Tom All-Alone's (4 page)

How could I not be moved? Sitting there with him, seeing him smile upon me, and feeling, for the first time since my mother died, that I was valued and cherished, and had a place in the world.

I put my arms about his neck and kissed him, and he gently patted me on the head and handed me a handkerchief scented with lavender. ‘There! There!' he said. ‘There is no cause for tears. This is your home now, and you will find no one here but those who wish you well.' At least, that is my memory of what he said. ‘Wish', I am sure it was.

He got up presently and stirred the fire, then sat back once again in the easy-chair. I had by then folded my hands upon my lap and quite recovered myself, and Mr Jarvis started to talk to me as naturally and easily as if we were acquaintances of long date. The look on his face at that moment was the very image of his innate and generous goodness – I saw that expression for the first time in that moment, but for many years now I have seen it every day, and when I close my eyes it is there still.

‘Indeed, Hester,' he began, ‘I am in hopes that you will play a full part in our little community. I have been told you are a young lady of sense and usefulness; indeed it is obvious to anyone who has been but a quarter of an hour in your society. Some of your fellow boarders are occasionally a little dejected and melancholic – such a thing is quite common and normal, especially when they first come to us – but I feel sure that in such circumstances they could make a friend of you, and benefit immeasurably from being confided to your care.'

I hardly knew what to say. ‘I hope you have not formed too high an opinion of my abilities,' I began. ‘I am very young and I am afraid I am not clever either. I will do my best, but I am
very concerned lest you should expect too much of me and then be disappointed.'

He waved his hand at this as if all my fears were quite groundless. ‘I think it very likely that you may prove the good little woman of The Solitary House, my dear,' he smiled. ‘Remember the little old woman of the nursery rhyme?

‘The Solitary House has its own little clusters of cobwebs, Hester, like all such houses. But you will sweep every one out of the sky for us in the course of your time here. I am quite confident of that.'

And that was how I came to be called Old Woman, and Little Old Woman, and Cobweb, and Mrs Shipton, and Mother Hubbard, and Dame Durden, and so many other things of a similar kind that I began almost to think myself the stooped and wizened creature my names seemed to imply.

I soon adapted so fully to the daily routine of The Solitary House that I could hardly remember any other life, and my years at the cottage with my dear mama seemed like a far-off golden dream. It was a happy and ordered existence we led, and nothing disturbed the calm serenity of our days. There was a place for everything, and a time for everything, whether reading, or baking, or laundry, or tending to the garden. I have had several different companions during the years I have lived here, but at that time we were four boarders, including myself. There was Amy, and there was Caroline, and there was Augusta. Such pretty names they all had, or so I thought. Amy was small and slight with huge grey eyes and a timid look, and a tendency
to hear noises and take fright at the slightest untoward sound or gesture. I do believe the dear little thing took to me at first sight, and by the end of the week she was following me round like a tiny devoted dog, and creeping into my bed at night, whispering that she had heard the ghost on the walk again, or there were cries in the night, or phantoms scratching in the roof above her bed. Caroline I found almost forbidding, or at least at first. I was introduced to her by Miss Darby the day after my arrival, in the big room downstairs, where she sat at a writing-table looking dissatisfied and sullen, her fingers covered with ink, her hair untidy, and her satin slippers scuffed.

I saw her looking at my own dress, plain and serviceable as it was. ‘You think a lot of yourself, I dare say,' she said bitterly. But I could see there were tears in her eyes, for all her angry words, so I took a seat by her and tried my best to look her friend.

‘Come, come, Miss Caroline,' I said, ‘a little care, a little tidiness – a pin here and a stitch there, and I could make you as fresh and lovely as a spring day. Lovelier far than I could ever be.'

I put my hand in hers, but she pulled it away saying she was tired. Miss Darby shook her head and touched Caroline's forehead, observing that it was hot, and she would have one of the maids fetch a restorative that would help to calm her. Miss Darby then said a few more quiet words to Caroline and she presently put down her pen, and straightened her dress as well as she could.

