The Memory of Earth (24 page)

Luet’s first impulse was to shout her denial, to rebuke her for daring to speak so sacrilegiously of the Oversoul—as if it would act for its own private benefit.

But then, on sober reflection, she remembered with what wonderment Hushidh had told her of her realization that Issib and Nafai might well be the reason for the Oversoul’s silence. And if the Oversoul thought that her ability to guide and protect her daughters was being hampered by these two boys, couldn’t she act to remove them?

“No,” said Luet. “I don’t think so.’

“Are you sure?”

“I’m never sure, except of the vision itself,” said Luet. “But I’ve never known the Oversoul to deceive me. All my visions have been true.”

“But this one would still be a true instrument of the Oversoul’s will.”

“No,” said Luet again. “No, it couldn’t be. Because Nafai and Issib had already stopped. Nafai even went and prayed—”

“So I heard, but then, so did Mebbekew, Wetchik’s son by that miserable little whoreling Kilvishevex—”

“And the Oversoul spoke to Nafai and woke him up, and brought him outside to meet me in the traveler’s room. If the Oversoul wanted Nafai to be still, she would have told him, and he would have obeyed. No, Aunt Rasa, I’m sure the message was real.”

Aunt Rasa nodded. “I know. I knew it was. It would just be . . .”

“Simpler.”

“Yes.” She smiled ruefully. “Simpler if Gaballufix were
as innocent as he pretends. But not true to character. You know why I lapsed him?”

“No,” said Luet. Nor did she want to know—by long custom a woman never told her reasons for lapsing a man, and it was a hideous breach of etiquette to ask or even speculate on the subject.

“I shouldn’t tell, but I will—because you’re one who must know the truth in order to understand all things.”

I’m also a child, thought Luet. You’d never tell any of your
other
thirteen-year-olds about such things. You’d never even tell your daughter. But I,
I
am a seer, and so everything is opened up before me and I am forbidden to remain innocent of anything except joy.

“I lapsed him because I learned that he . . .”

Luet braced herself for some sordid revelation, but it did not come.

“No, child, no. Just because the Oversoul speaks to you doesn’t mean that I should burden you with my secrets. Go, sleep. Forget my questions, if you can. I know my Wetchik. And I know Gaballufix, too. Both of them, down to the deepest shadow of their souls. It was for my daughters’ sake that I wished to find some impossible thing, like Gabya’s innocence.” She chuckled. “I’m like a child, forever wishing for impossible things. Like your vision in the woods, before I drew you up to the portico. You saw all my most brilliant nieces, like a roll call of judgment.”

Brilliant? Shedemei and Hushidh, yes, but Dol and Eiadh, those women of paint and tinsel?

“I was so happy to know that the Oversoul knew them, and linked them with me and you in the vision she sent. But where were my daughters, Lutya? I wish that you had seen my Sevya and my Koya. I do wish that—is that silly of me?”

Yes. “No.”

“You should practice lying more,” said Aunt Rasa, “so you’d be better at it. Go to bed, my sweet seer.”

Luet obeyed, but slept little.

In the days that followed, the turmoil in the city increased, to the point where it was almost impossible for classes to continue in Aunt Rasa’s house. It wasn’t just the constant worry, either. It was the disappearance of so many faces, especially from the younger classes. Only a few children were withdrawn because their parents disapproved of Rasa’s political stance. Children were being taken out of every teaching household, great or common, and restored to their families; many families had even closed up their houses and gone on unnamed holidays to unknown places, presumably waiting for whatever terrible day was coming to be over.

How Luet envied Nafai and Issib, safe as they were in some distant land, not having to live in constant fear in this city that had so long been known by the poets as the Mountain of Peace.

As the petition for the banning of Gaballufix gained support in the council, Gaballufix himself became bolder in the way he used his soldiers in the streets. There were more of them, for one thing, and there was no more pretense of protecting the citizenry from tolchocks. The soldiers accosted whomever they wanted, sending women and children home in tears, and beating men who spoke up to them.

