursing and threatening to throw
me
out of the window if I did not oblige him.
Well.
I informed him that he should do no such thing. But he is in truth so brutal, as well as a little mad, and always so
very drunk
. And the sash was open. I did half expect to find myself sailing out of the window at any moment.’ She crinkled her lips, amused by the thought.

‘Your Majesty! Was he not arrested?’

She shrugged. This was a private matter. ‘I said, “Why, Mr Howard, we are both rational beings.” I flattered him there, did I not? “Mrs Howard is a loyal and obedient servant and I could not bear to part with her. Let us settle this as reasonable people, sir. Tell me what you desire and be plain about it.” Well, once he had recovered from being called rational and reasonable he presented his demands.’ She took another candied fruit. ‘Three thousand pounds per annum to compensate for his prodigious loss. Else he will seize his wife at the first opportunity and in a most violent and outrageous fashion.’ There was a pause while she ate. ‘The King is not inclined to pay.’

So much for gallantry
. Mrs Howard had been the king’s mistress for ten years. Three thousand pounds was a great fortune – but the king could afford to pay it if he wished. Instead he was prepared to let her live in constant terror, trapped in the palace. I’d heard the king was a miserly man – but this was cruel.

‘Poor
Swiss
has not left her rooms for weeks,’ the queen added, unmoved. ‘And His Majesty is quite furious. He describes his fury to me at great length, every evening. It is an intolerable situation.’ She closed her eyes. When she opened them again, she stared directly into mine with a fierce, unblinking gaze. ‘You will resolve it for us, Mr Hawkins.’

‘Your Majesty . . .?’ Sweat trickled down my back as the room closed in on me.

‘Come now, sir – I did not summon you here to admire your calves, handsome as they are.’ She gave Henrietta a sidelong glance. ‘My dear Howard, you have entertained us with your celebrated wit long enough. Pray leave us.’ She flicked her hand to the door.

Mrs Howard gave a low curtsey, then two more, and backed from the room without a murmur of protest. I had to struggle not to run after her – flee the room, the palace, the city, without turning my head once. I knew what this audience had become – an interview for a position I did not want and could not refuse.

‘You are a trifle pale, Mr Hawkins,’ the queen said. ‘Is it your mother’s Scots complexion, or are you palpitating in my glorious presence?’

‘Both, Your Majesty.’

She smirked. ‘A glass of claret for the boy, Mr Budge.’

Budge brought me the claret in a crystal glass that sparkled in the candlelight. I drank it gratefully.

‘You were a friend of Samuel Fleet,’ the queen said.

‘He was my cell mate.’

‘He was
my
servant. Odious, treacherous little man. I was quite fond of him. He resolved a few trifling situations
on my behalf.’

My heart thudded hard against my chest. Fleet had confessed to me – shortly before he died – that he had been a spy and an assassin for many years. He’d also told me that he had collected too many secrets along the way – that he had thus become too useful to kill and too dangerous to keep alive. So he had been thrown in gaol to rot. I’d guessed his master was powerful, that much had been plain. I’d never suspected his master was the queen.