‘There,' said Miss Darby brightly, ‘that's much better, Caroline. You're almost presentable for once. Why don't you take Hester upstairs and show her your room?' adding in an undertone to me that the chamber was as much in need of attention as its owner. I did what I could to bring a little order, and saw at once that this was a great relief to its occupant, who stood wringing her hands in the centre of the carpet, not
knowing, it seemed, whether to fling her arms about me, or berate me for my meddling. I had not long finished my tucking and tidying when there was a soft tap at the door and it opened to reveal Augusta, hand in hand with little Amy. The latter slipped to my side and whispered that Augusta had just had one of her fits, but Miss Darby had been on hand, and all was well now. I went to Augusta and gave her a kiss, and she smiled timidly at me, though her cheeks were deeply flushed and her eyes still a little wild. Poor girl! I saw her suffer many of these seizures in the months that followed and I am sad to say that they got worse, if anything, over that time. It was not long before I recognized the tell-tale signs. A strange expression would pass across her face, and then she would suddenly stiffen in the most alarming manner, and fall to the ground, no matter where she was; her limbs would thrash about, her mouth would froth, and she would become so rigid and tense that the slightest touch seemed to hurt her. When the fits were particularly bad, her eyes would roll round so that naught but the whites were visible, which was especially terrifying to dear little Amy, who thought it signified that poor Augusta's soul had been seized by a evil spirit, so I would always take care, if I was nearby, to take Amy apart and sit with her, telling her a fairy story, until Miss Darby had made all peaceable once more.

I spent the next quiet, happy months at The Solitary House, surrounded by my friends, protected by my Guardian, and contriving to make myself as useful as I was cheerful. Then one August morning, Mr Jarvis called me to see him. The garden was in its full summer glory, the air fragrant, and the birds singing. When I opened the door of Mr Jarvis' room, I saw at once that he was not alone. The two of them were standing by the fire talking, and they turned towards me when they heard my approach. Oh, she was so beautiful! Such lovely golden
hair, and such a pure and innocent face! I thought at once of my mother, and of the likeness of her I still kept close to my heart, and I was – for a moment – a little sad. I think that this lovely girl divined this somehow, for she came to meet me with a smile and kissed me, with nothing in her eyes but affection and acceptance. Oh, the joy and relief I felt at that moment!

‘This, Hester,' said Mr Jarvis, ‘is Clara. And this, Clara, is the Little Old Lady I told you of before. If The Solitary House is a happy house, it is because Dame Durden makes it so.'

He said this out of his love for me, nothing more, and knowing that I almost fear to write it down, in case it should seem like vanity, but it is unlikely, after all, that anyone will ever read these pages but me.

Clara took my hands in hers and led me to the window-seat, and she had such a enchanting way with her that we spent the whole of the rest of the morning sitting there with the sunlight upon her beautiful hair, talking and laughing together. I saw Mr Jarvis look his approval, and knew at once that he had designed we should be friends, and that I should do what I could to make the dear girl comfortable and content with us. In the days and weeks that followed we became inseparable, and Mr Jarvis was so good as to allow us to move to adjoining rooms on the ground floor, opening on to the garden, where I would walk before breakfast with my darling. I called her so even then, and it is so natural to me now that I cannot think of her in any other way! She would take my hand in hers, and tell me I was a dear creature, and her best friend, and we would both look up to where Mr Jarvis stood watching us at the big bay window.

I remember repeating to my Guardian some such charming words of hers, as we sat together one evening – not for my own vainglory – oh no! – but because – well, just because.

‘What a weight off my mind it is that she should love me!' I said. ‘It is so reassuring to know that a beautiful girl like Clara wishes me for her friend! It is such an encouragement to me!'

‘And why should you need anyone else's encouragement?' he said, taking my chin gently in his hand. ‘Clara is by no means the only beautiful girl here. Nor even the most beloved.'

