Tiger Eyes

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

Text copyright © 1981 by Judy Blume
Cover art copyright © 2013 by Ericka O’Rourke

All rights reserved. Published in the United States by Delacorte Press, an imprint of Random House Children’s Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York. Originally published in hardcover in the United States by Bradbury Press, Scarsdale, New York, in 1981. Reprinted by arrangement with Simon & Schuster, Inc.

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Blume, Judy.
Tiger eyes : a novel/Judy Blume.
p. cm.
Summary: Resettled in the “Bomb City” with her mother and brother, Davey Wexler recovers from the shock of her father’s death during a holdup of his 7-Eleven store in Atlantic City.
[1. Death—Fiction.] I. Title.
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eISBN: 978-0-307-81778-5

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Contents

Cover

Other Books by This Author

Title Page

Copyright

Dedication

Chapter One

Chapter Two

Chapter Three

Chapter Four

Chapter Five

Chapter Six

Chapter Seven

Chapter Eight

Chapter Nine

Chapter Ten

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Thirteen

Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fifteen

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Eighteen

Chapter Nineteen

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty-one

Chapter Twenty-two

Chapter Twenty-three

Chapter Twenty-four

Chapter Twenty-five

Chapter Twenty-six

Chapter Twenty-seven

Chapter Twenty-eight

Chapter Twenty-nine

Chapter Thirty

Chapter Thirty-one

Chapter Thirty-two

Chapter Thirty-three

Chapter Thirty-four

Chapter Thirty-five

Chapter Thirty-six

Chapter Thirty-seven

Chapter Thirty-eight

Chapter Thirty-nine

Chapter Forty

Author’s Note

ONE

It is the morning of the funeral and I am tearing my room apart, trying to find the right kind of shoes to wear. But all I come up with are my Adidas, which have holes in the toes, and a pair of flip-flops. I can’t find my clogs anywhere. I think I packed them away with my winter clothes in a box in the attic. My mother is growing more impatient by the second and tells me to borrow a pair of her shoes. I look in her closet and choose a pair with three-inch heels and ankle straps.

I almost trip going down the outside stairs. My little brother, Jason, says, “Watch it, stupid.” But he says it very quietly, almost in a whisper.

Mom puts her arm around my shoulder. “Be careful, Davey.”

At the cemetery people are fanning themselves. We are in the midst of the longest heat wave Atlantic City has seen in twenty-five years. It is 96 degrees at ten. I think about how good it would feel to walk along the beach, in the wet sand, with the ocean lapping at my feet. Two days ago I’d stayed in the water so long my fingers
and toes had wrinkled and Hugh had called me Pruney.

Hugh.

I see him as we walk through the cemetery to the gravesite. He is standing off to one side, by himself, cracking his knuckles, the way he does when he’s thinking hard. His hair is so sun-bleached it looks almost white. Maybe I notice because it is parted on the side and carefully brushed, instead of hanging in his face, the way it usually does. Our eyes meet, but we don’t speak. I bite my lower lip so hard I taste blood.

At the grave, I stand on one side of my mother and Jason stands on the other. I feel the sweat trickling down inside my blouse, making a little pool in my bra.

My aunt and uncle, who flew in from New Mexico last night, stand behind me. I have seen them only one other time in my life, when my grandmother died. But I was only five then and wasn’t allowed to go to her funeral. I remember how I’d cried that morning, not because my grandmother had died, but because I wanted to ride in the shiny black car with the rest of the family, instead of staying at home with a neighbor, who tried to feed me an apricot jelly sandwich.

This time I haven’t cried at all.

Now I hear my aunt making small gasping sounds, then blowing her nose. I hear my uncle whispering to her but I can’t make out his words.
I feel their breath on the back of my neck and move closer to my mother.

Jason clings to Mom’s hand and keeps glancing at her, then at me. My mother looks straight ahead. She doesn’t even wipe away the tears that are rolling down her cheeks.

