Tithe (16 page)

He willed his hands to relax. He did not want his Queen to guess at the increasingly dangerous chances he took. Letting the girl ask his name—have absolute power over him—was unintended, but hardly an isolated case of foolishness. At first he had told himself that he was testing himself, but his reasons seemed more complex. He was becoming less clear to himself—a string of actions held together by nothing, with no sequence he could understand.

He let his gaze skim out over the crowd. He
knew the Unseelie Court, knew the factions and their plans, their squabbles with one another, their desires and their habits. He knew them as only an outsider could, and his Lady valued that. That value was balanced against her amusement at his pain.

Everything is balance. Everything is ritual. Everything is pain.

The solitary fey had gathered warily at the edges of the brugh. He knew that many among them had no wish to be tied to the Unseelie Court, and for a moment he wondered if they could somehow refuse the sacrifice. But he could see from where he stood that they were drinking the traditional wine pressed from nettles. They had come to accept their servitude. Indeed, servitude might offer them some protection that independence had not.

A soft sound brought his eyes back to Kaye. He noted the bruises and faint raised marks that looked like scratches. She was gazing at the Queen with an adoration that sickened him. Was that how he had once looked at the Seelie Queen when he had vowed himself to her? He remembered that when his Bright Lady had but glanced at one of her knights, it was as if the sun shone for that knight alone. His own oath to her had been so easy to say, all the promises he had wanted to make wrapped into those formalized phrases. And he was still doing her bidding now, wasn’t he? He wondered
again as he stared into Kaye’s face, as she waited happily for him to betake her into the sunless caverns of the Unseelie palace and pretty her up for her murder, just what was worth the pain of this.

“Come,” he said.

Roiben walked from the brugh down hallways that shone with mica, their ceilings tangled with roots. Lights were dim and infrequent, candles oozing wax down the side of the wall from the niches they were set into. He heard the dull thud of her heavy boots as she followed him and he wanted to look back, to give her the comfort of a smile at least as she tried to keep pace through these winding passageways, but a smile would be a lie, and how would that serve her?

They passed by orchards of trees, white as bone and heavy with purple fruit. They passed through caverns of quartz and opal. They passed through rows of doors, each with a different face carved on it. Above it all, the ceiling shimmered with a distant light.

“You may ask me what you will. The Queen’s strictures are not my own.” Roiben hoped that whatever enchantment the Queen had put on her was not irresistible.

“I’m sorry, you know,” she said softly. Her eyes were drugged with enchantment, the lids half closed. One of her hands was running across the sparkling mica wall, stroking it as
though it were the belly of some great animal.

“Sorry?” he echoed stupidly.

“The diner,” she said, swaying slightly, the hand on the wall now holding her upright, “I didn’t know what I was asking.”

He flinched at that. Her power over him was greater than any oath—he was literally hers to command—and here she was apologizing for her cleverness. But maybe that was the magic too, forcing her mind away from survival.

Her hand had stilled on the wall, and her eyes found the floor.

He took a deep breath. “It was well tricked. Perhaps you will find a way to make it serve you yet.” Not wise, that advice. He didn’t know why he had put her through all the trouble of drawing the arrow from his chest when he was apparently at such pains to get himself run through again.

Fey as one of his own Folk, she suddenly laughed. “Are we really going to get me a dress?”

He nodded. “There is a seamstress who can weave spiders back from silk. She will make sure you have a dress….” He bit off the end of the phrase, not knowing how to finish it. This wasn’t a ball gown—it was a shroud. “A fine dress,” he finished badly, but there it was.

Kaye grinned with delight, turning delicately on one foot, improvising a staggering
dance as she followed him down the shimmering hallway, repeating his words. “Spiders back from silk …”

Skillywidden’s quarters were deep in the cavernous depths of the palace where Roiben seldom had reason to go. Bolts of satins glowing summer-warm and golden, silks that would easily pass through the eye of a needle, heavy brocades rich with strange moving animals were all scattered along the floor in the dim room. A long wooden table was covered with silver bowls of varying sizes holding pins, spools of thread, and trims—skins of mice, drops of shimmering dew, leaves that would never fade and other, less pleasant things.

