The Queen's Bastard (19 page)

He slid his arm over her ribs and the still-stiff lines of her corset. “Because the human race would surely die out if we couldn’t keep our mothers and wives from turning to ice every night. Unbend your knees, woman. Now my feet are uncovered.” He crunched up, resettling the cloak over them, and threw the hood over their heads. The cool air warmed almost instantly and Belinda realised her nose was numb. She clasped it between her fingers and Javier chuckled, moving her hand to cover her nose with his hand instead. She could smell her own scent on him, musky and faint hours later. As if sensing her reaction to that, Javier shifted the cloak and lowered his head to cover her nipple with his mouth. The heat was exquisite and shocking after hours of chill. Belinda arched into it and he let go another low laugh, lifting his head again. “Do it.”

“My lord—”

“Beatrice.” Command filled his voice, expectation bordering on irritation. “Power is begotten by desire, and I know you desire.” He put his hand over her lower stomach, just where the corset ended. The warmth of his hand was distracting, waking heat in other places—but that was the point. Belinda inhaled deeply, watching Javier’s gaze snap back to her breasts. It was something, at least, and thus sated she wrapped the stillness around her, letting it protect her more thoroughly than any cloak could do.

They had done this twice during the small hours of the morning, once with Belinda following Javier’s guidance and once on her own. There was a wall of resistance in her, one that weakened as she shoved against it, calling her
need
through it and to its other side. That wall, she didn’t understand how, tasted of her father, as if his broad shoulders and scent of chypre had somehow taken up residence inside her own mind. Beyond it was the power that had let her hide in shadows when she was a child. Robert’s very will lay between her conscious desire and that power, making a barrier to her accessing it.

But there was a weakness in the barricade: she could almost see the words around the place where it ran thinner.
It cannot be found out. Not yet. It’s still too early. The time has not yet come for you to know such things.

Not
yet.
That admonishment had been made well over ten years earlier. Now, finally, whether her father meant for it to be or not, it was time. Belinda was no longer a child. She served her queen and her country, but her will was her own, and the long years of wondering were coming to an end.

She had broken through twice, and now felt it giving way before her desire again. It didn’t shatter, but rippled and spread outward, as if she’d thrown a stone into a pool and her point of access was the tiny centre of the vortex it created. She pushed through that centre, widening it, then withdrew. A trickle of power spilled forth, golden and warm as sunlight. It was the stillness, made visible within her own mind. In itself, it was nothing, not even potential; it merely lay beyond the barrier in her mind and waited.

Waited for desire. It warmed her as much, more, than Javier’s touch, filled her with a completion that no mere man could achieve. She cupped her hands together beneath the cloak, as if she might catch water in them, and took a breath deep enough to strain her ribs against the corset. “
Light,
” she whispered, not in Gallic but in her maiden tongue of Aulunian.

A glow stained her fingers, soft and warm. It lit the underside shadows of the cloak, a tiny, gentle ball of sunlight cradled in her hands. Pride and delight bloomed in her, well-hidden from the surface but enough to warm her within. A smaller part of her mind crowed with alarm, Ilyana’s accusations of witchery proved true, and death by burning should Belinda ever be caught. She should be more frightened; she
knew
she should be more frightened. But with the soft glow of power in her hands, most of that fear was drowned beneath confidence. She only had to go carefully, and she would never be found out.

Javier clucked approval and she moved her hands slowly, carrying her little palmful of light closer to his face. His eyes picked up the golden hue, reflecting the silky sheen of the cloak they lay huddled beneath. “Better,” he breathed, as if the stirring air might put Belinda’s light out like it was a candle. “It came faster this time. Did you feel it? Witchlight, Beatrice. Your light.”

“Our light,” she whispered back, though it wasn’t true. Javier curled his fingers around the back of her hand, pale silver light springing from his palm as easily as he might point a finger. It warred with her golden sunlight, and dominated, for all that it was the color of moonlight. He had years of practise and skill over hers, and, Belinda thought, access to power that was not hidden behind a wall built by a well-meaning father. She caught her lower lip in her teeth, eyes closed as she wrestled the bleak wall within her mind, prodding and poking at the pinhole she’d made in it. It tore, and her eyes flew open as power stung her palms and brightened the sunlight held in her hands. Javier put his palm against hers and brought more of his own power to bear, smothering golden sparks with the cool light of the moon. Belinda gasped as her witchlight winked out and Javier pinned her wrist against the ground.

