Trying to Score (18 page)

Wow, that stung a little. He wasn’t going to be a damn part-time dad!

He shook his head. “Damn, you can still be a bitch when you feel threatened, huh? What the hell is your problem? Am I yelling at you? Am I slapping you with lawsuits for keeping my son away from me?”

“No! But I bet it’s fucking coming and you can go on with that shit. We’ll run and you will
never
see him again,” Fallon yelled before standing up and going to the sink. Nothing was said as he watched her pick up the glass from the sink.

She turned, going to the trash and throwing away the glass that she held. “I’ll fill out the paperwork Lucas. I’ll have it ready for you tomorrow. What else do you want from me?”

Fallon was freaking out.

She didn’t know what Lucas was thinking and she hated that. Before she could predict what he was about to do before he even did it, but now she had no clue. They were older, there were bigger factors in play, and she was just plain scared out of her mind of him. Why did Audrey have to leave? If she wouldn’t have left, Fallon could have done this better. Fallon was being a bitch and she knew that Lucas could only deal with so much of her bitchiness before he started yelling.

“I just want to know my kid Fallon, that’s all,” Lucas said as he looked down at the table, scratching at something, probably cookie residue. “How old is he? Seven?”

“He’ll be seven in two weeks, the 26th,” she said, even though she felt like she was giving him a piece of her. She didn’t know why she didn’t want him to know Aiden. It was wrong. Aiden was his son, but it just hurt Fallon. Aiden took to him instantly, and that bothered Fallon. She didn’t want them to have a connection because it took from her connection with Aiden. She had been his everything for almost seven years, and now she had competition.

Lucas nodded his head, still not looking at her. “You can come, Lucas, if you want,” she said quietly, because she felt bad. She didn’t like what she had done to Lucas, but her jealousy was still eating at her, hardcore.

Fallon nodded, looking off to the side because she couldn’t take his smile right now. She was raw with emotion. He was in her kitchen, seeing that she wasn’t as successful as she should be by now. He now knew that she had kept something from him that could be considered the worst thing ever to keep from someone. She felt like a failure.

When they were together, she had talked so big, and she wasn’t half of what she thought she would be by now.

“
What do you want to be when you grow up?”

Fallon grinned over at Lucas. He was naked, the sheet hanging low along his hips as Fallon was tucked up beside him, also naked. They lay with all the windows open, letting the fresh ocean air into the room. The air was filled with salt, and Fallon swore she could taste it. She loved the ocean, she loved days like this. She just loved being thoroughly loved by Lucas.

Fallon nuzzled her nose against his pecs before putting her chin in her hand as she traced her finger along the beautiful words along his chest.

Never look back, never think twice.

It was his motto, and now it was hers.

“
I wanna run Rocky Top Wines. I want to make our wine the best-selling wine in the country. I want to be the most powerful woman in the wine business. I want to have people scared of me because I am the best.”

He smiled, moving her hair behind her ear. “And?”

Fallon gave him a shy smile. “I wanna be married.”

“
To me of course,” Lucas said with a smile, which she returned.

“
Oh, of course, and I wanna have three kids. Two girls and one boy.”

He laughed. “Oh come on, three boys.”

“
No, I want girls!” Fallon giggled, as he ran his hand down her back, taking a good chunk of her bottom in his hand.

“
I don’t want any girls, I could never love another girl the way I love you.”

Fallon shook her head. Before she would never be jealous of his relationship with their children, she’d wanted it. But that was before, when nothing else mattered but them. Before, when she hadn’t lied to anyone. Before, when she thought he would never cheat on her.

“Aren’t we were supposed to be talking about Aiden?” she all but groaned out. When she looked up at Lucas, she found that his eyes were looking down at the little peaks her nipples made.

Fuck!

Fallon crossed her arms quickly. “Pig.”

“Oink oink, honey,” Lucas said as Fallon rolled her eyes. “Come on, you can’t expect me not to stare at two of the most beautiful nipples that I’ve ever had in my mouth, can you?”

“I expect you to act like a gentlemen,” Fallon said through tight lips.

He inched a little closer to her as his eyes filled with lust. Fallon moved back a little, scared he was going to try to kiss her again. She could still feel his lips from last time, so no kissing.
Fallon, no kissing
, she repeatedly told herself as he said, “I don’t remember you wanting me to be a gentlemen when those nipples were in my mouth.”

Yup, Fallon was pretty sure she just came.

“Oh my goodness, you’re disgusting! Why are you messing with me?!”

