Authors: Marcia Willett
Maria put the telephone down with a great gasp of relief: goodness, how she needed a drink. Just to hear Hal's voice had been such a relief; to share a joke with him and listen to his infectious laugh. Perhaps it wasn't such a crazy idea to think of moving down to Devon. She'd never imagined that she could be so lonely; she still found herself making tea for two, preparing far too many vegetables, waking at three every morning â always three o'clock â and being struck afresh by aching desolation. Oh, those long, terrible, demon-ridden hours before dawn and the cold emptiness of the big bed. She'd get up and make tea but there was no comfort to be had: the silence was just as much a reminder of her loneliness. And even during the day, even with Penelope and Philip at hand, there were deserts of misery to be negotiated, featureless and pointless; hours that stretched emptily.
At last she could see the point of communal living, of having family and friends near at hand. That's why the Chadwicks were such cheerful people. That strange grouping of all ages under one big roof meant that you need never be lonely or depressed. It was rather odd, though, that she of all people should suddenly be able to appreciate a way of life that she'd once despised. She remembered the cruel, cutting things she'd said to Hal about his family, and how she'd had her own private plans to take over The Keep and throw the old Chadwicks out. She wondered if Hal remembered too, and was unexpectedly suffused with hot embarrassment.
âDon't you think it's selfish for your grandmother to go on living in that big place?' she'd asked Hal, years ago, just after Ed had been born. âIsn't it time she abdicated in favour of you? We've got a growing family and we need the spaceâ'
âHold it,' he'd interrupted. âThe Keep is my grandmother's home. Hers and Uncle Theo's. I'd never try to turn them out. Even if I had the power I'd never do it. And even when we do move in one day, it won't be solely ours. It belongs to us all. That's the agreementâ¦'
âIt's quite ludicrous,' she'd cried angrily. âWhy should we be obliged to run a kind of hotel for the rest of your family? It's stupid.'
âIt's unusual,' he'd agreed, âand it might not work once the old people have gone. It's an ideal that we could all pull together, share the place and stay close as a family.'
âIt sounds like something out of Walt Disney,' she'd answered scornfully. And then Ed had woken and begun to cry and she'd stormed out. She'd been so upset that she'd persuaded her mother to talk to Hal about it but he'd remained intransigent.
âDo you really want to live there?' her mother had asked her, later. âIf The Keep is to be left under those conditions perhaps we should have a rethink. Hal tells me that even if he managed to overturn the trust it wouldn't help you. Fliss's father was the eldest and she would inherit.'
âWell, I can tell you one thing,' she'd said angrily, âI'm not being a hotel-keeper. If Hal thinks I'm going to move in and be an unpaid housekeeper to his family he can think again.'
âWe don't want your inheritance disappearing into some melting pot for the benefit of the Chadwicks, do we?' her mother had said thoughtfully. âWhy should you run a family hotel?'
And she'd gone on to talk rather regretfully about how Hal had changed, and then she'd mentioned Adam and how well he was doing and that his marriage wasn't a happy oneâ¦
The thin end of the wedge thrust into her own marriage.
Maria pushed the memories aside: it was all too uncomfortable to think about just how ready she'd been to pick up the threads of her old relationship with Adam and seduce him away from his tiresome wife. No, it was much more sensible to concentrate on her visit to The Keep; much more positive to think about the future rather than the past. She glanced at her watch; it was getting on for five o'clock. A little bit early for a drink but she needed one; just a very small one to celebrate her next trip to Devon.
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On Sunday morning, with three changes of clothes flung on her bed and her hair in a mess, Henrietta grabbed her mobile, pressed the keys and waited. There was a little delay before her mother answered, her voice a little preoccupied.
âHello, darling. You're bright and early.'
Henrietta immediately felt guilty. âDid I get you out of bed? Are you OK?'
âYes, of course I am. And no, I'm up and having breakfast.'
Henrietta pushed aside a suspicion that there was something wrong, that her mother's voice lacked the usual cheerfulness, the
eagerness
, with which she usually responded to her calls.
âI'm just wondering. Should I be dressing up for this lunch or is it OK to be casual, d'you think?'
