Authors: Susan Crawford
No. That's crazy. From the few things Joe said about his wife, she didn't sound at all the type to suddenly go mad overâanything, really.
Passion was never Karen's strong suit,
Joe said once. He'd gone on to say that this was probably a good thing, that Karen was definitely the grounded one in the family.
She keeps us all on track.
Of course, there could be more than one thing going on here. Karen could have her husband's phone and someone else could be careening around on the streets.
She'll go to the Starbucks where she last saw Joe. She'll go and watch without being seen. Even if the trap is being set for her. She'll skip right over it, leave its sharp metallic jaws to clamp down on the one who placed it there.
But first . . . For a few seconds, Dorrie stares at the renovations still waiting for design. She's made a huge dent. Still, with Jeananne gone, the work is overwhelming. She gauges the few remaining jobs and looks for design ideas in the files. One of the kitchen renovations has her stumped. An odd shape. Cramped. The owners want to add a pantry, remove two walls, but even with the walls out, the space is still extremely small. She scrolls through kitchen renovations from the year before. A job from last October gives her some ideas and she scrolls through the attached documents. As she's closing out, the inspector's name catches her eye.
Everett L. Lansing.
Lansing. The name of the caller Edward was arguing with on the phone the other day. She scrolls up. Everett Lansing has signed off on several jobs. On a hunch, Dorrie organizes the jobs by location and finds that Everett Lansing has signed off on nearly all the downtown Boston renovations. Or was Edward talking with another Lansing? Hardly an unusual name.
Huh.
And even if the Lansing here and the Lansing on the phone with Edward are the same, so what, really? People can have arguments, misunderstandings. It's hardly remarkable. Still. Why wouldn't Edward want him calling the office? Dorrie gets up and closes her door. She retrieves Joe's e-mail from her Upcoming Auditions file and jots down Paulo's number, keeping one eye on her office door. She'll call him later. From the house or from her carâfrom anywhere but here.
Samuel is home early, his car already in the driveway next to Mia's when Dorrie gets home. Mia's parents are out of town, so she's spending the night. Upstairs, she and Lily are catching up on homework they've left until the last possible minute, or, more likely, are trying on all Lily's clothes. They share outfits since they take exactly the same size. Dorrie glances at her watch.
She can hear Samuel in the kitchen, opening the refrigerator door, sorting through the contents. Her nerves jangle. Her insides vibrate like an electrical wire. After a minute or two, she walks out to the kitchen and crosses the glossy new wood floor, sliding a little in her stocking feet. She tugs a box out of the freezer.
“What's that?” Samuel comes up behind her at the stove.
“Veggie burgers.”
“Is that
it
? That's dinner?”
“Well,” Dorrie says. “Kind of. Mia's here and she's a vegetarian. There's other stuff though. There's some Brussels sprouts and peas andâ”
Samuel raises one eyebrow. “I'll just make myself an omelet,” he says, and he reaches into the fridge for the egg carton. “Where's the whisk?”
“In the dishwasher. But reallyâyou should watch your cholesterol,” Dorrie says. “It wouldn't kill you to eat what we're eating. It's unhealthy, all those eggs.” She stares at the five eggs he's broken into a large blue bowl. He reaches for the cheese. “And cheese,” she adds.
“I'm kind of a dead man walking anyway,” Samuel says. “I smoke. I drink.
Drank
. Eggs and cheese are the least of my worries. In fact, they're sort of the superheroes of my health regimen.”
“Don't say that, Samuel.” Dorrie turns away from the microwave, where black bean burgers rotate on a bright orange plate. She looks Samuel in the eye. “Don't joke about dying.”
Samuel shrugs. “Who'd care anyway?”
“Lily would. I would.
Lots
of people would.” She doesn't say Viv would, but she thinks it. All this stuff about Samuel being scary is probably Viv's way of keeping the conversation on him, feeding her obsession. Samuel's “dangerous” to Viv because her feelings for him threaten her self-image, to say nothing of her friendship with Dorrie. She hasn't actually said this to Viv, but neither has she spoken to her since the late-night phone call.
