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Chapter 20
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ater that evening, Anna laughed so hard she had a stitch in her side, and Aunt Lillian had tears in her eyes. They were playing charades in the drawing room. Cece was bouncing around trying to make them understand who she was.
Earlier that day, Anna had begged off the house inspection so she and Sebastian could spend more time with Harry. They'd gone into town, and Harry had been mobbed by people welcoming him home. She was happier and more content than she'd been in years. Her brother and her betrothed had come to some sort of understanding. She'd half expected Sebastian to resist her plans to continue working with the smugglers. She was glad he hadn't. It would have been a serious problem for her.
Sebastian agreed with her suggestion to bring the girls and their governess to the Hill until Lady Rutherford returned. They'd dined
en famille
and played games after dinner. Together, the men kept the girls well entertained.
Althea came to sit beside her and said in her quiet way, “I've never seen my brother act so silly.”
Anna put her arm around her. “It's been a long time. Harry and Sebastian were my protectors and my fun-makers when I was a child. Once, when Percy Blanchard hurt my feelings, Sebastian threw him into the fountain.”
“Why do you call him that?”
Anna shrugged. “I've always called him by his first name. Although for years, it was Bastian. I couldn't pronounce it properly, you see.”
“We never have fun like this at the Priory,” Althea said wistfully.
Anna hugged her. “We'll have to see what we can do about that.”
She broke into laughter as Harry scooped Cece up and carried her horsy-back around the room.
Althea glanced up. “I think I'm going to like having you live with us.”
Anna hugged her tighter. “I know I'm going to like living with you.”
The next thing she knew, Sebastian lifted her in his arms. Anna shrieked like a child and turned to see Harry lift Althea up.
Anna put her arms around Rutherford's neck and kissed him. “We need to get them to bed.”
“We need to get to bed,” he retorted.
“Hmm.” She smiled and glanced at her father and aunt. “Not for a while yet.”
Harry and Sebastian chased the two younger girls up the stairs to their room. Althea chose to walk sedately next to Anna.
“I know my sisters have already asked, but when did you decide you wanted to marry Ruhy?”
“Oh, I have wanted to marry him since I was a child and had an idea of what marriage was.” Anna stopped for a moment. “Yet it was something else entirely, a spark, a fire that neither of us could ignore. That's what changed everything.” Anna took Althea's arm and continued to the corridor. “My dearest friend, Phoebe, told me about it. When you feel a sparkle, well, maybe more of a jolt—as if someone takes your breath away each and every time he touches you—that is the man you should look at more closely.”
“My mama is only concerned with title and money,” Althea said.
“Enough money to live on is not to be dismissed lightly. Title”—Anna shrugged lightly—“I would not have married without love. You go to bed, and I'll see you in the morning.”
Althea kissed Anna's cheek. “Good night, Anna.”
“Good night, Althea.”
Anna kissed Cece and Eloisa good night as well.
“That was fun tonight,” Eloisa said.
“I'm glad you had a good time.”
“I never knew Ruhy could be so much fun,” Cece added.
“We'll have to convince Harry to visit often,” Anna said as she drew the covers up over the younger girls. “Sebastian is always funnier when he's with Harry. Good night.”
Anna returned to the drawing room just as her father and aunt decided to retire. After wishing them a good night, she joined her brother and her betrothed.
Sebastian held his hand out to her. She took it and sat next to him. “I'm so glad the girls had a good time. It's strange to think you've never played with them. You two played with me all the time.”
Rutherford rubbed his chin. “Playing wasn't encouraged at the Priory. Something we'll have to change.”
“Yes, we will.” She turned to Harry. “You, my brother, must visit often. We can't have little girls growing up without knowing how to play.”
“And our children.” Rutherford took her hand.
Anna met his molten silver gaze. “And our children.”
“It's late. You two should be in bed as well,” Harry said.
Sebastian lifted her in his arms. “Harry, good night.”
Anna hung her head back to see him. “Good night, Harry.”
He laughed. “Good night to the both of you.”
Rutherford dropped her off at her room and went to his own. “How long will you be?”
Anna pursed her lips. “Give me about twenty minutes. Lizzy needs to comb my hair and braid it.”
He reached up and curled one loose strand around his finger. “Leave it. I want to take it down.”
Anna smiled softly and shook her head. “Will you really comb it?”
His eyes softened. “Yes.”
“Very well.”
