The Light Years (The Cazalet Chronicle)

For Jenner Roth

CONTENTS

PART ONE

LANSDOWNE ROAD 1937

The day began at five to seven when the alarm clock (given to Phyllis by her mother when she started service) went off and on and on and on until she quenched it. Edna, in the other creaking iron bed, groaned and heaved over, hunching herself against the wall; even in summer she hated getting up, and in the winter Phyllis sometimes had to haul the bedclothes off her. She sat up, unclipped her hairnet and began undoing her curlers: it was her half-day, and she’d washed her hair. She got out of bed, picked the eiderdown off the floor where it had fallen in the night and drew the curtains. Sunlight refurbished the room – making toffee of the linoleum, turning the chips on the white enamel washhand jug slate blue. She unbuttoned her winceyette nightdress and washed as her mother had taught her to do: face, hands and – circumspectly – under her arms with a flannel dipped in the cold water. ‘Get a move on,’ she said to Edna. She poured her slops into the pail and began to dress. In her underclothes, she removed her nightdress and slipped on her dark green cotton morning dress. She put her cap over her unbrushed-out sausage curls, and tied the apron round her waist. Edna, who washed much less in the mornings, managed to dress while still half in bed – a relic of the winter (there was no heat in the room and they never in their lives opened the window). By ten past seven they were both ready to descend quietly through the sleeping household. Phyllis stopped on the first floor and opened a bedroom door. She drew the curtains and heard the budgerigar shifting impatiently in his cage.

‘Miss Louise! It’s a quarter past seven.’

‘Oh, Phyllis!’

‘You asked me to call you.’

‘Is it a nice day?’

‘It’s ever so sunny.’

‘Take Ferdie’s cloth off.’

‘If I don’t, you’ll get up all the quicker.’

In the kitchen (the basement), Edna had already put on the kettle and was setting their cups on the scrubbed table. Two pots of tea were to be made: the dark brown one with stripes for the maids, and a cup taken up by Edna for Emily, the cook, and the white Minton now set out on a tray with its matching cups and saucers, milk jug and sugar bowl for upstairs. The early-morning tea for Mr and Mrs Cazalet was Phyllis’s job. She would then collect all the coffee cups and glasses from the drawing room, which Edna would have started to air and clean. First, however, there was their own scalding cup of strong Indian. It was China for upstairs which Emily said she couldn’t even abide the smell of, let alone drink. They drank it standing, before the sugar was even stirred to melting point.

‘How’s your spot?’

Phyllis felt the side of her nose cautiously.

‘Seems to be going down a bit. Good thing I didn’t squeeze it.’

‘I told you.’ Edna, who did not have them, was the authority on spots; her advice, copious, free and contrary, was, all the same comforting; it showed an interest, Phyllis felt.

‘Well, this won’t make us millionaires.’

Nothing would, Edna thought gloomily, and even though she had troubles with her complexion, Phyllis had all the luck. Edna thought Mr Cazalet was lovely really, and
she
never saw him in his pyjamas like Phyllis did every morning.

The moment Phyllis had shut the door, Louise jumped out of bed and took the bird’s cloth off his cage. He hopped about in mock alarm, but she knew that he was pleased. Her room, which faced the back garden, got a little of the morning sun, which she felt was good for him, and his cage was on the table in front of the window beside the goldfish tank. The room was small and crammed with her possessions: her theatre programmes, the rosettes and two very small cups she had won at gymkhanas, her photograph albums, her little boxwood chest with shallow drawers in which she kept her shell collection, her china animals on the mantelpiece, her knitting, on the chest of drawers together with her precious tangee lipstick that looked bright orange but came out pink on the mouth, Pond’s cold cream and a tin of Californian Poppy talc powder, her best tennis racquet and above all, her books that ranged from
Winnie the Pooh
to her newest and most prized acquisitions, two Phaidon Press volumes of reproductions of Holbein and Van Gogh, currently her two favourite painters. There was a chest of drawers filled with clothes that she mostly never wore, and a desk – given her by her father for her last birthday – made of English oak from a log that had proved to have a uniquely unusual grain, and contained her most secret treasures: a photograph of John Gielgud that had been
signed,
her jewellery, a very thin packet of letters from her brother Teddy written from school (of a sporting and facetious nature, but the only letters she possessed from a boy), and her collection of sealing wax – probably, she thought, the largest in the country. The room also contained a large old chest filled with dressing-up clothes – her mother’s cast-off evening dresses, beaded tubes, chiffon and satin, stamped velvet jackets, gauzy, faintly Oriental scarves and shawls from some earlier time, dirty, teasing feather boas, a hand-embroidered Chinese robe, brought back by some relative from his travels, and sateen trousers and tunics – stuff made for family plays. When you opened it the chest smelled of very old scent and mothballs and excitement – this last a faintly metallic smell which came, Louise thought, from the quantity of tarnished gold and silver threadwork on some of the garments. Dressing up and acting was a winter thing; now it was July and very nearly the endless, wonderful summer holidays. She dressed in a linen tunic and an Aertex shirt – scarlet, her favourite – and went out to take Derry for his walk.