I’ve never felt so alone in my life.

I shift from one foot to the other because my mother’s shoes are too tight and my feet hurt. I concentrate on the pain, and the blisters that are forming on my little toes, because that way I don’t have to think about the coffin that is being lowered into the ground. Or that my father’s body is inside it.

TWO

The heat wave breaks that night and the next day, when my best friend, Lenaya, comes to visit, it is still raining. She sits on the edge of my bed and piles up the newspapers that are scattered all around.

“Hi,” she says. “How are you?” Her voice sounds shrill, not at all like her usual voice.

“I’m okay,” I answer, not able to look directly at her.

“I’m sorry about your father.”

I nod, afraid that if I try to speak I will break down and cry.

“It was a real shock.”

I nod again.

“We were in Baltimore, so we didn’t know until my uncle read it in the paper. He called to tell us. But by then there was no way we could get back in time for the funeral.”

I felt myself drifting off, hearing only a few more words. I feel very far away, as if nothing that is happening is real.

On the day that we met, Lenaya gave me a picture of a dissected female frog. She’d drawn it herself, with colored pencils. Every organ was
carefully labeled. Heart, stomach, lungs, ovaries. I still have the picture somewhere. In my bottom drawer, I think. That was in eighth grade.

Lenaya is six feet one, skinny and black. Everyone assumes she must be great at basketball, but the truth is, she hates the game. She’d rather do an experiment with her chemistry set or read a book on genetics.

My father played basketball when he was in high school. He made the All State team twice. He could have had a college scholarship but he and my mother got married instead. And six and a half months later I was born.

“Davey … are you awake?” Lenaya asks, bringing me back from my thoughts.

“Yes.”

“Why don’t you get out of bed and get dressed … it’s after twelve.”

“I don’t feel like getting up. I’m tired. Besides, I’ve got blisters on my feet.”

“Your aunt says you haven’t been out of bed since the funeral.”

“That’s not true. I get up to go to the bathroom.” I shift my position and as I do my cat, Minka, who has been asleep next to my leg, stretches, yawns and begins to lick herself. I stroke her under the chin until she settles down again. “Did you read the story in the paper?” I ask Lenaya.

“Yes,” she says.

“Which one?”

“I don’t remember.”

I rummage through the pile of papers Lenaya had stacked a few minutes earlier, choose one, hold it up, and read the headline out loud,
ADAM WEXLER
, 34,
SHOT AND KILLED
. I show the article to Lenaya. “It made the front page,” I say, tapping the paper with the back of my hand. “It’s a nice picture of him, don’t you think?” I don’t wait for her to answer. “I took it myself … in June … in front of the store. He’s shading his eyes from the sun but other than that he looks good, doesn’t he?”

“Yes,” Lenaya says, softly.

I put down that paper and pick up another.
ADAM WEXLER, LOCAL MAN, MURDERED
. I glance at Lenaya. Her head is bent and she is fiddling with her belt. I read from the paper.

“Adam Wexler was shot in the chest and killed Tuesday evening during a robbery in his 7-Eleven store on Virginia Avenue, Atlantic City. The unknown assailant or assailants escaped with fifty dollars in cash. Mr. Wexler, a 1964 graduate of Atlantic City High School, is survived by his wife, Gwendolyn; a daughter, Davis, 15; and a son, Jason, 7.”

I fold up the paper and toss it to the end of my bed.

“Do you think it’s a good idea to keep reading about it?” Lenaya asks.

“Why not? Everyone says you have to face the facts. So I’m facing them.” Newspapers are very big on facts, I think. But not on feelings. Nobody writes about how it
feels
when your father is murdered.

“In lieu of flowers the family has asked that contributions be sent to the American Heart Fund.” I recite this for Lenaya, while I stare at the ceiling. I wonder why my mother has selected the Heart Fund, unless it is because my father was shot in the chest. Four times. Four times by an unknown assailant or assailants.