The Revelation Space Collection (330 page)

‘My life is a series of disappointments, Quaestor. I think I’ve probably got used to it by now.’

‘One devoutly hopes that is the case. We must all of us know our station in life, Crozet.’

‘I certainly know mine, Quaestor.’ Crozet did something to the control panel, presumably powering down the icejammer. ‘Well, are you open for business or not? You’ve really been working hard to polish that lukewarm welcome routine.’

The man smiled very thinly. ‘This is hospitality, Crozet. A lukewarm welcome would have involved leaving you on the ice, or running you over.’

‘I’d best count my blessings, then.’

‘Who are you?’ Rashmika asked suddenly, surprising herself.

‘This is Quaestor . . .’ Linxe said, before she was cut off.

‘Quaestor Rutland Jones,’ the man interrupted, his tone actorly, as if playing to the gallery. ‘Master of Auxiliary Supplies, Superintendent of Caravans and other Mobile Units, Roving Legate of the First Adventist Church. And you’d be?’

‘The First Adventists?’ she asked, just to make sure she had heard him properly. There were many offshoots of the First Adventists, a number of them rather large and influential churches in their own right, and some of them had names so similar that it was easy to get them confused. But the First Adventist Church was the one she was interested in. She added, ‘As in the oldest church, the one that goes all the way back?’

‘Unless I am very mistaken about my employer, yes. I still don’t believe you have answered my question, however.’

‘Rashmika,’ she said, ‘Rashmika Els.’

‘Els.’ The man chewed on the syllable. ‘Quite a common name in the villages of the Vigrid badlands, I believe. But I don’t think I’ve ever encountered an Els this far south.’

‘You might have, once,’ Rashmika said. But that was a little unfair: though the caravan her brother had travelled on had also been affiliated to the Adventists, it was unlikely that it had been this one.

‘I’d remember, I think.’

‘Rashmika is travelling with us,’ Linxe said. ‘Rashmika is . . . a clever girl. Aren’t you, dear?’

‘I get by,’ Rashmika said.

‘She thought she might find a role in the churches,’ Linxe said. She licked her fingers and neatened the hair covering her birthmark.

He put down the compad. ‘A role?’

‘Something technical,’ Rashmika said. She had rehearsed this encounter a dozen times, always in her imagination having the upper hand, but it was all happening too quickly and not the way she had hoped.

‘We can always use keen young girls,’ the quaestor said. He was digging in a chest pocket for something. ‘And boys, for that matter. It would depend on your talents.’

‘I have no
talents
,’ Rashmika said, transforming the word into an obscenity. ‘But I happen to be literate and numerate. I can program most marques of servitor. I know a great deal about the study of the scuttlers. I have ideas about their extinction. Surely that can be of use to someone in the church.’

‘She wonders if she couldn’t find a position in one of the church-sponsored archaeological study groups,’ Linxe said.

‘Is that so?’ the quaestor asked.

Rashmika nodded. As far as she was concerned, the church-sponsored study groups were a joke, existing only to rubber-stamp current Quaicheist doctrine regarding the scuttlers; but she had to start somewhere. Her real goal was to reach Harbin, not to advance her study of the scuttlers. However, it would be much easier to find him if she began her service in a clerical position - such as one of the study groups - rather than with lowly work like Way repair.

‘I think I could be of value,’ she said.

‘Knowing a great deal about the study of a subject is not the same as knowing anything about the subject itself,’ the quaestor told her with a sympathetic smile. He pulled his hand from his breast pocket, a small pinch of seeds between forefinger and thumb. The jointed green thing on his shoulder stirred, moving with a curious stiffness that reminded Rashmika of something inflated, like a balloon-creature. It
was
an animal, but unlike any that Rashmika - in her admittedly limited experience - remembered seeing. She saw now that at one end of its thickest tube was a turretlike head, with faceted eyes and a delicate, mechanical-looking mouth. The quaestor offered his fingers to the creature, pursing his lips in encouragement. The creature stretched itself down his arm and attacked the pinch of seeds with a nibbling politeness. What was it? she wondered. The body and limbs were insectile, but the elongated coil of its tail, which was wrapped around the quaestor’s upper arm several times, was more suggestive of a reptile. And there was something uniquely birdlike about the way it ate. She remembered birds from somewhere, brilliant crested strutting things of cobalt blue with tails that opened like fans. Peacocks. But where had she ever seen peacocks?

The quaestor smiled at his pet. ‘Doubtless you have read many books,’ he said, looking sidelong at Rashmika. ‘That is to be applauded.’

She looked at the animal warily. ‘I grew up in the digs, Quaestor. I’ve helped with the excavation work. I’ve breathed scuttler dust from the moment I was born.’

‘Unfortunately, though, that’s hardly the most unique of claims. How many scuttler fossils have you examined?’

‘None,’ Rashmika said, after a moment.

‘Well, then.’ The quaestor dabbed his forefinger against his lip, then touched it against the mouthpiece of the animal. ‘That’s enough for you, Peppermint.’

Crozet coughed. ‘Shall we continue this discussion aboard the caravan, Quaestor? I don’t want to have too great a journey back home, and we still have a lot of business to attend to.’

The creature - Peppermint - retreated back along the quaestor’s arm now that its feast was over. It began to clean its face with tiny scissoring forelimbs.

‘The girl’s your responsibility, Crozet?’ the quaestor asked.

‘Not exactly, no.’ He looked at Rashmika and corrected himself.

