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THE SEAS

A Novel by Samantha Hunt

ebook ISBN: 978-1-59692-887-9

M P Publishing Limited

12 Strathallan Crescent
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Isle of Man
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Originally published by:

MacAdam/Cage
155 Sansome Street, Suite 550
San Francisco, CA 94104
www.macadamcage.com
Copyright © 2004 by Samantha Hunt
All rights reserved.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Hunt, Samantha.
          The seas / by Samantha Hunt.
           p. cm.
          ISBN 1-931561-85-0 (hardcover : alk. paper)
          I. Title.
          PS3608.U585S43 2004
          813’ .6—dc22
2004014851

Book and cover design by Dorothy Carico Smith.

Publisher’s Note: This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

For Walter and Diane

It was a dark and stormy night,
and the ship was on the sea.
The captain said, “Sailor, tell us a story,”
and the sailor began.
“It was a dark and stormy night,
and the ship was on the sea…”

THE MAP: A PROLOGUE

The highway only goes south from here. That’s how far north we live. There aren’t many roads out of town, which explains why so few people ever leave. Things that are unfamiliar are a long way off and there is no direct route to these things. Rather it’s a street to a street to a road across a causeway to a road across a bridge to a road to another road before you reach the highway.

If you were to try to leave, people who have known you since the day you were born would recognize your car and see you leaving. They would wonder where you were going and they would wave with two fingers off the steering wheel, a wave that might seem like a stop sign or a warning to someone trying to forget this very small town. It would be much easier to stay.

The town is built on a steep and rocky coast so that the weathered houses are stacked like shingles, or like the rows of razor wire in a prison, one on top of the other up the hill. Small paths and narrow roads wind their ways between the houses so that there’s no privacy in this town. If you were to stumble home drunk one night, by morning, the entire town would know. Not that they would care. People here are accustomed to drunks. We have the highest rate of alcoholism in the country and this fact is repeated so often I thought we should put it on the Chamber of Commerce sign at the town line that welcomes tourists. More alcoholics per captita! Enjoy your visit!

Most of the waterfront is cluttered with moorings, piers that smell of motor oil, and outbuildings for the fishermen though there is a short stretch of sandy beach and a boardwalk where every summer a few fool tourists fail to enjoy themselves and spend their vacations wondering why anyone would live here. If they asked me I’d tell them, “We live here because we hate the rest of you.” Though that isn’t always true it is sometimes.

Then there is the ocean, mean and beautiful.

“We’re getting out of here,” I say. “Let’s go.” I find Jude’s keys on his kitchen table. He is still in the living room just lying there. Underneath the keys on the table there is a pen and a letter written from Jude to me. His handwriting is like his hair, long and dark tangles. The letter is tucked into an envelope where Jude has written on the outside:

THE REST OF THE STORY

I stuff the envelope into my jacket pocket, being careful not to fold or crush it. “I’ll drive,” I say leaving the door open for Jude. I pull myself up into the driver’s seat and rasp the bench forward. “Jude,” I call. I start the truck. It will be hundreds of miles before I have to decide where we are actually going. For now we are just going south.

I can’t see anything besides rain. The back window is blurred by droplets and fogging up with our breath. “Would you turn on the defrost?” I ask him but he doesn’t move. He just stares out the window. I do it myself and a blast of cool air from outside floods the truck. The air smells like a terrific storm that came all the way from secret strata high up in the atmosphere, a place so far away that it smells unlike the tarred scent of sea decay we have here.

I feel buoyant. I feel light and ready. I feel like we are getting out of here and mostly I feel Jude inside me and it feels like love.

Jude is being very quiet but that is not unusual. Jude has been quiet over the past year and a half, ever since he returned home from the war. He is closing his eyes so as not to see the land we know disappearing. From here, if there were no rain, we would see how our poor town sits in a pit of sadness like a black hole or a wallowing cavity or an old woman. We would see how the town stares out at the ocean that it loves never considering its other options. The town must be drunk to love the ocean because the ocean thinks the town is small and weak. The ocean always beats the town throughout the hardest winter months, pulling down houses and ripping up boats.

In the rearview there’s just rain and so we can’t see anything. I feel free. I give the truck a little gas, trying to increase the distance between us and back there. “Jude,” I say, “we’re getting out of here.”

I look again in the rearview mirror and quite suddenly there is a beautiful blue as though the storm finally broke. It is truly a gorgeous color. This blue is chaotic and changing. I recognize it immediately. “Jude,” I say. “Look,” and I point into the rearview mirror. “It’s the ocean coming up behind us,” I say. I watch as the blue rises up like a tidal wave so quickly that I am certain it will catch up with us soon. “It doesn’t want us to leave,” I say and check the mirror. “I don’t think we can outrun the ocean but I’ll try for your sake,” I tell him and accelerate. I look again in the rearview. The color blue fills the entire mirror and watching it I think that is how a small northern town in America works. It enlists one beautiful thing like the ocean or the mountains or the snow to keep people stuck and stagnant and staring out to sea forever.

