The Strange Affair of Adelaide Harris (13 page)

But he couldn't bring himself to do it. He saw that Harris was battling with a new idea. Truly there was something heroic about Harris. In the face of all calamity, he fought indomitably on.

“There's fourteen shillings left,” said Harris, brooding as if over a great distance. “And fourteen shillings could go a long way.”

Bostock nodded and wondered if Harris was considering going with it.

“Now if we was to invest it, little by little, in that Mrs. Bonney at the poorhouse . . .”

“Yes, Harris?”

The lights were beginning to flicker in Harris's eyes, and in spite of himself, Bostock couldn't help being excited.

“If we was to go each day with a shilling or two for the foundlings . . .”

“Yes, Harris?”

“So that our comings and goings would seem natural and aboveboard . . .”

He paused and looked inquiringly at Bostock for another “Yes, Harris,” which somehow he seemed to need. “Then sooner or later she won't be there, Bosty. It happened before and it'll happen again.”

“Yes, Harris?”

“So we lift Adelaide, Bosty, old friend! Easy as kiss your hand! Don't you see? It's as good as done! A little patience, a little money, and it'll all be over!”

Once more the lights were fully on in Harris's eyes. He was all triumph.

“And—and even if it don't work again,” said Bostock, striving to prepare his friend for the inevitable worst, “we'll have done a real charity with all that money for the foundlings!”

“Charity?” said Harris mockingly. “What's that, Bosty? My poor old friend, there ain't no such thing as charity.” He laughed sardonically and Bostock steadied himself to have yet another support of his youthful soul knocked away.

“Hypocrisy,” said Harris. “Nothing more. Bosty.
Self-interest rules us all. The man what gives to the poor is only doing it to be well thought of by the world.”

“But what about them that give secretly, Harris?”

“Worst of all,” said Harris contemptuously. “They're the ones that spill it all out in their prayers to buy themselves a seat in heaven. Sniveling in their pews. Look God, haven't I been good today? You'll remember, won't you, when the time comes?”

“But you said there wasn't any God—”

“Then more fool them and it serves them right when they find out they've done it all for nothing. No, Bosty, old friend, all your saints and philanthropists only give to satisfy themselves, else they wouldn't do it. Stands to reason. Hypocrites, every last one of 'em. Charity's a snare and a delusion, Bosty.”

“But it's supposed to be Christian, anyway.”

“What's that, Bosty? Mark my words, old friend, if there was such a thing as a real live Christian—which there can't be as nature's against it—he'd be honest enough and truthful enough in his own heart never to sink to your sneaking charity. He'd be a man, no matter how many poor he came across, no matter how they yelped and whimpered for bread, who'd not demean himself by giving anything away. He'd be a man who'd scorn to puff himself up with goodness. That's what I'd call a real Christian, Bosty! None of your sniveling hypocrites!”

Bostock stared at the ground. He was thinking of the shilling he'd put in the collecting box on Sunday, and he was deeply ashamed.

Mrs. Bonney, having drunk away the two shillings and sixpence of yesterday, was feeling the effects of it. Mr. Bonney was still away so she still had the remaining money and she was sorely tempted. The stranger with the clubfoot had put the fear of the devil into her—else she'd never have drunk so freely. Now her temper was at its worst and she knew she was being harsh with the foundlings when they howled. But she couldn't help it. Gin and brandy was the only thing that would put her to rights. In a way, if she spent the remaining two and sixpence at the Old Ship it would be as much for the foundlings' benefit as for hers. Her temper would be sweetened and once more she'd be as an angel to them. So surely it couldn't be sinful to aim to be kind?

She was thus fidgeting with her conscience and the two shillings and sixpence when Bostock poked his fierce head around the door and gave her a further two shillings for the poor.

“Bless my soul!” said Mrs. Bonney, patting Bostock's inky hand. “Another little Christian!”

“No I ain't,” said Bostock sadly. “I'm a hypocrite, Mrs. Bonney.”

“I don't care what domination you may be, Master B,” said Mrs. Bonney. “You're a real Christian to me.”

