“Yes,” I said, remembering Darryl's usual curse, “Holy horseshit.”
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Whatcha
want from me?” Roger asked, with renewed agitation.
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“I ain't seen nobody.
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How long
ya
been gone, did
ya
say?”
“A few days.
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Why?”
“Well, I did hear somebody over there.”
“You heard who?
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When was that?”
“Friday, I think.
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Morning, early.”
“What did you hear?”
“Somebody,” Roger confessed.
“Any talking, conversation?”
“Nope.
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Thought it was you.”
“Roger, listen,” I said.
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“I need you toâ”
“And then there was somebody out front in a car later on, kinda like he was
waitin
' or watchin' for something.”
“A Cadillac?”
“No, it was a . . . a Toyota.
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Land Cruiser, I think.”
“CIA,” I said.
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“Maybe NSA.”
“How's that?”
“Nothing.
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Roger, listen.
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I need you to break into my apartment.”
“What?”
“I need you to secure my notes, my computer, anything you can find related to my work.
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Bring it all out, store it in your closet.
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Do it now.
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If anyone asks you anything about me, you haven't seen me since Thursday.
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All right?”
“You gotta be
jokin
,' right?”
“This is no joke, Roger.
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I'll pay you for your trouble when I see you.”
“Pay me how much?” Roger asked.
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“A million?”
“I'll give you a thousand,” I told him.
Roger laughed.
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“I'd need more than that for bail, if they catch me.”
“A thousand can get you ten in bail, but it won't come to that.
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You're doing this at my request.
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Just slip over and snatch my stuff.
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The thousand is for storage, and for keeping your mouth shut.”
“Just slip over, eh?” Roger repeated, his tone haughty.
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“Sounds dangerous
ta
me.”
“Okay, two thousand.”
“This is
gettin
' more
interestin
' all the time.
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Let's make it three.”
“Don't push me, Roger.
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The clock is ticking.”
“I see the clock.
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I can't believe it.
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This formula, it's worth millions,
ya
say?”
“Someone thinks it is.
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Okay, Roger.
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Three thousand.
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But that's only if you get all my paperwork, my computer, and all the disks and backup.
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You don't turn on the radio or TV all morning.
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Instead you listen for anyone outside.
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If anyone comes to your door and knocks, you don't answer.
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You're not home.
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Got it?”
“When can I expect my money?” Roger wanted to know.
“Soon as I arrive there and see you've followed instructions,” I said, and clicked off.
Soon after I ended the call a man came back to sit beside me, leaving one empty seat between us.
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He was a
thinset
balding man in his mid fifties, round glasses perched on his hawkish nose.
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He carried a laptop computer case, and as he sat said, “Sorry, but it's cramped up there, next to this kid keeps staring at my screen.
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Hard to get any work done.
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Do you mind?”
I did, but then I didn't.
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As he opened the computer, I stared at his screen too.
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“Any chance,” I said, “you could send an e-mail from up here?”
He looked down at his laptop, then over at me, and away.
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He said nothing, although his pursed lips clued me to his state of mind.
“Is it possible?” I asked him again.
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“It's more important than you know.”
He took a deep breath, then pinched the bridge of his nose.
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“Look,” he said, trying hard not to lose civility, “I've got a lot of work to do.
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I have a seminar to give in . . .”
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He checked his watch.
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“Nine hours.
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I'd like to take a little snooze before then too, if I could.
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If it's not too much to ask.”
“Sorry,” I told him, and held out my hand.
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“Name's Alan.
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Alan Dyson.”
He shook my hand once, reluctantly.
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“Kyle Metcalf.
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Sorry.”
“Theoretically speaking, Kyle, are you even able to send e-mails from up here?”
He eyed the air phone I'd just replaced, surreptitiously.
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I saw where he looked.
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A small
plugin
below the plastic
popout
button read I.A..
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Knowing that I'd identified it, he made his confession in defeat.
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“The airline has a direct Internet access eight hundred dial-up number.
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It connects to other servers and ISPs,” he admitted.
“Like AOL?”
He nodded, again reluctantly.
“Interesting,” I said, nodding back.
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“And what is it you lecture about, Kyle?
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What kind of seminar do you give?”
His voice was flat.
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“Oceanography, okay?
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I'm with UCLA.”
“Really?
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Is it Dr. Metcalf, then?”
I thought he might yawn, but he nodded instead.
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“I'm going to New York for a conference on how global warming and oceanic pollution is affecting base food chain organisms like plankton.”
“That's . . . very ironic,” I told him.
“Oh?
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And why is that?”
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A petulant look from him, now.
“Well, because I'm a research biochemist who's been working on a gene that we thought might prevent telomeres from shortening, to prolong life.
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It came from the bristlecone pine tree, and was tested on . . . well, another tree.
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And on humans too.”
One obvious trait of intelligent people is that they can see the connection between unrelated concepts or situations.
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It took only a moment for Kyle to see the connection.
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I could see it in his widening eyes.
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And yet in the end he blinked at me, furrowing his brow as those blue eyes narrowed.