“Our gift,” he corrected. “All that’s best of dark and light. But not too bright, lady. Such secrets must be studied in the quiet of night, when there are fewer eyes to watch.”

“My lord?” A sudden blush came over her, an honest reaction; the art of blushing on demand was one she had tried to learn without success. She watched Javier’s eyes follow the rush of pink down her throat to where it stained the upper swells of her breasts, and wished not for the first time that she could achieve the effect at will. She could prevent it; that much the stillness gave her, but never call it. He lowered his mouth to the tinted flesh, then followed the curve upward until he caught her nipple in his mouth, all tongue and teeth. She arched and he rolled his weight over her, cock pressed against her belly.

“Now you blush?” Amusement enriched his voice. “A wanton woman under the moon’s light and come morning you blush and look away? Yes: at night, Beatrice, in the long small hours. Is it your reputation you fear for? You wouldn’t be the first woman to be named the prince’s whore. It may even boost your marriage prospects, if we part on amicable terms.”

“Marius…?” The question was poorly judged. Javier’s eyes darkened as he put his fingers against the hollow of her throat.

“Is it he you prefer, my lady Beatrice? Is the prince merely a feather in your girlish cap?”

“No,” Belinda breathed. She reached for the drip of power inside her, infusing her answer with its light, all the truth she could muster into the soft word. Belinda had seen jealousy in a hundred men, but wouldn’t have imagined that this man, a prince, would allow himself such a petty emotion. Her life might depend on defusing it. She parted her lips and swallowed tentatively against the pressure on her throat. She had not confessed to the prince her burgeoning ability to sense emotion and even thought; the moment to do so had come and gone, and she was no longer tangled in passion that washed even the clarity of stillness away. If Javier didn’t know of the faculty, he might fall prey to it. Belinda poured all the power she could reach into her whispered words, filling them with subtle adoration and trust. “Marius is a boy in his heart, my lord, no matter what his years. I prefer men.”

Javier’s fingers tightened, then loosened enough to let her swallow. The darkness in his eyes diminished, leaving them colorless in the filtered light through the cloak. Belinda tilted her head back, letting the weight of his hand press into her throat again. Submission, now that danger was past, only reinforced his position relative to hers. It could do her no harm.

“Marius should aim so high as a royal cast-off,” Javier said after a moment. “And I think I will not tire of you for some time, my little witch. You have much to learn.”

“You honour me,” Belinda whispered. Flat amusement shot through Javier’s gaze.

“Yes. I do. Enjoy it while it lasts, Beatrice. Nothing ever does.”

R
OBERT
, L
ORD
D
RAKE
11 September 1587         
         Khazan, capital of Khazar, north and east of Echon

Irina, imperatrix of all Khazar, is a beautiful woman.

Not like Lorraine, whose striking features made her beautiful in her youth. Time has stripped that beauty, her long face falling with age. She might have found a way to move through her later years gracefully, but instead she fights every year as if it is her bitterest enemy, and that, too, has left marks.

Not like Sandalia, either, who has never been beautiful, only devastatingly pretty. She still holds the edge of youth that maintains loveliness, but in a few short years her figure will fail to a fondness for sweets, and her curves will turn to plump softness. It will look well on her, but it is not beauty.

No, Irina Durova will be beautiful when they lay her down in her grave. Time will not be able to take the elegant square bones of her face away, and her skin is of the quality to hold wrinkles tight around the corner of large dark eyes. She is in her forties now, and her hair is silvering. She lets it do so naturally, taking gravitas from aging; she does not believe youth is the only potent drug there is. Then again, she has true beauty to see her through the years.

It is more difficult to be angry at a beautiful woman than a plain one, but Robert is trying.

“I do not understand, Your Majesty.” It was a falsehood; he understood perfectly, as did Irina. “What does Essandia offer that Aulun can’t? Our fleet is better-trained, and a treaty with my queen is unique in its advantages. There can be no backdoor pressure to marry.” He stresses the last sentence, making it a clear reminder to those who know—in the audience chamber, that means himself and Irina—how much trouble Irina has faced on the marriage front lately, and how Aulunian resources slipped into Khazar to divest her of that problem.

“Aulun stands alone against Cordula,” Irina says, full of genuine-sounding sympathy. Her voice is as rich as her face and body: deep, for a woman, and warm. The imperatrix’s laughter is said to melt snow from the eaves, a gift of some renown in icy Khazar. Robert has never heard her laugh, nor seen snow melt through force of personality, but he likes the story. “We do not share Cordula’s faith, but we are cognizant of the dangers of rejecting it blatantly. My father recalled the Heretics’ Trials, Lord Drake. We are reluctant to draw attention to our own borders by making hasty treaties with Cordula’s enemy.”

