Authors: Ellen Hopkins
Tags: #General, #Adolescence, #Family, #Social Science, #Human Sexuality, #Novels in verse, #Family problems, #Emotional Problems, #Psychology, #Social Issues, #Prostitution, #Fiction, #Juvenile Fiction, #Women's Studies, #Families, #Emotional Problems of Teenagers, #Dating & Sex, #juvenile
case of maternal instinct? I consider
my next move carefully. Call Bryn.
"Okay. I'll go. Pick me up at ten."
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A Poem by Ginger Cordell
Move Carefully
Who knows what lurks beneath that beautiful
rock you want to turn
over?
I once thought
I wanted to live on a mountain. But
how high before the altitude
would take its toll?
Now I want to dive
under
deep water. But can
I hold my breath, stand the pressure?
How low
can I go, and will
Fate keep the sharks
far away, or will Destiny in fact send some
hideous sea creature to catch me in its jaws, drag me down?
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Ginger They Call Vegas
Sin City, like calling it what it is somehow legitimizes the name.
Las Vegas
is
Sin City. Whole lot
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of sinning going on, from fancy
high-rise casino rooms to sleazy
well-off-the-strip motel dives.
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People come here specifically
to
sin. But I wonder whether
it's really true that "what happens
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in Vegas stays in Vegas."
People stain themselves here.
I bet, no matter how hard they
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scrub themselves after sinning, when they go home, a certain
amount of stain remains visible.
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Then, I guess, it's up to the spouse or significant other to recognize the meaning of that dark splotch
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ghosting beneath the bleach.
Most of 'em probably don't want to look. Don't want to know.
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The Reason
I know so damn much about the sinning is I have pretty well been pushed into causing some
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of it. As sin goes, at least so far, my own participation
has remained fairly mild.
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See, when Alex and I first hit
town, like a few weeks ago,
Lydia seemed okay with giving
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us a place to crash. Alex called her from the bus station.
Hey, girl. You said to look you up if
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I ever made it to Vegas. Well,
me and a friend just got here.
Could you come pick us up?
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It was early morning, and
Lydia was not real happy about having to pull herself
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out of bed. We waited a couple of hours, sipping coffee, until she finally showed, took us back
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to her small tract house south of the city in a burb called
Henderson. She keeps her place
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neat, with pretty flowers in trim
beds, giving the impression she wants to give--legitimate.
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See, for a while Lydia worked as a stripper in a fairly nice
club near the Stratosphere.
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I made pretty good money.
Most of it went to the house, which took a big cut for keeping
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the girls safe. I did all the work, they reaped sixty percent of
the bennies. Hard to swallow.
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So Lydia got smart, started her own business--Have Ur Cake
Escorts. Now she takes a cut from
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the girls (and guys) whose "dates" she sets up.
I
still strip for fun
once in a while. All on my own terms.
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Her Neighbors
Are completely clueless about her means of support.
They think she's a showgirl.
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The ultimate Vegas dream.
Anyway, she let Alex and me
move into her spare bedroom.
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But not for free.
You can stay for a week gratis. After that,
I'd appreciate a little rent.
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She never asked why we were there, although she did mention
Alex's dad.
How's he doing?
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Alex shrugged.
Same ol,
you know? But if he happens to call, I don't want to talk to him.
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Far as I know, he never did, and Lydia let the subject
drop. Alex and I looked for
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under-the-table jobs, but they're
hard to find, unless you're good with pulling weeds for five
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bucks an hour. A week came.
A week went by. Two. Plus a couple of days. Finally Lydia
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said something.
Okay, here's
the deal. Both of you are pretty
girls. Great bods, with that fresh
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look guys (especially old ones)
appreciate. You could make
boatloads taking off your clothes.
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The clubs are careful about underage girls, but work for me, no one will check your IDs.
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My first reaction was no way
would I ever let evil old pervs
see me naked. That's when Lydia
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mentioned how much money
we could make.
Easily five
hundred a night. And that's no
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touching allowed. Bachelor
parties alone could make the two of you very comfortable.
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What She Forgot
To mention was that her cut for setting us up in the exotic
dancing business was one-third
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the hourly rate. Tips are ours to earn and keep. And hey, considering Lydia handles all
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Have Ur Cake calls, screenings, and advertisement, she's
worth every penny. As per her
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well-advised counsel, Alex and I
work exclusively as a team.
Sooner or later,
Lydia said,
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you'll have to deal with a jerk
who won't want to hear "no
touching allowed," if you decide
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to stick to that. With two of you,
you've got a fighting chance, or at the very least, a witness.
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So far, though we've had many
requests for more, and a few
grumbles when we say no way,
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the men have all honored the "look but don't touch"
rule. Our two-for-one fee
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is three hundred an hour
(a bargain!) plus tips for straight dancing. Private
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lap dances are twenty dollars per song. Girl-on-girl action
adds another hundred to the tab.