I watch the blue in the mirror. It is so beautiful that it is hard to look away. “Jude,” I say, “all right. Fuck the dry land. I am a mermaid.” I turn to look at him, to see what he will think of that but Jude is not sitting beside me. “Jude?” I ask and stare at the empty vinyl seat where he should be. He is not there. He is gone. I reach my hand over to touch the empty seat and even glance down underneath the seat looking for him. I look away from the road for too long. He is gone and the water rushes up behind me like a couple of police officers with their blue lights flashing, with their steel blue guns drawn.

UNABRIDGED

“I’m not from here, am I?” I ask my mother while she is tightening the strap of her bathrobe. I don’t want to be from here because most of the people in this town think of me as a mold or a dangerous fungus that might infect their basements. I am the town’s bad seed. I am their rotten heart.

My mother opens her robe a crack so I can see the loose elastic of her pink underwear and her belly button. It is popped and spread as a manhole. “Look at that,” she says and points to her stretched stomach as evidence. “That’s where you’re from, nineteen years ago,” she says.

“Dad said I came from the water.”

“That certainly would be unusual.”

My mother is regularly torn between being herself and being my mother. Her internal argument is sometimes visible from the outside as if she had two heads sprouting from her one neck. The heads bicker like sisters. One says, “Be sensible for your daughter’s sake. Three meals a day. Brush teeth at night. Organize. Comet. Pledge. Joy.” While the other head says nothing. The other head is reading a book about whether life exists outside our solar system.

She glances across the kitchen to my grandfather for his reaction. He doesn’t make one. I have grown to count on his abiding distraction. Having my grandfather in the house is like having a secret tunnel open to the distant past, where he lives.

My grandfather continues stirring the sugar in the sugar bowl while staring at the kitchen door where the neighbor’s cat is plucking the screen with her claw. The man who owns the cat is a strange man. The cat often comes over to our house for a bowl of water as the man only serves the cat orange juice or ginger ale or milk. The man is afraid of water. He doesn’t drink it and washes minimally. The man was once a sailor who survived a very bad storm. He says he saw the water do things that night that he doesn’t bother to repeat anymore because no one would believe him. But it must have been bad because he hasn’t gone out on the sea for years and still he can start to tremble with fear if my mother turns on her garden hose to water the impatiens.

The cat plucks the screen. “Dad said I’m a mermaid,” I tell them.

“But I thought that mermaids don’t have legs or don’t have a voice or a soul unless they marry a mortal,” my mother says. My mother listens to my voice. My mother looks at my legs. “You don’t even have a husband.”

“Ma. Urruggg,” I say annoyed because she’s pointing out many of the very same things I’ve already heard. They rub a raw spot.

“I see,” she says and rocks her back against the kitchen counter.

“But I don’t see so well,” I say. “And I think my trouble seeing might be a characteristic of the depth of the sea where I am from,” I tell them. “I think it is a region so dark blue that the skin of creatures from that depth has no pigment and neither do their eyes. Like me,” I say and look away from them, out the door. “I imagine there are some creatures down there who don’t even have eyes at all.”

My grandfather stops stirring the sugar. “There’s a word for that place,” he says and wheels his office chair over to the windowsill where he keeps one of many dictionaries. He throws the book open on the table. It makes a good thud. He leafs through the pages very quickly. “I can almost remember the word,” he says. “It starts with had- or ha-. I read it in the Scientific American a few years ago,” he says. “And I looked it up at the time.” He tears through the dictionary looking for the word that means

n. – a region of deep sea so dark that the
creatures who dwell there have little or no pigment

“It was here,” he says. “Someone took it,” he says and looks at my mother and me with suspicion, mostly me. I try not to meet his gaze but he’s a tough old man, my father’s father, and he can stare at me for a long time. Eventually I have to look away. I walk over to the screen door and let the kitty cat inside.

I was thirsty. It was just floating there. And anyway, that word is mine.

THE SCIENTIFIC AMERICAN

The first day I met Jude, I was wading in the ocean. This was long before he joined the Army. Maybe I was twelve or thirteen at the time. When I looked up Jude was swimming near the shore. He looked like a horse. A seahorse. There he is, I thought and meant my father, because I had been waiting for him to come back. And then I had a thought. I am very interested in science and I had heard about two different theoretical experiments that seem to demonstrate similar principles. The first was that if a bunch of monkeys were locked in a room with a typewriter eventually they would produce the entire works of William Shakespeare. This sounded like an excellent experiment to me. It made me want to be a scientist. The second experiment I had heard of was that in quantum physics the possibility exists that one day the molecules of a body could arrange themselves just so that a person would be able to pass through a wall that appears solid to the eye. That is how much room we have between our molecules. I thought of that then I thought, “This is the place where all of my father’s molecules went.” Then Jude was coming out of the water and I thought in quantum physics there must be a possibility that all the molecules of my father would find each other again and would walk out of the water looking at least a little bit like him.

But Jude didn’t walk out of the water. He stayed there for a long time and he must have been freezing because the ocean this far north is rarely suited for swimming though some children do. But this man didn’t look like a child. Tall and dark, he looked like my father and so there, at that moment, I started loving Jude.

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