The Training (Book 3: The Submissive Trilogy) (23 page)

I didn’t want it to ever end. For a while, it felt as if it wouldn’t.

The plug inside me. His fingers teasing me. And the strap, how it somehow brought both of them together in a mixture of pain-touched pleasure.

“I’m going to take you like this,” he finally said, his breathing heavy. “Filled as you are. Nice and spread out.”

I heard the sound of a zipper and felt a rush of air. He steadied his hands on my hips, and with one hard, deep thrust, he buried himself inside me. I yelped. The sensation was incredible: filled by both him and the plug. Stretched and pulled and bound, I wondered how much my sensitive skin and teased body could stand.

“Come when you want,” he panted.

He pulled out again and again and filled me over and over. Slowly and deeply, he took me. His thrusts were controlled, measured. I was balancing again and wanted to hold on to how I felt.

My body shook with impending release, my muscles tight and tense. He moved faster behind me. Moved faster inside me. I clenched my fists as he entered me, as he thrust and hit the plug. Again.

I was . . .

I was . . .

Screaming my release.

I felt weightless.

Or heavy.

Yes, that was it. I was too heavy to move and my body couldn’t hold me. A faint tremor shot through me.

Residual effects of my massive orgasm, I decided.

His hands caressed me as he untied me, his voice soft and low. I couldn’t make out what he said, but it didn’t matter. He was there. My limbs were loose and untangled, but he was gentle.

He removed the blindfold. The playroom was dark.

“Relax,” he said. “Rest now.”

His lips touched mine once in tender affection before my eyes closed.

I held her while she slept.

I’d carried her from the playroom to our bedroom, where I wrapped her in blankets and stroked her hair. Our day had been longer and more intense than ever, and I wasn’t sure how she would react. I did, however, expect her to sleep afterward and knew she’d be sore the next day. When she woke, we would spend some time in the hot tub, relaxing and soothing her muscles.

I couldn’t help but compare my actions and plans with Abby to what I’d done with my previous submissives. I took care of them, of course, but even after a day like the one I’d just put her through, they would have slept in the submissive bedroom. Never, never in my bed.

I asked myself if it was different because it was
our
bedroom? If Abby had never agreed to move in with me, would I have had her rest down the hall?

No. I knew, even if she’d kept her apartment, she would be resting in my bed.

The shadows in the room were growing long when she finally stirred. I kept my hand on her shoulder, lightly caressing her while she woke. She stretched against me, unknowingly pushing her backside into my groin and releasing a soft moan.

She is sore.

I had water and Motrin waiting for her, but the most important thing in that moment was for her to know I was with her. She’d fallen asleep in the playroom; she might have been disoriented.

I propped myself up on an elbow and whispered to her. “You’re in our bedroom,” I said. “When you feel like getting up, let me know.”

“Mmmm,” she mumbled, still half asleep.

“I made chicken Caesar salads for dinner tonight,” I said, knowing it was one of her favorite light meals. “I thought maybe we’d go down to the hot tub when you got up.”

She became more talkative in the hot tub. Especially when I suggested she sleep in our bed for the night.

She twisted in my lap and faced me. “May I ask a question, Master?”

“Yes,” I said, pleased that she felt more comfortable talking with me during a weekend. “Of course. Speak freely.”

“If I wasn’t me,” she said. “If I was one of your other submissives, would you be asking me to share your bed?”

“No. But I fail to see what that has to do with anything.”

“If the bedroom down the hall was good enough for them, why isn’t it good enough for me?”

A strand of hair had slipped from her ponytail and dangled in front of her eyes. I tucked it behind her ear. “You aren’t one of my previous submissives,” I said. “You’re you.”

“I don’t want you to treat me differently.”

“I appreciate that, but everything about you is different. And,” I said, lifting her chin slightly with my hand. “My previous subs were experienced. You are not.”

Her nostrils flared. “And
I
fail to see what that has to do with anything,” she said, repeating my words to me.

“Are you being petulant again?” I asked, partly teasing, but partly serious.

“No, Master,” she replied quickly. “I just want you to explain it to me.”

I took a deep breath. “Would you agree that our time in the playroom today was longer than ever?” I asked. “And more intense?”

