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Authors: Deborah Eisenberg

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And what about Harry’s elegant little accoutrement, hardly bigger than a briefcase? What could he have fitted into that? A set of tiny tools, no doubt—wrenches, screwdrivers, brushes—with which to disassemble himself and clean his parts …
The hotel, vast as it was, had apparently been a private villa at some time. The cool sound of bells and leaf-scented air pooled here and there in the lobby. Afternoon sunlight, yellow as wildflowers, drowsed on the floors. Marble, stone, wood seemed to breathe faintly …
Splendid in uniform, the men at the desk opened their arms at the sight of Harry, tilting their heads to the side and exclaiming softly with delight. As they came forward, he clasped their hands, speaking a few words to each, like the true king returning. They were now referring to her, Kate realized at a certain point. One of the men caught her look of slight confusion and addressed her in English. “We were discussing, signora, which room would be most suitable for you. It would be possible either the Rose Room, which has a fireplace and a magnificent four-poster bed. Or the room at the easternmost end of the hotel is also available, with a balcony overlooking the water.”
She glanced at Harry. “It doesn’t matter,” he said expansively. “They’re both lovely rooms.” He turned to the desk clerk. “Perhaps the East Room—” He gave her a brief, inquiring smile. “—Yes. The signora might enjoy breakfasting on her balcony.”
Oh, right—she’d been meant to speak, but never mind. How wonderful, just to go upstairs now, to sink back against giant feather pillows … A man in a red and gold jacket stood slightly behind her with her suitcase. Well, yes, of course—
Harry
wasn’t going to show her to her room.
“Well—” she turned toward him and held out her hand “—you must be exhausted.”
“Not at all,” he said, taking her hand absently and glancing around as if for a place to put it. “I never get tired.”
Just as she’d feared. And it seemed that there were several churches, several villas, a little museum, and an ex-convent that were absolutely obligatory.
“And would you care to wash up?” he said instructively. “We’ll find one another in the bar.” As she followed the bellman out of the lobby, she glimpsed, from the corner of her eye, Harry bending to kiss the beringed claw of an ancient lady in black, almost hidden within the wings of an enormous brocaded chair.
Kate followed, up a flowing staircase and along silent corridors. The bellman opened the massive wooden door to her room, and then the French doors onto her balcony. Lordy! No wonder no one else in the lobby looked much like a schoolteacher. Water gleams fleeted in, rocking the room gently; the high ceiling curved above her, and the stone floors floated underfoot.
Though she took as little time as possible, only slipping her few things onto the satiny hangers and splashing at her face, when she reached the bar Harry had almost emptied a glass of something. “Ah!” he said, leaping to his feet as though she’d been dawdling for an hour. “Oh. But forgive me—will you have something to drink before we set off, or would you prefer a look around before the light goes completely?”
He led her rapidly through the churches, the ex-convent, the now-public villas, bounding up and down the steep town steps and cobbled streets, providing scholarly commentary. She was
worse
, she thought, than her students—than the tourists from the buses! Who were indeed standing around town in bewildered-looking herds, uneasily gripping their cameras as though they were passports.
“Good—” Harry said, striding through the garden leading to the little museum. “—still open!” His gesture, which swept the paintings, the small mounted sculptures, was proprietary.
He was looking at a lump of stone in a glass case. No, a head; a stone coronet sat on heavy twists of stone hair over a dreaming stone face. A real girl must have modeled for it, Kate thought—an actual princess, or a young queen.
Or possibly some girl right off the streets for whom the artist had conceived a passion. Had she lived to be old? It was hard to imagine this girl old. Trouble, she looked like; pure trouble. A provocative reserve emanated from the faint stone smile, sending a hiss of fire through the stone-cooled air. Trouble even now, Kate thought. This girl had seen to it that the sculptor’s obsession would be inflicted on whoever saw her for all time to come.