“
Would
you care?” The microwave beeps. Samuel's eyes are bright in the recessed kitchen lighting.
“Yes.”
He looks relieved. Just for a second.
“I'm going out,” she says, dumping organic peas into a pot of boiling water. “There's this audition.”
“That'sâbroad.” Samuel flips the omelet expertly without losing the tomatoes and green peppers he's added, as a nod to health, apparently. Dorrie shrugs.
“It's in town,” she says. “For a play that starts next month. I'm meeting Viv.”
Samuel doesn't answer. He reaches over his eggs for the paprika.
“You know she's back in Boston.”
“Uh-huh,” he says. “Good. Great. You two canâ”
“You've always liked her, too, though, haven't you?”
“Yeah.” He keeps his back turned. “Yeah. She's okay. I mean, she's your friend.”
“Right.
My
friend.” She stops herself. “Girls!” She yells in the general direction of Lily's room. “Dinner! So have you seen her?”
“Viv? Uh-uh. You should invite her over forâ”
“
I
have,” Dorrie says. She stares at his back, but Samuel doesn't turn around. “I saw her down at the Copley. The Copley Square Hotel? You know it, right?”
He still doesn't turn around.
“You remember the Copley Square Hotel, don't you, Samuel? Right in the heart ofâ”
“What kind of a question isâof course I know theâwhat are you trying toâ?”
Okay, Dorrie thinks. Okay. So we both know that we both know. She hesitates, but only for a second. “Nothing,” she says, as the girls appear in the kitchen doorway. “Could you set the table, honey,” she says. “Love the outfits, by the way. You both look totallyâI love the drama. The flair.”
“Of course, this from an actress.” Across the room, Samuel eases the omelet onto a large yellow plate. “Talk about divas!”
“Wait. So you don'tâ What do
you
think, Dad?”
Samuel squints across the kitchen. Tilts his head. Pensive. Scrutinizing. “I have to agree with your mom on this one,” he says. “You girls are definitely rocking those outfits.”
“You should try a black bean burger.” At the table, Lily glances at Samuel's omelet. “They're awesome when you add avocado and salsa.” She cuts off a large chunk of her burger, passes him her plate. “Just try it,” she says, and all eyes are on Samuel, whose daughter hung the moon, as he digs into the black bean burger with all the gusto he can manage. “Wow,” he says. “This is reallyâ”
Dorrie feels a pang of guilt. Bad enough she's cuckolded him with Joeânow she's lying to him. Again. But she has to go. She has to find out who's threatening her. She clears the table, loads the dishwasher, and glances at her watch. She has time. She has nearly an hour. The girls are upstairs again, wending their way through Lily's eclectic stash of clothes, and Samuel's in the backyard smokingâ the tip of his cigarette glows orange in the black air. She grabs her cell and calls the number she jotted down at work. “Hello,” she says when a woman answers. An older woman. Dorrie puts on a voice that drips authority. “May I speak to Paulo please?”
“They've gone,” the woman says.
“They?”
“Paulo and
Elizabeth
,” the woman says. “His
wife
!”
“I'm with Home Runs Renovations.” Dorrie's voice is quick, sharp, the voice of an executive totally consumed by her job. “I just need to ask him a quick question about some work he did for us lastâ”
“He isn't with your company anymore. Surprised you wouldn't know something like that. He hasn't worked at Home Runs Renovations for quite some time.” The woman bangs the phone back on the hook.
“Jeez.” Dorrie pulls the phone away. Too late; her ear rings from the clatter of the woman's disconnect. Why did Paulo Androtti leave the company? Judging by his mother's attitudeâit had to be his motherâit wasn't a simple parting of ways. Dorrie tugs at her ear. Or maybe his mother is just really mean.
“When will you be back?” Lily calls from the living room, but she doesn't look up. It's a rhetorical sort of question.
“I'm not sure,” Dorrie says. “It depends on how long it all lasts.” Not exactly a lieâshe draws the line at lying to her daughter, and happily the English language leaves a lot of room for interpretation. Nuance.