Sebastian started down the corridor and stopped. “Have you heard from your mother?”
“Goodness, what made you think of that now?”
He shrugged his shoulders. “Thinking of mine, probably.”
“Papa has,” Anna said. “She's over the moon about our betrothal and on her way here. Of course, she doesn't know about Harry.”
Sebastian came back to her and wrapped her in his arms.
“Papa sent a courier immediately after we told him, and she replied immediately. He received the note while we were out today.” Anna couldn't stop her brows from knitting. “I don't know how long it will take her to arrive. Oh, Sebastian, I hope they'll be able to mend their marriage.”
He touched his forehead to hers. “You know she wasn't always this way.”
“No. She changed so much when she received the news of Harry's death. Papa as well.” She pressed her lips together.
Sebastian gathered Anna to him. “I hope they can forgive each other. I think they were very much in love.”
Anna nodded. “Yes, they were.” She stood on her tiptoes and kissed him. “The hard part is that they each feel betrayed by the other. I'll see you in a bit.”
She couldn't imagine starting a marriage without love. How hard it must have been for her parents.
Lizzy was ready to help her change. Once Anna was in her nightgown, Lizzy waited.
“I'm leaving it up tonight,” Anna said airily.
Lizzy's eyes grew round.
Anna wrinkled her forehead and looked everywhere but at her maid. “Yes, well, if he enjoys combing it, there is one less thing for you to worry about.”
Lizzy grabbed her hands and jigged. “Miss, it's so nice to see him in love with you. Everyone's talking about it.”
“Oh, no.” Anna closed her eyes for a moment. “That is just the sort of thing that will set Lady Rutherford's teeth on edge.”
Lizzy shrugged. “But you'll be Lady Rutherford soon.”
“Well, that is true. Still, I do not want to be in my mother-in-law's black book.”
“Miss Anna. You were in her book when Lord Rutherford decided to marry you. There's not a thing you can do about it.”
Anna sighed. “I'll see you in the morning.”
Lizzy smiled broadly and left the room.
Anna picked up her comb and the bowl for her hairpins and walked through the parlor to Sebastian. He stood naked, staring out the window. She marveled at his body. All hard muscle and long lines.
Dark curls covered his chest and ran down to his groin. His shaft began to rise as he turned to greet her.
All muscle and all mine
. Anna couldn't keep a wicked smile from her face as she sat down at the dressing table and waited.
Sebastian strode over to her and bent to kiss her neck.
“No, you said you wanted to take care of my hair. You must do that first.”
Silently, he removed the pins and placed them in the bowl. Then he took the comb from her hand and began at the ends, deftly working up to her crown. Anna reveled in his touch.
“Do I have to braid it? I love your hair when it's down.”
Their gazes met in the mirror. Contentment and love filled her. “No. If you want my hair down, down it will stay.”
Sebastian lifted her up and carried her to the bed. “You're my love and my life. I don't know what I'd do if anything happened to you.”
He unbuttoned her nightgown and pushed it open, revealing her breasts. The air was cold, but her breasts heated, wanting his touch. He cupped them and weighed them as if trying to decide what to do, then like a feather, his lips grazed one nipple. Desire thrummed through her and wet heat pooled between her legs. She panted, wanting him to take her, fill her. He moved to the other breast, pushing her gown over her hips. Anna swallowed, her voice sounding harsh. “Take me now.”
“Not yet.
“But I'm ready.”
“Umm.” One hand moved down to her curls.
Anna widened her legs and rocked, encouraging him to enter her. He slipped one finger inside. She uttered a breathy cry. Her skin flushed. Just as she could feel her release, he stopped. “Sebastian!”
“You'll have to wait.”
Anna opened her mouth to protest, and he brought his hard lips down upon hers, his tongue surging into her mouth. When she moved to wrap her arms around him, Sebastian captured both her hands in one of his and raised them over her head. His mouth left hers and placed soft kisses on her jaw and neck. She tried to open her legs but he'd trapped them. She wiggled desperately.
Sebastian chuckled deeply and moved to her breasts. Flames shot through her as his mouth wandered over her stomach and nestled between her legs. With her hands now free, she tried to urge him up. He licked, and she grabbed the sheets and arched into him as he played.
Anna thought she'd die of need before he was finished. “Oh, now,” she pleaded. He rose up and entered her slowly, then withdrew.
“Keep your eyes open. I want to watch you.”
“Now, Sebastian, now. Please.”