I, very much abashed, hardly knew where to look, and when at last I had the courage to glance up, I saw him looking at me with that careful fatherly look of his that I had come to know so well. I took his hand and kissed it, and held it in mine.

In a little while he smiled, and drew one of my pale flaxen curls through his hand.

‘So let us hear no more, Hester, about your looks.'

T
he room is full tonight, and the number of portly and
be-bearded
gentlemen crowding the rows of seats is making up for the rather inadequate fire at the far end. Cigar smoke is hanging heavily overhead, and it's obvious that the portly gentlemen are sweating gently under their starch and barber's cologne. The speaker on the dais at the front is small and lean, with heavy whiskers, thinning hair, and a little beard sharpened to a perfect point. He looks rather like the Prince Consort, and speaks with a very similar accent, though someone better versed in these things than I am would tell you that he is, in fact, Austrian. A former Consul-General, no less, and his presence here, therefore, is something of a coup for this as yet rather minor
geographical society, which has only fairly recently acquired another adjective before its name, and has yet to take possession of the large and distinctive redbrick premises it will later occupy on Kensington Gore. Baron von Müller has a map pinned to an easel and a small table to his left, which holds a number of interesting items, some instantly identifiable, others rather less so. We have just been listening to his opening preamble, and it's a fair sample of his rather self-important, amplifying style. No doubt it comes with the territory, in every sense of the word.

His subject tonight is ‘A Scientific Journey through Africa', and he is clearly going to take his time about it. Some twenty minutes later he is still ‘proceeding slowly across the immense steppes', though there is no hint of impatience from most of his audience. But if the august members are increasingly intrigued by the identity and purpose of the tray of props, they are about to be enlightened. One by one, the Baron proceeds to hold up these prize samples of what the African continent offers to ‘the commercial, industrial, and intellectual people of Europe'. They are, to wit, and in order: a piece of gum Arabic (smooth, slightly clouded, amber-coloured, the size and texture of a bar of soap), a large ivory tooth (known – the Baron tells us – as a
masheket
, due to the fissure running through it, which he carefully points out), a jar of tamarind (small brown peanut-shaped pods), a sliver of ebony (cut thinly from unpolished trunk, with a light outer skin and a dark inner core), a handful of pressed senna leaves (dried now and faded), and – finally – two large ostrich feathers. The latter, at least, needs no accompanying explanation; there is not a gentleman in the audience whose wife does not possess a fan or head-dress embellished with plumes just like these. But the table has not yielded up all its treasures yet, though it is some minutes more before we find out what the final item is doing there.

The Baron resumes: ‘At Melpess, in the vicinity of Lobehd, where I had spent some time for the purpose of collecting objects of natural history, I made in April 1848 the acquaintance of a man, from whom I wanted to buy several animals, who for the first time put me on the trace of the unicorn, or
anasa
, hitherto considered a fabulous animal. The man had often seen the animal living in the Chala and dead among the tribes. It is the size of a small donkey, has a thick body and thin bones, coarse hair, and tail like a boar. It has a long horn on its forehead, and lets it hang when alone, but erects it immediately on seeing an enemy, when it becomes stiff and hard.'

The Baron smoothes his moustache and looks up and down the rows of faces turned towards him. ‘Moreover,' he continues, and then pauses, prolonging his moment. ‘Moreover, I was able, at no inconsiderable expense, to obtain an example, and return with it from the darkest heart of Africa. Gentlemen, I present to you now the only authenticated example of a unicorn horn ever to be brought to these shores!' He lifts the final item in his hands with a theatrical flourish, and stands there, awaiting the wonderment. He's given this performance before, and this is always by far the most rewarding moment.

The horn in question is perhaps three feet long, not entirely straight, but almost so. Dark, highly burnished, and twisted in a thick spiral towards the base. There is no question that it does indeed look uncannily like the representations of unicorn horns that everyone present has known since boyhood, not least on the royal coat of arms. The room is silent for a moment, and then the murmuring starts. Quiet at first, but then louder, with here and there a word discernible.