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Besides Lydia, we give a cut to our regular taxi drivers, who keep us off their meters.
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They're cool and weren't hard to hook up with. Pretty much
everyone in Vegas is a scammer.
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As for the actual stripping,
Lydia gave us some pointers.
Turns out I'm a better dancer
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than Alex. Her boobs are bigger, though, and really beautiful.
I swear I never knew I leaned
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toward girls until I met Alex.
Guess I never let myself lean any
way at all. Didn't dare get close
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to anyone, male or female.
But Alex and I are tight. I love her heart. Her brains. Her body.
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The men we perform for like when we dance with each other, breast-to-breast or belly-to-ass,
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tan skin against pale, ebony hair on blue-streaked blond, fingers
touching hidden places we won't
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let "clients" touch. Powerful!
That's how I feel, seeing how
helpless we make them. I so enjoy
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reducing them to masturbation.
It's like they are masturbating for me, and I can control when
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they come by how I move
my body, what I let them see.
It's a game I win every time.
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Another Few Weeks
We'll have saved enough to get our own place. Maybe a nice little townhouse closer
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to downtown, where most of the action is. Tonight
we've got a bachelor party.
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Great gigs. Tips are good.
And when there's a crowd in the room, the dicks mostly
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stay hidden. I'm standing by the window, keeping
watch for the cab, when Alex
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comes into the room, wearing a yummy short leather skirt.
Just got a ten o'clock. We should
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be finished with the boys before nine.
Younger guys tend to get
started early. The best man booked
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us for seven, and they should all
be well on their way to passing
out before we even get there.
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Which is why we collect our
basic fee up front. Don't want to get caught with our fingers
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in some drunk guy's wallet.
Of course, we do hope they
stay awake long enough to
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reward our girl-girl routine.
We knock on the condo door at seven on the dot. The guy
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who answers is pretty cute.
Hello, girls. Come right in.
Can I get you ladies something
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to drink?
We decline and he escorts us inside, where a half
dozen guys are ogling cable porn.
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While I ask Best Man for cash up front--six hundred, split
seven ways--Alex flirts.
Okay,
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boys, where's the groom? We
want to treat him right!
Where did she learn that shtick?
Stripping
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for Dummies?
Hah. Anyway, once the cash is safely tucked
away, Alex outlines the rules:
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Absolutely no touching, or we
leave immediately One lap dance is included, for the groom only
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If any of the rest of you are into
that, it will cost extra. Tips are
encouraged! Any questions?
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One rat-looking dude pulls his eyes from the TV screen
action.
How much for head?
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A couple other guys laugh
nervously, but Alex has it covered.
You'll have to ask
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your buddies. We don't do head,
except on each other, and that
will cost an extra hundred.
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No surprise that Ratman
reaches into his pocket for a Benjamin Franklin.
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Seven Fifty, Minus Commission
Toward a place of our own,
Alex and I bid adieu to groom,
Best Man, et al. Poor bride.
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We're giggling as we get into
Leonard's cab.
What's so funny, girls? Care to share?
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Alex hands over a fifty.
No
offense, Len my dear, but men are just so disgusting.
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I mean, really. Would you dare
beat off in front of your best
friends? We
crack up again.
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Lenny looks into his rear-view
mirror, grins.
Only if
you two were dancing for us.
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It's a short drive to our next
appointment, in a not very nice
part of town. Lenny promises
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to stay available,
Just in case
you need a quick ride out of here. Be careful, okay?
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Hey,
says Alex,
no worries.
But if we don't call you in an hour, it's okay to come looking.
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She gives him a twenty for caring and off we go. Unlike
Best Man, this guy is a pug,
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short, wrinkled, and bug-eyed.
He doesn't talk as we handle the business stuff, but he does
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pay extra up front for a three-song
lap dance. I glance at
Alex, who nods, meaning
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she'll do it for him. She knows
I never could. After a little
girl-on-girl rubbing, she goes
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to take care of it. He sits
very still in his chair, staring as she strips free of her bra.
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Suddenly his hands are all over her. "Hey. Cut it out.
Absolutely no touching allowed."
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No good. Alex's eyes go just a little wild.
Okay, man, we're
out of here.
She tries, but
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the creep snakes his arms around her waist, squeezes like a hungry boa constrictor.
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All I want is a hand job. Give
it to me, I'll let you go. You,
over there, play with yourself.
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So much for control. Good
thing it doesn't take long. He
finishes with a loud,
Aaaagh!
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He does let go of Alex, who wipes her hand on his shirt.
We grab our clothes, throw
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ourselves out the door, mostly
naked. Yank on what we can at a dead run. Suddenly Alex
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starts to laugh. She holds up a wad of bills.
Stupid shit
just gave us a really big tip.
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Later, After Several Shots
Of whiskey (Lydia buys it for us, as long as we
drink it post-business only),
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Alex and I go to bed.
Fresh from the shower, her skin is warm and apple-scented.