Authors: Neil M. Gunn
I
n the morning Simon Grant felt fresh and sprightly. The middle part of the night hadn't been too good, but now he realised that he had fallen into a second deep sleep, and that, against the chances, was enough to make him more happy than if he had been victorious in a difficult argument. The cat had obviously licked up her porridge and milk and been shooed to the wall on which the sun was shining. It was going to be another glorious day. “And where were you all night?” But the cat bore his attentions with a sleepy indifference, arching her back only when she had to. The cock, in his polite fashion, was finding imaginary grain beside the peat stack for those members of his harem who wished to believe him. Grant wandered to the byre and found that the cow was already out at pasture. After a look behind him, he entered. The stall had not yet been cleaned, and the manure smell had a certain prehistoric thickness which he found not altogether disagreeable, reminding him as it did of the affiliations of
homo sapiens
with the animal kingdom.
Wandering happily back, he encountered Mrs Cameron on the doorstep. There were pleasant good mornings, and inquiries about sleep, and she told him that his porridge was in. He had insisted on porridge, and not entirely because it might help his hostess in her food problems. Beside the plate was a bowl of milk distinctly yellow in colour. It stuck to his spoon. As it happened, he was fonder of cream than a cat, and the porridge was well boiled.
When Anna came in with bacon and two eggs, he chuckled, excused himself, glanced at the plate and laughed.
“I can't,” he said. “I just can't!”
The warmth came into her face. “We have plenty of eggs.”
“But I couldn't. You must take one back at least.”
Mrs Cameron appeared and asked what were two eggs for a grown man, and besides there was the old rule: one could just leave what one couldn't take. But one couldn't leave an egg! The thing, as he suddenly saw, had become moral. But Mrs Cameron saw it differently. “They first shrink your stomach,” she said, “and then make it a sin to leave an egg.” Laughter stayed with him.
The meal over, he explained to Mrs Cameron that he now wished to go to Kinlochoscar for his suitcase, in which were his ration books. She assured him that the bus could bring it tomorrow, for it ran three times a week between Kinlochoscar and Clachar. When they had discussed the local travelling and postal arrangements, he came at the matter which was nearer his mind. In a few words he explained why he needed labour to help him in digging the old cairns. Was there any such labour available? While she was being thoughtful about this, he said, “As a matter of fact, I was recommended to a woman who has a son working for the County Council, taking stones out of the stream. Do you know her?”
“You mean Mrs Mackenzie and her son Foolish Andie?”
“I could see he was a bitâfoolish, yes.”
She was looking at him. “Who recommended you to that?”
“It was Mr Martin of Clachar House.”
A curious reserve invaded her face.
“Do you know him?”
“I met him yesterday. I had to get permission from him, seeing the cairn I want to open up is on his land.”
“I see,” she said, and she stared out of the window. “Did you get the permission?”
“Yes, I think so.”
“You have spoken to Mrs Mackenzie?”
“I'm afraid I have. It's rather been worrying me off and on, becauseâit makes one feel sort of awkward.”
She nodded. “He's a good worker. You need have no fear of that. And she's a deserving woman. She'll get him to do what you want, if it's simple digging or stone lifting. She has had a very hard life, very. It's a sad story. If you could give him something to do it would help her, and she needs all she can get.”
“Well, if you say so, I could take him on for a week and could see how he did.”
“That might be the best plan,” she agreed. “And if you needed better help I could see what I could do.”
“Thank you very much. That's fine.”
But as he went up the road he wondered why she had quietened so unexpectedly. It clearly had something to do with Martin, and his dream and restlessness in the middle night came back to him. Martin had had a brown bear on a chain and as he made it perform, the bear turned its head and it had the idiot's features. It was not, however, the monstrous grotesque beast that had worried him, it was Martin's face. There was something in the face that wasâthe word or thought now came spontaneouslyâannihilating, and the more so because, in a way beyond explaining, it was not actively annihilating. The face had wakened him.
That Martin clearly did not want him about the place did not worry him; on the contrary, it made him all the more determined to go on with the work, for Martin's attitude was an insult to the spirit of archaeology which was concerned with deciphering the hidden part of the story of man's invasion of the earth. It was the fundamental story, the central drama, round which all the other sciences were grouped as lights about a stage. That any man should arrogate to himself the power to switch off the central bulb . . . .