Derry was not her dog. She was not allowed to have one, and, partly as a way of keeping up her resentment about this, she took a neighbouring and very ancient bull terrier for a walk round the block each morning. The other part of taking him was that the house he lived in fascinated her. It was very large – you could see it from her back garden – but it was utterly unlike her house or, indeed, the house of any of her friends. There were no children in it. The manservant who let her in to collect Derry always went away to fetch him which gave her time to wander through the black and white marble hall to the open double doors of a gallery that looked down onto the drawing room. Every morning this room was in a state of luxurious after-a-party disorder: it smelled of Egyptian cigarettes – like the ones Aunt Rachel smoked – and it was always filled with flowers, smelly ones – hyacinths in spring, lilies now, carnations and roses in winter; it was littered with coloured silk cushions and there were dozens of glasses, open boxes of chocolates and sometimes card tables with packs of cards and scoring pads with tasselled pencils. It was always twilit, with creamy silk curtains half drawn. She felt that the owners – whom she never saw – were fantastically rich, probably foreign and possibly pretty decadent.

Derry, reputed to be thirteen which made him ninety-one according to the Dog Table of Ages that she had made, was quite boring to take for a walk as he was only up to a ramble with frequent and interminable stops at a succession of lamp posts, but she liked having a dog on a lead, could smile at people in a proprietary way that would make them think he was hers, and she lived in hope of finding that one of the occupants of the house or their decadent friends might actually have
passed out
in the drawing room so that she could examine them. It had to be a short walk because she was supposed to practise for an hour until breakfast at a quarter to nine, and before that she had to have a cold bath because Dad said it was so good for you. She was fourteen, and sometimes she felt quite young and ready for anything, but sometimes she felt languid with age – exhausted when it came to doing anything that was expected of her.

After she had returned Derry, she met the milkman, whose pony Peggy she knew well because she’d grown grass for her on a bit of flannel as Peggy never got to the country and anybody who’d read
Black Beauty
knew how awful it was for horses never being in fields.

‘Glorious day,’ Mr Pierce remarked, as she stroked Peggy’s nose.

‘Yes, isn’t it.’

‘Full many a glorious morning have I seen,’ she muttered when she was past him. When she married, her husband would find her quite remarkable because she could think of a Shakespeare quotation for anything – anything at all that happened. On the other hand, she might not marry anybody because Polly said that sex was very boring and you couldn’t really go in for marriage without it. Unless Polly was wrong, of course; she often was, and Louise had noticed that she said things were boring when she was against them. ‘You don’t know the first thing about it, George,’ she added. Her father called everyone he didn’t know George – all men, that is, and it was one of his favourite phrases. She rang the front-door bell three times so that Phyllis would know it was her. ‘Let me not to the marriage of true minds admit impediment.’ It sounded a bit grudging, but noble as well. If only she was Egyptian she could marry Teddy like the Pharaohs did and, after all, Cleopatra was the result of six generations of incest, whatever incest might be. The worst drawback about not going to a school was that you knew quite different things and she’d made the stupid mistake in the Christmas holidays of pretending to her cousin Nora, who did go to school, that sex was old hat which meant that she hadn’t found anything out at all. Just as she was about to ring again, Phyllis opened the door.