'Til Death (19 page)

              "If we gone do this, it’s only one time," Tosh said. I just nodded my head. I leaned in to kiss her, but she moved.

              "No kissing," Tosh declared in a lust filled tone.

              "Fuck that, Shorty, you kissing me." I grabbed the back of her neck and placed my lips on her hers. Her lips were so soft, and seemed to form right over mine. I slipped my tongue in her mouth and pulled it back out. Tosh was a good ass kisser, and her kissing alone had me standing at attention. She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me closer. I wrapped my hands around her waist and picked her up. Her legs wrapped around my waist. I placed my hands on her soft ass. I broke the kiss and we both were breathing heavy.

              "Where is your room?" I asked.

              "All the way in the back."

I walked to the back, while Tosh continued to kiss and suck on my neck. I laid her on her queen-sized bed. I removed her clothes, and she removed mine. She touched my chest and traced the claw-mark tattoo on my chest with her fingers. I kissed and sucked on her neck. I rubbed her back softly and appreciated her body. We were both naked, but we weren’t rushing. Tosh had a tattoo that started at the back of her neck and went down her spine and wrapped around her waist. It was stars and butterflies. I pushed her on her back and kissed my way down. I showed her breasts the amount of attention they deserved, because they were so soft and full. I placed my hands under her because I just needed to touch her skin. My erection was throbbing, but I had to take my time.

              I kissed her navel piercing and her tattoo. I finally found what I was looking for, and saw she was completely shaved. I smelled her; she smelled like the freshest garden of blooming roses. I put my finger inside her, and she was so wet and warm, I couldn’t help myself. I stood up and went into the bathroom. I went to the sink and ran some hot water.

              "What are you doing?" Tosh asked me from her bed.

              "I got this. Chill," I said. I poured hot water into my mouth, the hottest I could stand, it and spit it out. I turned the water off and went back to her. My mouth was hotter than normal. I placed my mouth on her wetness and licked her up. I sucked and licked and used my tongue to reach limits inside of her. I used my fingers and tongue to stimulate her. I was trying to make a mark on her. Tosh moaned and grabbed the sheets. She moved away from me, but I grabbed her thighs and pulled her back. She came, and I licked it up. She tasted better than the finest wine. I leaned up. Tosh pulled me close to her and kissed my mouth. My dick brushed against her clit and she shuddered.

              "You sensitive?" I whispered in her ear. I took her earlobe into my mouth and bit her gently.

              "Yes . . .” she whispered back. I entered her slowly, and I felt my eyes roll back because she felt so good. Tosh scratched my back as I buried myself deeper into her. I leaned down and kissed her neck. I grabbed her thigh and hiked her leg up higher. My thrust was hard and powerful; there was no way her next-door neighbors could have slept through our groans. Tosh took my ear lobe into her mouth and sucked. I clenched my teeth and grabbed the pillow. 

              "Avery . . .” Tosh moaned my name. She pushed me on my back and climbed on top of me. Tosh took my lips and damn near kissed me into oblivion. I sucked on her bottom lip and grabbed her ass. She pulled away from me and looked down.

              "It’s my turn to do some damage," she said, smiling.

              "Well show me what you can do, Shorty," I said, while smiling. Tosh eased down on my dick and I watched it disappear inside her. She leaned up and grabbed the headboard. She began to ride me as if she were born to do it. I took her breast into my mouth and tried to concentrate on not busting too quickly, but she was feeling so fucking good. I grabbed her hips to stop her. I pushed her off of me and laid her on her stomach. I pulled her towards me. Her face was down and her ass was up. I fell back inside her and increased the rhythm. Her hands were gripping the sheets and she was biting the pillow.

              "Awwww . . . I’m . . . cumming," Tosh yelled out loud. I was cumming too. I couldn’t hold back anymore. Her muscles began to clench on me, and I buried myself deeper inside her. Harder. Faster. Harder. Faster, until I couldn’t hold back. I came inside her so hard that my eyesight blurred. We collapsed beside each other, breathing heavy and inhaling each other’s scents.

              "Just because we did this, don’t mean I like you," Tosh mumbled. I laughed. The feeling was mutual. I heard her begin to doze off. I jumped up and took a quick shower. I put on my clothes and realized that I hadn’t used a condom. I shook my head. I went into my pocket. I left a couple of racks on her dresser and left. I couldn’t lie; that was the best sex I ever fucking had in my life. If Tosh had not been so materialistic and narcissistic, I would wife her up. But it was what it was. I went back to my truck and started it up. Chris Isaak’s song, "Wicked Game," was playing, and I couldn’t help but laugh.

Lo

              Visiting hours were almost over, and Culprit had to rest. I didn’t say anything; I just stared at the man I loved. I wiped my tears and touched his hand. I got up and left the hospital. It was late, and I was tired. I was still off of work because of my mother’s death, and I needed sleep. I texted Boan, telling him I was leaving the hospital. I knew Boan was going to come up there and be with Culprit until I came back. I drove to my home with the radio off. I was on the verge of losing Culprit forever, and I couldn’t deal. I felt horrible. I kept replaying over and over the last words we said to each other. Instead of going home, I turned around with a new destination in mind. My sadness turned into anger. I pulled up to a small ranch style home in a modest neighborhood. I walked up to the front door and banged on it. He answered, dressed in some pajama pants and no shirt. I looked at his smooth, dark, skin, his trimmed beard, and low haircut.

              "Lo, what are you doing here?" I pushed my way inside his home and looked at Kevin Smith. Officer Smith, as he was known to my friends, was also their biggest enemy.