He should have got his permission in writing. So much was axiomatic. I am making a bad beginning, he thought. And now there was this business of the idiot. Excruciating! For what would they think, the Colonel and the others? It would be the joke of the club. Gales of laughter. Did you hear the latest about Simple Simon? He knew they called him Simple Simon. Blair, the petrologist, made a cult of retailing titbits about Simple Simon, which he hadn't the wit to make up himself. Usually he was more than a match for Blair, but they all knew, with a schoolboy cunning, how to work up to his weakness, which was a sudden consuming wrath in a torrent of spluttering language. With a touch of pricking heat, he dismissed themâfor he was never inwardly dominated by themâand came back to his immediate problem.
To employ an imbecile on work requiring so fine an exercise of care and discrimination was, he realised, despite his extraordinary thoughts during the night, quite impossible. That Martin, who obviously suffered from too much intelligence, should have suggested it was enough to make wrath bubble. He had never really intended to employ himâuntil he had had these fantastic night thoughts, about the idiot as a prehistoric personation. Now, in the daylight, he could afford to show some ordinary sense for a change.
Every now and then his eye had been lifting to the stream, and at last he saw them. A primitive grouping right enough! A Palaeolithic hurtling of stones! The glottal stops of the missing link! . . . There
had
been something in his dream! He was smiling vaguely in an embarrassed way as at last he approached the woman. Except for the automatic movement of fingers and needles, she sat watching his approach like a figure in softstone. Her still, heavy face was a dumb question in the distance. He waded up against it and cheerfully bade her good morning. She got up but he made her sit down again, aware that she had read his face. That she had had to become skilled in this art was more than embarrassing, it was pathetic, a tragic comment on life. He moved about, considered the stones geologically, and saw the idiot pause to stare at him and then shift his glance to his mother with a sort of wondering cunning or gleam of primitive intelligence and vague noises. “It's all right, Andrew,” she said in a quiet natural voice, with a simple nod and a glance of her eyes that set him to work again.
“Well, Mrs Mackenzie, I don't think really that I'll need your son's help. IâI have been thinking it over, and actually I would need someone with some knowledge of the work. It's special work andâand therefore I would need someone who knew just what to do.” He went on to express the same idea in other words, for she remained completely silent.
“Very well,” she said when he had finished. Her fingers began to work of their own accord; she did not look at them as they worked.
Five minutes later he left her, smiling vaguely as he called himself a Mousterian ass, for he had engaged Foolish Andie for a week's labour beginning next Wednesday, which was five days hence. Also he had engaged her to knit him two pairs of stockings and promised to provide the coupons for the wool.
Presently he was enjoying the joke himself and felt oddly relieved. The only thing to do with colonels and petrologists and landowners was to challenge them on their own lake middens. And after all there
was
a psychological or realistic argument in employing someone of primitive intelligence inasmuch as one might test his reactions, if any, to a primitive creation like the chamber inside a cairn! That might put at least the unimaginative Blair on his backâeven if the fellow hadn't a real back to be put on.
The internal argument grew until it burst, for it was a lovely morning and the sky serene. These five days would give him time to do preliminary mapping and hunting for local lore on an exhaustive scale, while by the end of them a telegram should have brought him his box of gear. Blessedly, there was no hurry in the world, and he was going to prove himself no “barrow-digger”, that term of abuse for the old antiquary who thought he could tear the secret out of the heart of a barrow or cairn in a few hours by digging a hole in from the top!
The eye that now kept lifting to the landscape was the archaeological eye, the trained observing eye which found the most delightful interest in its exercise. Nothing was too large in mountain conformation nor too small in rabbit scrape to fail to be read like print. His research had in fact been mostly fieldwork, and in map-making he excelled, being surprisingly ingenious where correlations were involved. He could speak with warmth on the geographical approach to his subject, and here he was today with a spot of actual digging on his hands and all to himself. It made him feel like a small boy with a tight secret.