She nodded.

“There can be certain”—I searched for the word I needed—“
feelings
after such intense and lengthy play,” I said. “It can be hard—coming down.”

She sat, deep in thought for a few minutes. “Is it the same for you?”

“Yes,” I said. “But I’ve gotten used to it. I know what to expect. How I react. And I have ways to deal with it.”

“Would you mind if I don’t sleep in our bedroom tonight?” she asked. “It’s just, I want you to be the exact same with me as you were with your previous submissives.”

“You want to stay in the other bedroom tonight?” I knew I’d never treat her
exactly
like I did my previous submissives, but I did appreciate the context of her request.

“I’d like to,” she said, running a tentative hand down my chest. I stifled a groan. Sore as she probably was, I didn’t want her to do anything else strenuous.

“Promise me you’ll come to me if you need to talk?” I asked. “Or at the very least, call Christine?”

“I promise.”

“We’ll still talk tomorrow,” I said. “Probably Monday as well. I want to make sure you’re okay.”

“I’m fine,” she assured me.

“Are you sore?”

“Just slightly.” She shifted in my lap. “Nothing horribly uncomfortable.”

“I want you to take more Motrin before you go to sleep tonight. You’ll probably really feel sore tomorrow.” I’d planned for a very relaxing Sunday, nothing too active or intensely physical. I dropped my lips down to hers and gave her a quick kiss. “You’ll let me know if anything feels too uncomfortable?”

She smiled against my lips. “Yes, Master.”

On Sunday, after I took off her collar, I pulled her to the couch and started rubbing her feet. It had not escaped me that she felt more comfortable talking while we touched, and I wanted her comfortable while we talked. Plus, it helped soothe me.

“Favorite thing we did this weekend?” I asked by way of leading off.

She dropped her head back against the couch and sighed. “When you took me yesterday. It was so surreal. All of yesterday was. I can’t even remember parts of it.” She smiled. “Did you carry me to the bedroom? I don’t remember walking.”

“Yes. You were completely out of it.”

“Is that normal?”

“It obviously is for you,” I said. “I was expecting you to crash, though, based on your previous reactions.”

“I want to feel that way again,” she said, with an evil gleam in her eyes.

“Excellent. I want to make you feel that way again.”

She reached for one of my legs. “Why don’t you swing your legs up here and let me rub your feet?”

“No. Let me do this for you.”

“I’d like to return the favor.”

“Remember when I told you how I had ways to handle my own feelings when I came down?” I asked.

“Yes.”

“This is one of them.” I worked on the upper part of her foot. “It helps me.” She didn’t say anything. “It’s not that I did this with my previous submissives, because I didn’t. I’ve just found it helps with you.” I cocked an eyebrow. “Humor me?”

She thrust her foot into my hand harder. “Sure, as long as you make it good.”

I brought her foot to my lips and kissed the soft underside. “Don’t I always?”

She only shivered in response, so I dropped her foot back down and continued rubbing.

“Least favorite thing we did all weekend?” I asked.

“No question,” she said. “I hate crawling. Hated it. Hated it. Hated it.”

“Really?” I asked. Not that her answer surprised me. I’d noticed her look of displeasure a few times.

“Yes, I don’t want to do it a lot.”

“That’s too bad,” I said. “That you didn’t like it, I mean.”

“You liked it?” She lifted her head up off the arm of the couch. “Tell me you didn’t like it.”

“I liked it,” I said, and she just groaned.

“Why? Why can’t you like me kissing your feet? Why do you have to like the crawling?”

“Because when you kiss my feet, it doesn’t show off your ass.”

“What?”

“I said.” I smiled. “When you kiss my feet, it doesn’t show off your ass.”

“You were watching my
ass
while I crawled?”

“What did you think I was doing?” I asked. I ran a hand up her bare thigh and tickled the edge of her shorts. “You have an incredible ass.”

“I’ll take your word for it. I’ve never seen it.”

“That’s no problem. I have pictures.”

Her cheeks flushed. “Oh, hell.”

I chuckled. “Want me to get them?”

“No.”

“Later then,” I said, resuming my work on her feet.

