The Scandalous Duchess (5 page)

I nodded, my mind made up. It was a good end to my visit. An entirely suitable end.

I wished I felt more enthusiastic about it. I wished I could tear those words from my thoughts but they clung there, like stubborn autumn leaves resisting all the efforts of a winter gale to scatter them.

…the woman at whose feet I would kneel…

Such sentiments might be those the Duke recalled from the initial days of his wooing of lovely Blanche to be his wife. He had loved Blanche. He did not love me. Such sentiments
had nothing to do with me, who would be no better than a court whore if I complied.

I took the first opportunity offered to travel north—running away, if I were honest. With my maid, my groom and a manservant from Kettlethorpe who served as protection, I joined up with a group of hardy pilgrims intent on journeying to pray at the tomb of St John of Beverley. It was not the season for pilgrimages, the winter days being short and the weather chancy, but the air was clear and crisp, the ground hard with frost and the road surfaces better than the soft mire of spring.

I was pleased to be on the move. Lady Alice begged me to stay, not understanding my determination, but to what end? I thought it best to be absent when the Duke returned and his new lady was ensconced at The Savoy.

We travelled slowly and steadily, putting up at inns as we followed the straight line of Ermine Street, the old Roman road, before turning east at Newark along Fosse Way. Now the scenery, the flat open expanses, became familiar to me, and when we crossed the Trent—looking innocent between its icy banks but the cause of many of my problems at Kettlethorpe—I knew that I was almost home. And there was the vast bulk of the cathedral at Lincoln, the two magnificent towers emerging out of the distance like a ship looming out of mist at sea.

Not far now. I ought to be making a stop at Coleby but the depredations of winter made me keep to my track. Kettlethorpe would not be much better, but the state of Coleby would utterly depress my spirits. Suddenly I could not reach home quickly enough.

On that final morning, before I turned north from Lincoln, I fell in with one of the pilgrims who urged her horse alongside mine. I had taken note of her, although she preferred to converse with the menfolk. Loud and lively, her good humour was infectious on the long days and she was quick to sing and laugh. Broad of hip and shoulder, broad of feature too, her colourful garments proclaimed her perennial optimism, as did her hat, round and large as a serving platter to shelter her from sun and rain. I envied her confidence, her high spirits.

Mistress Saxby, a cheerful flirt and incorrigible gossip.

She settled beside me, the pilgrim's badges, mementoes of her many travels, jangling where they had been pinned to her cloak. I smiled warily. Her talk could be bawdy and she was not quick to take the hint to go away, but surprising me, her voice was low and respectful of my mood. She bent her head to look at me, her sharp eyes, grey as quartz, darting over my face. She made me uncommonly nervous.

‘You look sad, mistress.'

It interested me that she had noticed. ‘Not inordinately,' I replied. I did not want to converse about my worries with this worldly woman.

‘In fact, you have looked in poor humour since we left London,' she remarked, in no manner put off. ‘Why is that?'

And so, since I must: ‘I have just left my daughter—in London. It was hard to say farewell. She's seven years old.'

It had been hard indeed, but I had kept a smile in place, pinning memories of her farewell kisses in my mind.

‘It's young to leave a child. A girl child…'

I detected a hint of criticism, and was quick to respond. ‘She's in the Lancaster household. A damsel to the
two daughters. I was there too until the death of Duchess Blanche.'

Mistress Saxby nodded comfortably. ‘Then she'll not lack for aught. You should give thanks, mistress.'

She made me feel ungrateful of the blessings that had fallen on me.

‘Are you a widow?' she asked, gesturing to my black skirts.

‘Yes. Almost three months ago. He was fighting in Aquitaine for the Duke.'

‘Ah. A soldier.'

‘I don't know whether he was killed in battle or brought low by disease.' My companion did not need to know that he was a knight and a landowner.

‘Disease is a terrible thing,' she mused solemnly. ‘Last year my own husband took sick and died within the week. Look at the Prince, God save him. He's not long for this world, you mark my words. We'll say a rosary for him at Lincoln.' Her squirrel-gaze held mine. ‘You're young to be a widow, mistress. How old did you say you were?'

I hadn't, but I recognised a practised talent for acquiring information. ‘Twenty-two years,' I said, smiling at the success of the technique.