              "Don’t brush Culprit getting shot as another day in the neighborhood. Catch the man who did this, and cuff him. Another thing, what gives you the right to tell Culprit about us, and to tell him he isn’t good enough for me?" I crossed my arms waiting for him to answer.

              "The same right that you had when you gave me my ring back and told me we were over, without a damn explanation."

              "Why would you want to marry a woman who’s in love with somebody else?"

              "Because I was in love with you, and thought my love would overshadow that." His eyes bore into mine causing me to turn away.

              "What we did and shared was between us. You shouldn’t have ever said anything to him. Was what we had even real, or did you just use me to get more information about them?" My voice was shaky while I asked him the question.

              "I never asked you about Ciara, Boan, or Culprit, so how could you even say something like that?"

              I made my way to the front door, but he grabbed my arm and pulled me closer. "I never stopped loving you. I never will stop loving you." Kevin told me.

              "You can love me, but you have to do it from afar."

              "Not tonight Lorean. Tonight I won’t." Kevin bent down and kissed me. I didn’t stop him. Instead, I let go and gave in. I grabbed him closer and kissed him back. He picked me up and carried me to his bedroom. I watched him watch me. I watched him undress and shower my body with kisses that had my legs shaking. When he reached for that condom, I still didn’t stop him. I opened myself up and got lost in him, hoping I could get lost from the world. But Culprit already made his mark on me. I already made my mark on Kevin, and Kevin was just floating around in the in between. I wanted to be with Culprit, but tonight I was with his enemy, my ex.

Boan

              I woke up and looked at Ciara. She was asleep with the sheet sprawled out over her, and her hair covering the pillow. I grabbed my phone to take a picture of her. I noticed I had a text from Lo, and I texted her back. I took the picture of Ciara. I put the picture as my wallpaper. I got up and jumped in the shower. I threw on some basketball shorts and a beater. Before I walked out of our bedroom, Ciara shot up out of bed and ran into the bathroom. I walked in the bathroom and saw her throwing-up in the toilet. I walked towards her and pulled her hair back. She flushed the toilet but didn’t get up.

              "Morning sickness?" I asked. She nodded her head. She moved and turned on the shower.

              "When is your doctor’s appointment?" I asked.

              "Wednesday," she said. Today was Monday. I walked out of the bathroom and went downstairs. Heaven was in the kitchen eating a bowl of Frosted Flakes.

              "Enough for me?" I asked. She nodded her head. I grabbed a bowl and sat down next to her and fixed up a bowl of Frosted Flakes for myself.

              "Tosh told me about Culprit," Heaven said. I nodded my head.

              "Sorry to hear about him. Are you ok?" Heaven asked.

              "As long as he is ok, then I’m ok," I said.

              "Where is my mom?"

              "Upstairs in the shower. She doesn't feel good." Heaven got up and rinsed out her bowl.

              "I’m going upstairs to check on her." I nodded my head. I heard the doorbell and got up to answer it. It was Av. He was riding out with me to go check up on Culprit, and to go look at some vacant buildings. I texted Tosh and asked her to bring Ciara a couple of things when she came by.

              "Yo what's good?" Av asked.

              "Shit, waiting on Tosh real quick. Ciara’s not feeling good today."

              "Tosh," Av said. I looked at him and sat my phone on the table.

              "My nigga," I said.

              "Yea?" Avery looked at me.

              ''You did, didn’t you?" I was hoping he didn't.

              "Son, Tosh was the best pussy I ever had, I’m not gone lie." I shook my head and laughed.

              "I thought you didn’t like her."

              "I don’t." Avery announced a little too quickly.

              "Bro, Tosh good people." I was hoping he'll see that.

              "Boan, I feel that, but to me she seems selfish, and materialistic. I’ve never heard her say anything important or worthy enough to comprehend. I’m looking for a wife, so that was just a onetime thing for real."

              "I can't wait for her to surprise you then, if you think that."

              "Boan, I don’t fall for any tricks."

              "Dawg." I said holding up my hands.

              "My fault." Avery pat his chest.

I shook my head. Ciara and Heaven came walking into the kitchen, looking like twins. Ciara’s hair was in a sloppy ponytail and she had on sweats. She looked so fucking sexy when she wasn’t even trying. She walked to the counter and pulled out some saltine crackers. She looked at me and I winked at her. She smiled and gave me her middle finger. The door opened up and I heard it slam. I looked at Avery.

              "You didn’t lock the door?" I asked him. He shook his head. I heard heels clicking, and I saw Tosh. She was dressed in a business suit and carrying a stack of cash. She looked pissed. Avery looked up and looked at her. She walked in the kitchen and everybody stared at her. She threw the money and it hit Avery square in his face.

              "The next time you want to talk shit to Boan, how about you make sure Boan’s phone didn’t call me. I heard every fucking thing, and you got a lot of fucking nerve Avery. For one, you don’t know shit about me, and even if I was the best you ever fucking had, you ain’t getting this shit again, you light bright sonofabitch. Fuck you," Tosh said, and turned and walked away. I looked around, and Ciara looked shocked and Heaven looked entertained.

              "Y’all had sex?" Ciara said. Avery didn’t answer. He got up and speed-walked and grabbed Tosh by her arm. I got up, and Ciara followed me.

              "Yo, Shorty what you did was too damn disrespectful," Av said.

              "Me? All that shit you just said about me, and I’m disrespectful? Suck a dick." Tosh pointed her finger in his chest.

              "Who you think you talking to, Tosh?" Avery looked like he was a hot second from snatching her up.

              ''Your New York ass,
son
." Tosh mimicked his New York accent.

I tried my best to hold back my laughter.