Kate glanced at Harry for a translation of the bit of text on the glass case, but he had turned away, to an elaborate marble, whose racing lines were taking a moment to resolve in front of her. A faun, or possibly a satyr, something with furry haunches and little hooves and horns had seized a young woman from behind. Her head was arched way back against him and her long hair whipped around her face, which was slightly contorted. Her eyes were almost closed. One of the creature’s hands was splayed out between the girl’s sharp pelvic bones, and the other pinned her own hand to one of
her adolescent breasts. Her free arm reached out, with what intent it was impossible to guess—it had broken off at the elbow. Kate stumbled slightly on an uneven stone underfoot. “Goodness me,” she said.
“Yes, marvelous—” Harry glanced at his watch. “Second century after Christ, probably a copy of a Greek piece. Are we through here? The church I particularly want you to see closes in minutes.”
In the lobby, the delicate afternoon had given way to a rich, deep twinkling. More people had arrived; the bellboys, in their red and gold, were loading huge leather cases onto trolleys. The tapping of high heels echoed faintly from the corridors. “Dinner at eight-thirty?” Harry said. “By the way, how did you find your room—satisfactory?”
“Glorious,” Kate said. “It’s
… glorious …”
“Glorious.” He smiled at her and briefly her arms and legs seemed to need rearrangement; what did one generally do with them? “Well, very good then. We’ll have a bit of a rest, yes? And meet in the bar.”
Dinner at eight-thirty. Once again, they’d be sitting at a table together. But what had she imagined was going to happen? They could hardly have dinner separately.
She found her room waiting; the crisp linen had been turned down, mysteriously, the heavy shutters drawn. She was being attended to, as if she—of all people, she thought—had come upon the palace where the poor Beast waited for his release. She sat for a while on the balcony, watching ribbons of mist twine below her through the trees and listening to distant bells from hidden fields and towns. Grass, petal, wave, stone turned to velvet—indistinct glowing patches—as veil on veil of twilight dropped over them.
Ajar of aromatic bath salts had been provided. She poured
them like a libation under the faucet—why not? They represented her salary—and took a long soak, moving from time to time to solicit the water’s musical response.
One assumed there was such a thing as chance; when one was young, one assumed that the way one’s life was to express itself was one of many possible ways, and later, one assumed that this had been true.
Of course, even if she hadn’t married Baker, she’d never have been living like this. She’d never have been living like Giovanna, casually surrounded by silk-covered furniture and lovely, old pieces of glass and silver, entertaining herself in her spare time with one admirer or another. Those things were probably not within the compass of her particular possibilities.
But surely it was within that compass—surely, with one degree’s alteration here or there—that she and Baker would not have married. And if they had not, if they hadn’t had children, one thing was certain—that Baker would now mean no more to her than any young man she might have met in the course of her school duties; she’d have a harmless memory of a nice young man.
And from all the years with him? You couldn’t feel love once it was gone. What you could feel for a long time was the sorrow of its fading, like the burning afterimage of a setting sun. And then that was gone, too. What she would remember for the rest of her life was the fact, at least, of the shocking pain they’d been forced to inflict on one another. Eventually when they’d touched, it was like touching a wound.
When both the children had left for school, she’d expected a long period of lonely freedom, an expansion. But now that Baker was sick, Blair and Brice hovered closely, as if it were she who needed consolation, not they. Blair asked
questions continuously.
Why did you and Dad … How did you feel when .
..
They’d been over and over it all from the children’s adolescence on. “I’ve told you what I can,” Kate said. “I’m sorry. It was moving very fast back then.”
But at the time it hadn’t felt fast. There were long days of paralysis, sleepless nights. How could so much anguish have been expended on something that now seemed so remote?
“What can I say to you?” she told Blair. “I had a reasonably civil relationship with my parents, but I never understood them. I don’t suppose their life together was entirely without chaos and misery, but I have no idea what went on between them. Or within either of them, actually. Of course you don’t understand us. No one has ever understood their parents. And what, for that matter, do I know about you?”