‘You'll wed again. Or perhaps you have a sweetheart already? Unless it was a love match between the pair of you and you're still in mourning.' I flushed at the implication that my emotions were so flighty. Mistress Saxby chuckled. ‘I see you have!'

‘No. I have no time for such things. Nor will I.' My reply was as sharp as her stare. ‘I have two children at home who need my care. And my husband's estates…'

Mistress Saxby tossed her head, the veil attached to her
hat dislodged from its neat folds. ‘Your children will grow and move away. Your land will bring cold comfort. You need a man in your bed.'

I took a breath. ‘That's the last thing I need,' I remarked.

It was as if I had not spoken. ‘Your youth will be gone and forgotten before you know it. Without your pretty face, how will you attract a husband? You'll be a lonely old woman.'

‘Do you speak from experience?' I retorted, but she took no ill-humour from my sharpness.

‘Not so. I have had three husbands. And more than one…
admirer
, shall we say. I am a widow at present, but I have my eye on a likely man.' Mistress Saxby pursed her lips at the prospect of the man in question. ‘Are you courted?'

Was I?

I would like to put the light back into your eyes…

‘Yes,' I said, lured into indiscretion before I could stop myself.

‘Is he a worthy man?'

‘Too good for me.'

‘Nonsense. No man is too good for a good woman.' She slid a glance over me, her smile widening. ‘Do I suppose it is not marriage he offers?'

And I found myself replying to her catechism. ‘No.'

‘Is he wed?'

‘Yes.'

‘Do they live together?'

‘They spent Christmas together in Dorset at Kingston Lacy.' That much I knew. ‘She travels to London to join him. She carries their first child.'

Mistress Saxby's ample lips became a thin line as she contemplated. ‘It doesn't sound too hopeful. I'd be wary of
him, if I were you. Conflicting loyalties make for difficulties. But the question is: do you like him?'

I shook my head, turned my face away.

‘If you wish to keep your own counsel, it's your choice.'

This made me feel churlish. ‘How do I know if I can trust him?' I asked this worldly woman.

‘Has he given you a gift?' I shook my head. ‘If he does it shows he has designs on your respectability.'

‘Oh.' I thought about this. Not that any gift had been offered. ‘So I should refuse any such gift?'

Her eye gleamed. ‘I'd not say that. I'd say accept any gift he makes you.' The gleam brightened to a twinkle as if she had been the recipient of many gifts in her past life. ‘It may well be that it is the sign of a true regard, if he is willing to spend money on you and he matches the gift well to your inclination. And before you argue that it is too particular, the great Capellanus says—have you read Capellanus?—well, he says that a woman who is loved may freely accept from her lover a mirror or a girdle or a pair of gloves.'

‘So if he gives me a gift of a mirror he loves me true?' I found myself smiling.

‘Of course.' But her answering smile was sly. ‘Unless he merely wishes to lure you into his bed. Only you can tell. You need to balance the good against the bad in any relationship, mistress. But I'd say take him, if you would. I have taken a lover, and enjoyed the experience.'

I thought about this too. I could well imagine, as I took in the expanse of her comfortable figure, assessing the quality of her enveloping cloak and her stocky grey palfrey. She was not without means.

‘And sin?' I asked bluntly, startling even myself. ‘What about sin? What about adultery, if I take this man to my bed?'

‘Sin!' She brushed the word away as if it were a troublesome gnat. ‘Will God punish us for snatching at happiness in a world that brings a woman precious little of it? I say not. I live a good life, I give charity to the starving, I confess my sins and find absolution. Would God begrudge me a kiss or the warm arms of a man on a cold night? I'm too old to look for marriage, I think. Now you'll be an object of admiration and desire. You're comely, and doubtless fertile, mistress.'

And Mistress Saxby raised her harsh voice—much like the raucous jays that hopped along the hedgerows—in song.

She leaned to nudge me with a knowing elbow.

‘But to live without it is even worse,' she added in an aside accompanied by an arch look.

I was sorry to see her go at Lincoln.

‘I need to offer a prayer for inflammation of the knees,' she said with a roguish wink. ‘And other bits of me. I'll not be able to go on pilgrimages for ever.' The badges on her cloak glinted in the cold light. ‘Make the most of your youth, my girl. You'll regret it if you don't.' With broad fingers, surprisingly agile, she unpinned one of her badges showing the Virgin seated in Majesty under a canopy, with the Christ child in her arms. ‘Take this. One of my better
ones—pewter rather than lead—can't afford the silver. From Our Lady's Shrine at Walsingham. She'll keep you safe.'