Lily nods, her eyes glued to the TV. “Good luck,” she says, and Mia raises her crossed fingers, smiles. From somewhere upstairs Samuel yells, “Break a leg!” An unfortunate choice, Dorrie thinks, and she pushes through the door onto the icy front porch.
She takes the train in and browses through shops until a quarter of eight, and then she strolls up the street to Starbucks. She's taken care to grab a different coat from the one she generally wears to work, doesn't remember buying it, this old woolen black thing from the back of the closet. She's not exactly sure it's even hers. She's wearing a large hat that must have been Samuel's at some point, since it's way too big, nearly covers her face down to her nose, and an old pair of boots.
She crosses the street. It's a frigid evening, the sort of night that people choose to be inside, not wandering along sidewalks, not if they have a choice. After a minute or two, Dorrie takes a breath and walks up to look directly through the Starbucks window. She can see nearly the entire inside of the coffee shop, and she studies the customers. No one looks suspicious in the leastâa handful of couples, two groups of women chattering over pastries. A few people sit alone with their laptops, but they don't even glance toward the door, so they seem innocent enough. At least oblivious enough.
Inept
enough, if one of them is her stalker. She glances at her watch. A wasted trip.
Dorrie!
Her mother's voice is in her ear, in her head.
Run, Dorrie! Quick! Run!
She turns slightly, away from the Starbucks window and steps backward, toward the street, scanning it.
“Dorrie!” This time the voice is loud. Different. A woman's voice, but not her mother's, and Dorrie whirls around as a figure darts off to lose itself in a clump of peopleâsomeone in a black coatâa jacket, maybeâand a knit hat covering the top part of his face.
Her
face?
“
Dorrie?
” a woman's voice calls again from a collection of cars parked along the curb, and, for a moment, Dorrie doesn't see a thing. For a moment, she thinks she's lost her mind.
MAGGIE
W
hen Lucas texts her, Maggie hesitates. What had seemed like a good idea at the junkyard earlier that day feels suddenly like an encroachmentâa little overwhelming, suffocating. It's all happening too fast, she tells herself. He should have waited a few days before he got in touch. A week or so. She would have been more ready for a date if he had. Anyway, she's already agreed to meet Hank.
Some news about work,
he'd said in a voice-mail message earlier.
Meet me at seven
.
That diner on Boylston where we used to grab dinner
.
For a few minutes, she ignores Lucas's text. She takes her hair out of a braid and lets it fall to her shoulders, winds it around her fingers, making it curl slightly at the ends. It's been a long time. She glances back at the text and knows it wouldn't matter if Lucas waited for a day or a month. She still wouldn't feel ready. It's the way she is now. Shy. She's begun to analyze her actions, every step, as if she isn't certain of the ground beneath her feet. She often feels like she's fifteen again, self-conscious and cautious around strangers, co-workers, even the handful of people she calls friends. When she does go out now, it's almost always for a reason, a trip to the market or a family gathering she feels pressured to attend.
In high school Maggie was the one who took the biggest risks. She was tough, a tomboy.
All those brothers
, her mother used to say.
It comes with the territory.
But she is different now. She isn't the same person she was, the daredevil. Magpie, her friends called her back thenâher old friends. But now she finds it hard to even talk with them. They've pretty much stopped calling her. They've given up.
She thinks about that first time she went drinking after Iraqâhow the friends she'd known forever seemed like strangers, how she'd panicked, felt as if she couldn't breathe, couldn't slow the pounding of her heart.
“You okay?” one of her friends, Marian, she thinks it was, had asked, leaning in for a better look.
“I have a headache,” Maggie told her. “I get them a lot now.”
Marian had nodded. “The explosion?”
“Yeah. Probably.” There hadn't actually been an explosion, but her friends seemed not to know particulars, or, really, want to know. They were glad she was home. Iraq was far away. They wanted her to be the way she was before. They wanted Magpie.
She pinches her cheeks and glances at herself in the mirror in the ladies' room. She takes a deep breath and texts Lucas back quickly, before she can change her mind.
Yes,
she says, and he answers her in seconds.
In town,
he says.
But let's make it dinner. Yoblansky's Tavern on Dalton. Is that okay? Dive bar. Laid-back.