SORLEY WAS ILL.
Mrs. Alexander had noticed and mentioned to Mrs. Bunnion that the boy was sickly pale and showed signs of wasting away. Mrs. Bunnion had told her husband, but he had refused to believe it, as indeed he refused to believe anything of an unpleasant nature. Then he saw with his own eyes that the boy took no breakfast on Wednesday and scarcely touched his lunch.

At once the headmaster plunged into an extreme of anxiety. Though a sensible and respected man whose scholarly accomplishments no one would have questioned, he was much given to extremes of alarm. They arose from that very weakness of his own nature that caused him to ignore disagreeable matters. He knew this weakness and he despised and
dreaded it, but he could not help it. He happened to be squeamish about omens of disaster. Thus, by the time something was actually forced on his notice, it had generally swollen to the gravest proportions.

In a matter of moments he had convinced himself that Sorley was dying. All the tangled troubles of the school and the duel sank away into idle dreams before the stark reality of Sorley's approaching death. He dispatched Ralph for Dr. Harris, even though he feared that the baronet's son was already beyond the physician's skill.

“I can make nothing of it,” said Dr. Harris after he had examined the listless Sorley. “Everything seems in order, yet . . . ?” He prescribed one of Mr. Parrish's powders to stimulate Sorley's appetite and departed, leaving Sorley in nature's hands.

Dr. Bunnion saw him to his carriage and asked if he should inform Sir Walter of his son's condition. Dr. Harris, obsessed and distracted by his own strange tragedy, looked at the headmaster vaguely, at first nodding and then shaking his head. “Forgive me,” he said, seeing the headmaster's bewildered look, “but I have troubles at home. As you must know, we have lost our youngest child.”

Dr. Bunnion, who naturally took “lost” to mean the child had perished, expressed sympathy, but at the same time felt a pang of uneasiness. If the physician had been unable to save his own child, what hope was there for Sorley? It was exactly as he'd feared. Sorley was doomed.

He hurried back and administered Mr. Parrish's
powder with his own hands, saying to the pale and haunted looking boarder, “Never mind, boy, I will send for your father.” He had no intention of sending for Sir Walter, as the thought of that great man terrified him. He had only meant to comfort the boy. Then he left the room, closing the door reverently behind him. When he returned some two hours later, Sorley had gone.

The fat boy was running. At first he made for the town, but the sight of people frightened him and he turned toward the great green Downs. Sweat ran off him in streams and his cheeks shook and jumped till he felt they would tear away from his face.

He had been driven half mad with guilt. Mr. Brett had been following him everywhere, not letting him alone for an instant. Always the figure before him, always the hand on his shoulder, clutching tight. He did not know what it was he'd done, and that made it a thousand times worse. Had it been some particular crime he could have confessed it, as he'd done on the crust of the stolen pie. But it hadn't been the theft of the pie at all, as the pursuit had gone relentlessly on. The very uncertainty of what it was about tormented him like a mortal disease. Sleep deserted him, and food—his chief pleasure—tasted rancid in his mouth. What had he done? What had he done?

In anguish he dredged up every mean and petty act he'd ever committed, every paltry crime and dishonesty that crawled in the dark of his brain. He would confess them all. But there were so many!
Every moment more came creeping out. Sins of the day, sins of the night, dark and unwholesome . . . How vile he was! To confess all was unnatural, impossible. Naked he trembled in his mind's eye, covered with misdeeds that scaled and erupted all over him like a leprosy of the soul.

His fat flesh seemed gummed to his clothing as the sweat congealed. He collapsed on the grass high up on the Downs and drifted into a terrified half-sleep that was worse than no sleep at all.

He was neither strong, clever, nor brave, and in his deep self-examination he had wretchedly failed. The threat of his father coming to the school hung over him like a nameless sword. He dared not go back. If only—if only he'd had a friend! Even at home in Cuckfield he'd never had one. His mother scorned him for his absurd appearance, and his father despised him for his dread of all the great dogs and high horses that flashed yellow sneers at him wherever he went. The school had been a haven. Dr. Bunnion and his wife had been kind . . . so kind . . .