Robert bows, a light and almost teasing action, to hide the grinding of his teeth. “Aulun is certain Khazar never makes hasty decisions, Your Majesty. Aulun would also like to remind you that while much of southern Echon is held in Ecumenic sway, the northerly states, like Aulun, have found their own spiritual paths to follow. An alliance with Aulun is not an alliance against Cordula.”

“We are certain that is a point worth remembering,” Irina says, and now there’s a tint of humour in her large eyes. “We are, after all, only a woman, and must heed the advice of the men around us.”

Robert nearly chokes: he knows this trick. It’s one of Lorraine’s favourites, and it makes him mad with exasperation.

And then suddenly, abruptly, he sees what he should have seen before: that Irina’s gown is the one Lorraine sent her twelve years earlier, in congratulations on Ivanova’s birth. It has been modified, made more fashionable, of course, but the jewel-encrusted fabric is the same, the cut still subtly Aulunian rather than the broader lines of Khazarian fashion.

He is too masterful a player to let his eyes widen, though irritation spills through him. He, of all people, should know that words spoken in political debate mean little, and Irina has given him answers in her dress and in her phrasing that few others would know to read. That he nearly missed them himself is an embarrassment, and he bows again now, in part to cover that embarrassment and in part because Irina has effectively dismissed him. “Aulun trusts your counselors will guide you well, Your Majesty. I hope we’ll speak again before I leave Khazan.”

Irina flickers her fingers, neither agreement nor disagreement, and Robert catches a smirk on a courtier’s face as he turns away. He allows thunderous frustration to darken his own features, playing to that smirk; playing to Aulun being stymied by Khazar, and he narrowly avoids stomping as he leaves the audience hall.

His mockery of temper is thrown off by the time he leaves the palace, though there’s a hint of true anger simmering inside him. Irina took him by surprise, and he hates being off-balance.

“Dmitri!” Robert finds the hawk-nosed man in the stables, the scent of straw and manure rising up. The horses snort as he stalks by to catch Dmitri’s arm. Robert is a big man, his hands powerful, and Dmitri flinches. “Irina is making treaties with the Essandian prince, Dmitri. Don’t tell me you didn’t know.” He digs his fingers into the tender flesh of Dmitri’s inner arm, as if leaving a mark will earn him the answer he wants.

Dmitri’s mouth thins and he drops his gaze to the offending grip, then stares at Robert until Robert releases him. There is a note of grace, of chagrin, in the way Robert averts his eyes and offers apology. Dmitri, satisfied, takes a deliberate moment to straighten his sleeve, fussing like a man more fastidious than he normally is. Robert, still irritated, remains silent, waiting.

“A queen doesn’t always heed her advisers,” Dmitri finally says, as close to an admission of failure as Robert’s ever heard from him. “Her strength will be divided,” he adds in a grumble. “Her army will be split between Khazar, Essandia, and Aulun.”

“Or she’ll have Essandian and Aulunian ships alike and her own troops here to put on them and send where she wants. Dammit, Dmitri, you should have told me. You should have stopped it. She hints at favouring Aulun, but I want her to have no choice. Warp the missives from Essandia. Make it seem as though Rodrigo seeks her hand along with her troops.”

“A dangerous game,” Dmitri murmurs. “What if she accepts?”

“She wouldn’t have come to Aulun about Gregori if she were of a mind to marry. These three queens hold a unique place in Echon’s history. So many women have never held such power simultaneously, Dmitri. None of them are willing to cede it. She’ll reject a marriage offer, or dance around it like Rodrigo and Lorraine have done for twenty years.” He exhales, explosive sound, and the line of horses down the stables responds in kind, shaking themselves, stomping feet, huffing and puffing. “Do you know where Seolfor is?”

“I don’t” is Dmitri’s eventual answer. “Are you losing control, Robert?” There’s interest in his eyes, flashing, bordering on avarice. Robert nearly allows himself to seize Dmitri’s arm again, more intentionally threatening.