The postmaster at Kinlochoscar accepted his telegram and inquired how he had fared in getting a lodging. Grant told him he had fared extremely well. When the postmaster had extracted the detail he said, “She has the girl and the child staying with her. Ay, a sad business.” “You don't feel it's sad,” replied Grant, “but I must be off. I want to get a car. Thank you and good day.”
The hotel manageress was delighted to hear of his success, but when she had got the detail she said, “Anna Cameron is a very nice girl and you should be all right there.”
“I'm sure I shall,” replied Grant so genially that he dropped his hat.
She had a car, too
,
which she could let him have at once. “Or are you staying for lunch?”
“No, I said I would be home for lunch,” He looked at his watch. “But perhapsâa glass of sherry?”
“Certainly.” She pressed a button.
“Oh and by the way, I've just sent a telegram for a box, a wooden trunk. It has some of my working gear. If you see it lying about anywhere, would youââ”
“Surely.”
“Bless you!” And he went to the lounge to await his sherry.
“
Y
ou must always come round by the boathouse,” said Mrs Sidbury.
Simon Grant thanked her very much. “I did not realise it was so steep.”
“The local people use it occasionally,” she said with a glance at the path, which came tumbling down to the beach. “But if you go round by the boathouse, it's quite simple.”
“I was just wanting to have a look at the caves,” he explained. “I find the whole place remarkably interesting.”
“Good! We enjoyed your visit. I hope you are quiteââ?”
“Absolutely. I merely overdid it. Very sorry to have troubled you.”
“No trouble at all, and I like to shake up Donald occasionally!” She had a quick fly-away manner which at the moment was attractively irresponsible. She swung a green bathing cap round her right hand. A towel hung from the crook of her left arm.
“It was very good of you,” he murmured, uncertain now about going on, for she was obviously on her way to bathe. But she smiled at his hesitation and said she would act as his guide. She spoke rapidly, telling him how as children they had always bathed from the Monster Cove. “Donald once said he saw a mermaid there. It was a summer twilight and he was all alone, aged eleven.” The memory gave her a pleasantly perverse delight, and Grant could not help observing that she had no visible bathing costume. “See those low rocks?”
“Yes,” he replied, noting what looked like a few yards of skerry.
“She was sitting on that rock combing her long golden hair.”
“The mermaid?”
“Yes.” Her quick bright laughter had something in it nervous and brittle. He wondered if she was deliberately exaggerating.
“They always do have long golden hair,” he suggested.
“Yes, too bad, isn't it?” She was black as a blackbird but her face was white and vivid. “It's nice all the same to sit on the rock and sunbathe. We had a game, too. We would stare and stare into the Cove until the monster formed in the dark cavern.”
“Why the monster?”
“Goodness knows,” said Mrs Sidbury. “But I am still a little uncertain. I wouldn't, for example, even now sit with my back to the Cove the whole time.”
“No?”
“Oh no! Whooâno!” She swung away nimbly on her white canvas shoes, her light dress with its green dragons throwing a dancer's whirl about her bare legs.
Grant, though embarrassed, was definitely not afraid of her. Indeed he joined in her laughter, if, as it were, separately. And presently when she asked him if
he
had any notion why it had been called the Monster Cove, he said he might have. Hitherto she had hardly looked at him, but now she gave him a questing glance. Indeed he felt her glance steady for a moment on his face. Her dark lashes were long as spiders' legs.
“You see, away back in Paleolithic times, in a place like this, men would naturally stay in caves. The first men did whenever they could.”
“Paleolithic?”
“Merely the name for the Old Stone Age. We have picked up chipped bits of flint or stone that they used as tools or weapons. As time went on, they learned to chip more neatly, until at last in the New Stone Age or Neolithic Age they not only chipped but ground their stones and made a very nice job of them, too, a real craftsman's job. They also domesticated the farm animals. They were the fellows of the Neolithic Age who built the cairn up there.”
“Really?” She was now quite serious. “And how long ago was all that?”
“Well.” He smiled. “Talking generally, the Paleolithic Age goes backâwhat?â200,000 years? Or half a million, if you like. But the Neolithic Age lasted only six or seven thousand years and finished before the Bronze Age, which began, let us say, about 1800
B.C.
in Britain. All very rough and ready, with different times for different places, and an odd thousand years or two before the Bronze Age might hardly be noticed anywhere.” He glanced at her and she smiled, but quickly as though to get the smile over.
