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‘Sorry,' Tom said. ‘You just don't look eighteen.'

‘You can't see me any better than I can see you,' Bridie complained. ‘You're going on my size alone, but I've told you the truth.'

That seemed to satisfy Tom and he took her money and went out to the booking office just as the rail bus pulled into the station. Bridie emerged from the shelter cautiously, worried that there might be someone on board that rail bus who might recognise her. But few passengers travelled at that early hour in the depths of winter and she knew no one and so, more confidently, she followed Tom to the other platform where the train to Derry stood waiting.

Tom helped Bridie on to the train, stowing her bags on the seat beside her before saying, ‘Why don't you take your coat off, it's soaked through.'

‘It's no good,' Bridie said. ‘My things underneath are wet too. I've bought other things with me, but they'll probably be just as bad. The bags are sodden.'

‘Even so,' Tom said, unbuttoning his coat, ‘take it off and put this around you.'

Bridie did as Tom bade her and as he tucked his coat around her, he said, ‘Maybe we should introduce ourselves?' and he extended his hand. ‘I'm Tom, Tom Cassidy.'

Tom's hand was nearly twice the size of Bridie's. She'd thought of giving him a false name, but had rejected it. No harm in giving him her real name. It was a shame, but she doubted she'd ever set eyes on him again. ‘I'm Bridie McCarthy,' she said and asked, ‘Where are you bound for, Mr Cassidy?'

‘Birmingham, the same as you,' Tom said. ‘Now isn't that a fine coincidence? We can travel together if you'd like that, and the name's Tom. I've done this trip many a time. My parents have a farm that my sisters now look after. I was over because my father was ill. He had pneumonia and we thought it was the end. He had the last rites and all, you know. But he's rallied now and on the mend, so I thought it all right to leave him.'

Bridie hardly heard Tom, because as he spoke he'd glanced at his watch and she'd caught sight of the time: a quarter to seven. Her absence would have been noted by now. In fact, while she slept on the bench at Strabane Station, her father would have struggled from his bed for the milking.

Sarah would be surprised her daughter wasn't up. She would go into the room, maybe with a cup of tea to help rouse her, and she would see the bed not slept in and read the note. Oh God, how upset she would be. Angry yes, but first upset and confused, and her dear, kindly father too. She could hardly bear to think of what she'd done to them and she shut her eyes against the picture of them standing there, sadness and disappointment and shock seeping out of the very pores of their skin.

Tom knew he no longer had Bridie's attention, but he also knew that it wasn't mere inattentiveness or boredom with what he was saying that had distracted her, it was something much more. Maybe something he'd said or done had triggered a memory and a memory so painful that she'd shut her eyes against it. But before she'd done so, he'd seen the glint of tears there and the stricken look that had stripped every vestige of colour from her face.

He couldn't help himself. He leaned forward and asked gently, ‘What is it?'

Bridie's eyes jerked open at his words and, looking at him, she had the greatest desire to tell him everything, to weep for her own unhappiness and that she'd bestowed on her parents for it seemed too heavy a burden to bear alone.

But she controlled herself. How could she tell her tale to a stranger? And however kind Tom Cassidy was, he was still a stranger. She gave herself a mental shake. ‘I'm all right,' she said, and though Tom knew she was far from so, he felt he had no right to press her further.

He knew there was something badly wrong though. Surely no parents would let a girl set out on a filthy wet winter's morning on her own? He didn't know how far she'd come, but by the state of her clothes, it had been some distance. What sort of family had she to allow that? And she was troubled about something right enough.

She was obviously anxious to change the subject as she said, ‘I'm sorry, you were telling me about your family. What line of work do you do in Birmingham?'

‘I work in the Mission hall,' Tom said. ‘The poverty there is extreme. We take food out to those living on the streets, soup kitchens and the like, and to the families we also take food and clothes – some of the children have little more than rags to cover them and they never seem to have enough to eat.'

‘I know,' Bridie said. ‘I saw it myself when I was over before, though I was just a child of thirteen then. It must be terrible to be so hungry and cold.' As she spoke she realised how long it had been since she'd eaten and her stomach growled in protest.