The truth is there are moments when Robert loses sight of his goal. Moments when the politics of Echon and Khazar overwhelm the end game. Moments when it’s difficult to remember his queen’s face, her image replaced by an aging redhead whose power is blunt and worldly and the centre of his everyday existence. He has spent thirty years guiding Aulun and her regent, coaxing reluctant love and desire out of a woman determined to stand alone. He has never threatened her, never shown interest in stealing her power for his own, and this is why she trusts him. It’s as well she has no need to understand that her power is transitory and unappealing to him. She is a vessel, and she has long since done her part in ensuring the downfall of her world.

There may yet be one thing left for her to do, though, and until that thing is done, he will love, honour, and manipulate her, and regret none of it. When it’s done, he knows he might find that frail human emotion has gotten the better of him, and that he might love the Titian Queen until the end of her days.

Robert has no objections to that. She’s a formidable opponent, all the more so for being a female regent to a society that believes women to be weak and inferior. How they can stand before Lorraine, before Sandalia, before Irina, and retain that conviction is beyond him, though he’s heard it said many times that all of those women are unnaturally masculine. The idea that they are wholly feminine and wholly capable doesn’t appear to have occurred to anyone, or if it has, they’ve found it such an appalling and frightening thought as to put it away again and never let it see the light of day. There are moments when Robert has wanted to smack courtiers alongside the skull, not to defend Lorraine, but out of simple exasperation at their determined thick-headedness.

He wonders, briefly, if Dmitri might suffer the same loss of focus if the invasion were his to conduct.

“No,” he says, and makes it light, refusing to allow himself the luxury of physically threatening the slighter man. It’s a closer match than it might look, anyway: Robert has bulk, but Dmitri’s slenderness holds wiry strength. They were always well-matched, even before. It’s why they were selected.

Seolfor, though…Seolfor is their third, waiting, and Robert has no doubts of his loyalty. No one would: breaking faith with the queen is a concept that has only slowly become even conceivable, and that only through long years of watching human betrayals. The idea turns Robert’s stomach, makes him physically sick, and Seolfor is no less staunchly the queen’s own than he. But Seolfor is a renegade, if any of them are; Robert believes, though he’d never ask, that this is why the queen sent him on this one-way journey. Because of that, Robert has preferred to keep him off the playing field until his participation is critical. “But with kings and queens playing at pieces as if their lives were their own to direct, it may be time to activate him. Seolfor can be a charming bastard when he wants to be, and there’ll be no taint of foreign courts to him.”

Curiosity darts across Dmitri’s angular face. “Is that why you’ve kept him out for so long? Where will you send him?”

“Essandia,” Robert says drily, “to plant a woman on Rodrigo’s cock long enough to make the child she bears seem reasonably his. I’ll never understand the hold Cordula has on these men. The women are more pragmatic. I only wish Sandalia’d given in to you soon enough to make her son seem Charles’s, instead of catching by that foppish Louis.”

“So does she.” Dmitri lowers his eyes, oddly womanish in his apology, then looks up again, all sharp hazel eyes and hawklike features. “But Gallin is under control, isn’t it? I thought your girl was there.”

“She is, and Sandalia will be there soon. My Primrose will have slipped in quietly, made herself a part of the court, and be waiting to gain the queen’s confidence.” Of all the tasks he’s set Belinda to, this one is both simplest and most difficult. Murder is easy to achieve; sedition much harder, particularly spoken from royal lips. But they need so little, and Belinda is so very good at her winsome ways. It’s why Robert sent her, and not someone of lesser import: even
he
finds himself inclined to trust his daughter; and that’s why he sent Ana de Meo to watch over her, in turn. Trust is a weakness that hides flaws; better to set a second pair of eyes over that which he dares trust. “One wrong word from Sandalia spoken in Primrose’s ear, and we’ll have our war.”

“And then it will be properly begun.”

Robert nods and claps his hand on Dmitri’s shoulder. They stand like that a moment, Dmitri covering Robert’s hand with his own. Then they break ways, no more words needed between them, and go about their separate duties.

There is a rapping, not at his door, but from within a wall. He knows, though he should not, that the passage there leads to three different bedrooms. None of them is Irina’s, which is a shame: even Robert isn’t above the secret thrill of a queen coming to him in the night.

He’s at the hidden door before the tapping comes a second time, his head tilted against it, listening, scenting, seeking. The first two garner nothing; the door is too thick for subtleties to slip through. The third encounters a woman’s mind, not agitated, but calm and focused. Again, not Irina: she, like Lorraine, is all but impossible to read, her throne granting and demanding an indomitable will. The woman who has come to him is not thinking of who she is but of what she wants: a high-born lover to replace the one she had.