Lucas gave her a lopsided grin. “For one, it’s so easy to, and I love the blush that goes on your face and for two, I want you Fallon. Bad.”

That dumbfounded her, he wasn’t mad? “Even after everything?”

He was quiet for a moment. “You know, I thought when I came over here we would have a screaming match, but I’m not mad at you. I’m hurt, but I can let it go because I’m going to know my son and I’m going to change the way you think of me.”

“Okay,” she said in a mocking voice. She didn’t believe him for a minute, even if her body screamed for him.

“Don’t underestimate me, Fallon,” he warned with a cute little grin.

“I know you Lucas. This little act you’re putting on about wanting to be a dad will last until you find a woman that will fuck you seven days to Sunday, and then you’ll leave Aiden behind ‘cause y’all will be having babies.”

Lucas shook his head. “You are delusional. I don’t want any other female but you and now that I know about Aiden, I will be his dad.”

“Okay, sure. I’ll believe it when I see it,” she said breathlessly.

Oh, this was not good. She couldn’t let him know that him wanting to be with her made her heart beat like a jackhammer against her chest, or that her panties were basically soaked after being under his lust-filled gaze.

Fallon looked up at him and their eyes met, sharing a heated look. Their emotions were high as they both took in deep breaths, still staring into each other eyes. She could get lost in his eyes and hated that she let him affect her like this. He had her hot one minute, freaking out about him taking Aiden another, and then to the point of wanting the knock his head off because he thought he could change what she thought of him! He was the exact same person!

The perfect manipulator!

When he looked away, Fallon took in a jagged breath as he asked, “Does he know about me?”

Fallon shook her head, still trying to catch her breath. “No, I told him that his daddy was too busy to be a daddy, but that he loved him very much and that he was lucky to be loved by someone that he didn’t even know.”

Lucas face flushed with anger. “I would
never
be too busy for my son.”

“Well you got busy with my best friend, so I just went with that.”

Lucas shook his head as he looked off to the side, and she swore he was going to start yelling but he didn’t. He just asked, “You are not going to let that go, are you?”

“Okay,” Lucas said, irritated. Seven years and she was still angry?
Come on, get real, let it go,
Lucas thought as he watched her moving her fingers through her hair. “I’m really sorry about that night Fallon. There are a lot of things that you don’t know, and I need to tell you.”

Fallon shook her head. “I don’t want to know.”

“Yes you do, not today but give me a chance to explain what was wrong, what I was dealing with,” Lucas pleaded. “I swear I’m not that person anymore. I was fucked up back then, not my true self.”

Her eyes shot up as her face filled with anger. “So what, everything between us wasn’t real?”

“No baby, everything was real, everything. I was myself when I was with you,” he pleaded.

“So what? I don’t get it,” she asked with so much sass in her voice. He swore she was the queen of sassiness, and he was getting fed up with it.

Fallon looked away, moving her hands up and down her thighs. “I didn’t think you could be a dad. I was scared out of my mind. I didn’t know what to do but I knew that I didn’t want anything to do with you.”

“Because I didn’t do it to hurt you. I had every intention of telling you. I mean, I named him after you and your dad. I gave him your last name. But every time I went to call and tell you, I couldn’t. I was scared that you would reject us. You had already rejected me.”

Lucas shook his head, getting madder by the minute. “I didn’t reject you, and I would never reject our child. I loved you. I wanted to be with you. You are the one that left without even giving me a chance to explain.”

Lucas stood up and started pacing the kitchen. “I know it isn’t, but you have to know I wouldn’t have done it if I wasn’t. Allison came on to me, and I was so horny and I missed you. I was so drunk that when she kissed me, I kissed her back. After that I don’t remember anything. All I remember from that night is waking up and seeing you look at me the way you are now.”

Fallon’s eyes filled with tears as she began breathing hard. Guilt washed over Lucas as he started to feel the exact same way he did the day everything went down. He never wanted any of this to happen. He thought he had lost everything when she left, and in all reality he did. He lost his love, and his baby.

He could never get those years back.

“I’m sorry Fallon, really I am. I never meant to hurt you, and I’m sorry it took so long for me to tell you that. But you have to believe that I’m not going anywhere now that I know Aiden is here. You and I may never see eye to eye, or may never get back what we had, but I will have a relationship with my son.”

A tear leaked over Fallon’s face and it killed Lucas to watch. He wanted to wrap her up in his arms and kiss the pain away. He just wanted to hold her, be her rock again, but he knew she wouldn’t let him.