The most fantastical things in the room were those that appeared the most ordinary, Roiben knew. The loom that could weave Folk into tapestries, binding them there till this or that term was met, looked like an old and much abused loom, nothing more. The spindle was much the same, rough wood and plain, but he knew that the long black thread it was wound with was human hair.

The seamstress herself was a small creature with spindly limbs, long and awkward. She was draped in sheer black cloth that hid half of her face and hunched so far over that her long arms almost touched the floor. Roiben bowed shallowly as shining black eyes regarded him.
Skillywidden hissed her greetings and shuffled over to lift Kaye’s thin arms, measuring their width by squeezing them between her thumb and first finger. When Kaye’s brown eyes caught his, he could see the glint of fear in them, although her body remained limp.

“Toothsome,” Skillywidden rasped speculatively, “smooth skin. What shall I trade for her? I could make you a tunic with the scent of apple blossoms. That would remind you of home, no?”

Kaye shuddered.

“I am here for a gown, not to trade,” Roiben said, repressing a shudder himself. “The Queen would like her better dressed for the revels seeing as she”—again, it was hard to find the right words, so as not to alarm the girl—“is a guest of honor.”

Skillywidden chittered and began digging through her bolts of cloth. Kaye’s drugged haze seemed to keep her from remembering that the seamstress scared her, and she was now stroking a fabric that shifted color as she touched it.

“Stretch out your arms,” the seamstress croaked, “wide as a bird. There.”

Kaye held up her arms while Skillywidden draped her with fabrics and whispered incoherently. The little crone grasped Kaye’s chin suddenly and jerked it downward, then shuffled over to her bowls, digging around in them.
There was nothing for Roiben to do but wait.

Apple blossoms no longer reminded Roiben of home, although the Seelie Court had reeked of them. No, now the scent of apple blossoms reminded him of a treewoman, whose brown face had been tranquil as dirt despite how far she was from her tree. She had been a prophet, but she would not prophesy for the Unseelie Queen. He had been ordered to persuade her.

What he remembered most now, however, were the treewoman’s last words to him, spoken as mossy fingers scraped his cheek and thick sap ran from the many cuts in her body. “It is you who are dying,” she had said.

You can break a thing, but you cannot always guide it afterward into the shape you want.

“Knight?” Skillywidden said, holding up a skein of thin, white silk. “Is it meet?”

“Send the dress to my rooms,” Roiben said, pulling himself from his thoughts. “The Queen desires her to be clad and back in the brugh tonight.”

Skillywidden looked up from the collection she was assembling, blinked owlishly, and grunted. That was enough of a response for him; he had no need to urge further swiftness on the seamstress. Kaye was likely to benefit from any delays.

“Come,” Roiben said, and Kaye followed him tractably. She looked drunken with magic.

Retracing their steps through the Palace of Termites, he at last brought them to a wooden door carved with a crude unicorn. He opened it with a silver key and let her go inside before him. He watched her stop to look at the books that covered a low table, running her hands over slim paperback volumes of Yeats and Milton, lingering as she touched a leather volume with silver clasps. It was a book of old songs, but there was no title on the dusty cover, and she did not unclasp it to look at the pages. On the wall, there was the old tapestry, the one he had slashed into shreds one night long ago. He wondered whether his room looked like a cell to her. It couldn’t have been what she had expected after the marvelous things she had seen elsewhere.

Kaye was looking at the tapestry, studying what was left of it. “She’s pretty. Who is she?”

“My Queen,” he said. He wanted to correct himself, but he couldn’t.

“Not the Unseelie Queen? The other one?” Kaye sat down on the drab coverlet of his bed, tilting her head, still looking at the figure. He didn’t need to look to see the depiction, dark hair falling like a cape over the back of her emerald dress—beautiful, but only stitcheries. A mortal had woven it, a man who, having caught sight of the Seelie Queen, had spent the remainder of his short life weaving depictions of her. He had died of starvation, raw, red fingers
staining the final tapestry. It was a long time that Roiben had envied him such perfect devotion.

“The other one,” he agreed.

“I read that”—Kaye pointed to
Paradise Lost
—“Well, part of it.”