‘Are you hungry?' Tom said, hearing the rumble of Bridie's stomach. ‘My mother and sisters have packed me food enough for half a dozen. Please help me eat it?'

Now he knew for certain there was something wrong, for surely to God a person wouldn't set off for such a journey without a bite with them. What manner of family did she come from at all? But again he felt unable to pry and instead began to open the various packages his mother and sisters had pressed on him.

Bridie watched Tom's broad hands unwrap the food, while her mouth watered in anticipation, noting that his hands were unblemished and smooth and his fingernails clean and well shaped. Then her attention was taken by the food and her interest in the man fled at such a feast before her.

There were four hard-boiled eggs, slices of ham and others of cheese, and slices of thickly buttered soda bread, large pieces of barn brack and half a dozen scones. ‘I have milk too,' Tom said, producing the bottle. ‘My mother insisted on lacing it with whisky “to keep the cold from my bones” she said.'

Bridie had never drunk laced milk before; she'd never tasted whisky at all. But she found it was very pleasant indeed and considered Tom's mother a wise woman for thinking of it for it certainly warmed her up. The food also put new heart into her and made her more hopeful about the future, whatever it held.

When this was all over, she thought, maybe she could make it up to her mother and father for running away and certainly beg their forgiveness. Surely to God they wouldn't hate her for ever?

‘I'm glad you have someone to lodge with,' Tom said suddenly, breaking in on her thoughts. ‘Birmingham, like most cities, is a depressed place. The people back home seem to think you can peel the gold from the city's streets.'

‘But how would they know how it is?' Bridie said. ‘Many of our neighbours have travelled nowhere all the days of their life except into town on a Fair Day.'

‘Yes, you're right,' Tom agreed. ‘Still you have someone anyway. Where's your sister meeting you?'

‘At New Street Station,' Bridie said. ‘At least … I must send her a telegram to tell her the times of the trains.'

‘There'll be plenty of time when we get to Liverpool for that, I should think,' Tom said. ‘I lived there for some time, so I know my way about.'

‘Did you? Why did you leave?'

‘Oh, there were reasons,' Tom said. That was his cue to tell Bridie all about himself, but he said nothing and instead changed the subject. Though Bridie chatted easily enough, she parried all his questions about her home or family, knowing it would never do for him to guess where she lived and how far she'd come. Instead, she asked Tom questions about himself and was particularly interested in anything he could tell her about Birmingham.

‘But you know it already, surely?' Tom said. ‘Didn't you tell me you were over before?'

‘Aye, but I was a child just,' Bridie said, ‘and my sister was expecting so we didn't stray far from the house. I went to the cinema a few times, though, to the Broadway near to where they live. That was truly amazing to me, and my cousin Rosalyn was green with envy when I described it. We went to a place called the Bull Ring a time or two as well, though never at night, although Mary said there was great entertainment to be had there on a Saturday. She used to get tired in the evenings, though, and she wasn't up to long jaunts.'

‘Oh, you missed a treat all right,' Tom said. ‘The Bull Ring is like a fairyland lit up with gas flares and the place to be on a Saturday evening, if you can shut your eyes to the poverty all around. You must make sure you pay a visit this time and see it for yourself.'

‘I will,' Bridie promised.

‘There are cinemas too of course,' Tom said, ‘like the Broadway picture house you mentioned, but I really like the music hall and that's what I spend my spare money on.'

‘Music hall?'

‘Now there's a treat if you like,' Tom said. ‘The city centre is full of theatres and they put on variety shows and some do pantomimes. Have you ever seen a pantomime?'

Bridie shook her head.

‘I didn't see one myself until I came to live in Birmingham,' Tom said. ‘But they are very funny, well worth a visit. There was a moment's pause and then Tom suddenly asked, ‘Do you dance, Bridie?'

‘Dance?'

‘Everywhere you go there are dances being held,' Tom told her. ‘There are proper places of course, like Tony's Ballroom and the Locarno, but they're also held round and about the city centre in church halls and social clubs. There's often a dance hall above picture houses and even on wooden boards laid across empty swimming baths.'