‘Good Lord.'

‘Quite extraordinary.'

‘Never seen the like.'

The noise continues for some moments more. And then – improbably – there is the sound of laughter. Loud, incredulous, and outrageous laughter. As you would expect, this is rather a rare occurrence for such a learned institution, and the members start moving cumbrously in their chairs to see what's going on. It's coming, they find, from a seat at the back; it's coming, as we can now see, from none other than Charles Maddox. The officer of the society who has been chairing the proceedings rises to his feet.

‘Order, please! His Excellency deserves the courtesy of a considered hearing.'

It makes no difference; the noise is rising to a din. He picks up his gavel – normally an object of far more ornament than use – and strikes it against the wooden block.

‘Would the gentleman in the back row care to explain himself?'

Charles smiles. ‘Gladly,' he says, and gets to his feet. ‘I have read a number of papers on the subject,' he begins, ‘and they have only served to confirm my belief that there is not, and never has been, any such species as the unicorn. The very idea of such a creature is, quite frankly, an insult to the intelligence of this society—'

The Baron had returned to his seat, but he is on his feet again in an instant, his face red. ‘
You
, sir, I take it, have never even set foot on the African continent.'

‘I have not. And therefore I can offer no actual
proof
– scientific or otherwise – that this creature does not, in fact, exist.'

‘There you are – what did I say! The man is an ignorant fool—'

‘But what I
can
do is prove beyond all doubt that the horn you are holding is
not
what you claim it to be. That it is, in short, a fake, and that if there is indeed a fool among us, it is
far more likely to be
you
than
me
. Though in your defence, you are not the first to be taken in by cunning and opportunistic natives, and I dare say you won't be the last.'

Uproar now. The room is in chaos. The chairman raps his gavel again, and motions Charles to the front.

‘You had better be able to make good your claims, sir, or be prepared to make a full and unreserved apology to our esteemed guest.'

Charles looks unperturbed by either the words or the portentous tones in which they have been uttered. He makes his way briskly up the centre aisle to the mutterings and – in some cases – the downright disapproval of several of the audience. He does not, after all, look the part of a serious scientific mind, being every bit as untidy as when we saw him last and a good twenty years too young to have any sort of legitimate opinion. He leaps the steps to the dais two at a time and takes the horn from the Baron's hands. He turns it, weighing it lightly, and running his fingers from tip to root. Silence descends. You could, in fact, hear a pin drop.

A moment later, he looks up at the chairman and grins (something else these walls rarely get to see). ‘As I thought. This horn was taken from an adult bull of the
Taurotragus oryx,
or Common Eland. An antelope common in precisely those parts of Africa that the Baron has been describing to us in such exhaustive detail.'

He tosses the horn back to the Baron. ‘It is, I grant you, a fine and unusually large example, and will make an admirable addition to the wall of your ancestral
Schloss
. Appropriately labelled, of course. I am sure that a man who has “studied natural science under some of the most distinguished professors in several universities” would not wish to leave his visitors in any doubt as to what this
actually
is.'

The Baron is only halfway through his prepared paper, but Charles does not stay to hear it – he has better things to do with his time. How long it takes for the rest of the room to return to anything like its previous attentiveness, he neither knows nor cares.  

Outside on Regent Street the night is clear but frosty, and though he is not far from home, the sight of a green Bayswater heading his way tempts him, for once, to take the omnibus. It's very full – no surprise at this time of night – and Charles struggles to find a seat between a little testy man with a powdered head, and a sturdy brown-faced woman in a grey cloth cloak who's gripping an umbrella with a wooden crook and has a market-basket full of greens wedged between her knees. The 'bus grinds its slow way past brilliantly lit shops and strolling crowds, and Charles eventually swings down the step at the bottom of Tottenham Court Road.  

