The Unquiet (46 page)
Authors: Jeannine Garsee
No answer. Not that I expected one.
The Onion Ring Goddess left town. Details are sketchy, but rumor has it that with Tasha gone and her husband Bob on the road, Millie decided to shut down the diner and take an extended trip. For Mom’s sake, and mine, I hope she doesn’t come back.
“I’m sorry they hurt you,” I continue. “And that my mom hurt you, too. But if you knew her now, you’d see how different
she is. She’s changed. I think
you
made her change. I think she felt bad when you died, for treating you like that.”
Wherever you are, I hope you can hear me.
I burrow under the covers and try to sleep.
I think the smell wakes me up. No, not chlorine, or lavender, or anything weird like that.
Magic Marker.
“Oh, crap.” I scramble up the best I can, clutching the uncapped marker. Red ink stains my left hand and random fingerprints dot my comforter. Why didn’t I make Nate put this away after he wrote his little love note?
I spot the cap on the floor and I reach for it, and that’s when I notice my cast. Yes, Nate’s funny crooked heart is there. But with my cast tilted sideways I can see something else.
Precisely printed letters, one line, and
not
my handwriting. I’m right-handed, you know.
My body freezes, trapped in a shroud of frost. I throw the marker aside and rub my fingers. The ink, still fresh, smears under my touch as I stare at blood-red words on my cast:
I don’t believe you
The Unquiet
is a story I’d planned to write for years, and for a very good reason: from kindergarten through the fourth grade, I attended a Cleveland public school similar to River Hills High. The wooden desks were indeed bolted to the floor, and the teachers wrote with chalk on blackboards, not with dry-erase markers. And, yes, I promise you: there was even a haunted tunnel.
Like Rinn and her friends, we weren’t allowed to cut through the gym, so we’d take a long, narrow tunnel from one end of the building to the other. The tunnel wall, on one side, was made of brick or stone; the other side was a metal fence overlooking a treacherous pit. My first day there, at age five, a classmate told me the story: while workers were in the process of excavating an in-ground pool, somehow (insert vague details here) a girl was killed when she fell over the edge. For that reason the pool was never finished, and the pit remained untouched for years.
Feigning terror, we’d sometimes hold hands and race screaming through the tunnel, hoping the ghost of the unknown victim wouldn’t rise up and, well, do whatever ghosts
do
to screaming
children. Yet there were other times when I’d choose to travel that tunnel alone. Fascinated by the story, completely unafraid, I’d take my time and saunter along, peering through the links for a shadow, a movement, a wisp of vapor … anything to assure me that the ghostly girl existed. Yes, even at five, the writer inside me
wanted
to see the girl who tragically died here and now called this tunnel her home.
When my family moved away, and I began fifth grade at a brighter, newer school out in the suburbs, I often thought about that haunted tunnel. I promised myself that if I ever did become a writer, I’d find a way to bring that ghostly girl to life.
So many times while writing this story, I was tempted to pick up the phone, call that school, and ask if they’d let me return for a tour. I’d love to walk through that tunnel after so many years and see if I
could
sense something unearthly. But the fear that perhaps the tunnel no longer exists—that they’d replaced it with a media center or possibly a newer gym—always kept me from making that call. I didn’t want to see anything shiny and sterile, filled with light and activity and excited chatter. Nor did I want to have to wonder what became of the ghostly girl if an army of bulldozers and jackhammers had destroyed her dark, eerie home.
Since then, I’ve had other, much more real encounters with the paranormal. And while this experience may have been based on nothing more than a legend invented by children, I’ll never forget that tunnel, or the girl who hovered, unseen, in the shadows.
This book is partly for her, wherever she is now.
I’d like to thank the following people, because this story wouldn’t have been possible without their help and support:
My first readers—Pamela Reese, Holly Snapp, Sher Hames Torres, June Phyllis Baker, Charlotte Parker, Kathie Carlson, Brian Kell, Judy Walters, Laura McCarthy, and Elizabeth Garsee.
My friends and coconspirators on LiveJournal and AWR.
My coworkers in psych who’ve taught me so much over the past several years, and the countless patients I’ve cared for who’ve taught me even more.
My family, of course, who once again had to put up with my seemingly endless journey through another Land of Make Believe.
My brilliant editor, Caroline Abbey, and all the other wonderful, creative minds at Bloomsbury USA Children’s Books.
And to my agent, the infinitely wise Tina Wexler, who tells it like it is even when I don’t want to hear it: thank you, as always, from the bottom of my heart.
Before, After, and Somebody In Between
Say the Word
Copyright © 2012 by Jeannine Garsee
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First published in the United States of America in July 2012
by Bloomsbury Books for Young Readers
Electronic edition published in July 2012
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Garsee, Jeannine.
The unquiet / by Jeannine Garsee. — 1st U.S. ed.
p. cm.
Summary: When sixteen-year-old Rinn, who has bipolar disorder, and her mother move back to her mother’s hometown in Ohio and settle in a house where the previous owner hanged herself, Rinn discovers that both the town and her mother have some uncomfortable secrets in their past and that the ghost that supposedly haunts the school seems to be out for revenge.
[1. Ghosts—Fiction. 2. Supernatural—Fiction. 3. Manic-depressive illness—Fiction.
4. Suicide—Fiction. 5. Death—Fiction. 6. High schools—Fiction. 7. Schools—Fiction.
8. Ohio—Fiction.] I. Title.
PZ7.G1875Un 2012 [Fic]—dc23 2011019559
Book design by Nicole Gastonguay
ISBN 978-1-59990-741-3 (e-book)