“Horror and doubt distract his troubled thoughts and from the bottom stir the Hell within him, for within him Hell he brings, and round about him, nor from Hell one step more than from himself can fly by change of place,” he quoted.

“It was in one of those huge anthology books, but we didn’t actually talk about it in class. I kept the book after I dropped out—do you know what high school is?” Her voice sounded drowsy, he thought, but the conversation was relatively normal. While the enchantment lingered, it no longer seemed to overwhelm her. He allowed himself to see that as a positive sign.

“We know about your world, at least superficially. The solitary fey know more. They are the ones huddled around windows, watching television through the blinds. I’ve seen a stick of lipstick traded for an unseemly amount among dryads.”

“Too bad they didn’t let me bring my bag. I could have bribed my way out of here.” Kaye snickered, pulling herself all the way onto his bed.

She was drawn up against the headboard,
black jeans frayed at the ankles where they touched the scuffed boots. Just a girl. A girl who shouldn’t have to be this brave. Around her wrist, a rubber band encircled the flesh, faded patterns drawn in blue ink still visible. No rings on those fingers. Nails bitten to the quick. Details. Things he should have noticed.

She looked tired, he realized. He knew little of what her life was like before he had made a mess of it. With a grimace he remembered the ripped shirt that she had ripped further to bind his wound. “At least we think we know something of your world. I do not, however, know near as much as I ought about you.”

“I don’t know much about the world,” Kaye said. “I only know about the crappy town I grew up in and the even crappier city we moved to after that. I’ve never even been out of the country. My mom wants to be this singer, but mostly she just winds up getting drunk and screaming how other chick vocalists suck. God, that sounds depressing.”

Roiben thought of what would happen if the sacrifice was not made, if by guile or chance or something else, Kaye escaped. The solitary fey would be free for seven years. He imagined the chaos that would ensue.

It very nearly pleased him.

“I don’t think I’ve exactly been cheery myself, fair Kaye.”

She sighed, smiling, and let her head fall
back, her ragged blond hair spreading out in a halo over his pillows. He thought absently that he would like to braid that hair the way he had once braided his sister’s.

“I went to high school for a while,” she continued absently, “and then I got out of the habit. People usually think that I’m pretty weird, which is funny at the moment. Maybe funny is the wrong word.”

He sat on the end of the bed, just listening.

“I thought weirdness was a good thing. I don’t mean that defensively, either. I thought it was something to be cultivated. I spent a lot of time hanging around bars, setting up equipment, breaking it down, loading up vans, fishing my mom’s head out of toilets—things other kids didn’t do. And sometimes things just happened, magical things that I couldn’t control. But still, all this—you—it’s so hard to accept that you’re really real.” She said the last with a hushed reverence that was completely undeserved.

Still, she sounded so normal. Conversational. She even looked normal, if a touch too comfortable on a stranger’s bed. “Do you still want to please me?”

Her smile was surprised, a little baffled. “Of course I do.”

“It would be better if you did not,” he said, hesitating, trying to find a way to reason her out of enchantment. He could do nothing for
her if she was like this when the actual ceremony took place. “It would be better if you acted according to your own desires.”

She sat up and looked at him intently. “Do you? Don’t you want to go home?”

“To the Seelie Court?” He allowed himself to say it. For a long moment, he considered what she asked and then he shook his head. “Once, I wanted nothing more. Now, I think I would not be welcome among them and, even were I, it is unlikely we would suit.”

“You’re not the way everyone says you are,” Kaye said, looking at him so fiercely that he couldn’t meet her gaze. “I know you’re not.”

“You know nothing of me,” he said. He wanted to punish her for the trust he saw on her face, to raze it from her now so that he would be spared the sight of her when that trust was betrayed.

He wanted to tell her he found her impossibly alluring, at least half enchanted, body bruised and scratched, utterly unaware she would not live past dawn. He wondered what she would say in the face of that.

Instead, he forced a little laugh. “Let me explain again. Of the Host of the Unseelie Court are many unconcerned by blood and death, save as amusement. But the Host is more than a scourge. Nicnevin rules over ancient secrets, buried in the bowels of warrens and fens. The twilight holds as many truths as
the dawn, perhaps more, since they are less easily perceived. No, I do not think that I would be welcomed back, now that I can see that.”