“Is he a fool?” Hushidh asked Luet one day. “Doesn’t he know that everything his soldiers do gives his enemies one more reason to ban him?”

“He must know,” said Luet, “and so he must want to be banned.”

“Then hasten the day,” said Hushidh, “and good riddance to him.”

Luet waited for a vision from the Oversoul, some message of warning she should take to the council. Instead the only vision that came was a word of comfort to an old woman in the district of Olive Grove, assuring her that her long-lost son was still alive, and homebound on a ship that would reach port before too long. Luet didn’t know whether to be comforted that the Oversoul still took the time to answer the heartfelt prayers of broken-hearted women, or infuriated that the Oversoul was spending time on such matters instead of healing the city before it tore itself apart.

Then at last the most feared moment came. The doorbell clanged, and strong fists beat on the door, and when the door was thrown open, there stood a dozen soldiers. The servant who opened the door screamed, and not just because they were armed men in perilous times. Luet was among the first to come to the aid of the terrified servant, and saw what had so unnerved her. All the soldiers were in identical uniforms, with identical armor and helmets and charged-wire blades, as might be expected—but inside those helmets, each one also had an identical face.

It was Rasa’s oldest niece, Shedemei, the geneticist, who spoke to the soldiers. “You have no legitimate business here,” she said. “No one wants you. Go away.”

“I’ll see the mistress of this household or I’ll never go,” said the soldier who stood in front of the others.

“She has no business with you, I said.”

But then Aunt Rasa was there, and her voice rang clear. “Close the door in the face of these hired criminals,” she said.

At once the lead soldier laughed, and reached his hand to his waist. In an instant he was transformed before their eyes, from a youngish, dead-faced soldier to a middle-aged man with a grizzled beard and fiercely bright eyes,
stout but not soft-bellied, clothed not in armor but in quietly elegant clothing. A man of style and power, who thought the whole situation was enormously amusing.

“Gabya,” said Aunt Rasa.

“How do you like my new toys?” asked Gaballufix, striding into the house. Women and girls and young boys parted to make way for him. “Old theatrical equipment, out of style for centuries, but they were in a stasis bubble in the museum and the maker machines still remembered how to copy them. Holocostumes, they’re called. All my soldiers have them now. It makes them somewhat hard to tell apart, I admit, but then, I have the master switch that can turn them all off when I want.”

“Leave my house,” said Rasa.

“But I don’t want to,” said Gaballufix. “I want to talk to you.”

“Without
them
, you can speak to me any time. You know that, Gabya.”

“I knew that
once
,” said Gaballufix. “Truth to tell, O noblest of my mates, my unforgotten bed-bundle, I knew that my soldiers would never impress you—I just wanted to show you the latest fashion. Soon all the best people will be wearing them.”

“Only in their coffins,” said Aunt Rasa.

“Do you want to hold this conversation in front of the children, or shall we retire to your sacred portico?”

“Your soldiers wait outside the door. The
locked
door.”

“Whatever you say, O mother of my duet of sweet songbirds. Though your door, with all its locks, would be no barrier if I wanted them inside.”

“People who are sure of their power don’t have to brag,” said Aunt Rasa. She led the way down the corridor as Shedemei closed and barred the front door in the soldiers’ faces.

Luet could still hear the conversation between Aunt
Rasa and Gaballufix even after they turned a corner and were out of sight.

“I don’t
have
to brag,” Gaballufix was saying. “I do it for the sheer joy of it.”

Instead of answering, though, Aunt Rasa called loudly down the corridor.

“Luet! Hushidh! Come with me. I want witnesses.”

At once Luet strode forward, with Hushidh beside her at once. Because Aunt Rasa had brought them up, they didn’t run, but their walk was brisk enough that they had turned the corner and could hear Gaballufix’s last few whispered words before they caught up. “. . . not afraid of your witchlets,” he was saying.

Luet gave no sign that she had heard, of course. She knew that Hushidh’s face would be even less expressive.