‘What I mean is, yes, I’m taking care of her until she gets where she’s going, and I’ll take it personally if anyone lays a hand on her. But what she does with herself after that is none of my business.’

The quaestor’s attention snapped back to Rashmika. ‘And how old are you, exactly?’

‘Old enough,’ she said.

The green creature turned the turret of its head towards her, its blank faceted eyes like blackberries.

Hela Surface, 2615

Quaiche slipped in and out of consciousness. With each transition, the difference between the two states became less clear cut. He hallucinated, and then hallucinated that the hallucinations were real. He kept seeing rescuers scrabbling over the scree, picking up their pace as they saw him, waving their gloved hands in greeting. The second or third time, it made him laugh to think that he had imagined rescuers arriving under exactly the same circumstances as the real ones. No one would ever believe him, would they?

But somewhere between the rescuers arriving and the point where they started getting him to safety, he always ended up back in the ship, his chest aching, one eye seeing the world as if through a gauze.

The
Dominatrix
kept arriving, sliding down between the sheer walls of the rift. The long, dark ship would kneel down on spikes of arresting thrust. The mid-hull access hatch would slide open and Morwenna would emerge. She would come out in a blur of pistons, racing to his rescue, as magnificent and terrible as an army arrayed for battle. She would pull him from the wreck of the
Daughter
, and with a dreamlike illogic he would not need to breathe as she helped him back to the other ship through a crisp, airless landscape of shadow and light. Or she would come out in the scrimshaw suit, somehow managing to make it move even though he knew the thing was welded tight, incapable of flexing.

Gradually the hallucinations took precedence over rational thought. In a period of lucidity, it occurred to Quaiche that the kindest thing would be for one of the hallucinations to occur just as he died, so that he was spared the jolting realisation that he had still to be rescued.

He saw Jasmina coming to him, striding across the scree with Grelier lagging behind. The queen was clawing out her eyes as she approached, banners of gore streaming after her.

He kept waking up, but the hallucinations blurred into one another, and the feelings induced by the virus became stronger. He had never known such intensity of experience before, even when the virus had first entered him. The music was behind every thought, the stained-glass light permeating every atom of the universe. He felt intensely observed, intensely loved. The emotions did not feel like a façade any more, but the way things really were. It was as if until now he had only been seeing the reflection of something, or hearing the muffled echo of some exquisitely lovely and heart-wrenching music. Could this really just be the action of an artificially engineered virus on his brain? It had always felt like that before, a series of crude mechanically induced responses, but now the emotions felt like an integral part of him, leaving no room for anything else. It was like the difference between a theatrical stage effect and a thunderstorm.

Some dwindling, rational part of him said that nothing had really changed, that the feelings were still due to the virus. His brain was being starved of oxygen as the air in the cabin ran out. Under those circumstances, it would not have been unusual to feel some emotional changes. And with the virus still present, the effects could have been magnified many times.

But that rational part was quickly squeezed out of existence.

All he felt was the presence of the Almighty.

‘All right,’ Quaiche said, before passing out, ‘I believe now. You got me. But I still need a miracle.’

TEN

Hela, 2615

He woke. He was moving. The air was cold but fresh and there was no pain in his chest.
So this is it
, he thought. The last hallucination, perhaps, before his brain slid into the trough of cascading cell-death.
Just make it a good one, and try to keep it up until I die. That’s all I’m asking for.

But it felt real this time.

He tried looking around, but he was still trapped inside the
Daughter
. Yet his view of things was moving, the landscape bouncing and jolting. He realised that he was being dragged across the scree, down to the level part of the floor. He craned his neck and through his good eye he saw a commotion of pistons, shining limb joints.

Morwenna.

But it wasn’t Morwenna. It was a servitor, one of the repair units from the
Dominatrix
. The spiderlike robot had attached adhesive traction plates to the
Scavenger’s Daughter
and was hauling it across the ground, with Quaiche still in it.
Of course, of course, of course
: how else was it going to get him out of there? He felt stupid now. He had no suit and no airlock. For all intents and purposes, in fact, the ship
was
his vacuum suit. Why had this never occurred to him before?

He felt better: clear-headed and sharp. He noticed that the servitor had plugged something into one of the
Daughter’
s umbilical points. Feeding fresh air back into it, probably. The
Daughter
would have told the servitor what needed to be done to keep her occupant alive. The air might even be supercharged with oxygen, to take the edge off his pain and anxiety.

He could not believe this was happening. After all the hallucinations, this really, genuinely felt like reality. It had the prickly texture of actual experience. And he did not think that servitors had featured in any of his hallucinations to date. He had never thought things through clearly enough to work out that a servitor would have to drag the ship to safety with him in it. Obvious in hindsight, but in his dreams it had always been people coming to his rescue. That one neglected detail had to make it real, didn’t it?

Quaiche looked at the console. How much time had passed? Had he really managed to make the air last for five hours? It had seemed doubtful before, but here he was, still breathing. Perhaps the indoctrinal virus had helped, putting his brain into some mysterious state of zenlike calm so that he used up the oxygen less quickly.

But there wouldn’t have been any air left, let alone oxygen, not by the third or fourth hour. Unless the ship had made a mistake. This was a dismaying thought, given all that he had been through, but it was the only possible explanation. The air leak must not have been as serious as the
Daughter
had thought it was. Perhaps it had started off badly, but had sealed itself to some extent. Perhaps the auto-repair systems had not been totally destroyed, and the
Daughter
had been able to fix the leak.

Yes, that had to be it. There was simply no other explanation.

But the console said that only three hours had passed since his crash.