Mistress Saxby patted my hand as her face grew sombre. ‘If you do take this man, what I would say is: beware of the wife. It's easy to be carried away by the glamour of stolen kisses, but a wife can make your life a misery. Take my word for it.'

‘I have no intention of crossing the path of his wife.'

Mistress Saxby's sharply cynical smile returned.

‘As you wish, mistress, as you wish. Depends how fervent his kisses are, I'd say. Or how bottomless his purse!'

A hitch of her broad shoulders and she was gone, but her advice occupied my mind, all the way to Kettlethorpe. And then I abandoned it, because what Mistress Saxby might choose to do with her life was not for the Lady of Kettlethorpe. Besides, there was no choice for me to make. The Duke, in typical Plantagenet manner, had swept me aside as if I were no more than a young hound under his feet. Something much desired in one instance could become a matter for boredom in the blink of an eye.

Chapter Three

T
he rank poverty of Kettlethorpe settled over me in a desolation, as thick and dark as one of the boiled blood puddings that my cook was too keen on stirring up. Three thousand acres my son held here, and all of it either sand or stone or thick forest. Of good soil there was none; the land was incapable of producing anything other than a poor yield of hay, flax or hemp, and the meadows flooded regularly. Ruinous was the only word to come to mind as the mean houses came into view. The village looked run down, grim with deprivation, and so did my manor.

No surprise then that Hugh had sold his soldiering skills. Not that life as a soldier was anything but his first preference. If it was a choice of riding off to war or tilling the land, farming came a long way second, even if it meant being absent from me for most of our short married life. I considered, not for the first time, how I had managed to conceive three children. But I had, and they were my blessing.

For a moment the hall was silent except from the drip of water into a wooden bucket and the distant irritable bark of a dog. Then a rush of feet, followed by an authoritarian voice. I opened my arms, and into them fell Margaret, growing awkwardly at six years, and Thomas who at four had more noisy energy than he could control. I kissed Margaret, as self-contained as Blanche, and hugged Thomas until he squirmed for release. Hugh's heir. Hugh's pride and joy and hope for the future.

And there was Agnes Bonsergeant, my own nurse, who had come with me to Kettlethorpe, and did not mince her words as she clasped her hands on my shoulders and kissed my cheeks.

‘I thought we might not see you for a little while yet. You were not offered a position with the new Duchess then?'

‘No.' Stripping off my gloves enabled me to hide my expression.

‘Why not?'

I sighed silently, hoping she did not notice. ‘The Duke was busy. The Prince is ill, the King fading.'

‘Nothing new in that. I thought that he might have valued your service—his wife carrying a child and all. Nothing like a mother with healthy children to give good advice. I'd have snapped you up.'

‘So I hoped. Her own childhood nurse attends her. And her sister travels with her. Why would she need more?'

I did not want to answer any more questions.

‘Still…you look pale, Katherine.'

‘Tired, that's all,' I admitted, allowing Margaret to pull me into the private chamber.

‘And Blanche? How is my little Blanche?' Agnes asked, collecting up Thomas with an experienced arm.

‘Well. They are all well. Lady Alice sends her best wishes to you and wishes a fine husband on you.' I sank onto a settle by the fire. ‘It's good to be home.'

Agnes grunted at the suggestion of a husband, fine of otherwise. ‘We have some problems.'

I raised my brows. ‘Some wine first, I think. Then the bad news.'

And while I drank, Agnes told me of the leaking roof, the pest that had affected the chickens, the poor quality wood, and lack of it, set aside for burning. We were short of ale, the last delivery being sour. A request that the road over towards Coleby should be improved at my expense—the list went on.

‘It's not good,' I said.

‘Nor is this place good for your health. Or the children's. You could go into Lincoln. Hire a house there for the winter.'

‘I have no money to be spent on hiring houses. If I have no money to mend the roof, or pay to bring Hugh's body home, I have no right to squander what I have where it is not necessary.' I watched Thomas. We had given him a wooden sword for a New Year gift, which he wielded with dangerous vigour. Would he choose to be a soldier like Hugh? ‘How would I forgive myself if I had nothing to give Thomas but a worn-down inheritance, and me sitting in luxury in Lincoln?'