âPerfectly fine to be casual, I should think. Not scruffy, but not over the top. The Keep isn't a stately home, you know. It's shabby and comfortable, and Hal and Fliss are very laid-back.'
âIt's just, you know, Sunday lunch. People don't really do that much any more, do they?'
âI think a lot of people still have lunch on Sundays, but that doesn't mean that they dress up for it. It's just the family and you, isn't it? Nobody else? Well, see what Jo's wearing when he arrives. You can change if you feel you're not in sync. He'll understand that.'
âOK. Thanksâ¦Are you sure you're OK?'
âOf course I am. Just brooding on a new article. And my agent's suggested another short story for the
Mail on Sunday
. They rather liked the last one, which is very good news.'
âThat's great. OK. Well, I'll let you know how it goes.'
âYou do that. 'Bye, darling.'
Henrietta stared at the selection of clothes on the bed. Perhaps the moleskin trousers with the pretty linen shirt and her treasured cashmere jersey slung casually round her shoulders? She glanced at her watch, swore under her breath, and began to get dressed.
Jolyon arrived ten minutes later. He was wearing cord jeans and a rugby shirt and looked very relaxed. She hurried to open the door and noted his look of appreciation with relief. He refused her offer of coffee and asked if she were ready to go.
âWon't we be a bit early?' Nervousness made her voice sharp. âFor lunch, I mean?'
âI could show you around a bit before everyone gets back from church,' he said. âJust the two of us. Would that be a plan? I thought it might be fun.'
âYes,' she said gratefully, trying to be calm. âYes, it would.'
Jo began to round up the dogs, encouraging old Juno to her feet. âUp you get, old girl. Come on, Pan. Good fellow. We'll get Tacker in last. I know a good place to stop on the way to let them have a run.'
âGood.' Henrietta began to gather up rugs and toys. âI'm terrified Tacker will misbehave. I'm bringing lots of things for him to chew.'
âHe'll be with us in the kitchen. Stop worrying.'
She paused, staring at him. âIn the kitchen?'
Jo shrugged. âI'm afraid so. The banqueting hall is closed for repairs and the ballroom has dry rot. We've even had to pay off the minstrels.'
She laughed reluctantly. âIt's just that The Keep does sound rather grand; and your father being Sir Henry Chadwick and all thatâ¦'
âStop panicking and wait until you see it. I'm afraid we eat in the kitchen unless it's a formal dinner party.'
âWhat a relief. I feel better already.'
He put his arm round her shoulder and gave her a brief hug. âYou're a twit.'
She watched him getting the dogs into the back of the estate car, lifting Tacker in: he was right, she was a twit. After all, she told herself, this was just a perfectly ordinary visit to friends for lunch. But when Jo straightened up and smiled at her she knew that it was much, much more than that.
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They drove into the courtyard, skirting the central square of grass, parking by the garage built into the old walls of the gatehouse. Henrietta stared up at the grey stone house. The austere, castellated tower was impressive; odd but striking.
âWow!' she said. âI mean,
really
wow!'
Jo looked pleased. âI want to show you inside first, and we'll have some coffee. Then we'll take all the dogs out on the hill so that they can get to know each other.'
Leaving the dogs in the car, watching anxiously from the window, Henrietta followed Jolyon up the steps and into the hall.
âFliss lit the fire yesterday,' Jolyon said. âShe wanted it to feel welcoming. We spend a lot of the time in here in the winter.'
âI can see why.' Henrietta looked around her. âIt's beautiful. I love it. Goodness, if this is the hall, what's the rest of it like?'
âCome and see,' he said. âJust a quick guided tour to get the feel of it.'
She went with him, glancing through doors, trying to take it all in: an elegantly shabby drawing room, a rather formal dining room, a comfortably untidy garden room. There was a study, rather dark and piled with books, with a computer on a table in the corner, and a large, warm kitchen with flagged floors and tall windows. Two large, rusty-coloured dogs climbed out of their baskets by the Aga and came to meet her, and she went down on one knee to stroke their heads and soft coats.
âAren't they pretty?' she said. âWhatever are they?'