Blair stared at Kate, tears spilling up into her eyes. “You knew it was me from the
back
that time, going by in Jeffrey’s car at about
eighty
, even though I was supposedly at
Jennifer’s
!”
Kate sighed. “That’s different,” she’d said.
She wrapped herself in a vast, soft towel and contemplated her clothing. A faint breeze came through the French doors and the black dress swayed slightly on its hanger.
It was a dress that she’d recklessly allowed Blair to talk her into buying from a terrifying shop in Chicago. That evening she’d thought of its cost and actually covered her face in embarrassment—of course she’d return it. But then, the sight of it swathed in its tissue paper …
It was a little daring, that dress. Nonetheless, she’d gone out in it several times, before Rowan came to his senses and married an infant.
She reached over to the hanger. It was now or never. She slipped the dress over her head and breathed in; the zipper
climbed, cinching her tightly. She turned to challenge the mirror: now or never.
All right, then—never, the mirror said, coolly. And what did she think this was—a
date
?
The bar was almost filled. The tender glimmer from candles and lamps embraced the encampments of guests; bright little clusters of laughter bloomed here and there amid clinking glass and conversation. Harry was sitting at the far end of the room, his back to her.
Kate’s hands went cold. He was with people. A family, it seemed. A pretty girl, just a little older, Kate judged, than her students, was stretched out on a recamier, in a display of intense boredom. The father was a great, blocky affair, wearing a blazer with gold buttons, and a little boy in an identical blazer perched stiffly on a settee.
The woman next to the boy leaned toward Harry, her red-nailed fingers playing with a large solitaire at her throat. “Really!” Kate heard her exclaim, and she laughed gaily. Her toenails were the fevered red of her fingernails and her lipstick. Her little white suit was as tense as an origami construction, but a snippet of lace peeked out aggressively from under the jacket.
Harry was gesticulating; his voice came into focus: “ … insisted, but
insisted
—” he was saying, “—that I jump on the Concorde. What could I do? A call from Dubzhinski. In New York I literally scampered to make my connection. I fell off the plane in Los Angeles, and was at the Polo Lounge in seconds. I took her out of my case, unwrapped her, and set her down in front of us on the bar. There she was, with her little chin thrust forward and her hands clasped behind her back, and those astonishing legs. Dubzhinski was trembling. I could actually hear that tiny, hard heart of his. It was hammering
away like a cash register at Christmastime. He was paralyzed, he stared, and then he reached out and upended her to look under her tutu. ‘Go ahead,’ I said, ‘we can authenticate her right here.’ And the next—”
The wife was glancing sidelong at Kate with slight alarm, as though Kate might be hoping to sell them pencils. Harry swiveled in his chair, looked at her blankly, then sprang to his feet. “My dear!” he said. “Ah, we’re a chair short! What shall, what shall, what shall we do, eh?”
For a moment everyone except the girl was standing and bobbing about and pushing one another toward seats. “Oh,” Kate began. “Well, I could just—” Just what? But then a murmuring waiter in a white coat was there with a smile of compassion for her that pierced her like a bayonet.
Harry and the Reitzes had met several years before, in Paris, it was explained, at the home of a mutual friend, about whom they’d just been reminiscing.
“Oh, Franz and I couldn’t really claim that M. Dubzhinski is a
friend.
We just happened to be with the LaRues. But you know—” Mrs. Reitz addressed Kate “—that house is even more gorgeous than in the pictures.” She turned back to Harry, but her perfume continued to loiter thuggishly around Kate. “I know there are people who say M. Dubzhinski is … Well. But he was charming to me that time. Simply charming.”
“‘Charming …’” Mr. Reitz tried out the word and smiled pityingly. “I wouldn’t entirely agree. But harmless enough at bottom. Colorful, as the expression goes. I believe it was one of your countrymen—” he nodded at Kate “—who put it so well:
I’ve never met a man I didn’t like.
”

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