Out on the portico, Gaballufix made no pretense of respecting the boundary of Aunt Rasa’s screens. He strode directly to the balustrade, looking out at the view that was forbidden to the eyes of men. Aunt Rasa did not follow him, so Luet and Hushidh also remained behind the screens. At last Gaballufix returned to where they waited.

“Always a beautiful sight,” he said.

“For that act alone you could be banned,” said Aunt Rasa.

Gaballufix laughed. “Your sacred lake. How long do you think it will go unmuddied by the boots of men, if the Wetheads come? Have you thought of that—have Roptat and your beloved Volemak thought of it? The Wetheads have no reverence for women’s religion.”

“Even less than you?”

Gaballufix rolled his eyes to show his disdain for her accusation. “If Roptat and Volemak have their way, the Wetheads would own this city, and to them, the view from this portico would not be a view of holy land—it
would all be city property, undeveloped land, potential building sites and hunting parks, and an extraordinary lake, with both hot and cold water for bathing in any weather.”

Luet was astonished that so much of the nature of the lake had been explained to him. What woman had so forgotten herself as to speak of the sacred place?

Yet Aunt Rasa said nothing of the impropriety of his words. “Bringing the Wetheads is Roptat’s plan. Wetchik and I have spoken for nothing but the ancient neutrality.”

“Neutrality! Fools and children believe in that. There
is
no neutrality when great powers collide!”

“In the power of the Oversoul there is neutrality and peace,” said Aunt Rasa, calm in the face of his storm. “She has the power to turn aside our enemies so they see us not at all.”

“Power? Maybe he has power, all right, this Oversoul—but I’ve seen no evidence that he saves poor innocent cities from destruction. How did it happen that I alone am the champion of Basilica, the only one who can see that safety lies only in alliance with Potokgavan?”

“Save the patriotic speeches for the council, Gabya. In front of me, there’s no point in hiding behind them. The wagons offered some easy profit. And as for war—you know so little about it that you think you want it to come. You think that you’ll stand beside the mighty soldiers of Potokgavan and drive off the Wetheads, and your name will be remembered forever. But
I
tell you that when you stand against your enemy, you’ll stand alone. No Potoku will be there beside you. And when you fall your name will be forgotten as quickly as last week’s weather.”

“
This
storm, my dear lapsatory mate, has a name, and will be remembered.”

“Only for the damage that you caused, Gabya. When
Basilica burns, every tongue of flame will be branded Gaballufix, and the dying curse of every citizen who falls will have your name in it.”

“Now who fancies herself a prophet?” said Gaballufix. “Save your poetics for those who tremble at the thought of the Oversoul. And as for your banning—succeed or fail, it makes no difference.”

“You mean that you don’t intend to obey?”

“
Me
? Disobey the
council
? Unthinkable. No one will find me in the city after I am banned, you can be sure of that.”

But with those words he reached down and switched on his holocostume. At once he was armored in illusion, his face an undetectable mask of a vaguely menacing soldier, like any of the hundreds of others he had so equipped. Luet knew then that he had no intention of obeying a banning. He would simply wear this most perfect of disguises, so that no one could identify him. He would stay within the city, doing whatever he wanted, flouting the council’s edicts with impunity. Then the only hope of freeing the city from his rule would not be political. It would be civil war, and the streets would flow with blood.

Luet knew from her eyes that Aunt Rasa understood this. She looked steadily at the empty eyes that stared back at her from Gaballufix’s holocostume. She said nothing when he turned and left; said nothing at all, in fact, until at last Luet took Hushidh’s hand and they walked away to the edge of the portico, to look out over the Valley of Women.

“There’s nothing between them anymore,” said Hushidh. “I could see it fall, the last tie of love or even of concern. If he died tonight, she would be content.”

To Luet this seemed the most terrible of tragedies. Once these two had been joined together in love, or
something like love; they had made two babies, and yet, only fifteen years later, the last tie between them was broken now. All lost, all gone. Nothing lasted, nothing. Even this forty-million-year world that the Oversoul had preserved as if in ice, even it would melt before the fire. Permanence was always an illusion, and love was just the disguise that lovers wore to hide the death of their union from each other for a while.