She tried to grab him, anything to make him enter her more fully. He captured her mouth at the same time as he plunged into her sheath. Flames engulfed her. She wrapped her legs around him, urging and pushing. When she opened her eyes, his gray ones, dark with silver around them, bore into her.
“Stay with me, love.”
He teased her over and over again, bringing her to the crest and taking her back down again. Anna sobbed, wanting release.
He pumped into her again, then twice more. “Now.”
Their wet bodies trembled. His mouth covered hers. When she gave herself over to the inferno, he tumbled in after her.
Rutherford collapsed to her side and drew her to him. His fingers lightly pushed back the damp curls clinging to her face. Anna's chest heaved as she gasped for air.
He knew he'd pushed her. He'd exposed his heart and soul to her, if she could but see it. He'd never expected the depth of feeling he had for Anna or the vulnerability that came with it.
“Are you all right?” He propped her up and held a glass of wine to her lips. “I wanted to show you how I feel, how much I love and need you.”
Anna's breathing gradually slowed. She sipped the wine and gazed up at him, her beautiful blue eyes dark with passion. “You did.” She reached up to touch his face. “And I'm glad. We've changed again, haven't we? I mean this was even deeper than before.”
“Yes.”
“Do your chambers at the Priory have a bathing room? If you intend to do this again, we'll need one.”
His laugh started deep in his chest.
She placed her glass on the night table. “Remember, my love, we must be quiet.” She drew him into a searing kiss.
Holding her close to him, he stroked Anna's hair. He'd do anything to protect her and prayed he wouldn't lose her in the process.
November 15th, 1814, Marsh Hill, Kent
“Miss, you need to wake up.”
Anna groaned and snuggled closer to Rutherford. He held her to him for another moment. Soon she'd be with him always. “You'd better go.”
“How long until we're married?”
His deep chuckle rumbled in his chest.
“One last kiss.”
“You're insatiable.”
“I'm a wanton—look at me with no clothes and in your bed. I don't even want to know what my hair looks like.”
Rutherford held her away from him. Her large eyes were luminous. Her body was still slightly flushed and her hair wild. Anna was the most sensual creature he'd ever seen, and she was his.
“You are a delectable houri. Go before I start something we don't have time to finish.”
A sensuous smile played on her lips, and she raised her eyes to him. God, she took his breath away. More than anything, he wanted her beneath him.
“Miss!” Lizzy's impatient call broke the spell.
She sighed. “Coming, Lizzy.”
Anna kissed him quickly and reached for her gown. “I'll see you at breakfast.”
Another knock, this time from the door to the corridor. “My lord, may I come in?”
“In a minute, Robertson.” Rutherford glanced at Anna and rolled his eyes. “This is as bad as the Park during the Grand Strut.”
Anna grinned and pressed two fingers to his lips. He kissed them, and she disappeared through the door to the parlor.
A half hour later, he descended to the breakfast room to find Harry eating and entertaining Rutherford's two youngest sisters. “Good morning.”
“Good morning, Ruhy.” Eloisa giggled. “Harry was just telling us about the time you climbed the trellises and they fell down.”
Rutherford smiled and glanced at Harry. “Your father whipped us both for that.”
Harry's eyes twinkled as he took a sip of tea. “Yes, not for climbing the trellises, but for allowing Anna to do it as well.”
Rutherford filled his plate and sat across from Harry. “I remember. She had scratches all over her, and her dress was ruined.”
“Good morning,” Anna said. “Whose dress was ruined?”
Rutherford glanced at her. “Yours. Do you remember when the trellises came down?”
She smiled brilliantly. “Oh, yes. Mama was so angry. She was sure I'd be scarred, and Papa punished you both.”
Harry gave a bark of laughter. “And you cried as if you were the one being beaten.”
Anna's eyes shone with delight. “I was so sorry for the both of you.”
“Rutherford promised to replace your dress and Harry to take care of your scratches,” Sir William said from the door.
Cece and Eloisa went into whoops.
“Oh, my,” Anna said, wiping her eyes. “We had such fun.”
“Speak for yourself.” Harry's brow furrowed, but his eyes danced. “I couldn't sit for days afterward.”
“What has got all of you going?” Lillian asked as she entered the room with Althea.
Anna glanced up. “Oh, we were reminiscing about things we did when we were children.”
Sir William took his place at the head of the table. “What are you planning for today?”