‘Hardly in luxury…'

‘We must do what we can. I suppose the roof is the first priority.'

‘A position at court would have solved the problem.'

‘But I haven't got one,' I snapped, then immediately regretted it when Agnes scowled as if I were an ill-mannered child. ‘I ask pardon, Agnes. I am more weary than I thought.' Then on impulse: ‘Mistress Saxby said I should take a man to my bed.'

‘Did she now. And who is Mistress Saxby?'

‘A pilgrim with a practical turn of mind.'

‘A man would double your problems, some would say!'

And at last I laughed. She was doubtless right. Agnes had never married nor ever would. Her opinion of Hugh had not been high.

‘I have not come home empty-handed,' I announced before Agnes could consider asking me if I had any particular man in mind. And from my saddle bag I brought sweetmeats for Margaret and Thomas, a length of fine wool of a serviceable dark blue, well wrapped in leather for Agnes.

‘From Lady Alice. She thinks we live in dire penury. I think she assessed the value of the clothes on my back and found them wanting.'

‘She would be right. Did she give you anything?'

‘No.'

I kept the pilgrim's badge in my scrip, even when I had considered pinning it to Margaret's bodice. I would keep it for myself, a memento of a very female heart-to-heart.

‘And how was Lord John?' Agnes asked as, much later, we sat at supper, an unappetising array of pottage and beans and a brace of duck. ‘Apart from being busy.'

‘Why?' I was immediately on guard.

‘Because he is the only member of the household you have not talked of.'

It was a jolt, but I forced myself to smile, my muscles to relax as I considered my reply, finding a need to dissemble. Agnes of the suspicious mind was watching me. With an arm around her shoulders, I hugged her close. She was very dear to me.

‘Conspicuous,' I remarked. A word that barely did justice to the Duke's eye-catching quality, but it would satisfy Agnes. ‘When is he ever not?'

And just as enigmatic, I could have added, but didn't. Agnes's eye would have become even more searching. Meanwhile, the Duke's disturbing assertions continued to echo in my mind like the clang of the passing bell.

‘Visitors, my lady. And by the look of them, they've travelled far.'

‘It's not the Duke of Lancaster, is it?' I asked caustically.

Master Ingoldsby looked puzzled. ‘Why no, mistress. I'd not say so. Did we expect his lordship?'

I squeezed his arm, sorry to have taken advantage of his limitations. Grey of hair, his face deeply lined, Master Ingoldsby's years were catching up with him. ‘No, we did not. I doubt he'll find a path to my door.'

The Duke's carnal desire for me had died a permanent death. It must be something of a relief to both of us.

I was in the cellars, bewailing the contaminated hams—the roof leaked here also—and assessing the barrels of inferior ale, when Master Ingoldsby came to hover at my shoulder. I left the hams and ale willingly, and went out into the courtyard, tucking the loose strands of my hair beneath my hood, considering whether it might be my sister
Philippa. I did not think so. Life in the country did not suit my sister, a town mouse, born and bred.

And no it was not. The sound of horses' hooves greeted me and the lumbering creak and groan of a heavy wagon on the road, and as I walked out past the gatehouse, I saw that the wagon had an escort of men, without armour or livery to help my identification, but well-mounted with an impressive array of weapons. As Lady of Kettlethorpe I would have to offer them hospitality. I wondered if my cook could stretch our supper of mutton collops and a dish of salt cod to accommodate another half-dozen mouths. Something, I supposed, could be achieved with bread, eggs and a hearty pottage, as I walked towards the man who had already dismounted and was pulling off his hood as he bowed. His expression was severe, his carriage upright, and I thought he had the look of a soldier despite his advancing years.

‘Lady Katherine de Swynford…'

‘Sir?'

The man inclined his head. ‘I am instructed to deliver this to you.' He raised his chin in the direction of the wagon. ‘I am Nicholas Graves, my lady. A soldier by profession.'

The ever-present nerves in my belly settled, assuaged by his courtesy. ‘What is it?' I asked.

Intrigued, I walked to the wagon, expecting I knew not what as he drew back the heavy canvas cover.

‘Oh!'