Extremity of distress drove Dr. Bunnion to extremities of discretion and he succeeded in concealing the loss of Sorley until after five o'clock when the day pupils had gone. There was nothing to be achieved by panic, he told himself over and over again.

Nor, on the other hand, was anything achieved by the lack of it. Despite immense searches in the confines of the school and among the half-built houses
nearby where pits and trenches gaped with horrid blackness, laced with jagged teeth of rubble, Sorley was not found.

“You must send for Sir Walter at once,” Mrs. Bunnion urged, but the headmaster, clinging desperately to the notion of a schoolboy prank, kept shaking his head. “He is coming on Saturday, my dear. He has promised. What can it serve if he comes now? Why distress him prematurely?”

So the search continued with an energy and urgency that, had he known of it, would have moved the lonely fat boy to tears. But then men, like teeth, are only valued when they've gone, and it takes a gap in the family, like a gap in the mouth, to sharpen the heart.

Major Alexander, seeing Dr. Bunnion's total absorption in the loss of Sorley, instantly feared his own concerns would go by the board and the as good as promised dismissal of Mr. Brett would be forgotten in the general confusion. Thus Saturday's duel would become inevitable, honor demanding that he would have to face Ralph if his private condition was not met.

“Brett is to blame, sir,” he muttered, whenever he had the opportunity. “He should have kept a closer eye on the boy. No good for the school. Negligent . . . negligent . . .”

Though the Major spoke sincerely, he was not to know that it had been the very closeness of Mr. Brett's eye that had done the damage. Nor was Mr. Brett himself aware of this, as his only concern with
Sorley had been to clutch onto him as a shield against any possible unpleasantness from Dr. Bunnion.

“Perhaps he's gone home?” Mr. Brett offered, timidly attempting to ease the headmaster's mind. But Dr. Bunnion only shook his massive head in which there was rooted the irrational dread that the angel of death had come for Sorley and had taken him, lock, stock and barrel.

After two and a half hours the search was halted for dinner, during which time the fat boarder's empty chair exercised a terrible fascination over all present and provoked in every breast fresh fears and thoughts that often had very little to do with Sorley, but were concerned with the wider and more frightening business of living. Major Alexander thought of the sharp pains of violent death, and Mr. Brett thought of the sharper pains of severed love, while Tizzy Alexander found herself thinking of children alone and remembering yet again the abandoned baby on the Downs.

Thus the disappearance of the fat boy took its place as yet another wave proceeding from the pebble that Bostock and Harris had cast into the sunshine calm of the previous Saturday afternoon.

And still Bostock and Harris went steadily on. Like a pair of cats intent on their prey, nothing deflected them as they moved through the long week toward its end, inadvertently drawing after them a tangle of threads that minute by minute became more and more hideously entwined.

They were on their way back from the poorhouse
after having donated a further two shillings to the foundlings. Mrs. Bonney had been there, but to Harris's interest she had been looking quite glazed and gave off strong whiffs of brandy. The extreme pleasure with which she'd fallen upon the new donation had suggested a great deal to Harris, and his hopes rose cautiously to the skies.

“Did you notice, Bosty?” he murmured to his friend. “She was hardly with us. It's my opinion that another five shillings will see her awash altogether. And then—”

But Bostock said nothing. Too many setbacks had lamed his spirit and injured his faith in his wonderful friend. And indeed it was possible that Harris had miscalculated. Mrs. Bonney was a large and seasoned lady, and though brought to the water's edge, so to speak, it might well have taken more than Harris estimated to get her afloat.

Although when Bostock and Harris called she had indeed been shining with spirits, her glaze wasn't so thick that she couldn't see through it. She still waited for the wet nurse's arrival before floating downstairs and across to the Old Ship. And she remained sufficiently in command of herself to be chilled by the sight of the stranger with the clubfoot. She was aware that brandy made her affectionate and talkative and was sensible enough to be uneasy of what she might say, so before she touched a single drop, she gave the inquiry agent an unmistakably hostile stare which said quite plainly that there would be trouble if he attempted to take advantage of her.
Whereupon Mr. Raven—who shrank from all scenes not of his own making—rose uncomfortably to his feet and clumped outside.