“Hmph,” she replied. After a few seconds, she spoke again. “So you’re going to make me crawl again?”

“Is it a hard limit?” I asked, instead of answering.

“No.”

“The fact is, Abby, that I’m the dominant in this picture and I like it when you crawl. But I am glad you’re open and honest about your likes and dislikes. I need that information.”

I knew I would ask her to crawl again, just like I knew I’d have her kiss my feet again, even though it wasn’t something I particularly liked.

I worked on her foot in silence for a few minutes, using my hands to relieve and relax her.

“What was the head thing about?” she asked. “That came from nowhere.”

“It was a mental thing,” I explained. “Something to help keep you in the right frame of mind. I thought it would help you focus.”

“Oh.”

“Did it work?”

“I suppose it did,” she said, and I switched to her other foot.

I ran my hand down her foot and cupped her heel. “I want to discuss Friday night.”

“I should have said
yellow
when I panicked.”

“Yes,” I agreed. “But outside of that, I was a bit too aggressive in my plans, and I’m sorry. I should never have pushed you like that following such a lengthy punishment.”

“I thought you’d be upset with me for not safe wording,” she said.

“That, too, but the safe word wouldn’t have been necessary if I’d made better plans.”

“I don’t want to disappoint you.”

“You safe wording could never be a disappointment,” I said. “I can only push you if I trust you’ll
yellow
or
red
if you need to. And yes, I expect you to
yellow
even if you’re panicked and think I’m pushing you toward failure.”

“I wasn’t sure.”

“Promise me you’ll use it in the future,” I said, refusing to discuss anything further until she’d agreed.

“I promise,” she said. “I used
green
this weekend, didn’t I?”

I thought back to the day before, when I’d flogged her while she was bound to the cross. I’d had a submissive
green
on me before, and while the use of the word still gave me momentary pause, I’d not reacted the way I feared. Abby saying “green” had evoked feelings of pride and pleasure, for the most part.

“Yes,” I said. “You did. I was so pleased you felt comfortable enough to tell me what you needed.”

“I felt right on the edge of that feeling. You know the one?”

“Subspace. Not from personal experience, but yes, I know which one you’re talking about.”

“I just knew if you went faster and harder, I’d get there,” she said, her eyes drifting to a far-off bookshelf as she remembered.

“And you did?” I asked, wanting to confirm what I knew, but she didn’t answer. “Abby?”

“Huh?” Her eyes came back to mine and she smiled. “Yes, I did.” She slipped her foot from my hands and sat up. “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome, but I wasn’t finished with your foot massage.”

“I want to say ‘thank you’ with a kiss,” she said, shifting closer to me. “Proper-like.”

Her lips were near mine. I couldn’t help but look at them. “I would say, ‘No thanks are needed,’ but I really want that kiss.”

“Oh, yeah?” she asked, moving to sit in my lap.

“Mmm,” I replied as her lips grazed mine.

She initiated the kiss, and I let her lead, enjoying her tongue as it ran along the outside of my mouth. I parted my lips slightly and tasted her. Her thanks were soft and slow and long. I could have stayed with her in my lap for hours, but I knew she was still sore.

Later
, I told myself.
Maybe later tonight.

When we finally broke apart, she stayed in my lap, my hands stroking her hair as she leaned against my chest.

“The honeymooners return next weekend, right?” I asked.

“Yes, Friday night. Felicia said something about us coming over for lunch on Saturday the last time she called. I told her we’d see. I wasn’t sure how else to answer her.”

“No need to sequester ourselves. We could go over for an hour or two. We’re always going to have to balance our weekend time.” I rubbed her back. “If you want to go, that is.”

“I’ve missed her.”

“I know you have,” I said. “Just because it’s a weekend doesn’t mean we do nothing but stay in the playroom.”

“Though that would be fun,” she teased.

“Agreed, but I don’t want to push you.” I ran a hand down her back. “Still sore?”

“Just a little.” She shrugged. “Nothing I can’t deal with.”

“Let me know—”

“Nathaniel,” she interrupted. “I’m a big girl and I know my body. I already said I’d tell you. I’ll tell you.”

“Sorry. Just making sure.”

“You’ve
already
made sure.”