It is, perhaps, some five minutes later that he first gets the sense that someone is following him. It's happened many times before, especially on fast-darkening evenings like this, but it's no less alarming for that. He stops, and turns as if nonchalantly, but sees no one. A minute later he steps quickly down his own small side street and slips into the shadow of a doorway. And now he knows he's not imagining it: he can hear heavy boots, and even heavier breathing. One man only; that at least is something. He waits, his heart pounding, but when he springs out, grasps his pursuer by the throat and throws him against the wall, he starts back in disbelief.

‘Abel Stornaway – what in God's name do you think you're doing? I could have killed you!'

The old man is leaning against the wall, spluttering. ‘Mr Charles, sir,' he gasps, his Scotch tongue tempered by the best part of fifty London years. ‘I never meant to startle ye. Yer
landlady wouldna let me wait in yer room, so I was keepin' an eye out—'

‘Let me guess – from the snug of the White Horse?'

Stornaway smiles weakly. ‘A wee nip ne'er goes amiss on a night like this. And then when I saw ye go past I couldna keep up with ye. The legs bain't what they once were, and that's a fact.'

Charles looks at him. He is – what – seventy-five now? Even eighty? He has a pitiable old scarf round his neck and a
much-worn
and often-mended pair of gloves, but neither will be  much good in these freezing temperatures. Whatever it is that's dragged him from his comfortable fireside, it must be important.

‘Look,' he says, ‘let me make amends for Mrs Stacey's lack of hospitality. She is a kind woman at heart, but her infatuation with Gothic novels has her seeing ghosts and vampyres under every bed, especially after dark. Come back to my room and I'll have her get us some hot coffee. And then you can tell me what this is all about.'

Stornaway is soon installed in front of Charles' small fire, with a mug gripped in both hands and the powerful aroma of coffee filling the room. The cat wakes, stretches languorously on the bed then turns himself slowly upside-down, inviting adulation. Stornaway takes his time to get to the point, but Charles is in no hurry and sips his own coffee patiently, stroking the cat and contemplating his companion. Stornaway bears all the marks of his brutal career: twisted fingers gnarled with scar tissue; a nose that's been broken more than once, and the thin white mark of a knife wound running from his brow to the corner of his mouth. He was lucky not to lose the eye; Charles' father even let drop, some years before, that another such encounter left him with a fractured skull and a metal plate holding his head together.

‘It's the guv'nor, Mr Charles,' he says eventually, his face troubled.

Stornaway is not a man given to delicacy of feeling, or finding problems where none exist, and Charles is troubled in his turn, not least because it's been rather longer than he cares to admit since he last saw his great-uncle. Maddox spent the summer on a long-postponed tour of northern Italy, but he must have returned to his house near the river at least six weeks ago, and Charles has still not found the time to visit. Given the relationship they have – or had; given what Charles said of him only yesterday (and every word of that was true), this lapse might strike you as rather odd. It might strike you, too, that there must be a reason for it that Charles seems rather reluctant to admit. What this might be we may yet discover, but it is, in itself, instructive: he may be a meticulous observer of the habits and behavioural patterns of other creatures, human or otherwise, but he is singularly blind to his own. Abel, meanwhile, has said nothing, but Charles is in no hurry. Best the man comes to it in his own way.

‘He's not his'sen, Mr Charles. Not at all. Not since we got back.'

‘Is he unwell?'

Stornaway looks perplexed. ‘That's just it. I dinna rightly know. One day he's as right as rain, the next he dinna seem to know who I am. One day he just sits there in his chair, starin' into space mumblin' to his'sen; the next he's as sharp as a razor, setting everything to rights from the state o' my collar to the state o' the nation.'

Charles puts down his mug. ‘I suppose he is very old now.' He's trying to be reassuring, but he's not as confident as he sounds. Maddox has an incisive mind, yes; but he was never a belligerent man.