It took me a moment to acknowledge what I saw. A large linen-wrapped bundle of what would be pieces of armour and mail, another swathed roll of knightly weapons. A worn travelling coffer. A smaller box with a lock. And over all was draped a banner. A sea of silver, divided by the slash of
a black chevron, three snarling boars heads in gold, teeth and tongues gleaming through the wear and tear of warfare.

The possessions and accoutrements of a knight on military service.

My attention was drawn back to the box with the locked lid. Someone had carved a chevron and three boars' heads on it, rough but recognisable. It was the small size of it…and as truth struck home at last, my knees buckled and I found myself clinging to the side of the wagon. Then Agnes was beside me, an arm around my shoulder, and Master Ingoldsby had a grip of my arm.

‘I was ordered to arrange to conduct Sir Hugh's possessions home, my lady,' the soldier said.

‘Hugh…' I whispered.

‘Yes, my lady.' He looked at me as if he expected me to collapse at his feet, but I was made of sterner stuff than that.

‘How did he die?' I asked as the driver climbed from his seat and began to unload the wrapped pieces of armour. My voice seemed faint to my ears and far away. I was shivering uncontrollably, but it was not the cold of the little wind that had picked up.

‘Dysentery, my lady,' he replied laconically. ‘He was too ill to travel home in September. We thought he was growing stronger—but he failed. In November.'

‘Yes, I knew it was November. I was told.' I frowned at the fiercely grinning boars' heads, hating their vigour. ‘But I did not arrange this. I cannot pay.' Now I heard the panic in my voice. I had visions of these sad remnants being taken away from me, because I did not have the coin to pay the driver of the wagon or the escort. Where would I find the
money for this? I felt Agnes shift her grip and her hands closed tighter on my shoulders.

‘There is no need for your concern. It is all paid for, my lady.'

‘Who paid for it? Who arranged it?'

‘My lord arranged it.'

I shook my head. I could not seem to take my eyes from the battered gauntlet that had slid from its wrapping and lay, fingers curled upwards.

‘The Duke arranged it all. I serve him, my lady. The Duke of Lancaster.' As if he was addressing a want-wit. ‘And I am instructed to give you these.' He pushed into my hand two leather bags, one large and one small, and two folded letters.

I blinked as I exhaled slowly. So this was the Duke's doing.

‘Sir Hugh's body was too…' Master Graves began, then bit off his words. ‘Given the circumstances—well, it was decided to bring only his heart back here to England.'

‘Yes…'

‘My lady…?' I became aware of my steward looking to me for orders. I must think about the Duke of Lancaster's gift to me, but not now. Not yet.

‘If one of your men could take the…the heart to the church, sir,' I said, pointing to where the tower of the little church of St Peter and St Paul could be seen behind a stand of trees. And to Master Ingoldsby: ‘And these men need ale, if we can find any fit to drink. Then food.'

How superbly practical I had become as a warmth bloomed in my belly that Hugh's heart had been brought home. It was enough, and what he would have wanted. Later
I would open the other packages brought by Master Graves. Later I would read the two letters. Then I would supervise the cleaning, repair and storing of Hugh's armour, which would one day belong to Thomas.

And I would, of necessity, consider the implications of such generosity from the Duke, for it was no light matter. Such open-handedness would put me under an obligation.

For no reason that I could fathom, Mistress Saxby of the wide hips and wider hat swayed flirtatiously into my mind. A lady might accept a mirror or a girdle from her lover. Or even a pair of gloves, for they were symbols of a true affection.

What if the impatient lover gave the gift of the husband's heart? The Duke had restored the only remnant of my dead husband to me, with the money to assure a tomb of some magnificence. The Duke had given far more than a passing thought to what I would most desire. Where did a dead husband's heart weigh in Mistress Saxby's assessment?

I had no idea. For a moment I wished she was there in her jingling pilgrim's garb to advise me.

I knew that would not serve. Any decision I made must be on my own conscience.

The larger leather purse hardly needed investigation. I could tell by its weight that it contained a sum of money sufficient to inter Hugh with honour. I pushed it aside. It meant much to me to be able to pay for an effigy on Hugh's tomb at the hand of a true craftsman, but it was the demands of the living, not the dead, that drew my eye. Lingering in the hall, I addressed the letter that I considered to be the more innocent of the pair, carrying it to a cresset, my nose wrinkling
at the stench of hot fat. The wick needed trimming. It was all a far cry from the fine wax candles of The Savoy.