‘I can't dance at all,' Bridie said. ‘Not like that. I know Irish dancing, I mean I can do a jig or reel or hornpipe with the best of them, but I don't know a thing about other types of dancing.'

‘Well, if you have a mind to learn, there are schools about ready to teach you,' Tom told her. ‘And sometimes only for coppers.'

‘It sounds such an exciting place to live in, I saw less than half the place last time. I know nothing about these other things,' Bridie exclaimed.

‘There's grinding poverty here too,' Tom reminded her. ‘Sometimes the bravery and stoicism of the average Brummie astounds me. Some families we help are so poor, so downtrodden, and yet they soldier on, their spark of humour still alive. Those lucky enough to be in work fare better, but the hours of work are often long and the jobs are heavy and I can't blame them for seeking entertainment.'

‘You seem so settled in city life,' Bridie said. ‘Don't you miss Ireland?'

‘Not so much now,' Tom said. ‘I did of course, but I've been away from it so long. I miss the peace of it sometimes, the tranquillity that you'd never find in a city, but I feel needed there like I never was on the farm.'

‘So you'd not ever go back to live there?' Bridie asked.

Tom was a while answering. Eventually he said, ‘Ever is a long time, Bridie. Who knows what the future holds for any of us? But, for the moment at least, my place is there.'

And mine too, Bridie thought, but she didn't share her thoughts with Tom. She didn't know what the future held for her either and every time she thought of it, her stomach did a somersault.

Her silence went unnoticed, though, for the train was pulling into Derry and they began to collect their belongings together as they had to change to the normal gauge train for the short journey to Belfast and the ferries for England. Bridie tried to return Tom's coat, but he refused to have it back and insisted she wrap it around herself, carrying her own sodden one over his arm.

It was on the train that Bridie saw Tom properly for the first time and, now that the light was better, she realised he was a very handsome man. His hair was very dark and a little curly and he had the kindest brown eyes ringed by really long lashes. His nose was slightly long and his mouth wide and turned up and it gave the impression he was constantly amused by something. The whole effect was one of gentleness, kindness, though his chin seemed determined enough.

And then, as if aware of her scrutiny, Tom smiled. It transformed his whole face and Bridie's heart skipped a beat.

‘I'm glad we're travelling together, aren't you?' Tom said.

Oh yes, Bridie was glad all right, but she thought it best not to say so and instead just smiled. She was not to know how expressive her eyes were, and that Tom was delighted she obviously liked his company, and they chatted together as if they'd known each other years as the train pounded its way towards Belfast.

‘I don't remember being this sick last time I came,' Bridie said, wiping her mouth.

‘Aye, but early December is not the ideal time to cross the Irish Sea,' Tom said, and Bridie looked out at the churning grey water, at the huge rolling breakers crashing against the sides of the side in a froth of white suds.

But, Bridie thought, the extreme sickness might have been due partly to her pregnancy, for she'd been nauseous enough at times without the help of the turbulent sea, but that was a secret she could share with no one and so she kept quiet and tried to control her lurching stomach.

It was too cold and altogether too wet to stay on deck any longer than necessary, but inside the smell was appalling, although the ferry wasn't so crowded. The place smelt of people and damp clothes and vomit from those who'd not made it outside in time. But prevailing it all was the stink of cigarette smoke that lay like a blue fog in the air and the smell of Guinness.

It gagged in Bridie's throat as Tom upended his case for her to sit on. ‘Sit there,' he said. ‘I'll get you something.'

‘Brandy!' she said a few moments later. ‘I've never tasted brandy.'

Tom sat on his other case beside Bridie and said, ‘Then you've not lived. Get it down you. It will settle your stomach.'

‘First laced milk, now brandy,' Bridie said with a smile. ‘And at this hour of the morning. Dear God, this is terrible.'

‘Aye,' said Tom, catching her mood. ‘Here's the two of us turning into lushes. Now drink it down and you'll feel better.'

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