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“On humans?” he asked, doubting my veracity.
“Unfortunately,” I told him.
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“My research assistant injected himself with the gene, which was linked to a modified delivery retrovirus, and his death became the first of many.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean there was a side effect I hadn't foreseen.
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One involving hallucinatory psychosis.”
The good Dr. Metcalf stared at me for a moment, and then shook his head, although not in total disbelief.
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Instead he leaned back like a man who'd just been told another one of his favorite sports stars had been caught with twenty bricks of uncut cocaine.
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Next he closed his eyes and chuckled to himself.
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Finally, he took a deep slow cleansing breath, like they say to do on those bogus meditation audio tapes.
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“That's . . . that's what I expected,” he admitted, looking weary.
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“Something like that.”
“You did?”
“Oh yeah.
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Every failure of science persuades more people against coming to any real agreements.
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Oceans dying, the poles melting, and we argue over which politician sounds better on TV.
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Meanwhile, the general public?
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Only thing they want to do is stay home and watch race cars going in circles.”
“Ovals,” I said.
“What?”
“Never mind.”
Kyle huffed.
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“Not that we need longevity.
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Thirty years it'll all be over.
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Fossil fuels exhausted, no more rainforests except what's protected within parks, and the remaining coral reefs decimated.
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Then we induce even more extinctions with drift netting, with major famines everywhere.
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Hell, most of the third world may go the way of Easter Island.
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Did you know they had the biggest palm forests in the Pacific at one point?
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Then they cut everything down, tree by tree, until they didn't even have poles to erect their statues anymore.”
“What happened to them?”
“Reverted to cannibalism.
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Ate themselves into oblivion.”
“I think in our case, considering all the Boomers retiring, we might be gumming ourselves into extinction in thirty years,” I said.
I tried to think of a way to tell him what I needed to tell someone, especially now that time was running out.
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But then he made it easier with his next question.
“What happened to your hand?”
I held the thing up, turning the white lump in front of my face as if about to interpret a modernist sculpture.
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Although the meaning behind it eluded me.
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“You'd be shocked how close people are to just letting go,” I heard myself say, “and giving way to whatever baser instincts lie beneath.
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Sometimes, Kyle, I think this veneer we call civilization is as thin as cheap primer paint.”
He looked at me with heightened curiosity.
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“What happened to you?”
It was the question I'd been looking for.
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So I told him everything, or almost everything.
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In the end, dazed and defeated somehow, he let me use his computer.
The dial-up via airline
airphone
link yielded a menu of ISPs, and AOL was first.
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My credit card still being validâat least for the time beingâI was granted access to the service, then used my screen name and
passcode
to get online.
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The e-mail I wrote to the address printed on the card I'd taken from Darryl was in bold 18 point type:
TO:
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Clifford Seagraves: [email protected]
SUBJECT:
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Darryl Alexander/URGENT
Mr. Seagravesâ
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My name is Alan Dyson.
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I'm a friend and colleague of Darryl, who has just been killed.
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Urgent that I speak to you.
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Please reply to this e-mail with a phone number where I may reach you right away.
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Repeat: Darryl has been murdered, and the party responsible is getting away.
I hit the SEND button, then turned back to Kyle.
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“Thanks,” I said.
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“I'll need to check for a response before we land in New York.”
The good doctor nodded, looking down at the half empty vial of
Dilaudid
he held, and which he'd insisted I show him when I mentioned it near the end of my strange tale.
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Then he looked over at my pant leg again, which bulged with its hidden bandage.
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He returned both my wallet and the drug as I disconnected the laptop and swapped belongings with him.
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He said nothing for a moment, his eyes still pained with something on the philosophical side of pessimism.
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“Are you a changed man?” he asked me at last.
I wondered about his own personal history, but the question did not come as a surprise.
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“I suppose I am,” I acknowledged.
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“Who wouldn't be?”
He looked past me at the dark window, where the jet's narrowly illuminated and riveted wing stretched out into a void.
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“Of course people never change,” he mused, “unless . . .”
“Unless what?”
“Unless something changes them.
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Something big.”
“This is big, all right,” I confessed.
He only wanted to work on his seminar notes, but I'd ruined that for him.
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Maybe I'd changed the thrust of the speech he planned, too.
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As it was, he couldn't take a nap, or even close his red eyes.
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But I could.
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I wanted to sleep for days, and could have done so easily if not for the ironic cry of a baby several rows behind us, along with Kyle's touch on my shoulder.
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Before being awakened, though, a strange dream had come over me, like the bank of clouds into which we'd flown.
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As soon as I'd closed my eyes I was gone, escaped from the world like a tethered astronaut adrift high above my physical self.
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For that moment it seemed so natural to be suspended there, too, with no
benzodiazepenes
like Valium to occlude my perception.
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I was aware of Julie's presence with me, in that alternate unreality possessing its own inexplicable meaning.
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At first we drifted together, looking down at the earth below us, and I wanted to drift forever in this aura.
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But that was not to be, because we descended to a beach together, and I saw my father waiting for me there.