“Soââ”
“So I should say it's fairly certain that this place has been continuously settled from Neolithic times. It's that kind of place “
“It is,” she agreed with a look at the cave mouth.
“From living in caves, some menâthe more progressive, shall we sayâwould move over to Clachar and build huts there, round huts. We know quite a lot about the sort of huts they built. And that would ease the housing problem.”
“A housing problem even then?”
“The housing problem and the food problemâthe eternal twins.”
“We don't seem to have advanced much, do we? That's the Monster Cove.”
The entrance was an irregular arch some twelve feet high and the eye went in over the shingle until the light grew dim.
“It turns to the left after a bit,” she explained. “We always took candles.”
“So you have been in?”
“Oh yes. As children, yes, butâthere's a smaller cave, with a sort of ghostly gleamââ”
“You mean white? A limestone white?” He looked incredulous.
“It was our ghost anyway, by the entrance. I never went in.”
“Do you mind if I do?”
“But you haven't a candle.”
“I have an electric torch.”
“May I go with you?”
They went forward on the noisy shingle. At first there were ledges on the left, and they were rounding these to face the inner darkness when the roof was split by a rocketing sound, terrifying in its reverberating swiftness. She cried out before she could stop herself.
“The pigeons,” she gasped, “I forgot!”
As Grant's own heart had gone into his throat, he smiled back. He switched on his torch and moved its beam in circles. No more pigeons. As they went forward, the roof came down to meet them, the dark walls narrowed in. They waded heavily against a wave of shingle that slithered and cried with an echoing cry and the roof came so low that they stooped. Then the shingle went more quietly the other way and there was no roof but only an inner darkness.
They involuntarily stood, the cave swelling out from their breasts into a largeness that was quiet, with eyes in the cave that could pierce the dark, watching the two vulnerable creatures adventuring between the two worlds.
As the beam of light crept along the wall, Mrs Sidbury stood very close to Grant. In the moment when she saw her girlhood's ghost, something invisible moved with so heavy and ominous a noiseâa slap and stone-crackâthat she cried out in real terror and gripped his left arm. He made raucous yells as he backed away, defiant and repelling, and caught two gleaming eyes against the beam. In over-swift anxiety to check the sweep of the beam he hit his leg with the torch and it fell to the ground and went out. He groped about yelling, louder than ever, became aware of Mrs Sidbury's condition, got a blind clawing grip on her breast which all but demented her, and then had her by the arm, making for the dimness, slithering down the wave of shingle, stumbling, getting up, and entering once more the blazing sunlight.
She looked ravaged and, leaving him, staggered towards the low rock, and sat against it with bent head as if about to be sick. Grant felt very ashamed of himself. It had probably been nothing more than a damned seal. But panic had got him for a moment! His hands were trembling. Disgusting, absolutely disgusting! A sealâor some such timid brute. All at once she lay over. He went towards her.
She lay on her right side, her knees towards her chin, eyes closed. But despite the dead pallor of her face, she had not passed out. Her eyes opened, she smiled faintly and murmured, “Leave me, please.”
He straightened himself and withdrew.
Not knowing what to do, he stood looking at the sea, glanced back at her, moved restlessly, began to smile, to screw his face fiercely, deeply embarrassed, ashamed of himself, aware that he did not know what on earth to do with the woman. She was highly strung, but there was something taking about her, an overlaid innocence somewhere that nothing would ever quite kill until it killed her. His anger getting the better of him, he approached the cave, entered, went up the slow wave of slithering shingle and stood on the threshold of the dark; felt in his pocket for matches, struck one and brought the solid darkness against him. As he lifted the match it went out and he was blinded except for gleam-points that it took him a moment to realise were after-effects of the flame. He struck two matches and more slowly held them aloft. White on the floor in front; the flame burnt his fingers; the matches scattered and went out, and the box dropped from his left hand. He made a noise that was a challenging growl and hearkened with every hair on his head and bone in his body. Then he knew, as by a memory of its twisted shape: it was her towel. On hands and knees he went forward like an animal, listening, waiting for the pounce, his mouth as dry as leather. A hand landed on the towel, drew it to him, against his breast; he got up, began to back away, and presently was roaring down the stones. She was standing by the rock, and the tumbled black hair about the white face gave her in his blinking eyes a sort of still madness, the stillness of a figure on another and stranger shore.