Harry shot Rutherford a look. “There are some things I'd like to discuss with Anna and Rutherford, if you two have the time?”
Anna glanced at Rutherford. “We don't have anything planned, do we?”
He studied Harry. “No, we're at your disposal.”
Sir William took the cup of tea Anna handed him. “Rutherford, you are all welcome to remain here, if you'd like. I'm finding it pleasant having the sound of children in the house again.”
“Thank you, Sir William. I think we'd all enjoy staying here.” Rutherford wondered how happy his future father-in-law would be if he knew where Anna was sleeping.
Rutherford glanced at his sisters. “Wouldn't we?”
The girls all nodded their heads vigorously.
Anna ate her last bite and finished her tea. “Harry, where do you want to go?”
Harry raised a brow.
Anna nodded. “Ah, yes, of course.”
Rutherford glanced at Harry. Apparently, Sir William didn't know about Harry's use of the cottage. “Anna, would you like to ride or take the carriage?”
“Ride. I'll change and be right down.”
Rutherford watched her leave before giving his attention to his sisters. “Girls, we'll be gone most of the morning. You have your lessons and, if you're good, we'll play games in the afternoon.”
Althea cast a stern glance at both her sisters. “We promise. Don't we?”
“Yes, Althea.”
She sat up straighter. “We shall look forward to your return.”
Rutherford and Harry bid them good day and walked to the stables.
“What's this about?” Rutherford asked.
“I've been thinking. I have all or most all of my memories, but I'm confused about some things. I think you and Anna will be able to help me.”
“Of course, we're happy to do what we can.”
Anna joined them a short while after the horses were saddled, and they set off, not slowing until they reined in at the cottage.
After helping her down, Rutherford held Anna in his arms for a few moments, enjoying her soft, warm body against his before they turned to their horses.
When he entered the cottage, it was in a shambles. Furniture broken, the feather mattress torn apart, and crockery smashed. “Anna, you don't want to come in here.”
She scuttled under his arm. “
Oh, no!
Who . . . ?
Percy
.”
“That would be my guess.” Rutherford moved aside for Harry to enter.
Harry stopped at the door and surveyed the damage to his cottage. “I'll kill him.”
“There's nothing to do but clean it up.” Anna pursed her lips. “Other than our having to replace some of the furniture and crockery, it can all be repaired. Let's see what we can save.”
At the end of an hour, they'd set aside what they could and had a pile to burn.
“Look at the bright side.” She smiled widely. “You men can make a large fire, and I shall go shopping.”
“I'll have the carpenter replace some of the furniture.” Harry said.
“The Priory carpenter can help as well.”
“Let's build the fire.” Anna carried out the blankets that had escaped Percy's destruction for them to sit on.
Rutherford went to get the saddles. Anna placed a hand on Harry's arm. “We'll make it right again. There is nothing that cannot be replaced.”
He covered her hand. “You're right.”
Once Rutherford returned, they made themselves comfortable.
When he drew Anna to him and placed an arm around her shoulders, Harry knew how large the hole in his heart was. He wanted Emma there.
“Harry, what is it you wanted to discuss?” Rutherford asked.
Harry pulled a face. “I need to know who I am. Not just my name, but what kind of person I am. After I lost my memory, I was fairly quiet. My wife helped me. She made me laugh, but there was always a sadness inside me.” He paused and stared into the fire for several moments, trying to gather his thoughts. “Am I making sense?”
Anna leaned toward him. “You didn't put yourself forward and take charge. Is that it?”
“Well, yes, I suppose. Then on the trip to London, there were circumstances where it was clear to me that I wasn't being treated with the respect that some part of me was accustomed to. What I want to know is, am I more like my old self now?”
Rutherford stared at him. “You've always taken command or tried to.” He grinned. “Even though some thought you reckless, you never really had a devil-may-care attitude. I think that was because of Anna.”
Harry studied her, grasping for a memory that tried to elude him. “I always took care of you.”
Anna's lips pressed into a tight smile. “From the time I was a baby. You sang to me. You helped me learn to walk. So many different things. When I was sick, I'd cry for you.”
Rutherford tightened his grip on her and handed her his handkerchief.
“Yes, I remember,” Harry said slowly. Images ran through his mind. He turned his gaze on Rutherford. “You helped, when you were there.”
Rutherford raised his brows. “Well, I didn't have much choice. Not only were you my best friend, you were my closest neighbor. Unless I wanted to stay at home, which I assure you I did not, I had to help you. I half expected you to take her back to school with you, the one time she cried so much.”