Jo shrugged as he made coffee. âWe've never quite known. Border collie crossed with some sort of spaniel is the general idea. Pooter is the bigger one, and don't be deceived, she's a wily, greedy old bitch. Perks is much more civilized, aren't you, Perks? Come on. We'll take the coffee through to the hall.'
They sat together on one of the long sofas, with the dogs lying contentedly in front of the fire. Henrietta leaned against Jolyon's shoulder, clasping her mug of coffee.
âIt's an amazing house,' she said softly. âBut I want to see your gatehouse too.'
âWe'll do that later,' he said comfortably. âOnce you've met the family. They'll be back from church soon. And don't be deceived by Granny, either. She's just as wily as Pooter; she's just more subtle with it.'
Henrietta sipped her coffee. She felt relaxed, at ease with herself and with Jo. It was odd how confident she felt with him, how sure; it was once she was alone again that all her fears and doubts would resurface. At the sound of a car driving into the courtyard, followed by the slamming of doors, however, she was gripped afresh with nervousness. Pooter and Perks were already up and hurrying to the door, tails wagging, and Henrietta set her coffee down on the table, waiting.
Prue was in first, talking as she came, stopping briefly to greet the dogs before she advanced upon Henrietta, who rose quickly to her feet.
âI've been looking at your fellows through the car window,' Prue told her. âJust a quick peep. I simply couldn't resist the puppy. He's so sweet.'
Henrietta smiled, murmured something about giving them all a walk, liking this sweet-faced woman with her pretty, feathery ash-coloured hair and her warmth and friendliness.
âThis is Henrietta, Granny,' Jolyon was saying.
Prue held out her hand. âI'm Prue,' she said simply. âAnd here's Hal and this is Fliss.'
Henrietta took Prue's hand gratefully, her difficulties about how she should address Admiral Sir Henry and Lady Chadwick solved in one neat stroke.
âIt's so nice to meet you at last,' said Hal. âIsn't it silly that we've known Cordelia for such a long time and never met
you
?'
Fliss said, âWell, we've met you now, which is the important thing. I must change and then look at the lunch. Why don't you bring those dogs in, Jo? I'm sure they'll be fine.'
âWe thought we'd take them all out together on the hill. Let them meet on neutral territory first. Here's Lizzie, Henrietta.'
A fair, pretty girl had come into the hall. She looked strong and capable and good-humoured, and, Henrietta guessed, was probably in her early thirties.
âI was putting the car away,' she said. âHello, Henrietta. Are you always called Henrietta? Never Hetty or Hattie or Henry?'
Henrietta laughed at this unexpected opening. âSometimes, but not generally. There was another Henrietta in my year at school, you see, and she'd always been called Hetty so I was stuck with Henrietta. Because I was at school with Susan, she got used to it too, so there's never been much inclination to shorten it at work either.'
There was a short, slightly uncomfortable silence whilst everyone wondered whether to talk about Susan. It was broken by Hal announcing that he was going to have a drink and was anyone going to join him, and Prue saying that a sherry might be very pleasant.
âYes, please,' said Fliss, âbut I'll stick with wine. I simply must get changed,' and Jo said that he and Henrietta ought to get the dogs out first. Henrietta wondered if it looked rather abrupt, she and Jo going out when everyone had just arrived, but Fliss was already hurrying up the stairs and Lizzie had disappeared towards the kitchen, crying, âSee you later, then.'
Prue sat down near the fire and beamed upon them. âHave a lovely time,' she said. âGo along, Pooter. You're going to meet some very nice new friends. Go on, Perks.'
The four of them went out together and Henrietta clasped Jo's arm and then let it go quickly lest anyone might be watching.
âThey're nice,' she said.
âOf course they are,' he answered, lifting the tail-gate. âI did tell you. Now, let battle commence.'
Pan jumped out quickly, whilst Juno clambered down more carefully and, ignoring Pooter and Perks, began to explore the courtyard. The puppy sat quite still, staring with amazement at the two rusty-coloured animals that came to sniff at him.
âHe's rather overwhelmed, poor fellow,' said Henrietta sympathetically, leaning in to comfort him. âIt's OK, Tacker. They won't hurt you. Out you come.'