After the pitch darkness, the light, intensified by reflection from the calm sea, was certainly very strong, so strong that the calmess of the sea itself was strange, as was the shore, and the low dark skerry. Slim and vulnerable, fragile and looking over at him, with a tragic spirit-face. He blinked hard and went towards her. The green things on her light dress
were
dragons; then his eyes lifted higher. “You dropped your towel.”
As she caught the towel it unrolled and two negligible pieces of green bathing costume fell on the pebbles by the rock. “Where?”
“Inside.”
“How did you find it in the dark?”
“Feeling all right now?”
“Shall we sit down?”
They sat down. “It was probably a seal,” he said. “The bulb in the torch must have burst, but I have another one. In fact, two. One acts like a lantern. You carry it by a handle. It's very handy.”
Her head moved in acknowledgement.
“There are other caves, I understand?” he said.
“Two more, but they do not go so far in. They are quite innocent . . . That's the old word we had.”
“It's quite a good word.”
“Whatever it means.” She added, not looking at him, “You must not mind Donald. I wanted to say that.”
He had the feeling that was what she had wanted to sayâand all she had wanted to sayâfrom the beginning.
“I don't. Only I'm not quite sure whether in fact I have permission to open the cairn. I feel he does not want me to.”
“That doesn't matter. He would never interfere. So please go on.”
“Thank you. Butâwhy doesn't he want me to?”
“He doesn't care whether you open it or not. It's just that he doesn't want people around. Heâheâhe doesn't want anybody interfering. There is that, still. That's something.”
“You want him to be interfered with?”
“Yes. And I don't care how!” Her voice rose slightly.
The role being cast for him was not a very high or complimentary one. “Not too pleasant for me, is it?”
“But you don't mind? If you could help . . . but perhaps you would mind . . . Yes, I see.”
“I would help if I could. Only, I'm not very good atâpsychological situations. I get worked up sometimes.”
“That wouldn't matter. That's all to the good.” She began picking pebbles, growing bodily restless again, nervous, after her strange calm.
His admission that he got worked up had embarrassed him in the moment of its utterance, like an unexpected confession. He watched her picking the pebbles and throwing them away; observed her profile. Her silence was a suppressed cry, which he almost heard.
“You see,” she said, “he's not interested in anything, least of all himself. He justâgoes about. It's terrible. I hope you don't think it's too awful of me talking like this.”
“No,” he said, “no,” and he picked up a pebble himself, but did not throw it away; he automatically examined it. Water action had made it beautifully smooth. “Did something happen to him?”
“Yes. It was the war. Finallyâa prisoners' camp.” She looked up and away. Her fist gripped a pebble and he read the fine bones of the knuckles through the skin.
“Where? In Germany?”
“No. The East.”
He waited, but she could not wait long. “I don't know what they did to himâor what he did.” She could not bear it and jumped up with a cry and a wild gesture as if she had been hit. “Forgive me!” she cried and walked off.
He looked at the towel and the two pieces of costume strewn about the stones; he looked at her back, her bare legs, at her head which bent with the movement of a wild filly about to bolt. Her footsteps did actually quicken; then they slackened and she drifted on, the sea beyond her, the green islands in the blue. At last she stopped and looked back along the shore. He picked up the towel, tucked the bathing costume inside its folds, and went towards her. Before he had gone very far the lower part of the costume fell out of the towel. He poked it in again, with an increasing sense of strangeness, of impossible intimacy.
“I'm sorry to have troubled you so much,” she said, smiling, not looking at him. As she took her belongings, he observed that her hands quivered. “It was that Cove.”
“Never mind about it,” he said. “There's still your cap, but I'll find it when I go back with a torch.”
“Oh yes, my cap!” She laughed a broken note or two. “I'm ashamed of myself.”
“Never mind about that,” he said in a spontaneous way, smiling, feeling friendly and kind.
She gave him a quick glance. “Thank you very much.” Then she went on.