Anna's eyes opened wide. “When was that? I don't remember it.”
Harry laughed. “You were three. It was at the end of the long break. Mama thought it would be best if I left without telling you, but I couldn't do it. You clung and screamed so when anyone tried to take you from me.”
Harry shook his head and laughed some more, then glanced at Rutherford. “And you said, ‘For God's sake, Harry. There'll be the devil to pay if we're late. Get her nurse and take her with you. We'll figure out how to manage when we get there.' ”
“As I don't have any memories of Eton, I take it Mama and Nurse were able to pry me from you.”
“Yes, still crying. I felt like the most horrible person in the world leaving you. Nurse wrote and told me you finally calmed, though for weeks you asked for me. She said she read you all my letters and made some up as well.”
“I remember her reading your letters to me. It made me want to learn to write so you could read mine.”
The more stories they told, the more images came to him. Not only him taking care of Anna, but during her first Season when she stopped him from making a cake of himself with a young woman. “What I don't understand is how I could have forgotten you or Rutherford.”
“Harry, you said you had nothing of your own,” Anna said. “Not even your boots. You'd nothing to grasp on to that was yours. Then, maybe, when you fell in love, you didn't want to remember.”
Harry thought about what she'd said. “You may be right. On my way here, especially in London, I realized Marcella would have been very uncomfortable with—with all of this.” He shook his head. “To think I might never have come home.”
Anna leaned over and touched his hands. “You are back with us now. I'm very sorry you lost your wife and child. I would have loved to have met anyone who cared for you.”
“It seems as if she were part of another life. My father-in-law was right. It was—is time for me to move on and claim my life. Tell me about you two.”
They glanced at each other and smiled. Harry had never seen either of them so happy. More and more he wanted the same joy and contentment.
They told him how they'd helped each other after his death and about Phoebe and Marcus.
“I think I told you, Emma knows him. He brought back to her the body of her betrothed,” Harry said. “She thinks very well of Marcus.”
By the time the fire burned low enough to put out, Anna and Rutherford had offered to help find his Emma.
As they mounted their horses, Harry said, “Show me where you meet with the gentleman and where the deliveries are arriving now. You're changing locations?”
“Yes,” Anna said. “Just as you told me.”
Harry glanced at Rutherford, who was shaking his head. “What is it?”
Rutherford frowned and tilted his head slightly toward Anna. “I'll tell you later.”
First they rode over to the stand of trees. Anna and Rutherford remained on their horses while Harry walked around the area. “It's a good site. Well done.”
He remounted, and they cantered to the cliff over the shed. His little sister had been a good leader. “Anna, I have no complaints at all.”
Rutherford gave him an unholy smile. “You should have heard her bargain for payment. Your smugglers are being paid not only by the French, but by the Home Office as well.” He paused. “One thousand pounds from each.”
Harry gave a low whistle. “I didn't teach you that.”
Anna gave him a look. “I do have talents of my own.”
They rode home in the direction of the cottage.
Still far enough away not to have been heard, Anna pointed to a horse standing riderless in the front. “Look!”
Harry motioned for them all to stop and glanced at Anna. “Stay on Thunderer.”
She pressed her lips together.
“Anna, please. If anything were to happen, you can get away and find help.”
She sighed. “Very well.”
He and Rutherford dismounted and tied their reins to a tree. They skirted around the side of the cottage and looked in. Percy was trying to smash what they'd saved. Harry's anger rose faster than it ever had in his life. He roared and rushed through the front door. Grabbing the other man, Harry drove his fist into his nose, before throwing him against the wall.
Percy fell to the floor, staring at Harry as if he'd seen a ghost.
“You bloody prig. You'll pay for all the damage to this cottage, either in coin or with your bones.”
Percy's nose was again off to the side of his face. Blood ran down his cravat and shirt. “You can't prove I did anything.”
“He's really not very intelligent,” Rutherford said.
Turning back to the miscreant, Harry smiled. “Blanchard, you'd think you'd been beaten enough. You won't get very far thinking that what you did can't be proven. In case you've forgotten, Rutherford is the magistrate.”
Glancing around the room, Rutherford said in a hard voice, “Marsh wasn't the only one to see you trying to destroy what's here. I saw you too. Because your family is well thought of, I let you go before. That was a mistake.”

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