SeattleâThursday, October 4, 5 :21 p.m.
“I
'm sorry! Please, don't do this . . . please. . . .”
Olivia Barker locked her office door and backed away until she bumped into her desk. She couldn't stop shaking. She just wanted him to goâso she could breathe right again.
The young man in the waiting room pounded on the other side of her door. “For God's sake, don't turn me away!” he cried. The doorknob rattled as he tugged at it.
Olivia's office was designed to have a calming effect on her clients. The color scheme was a soothing sea foam and beige. Along with her modern oak desk, there was a sofa from Dania. But during the sessions, Olivia and her clients usually sat facing each other in the two comfy, pale green chairs. The lighting remained dim, and a little waterfall trickled down a rock sculpture in one corner. It was supposed to be a tranquil, relaxing environment. But for the last fifteen minutes, Olivia had felt as if the office walls were closing in on her.
Behind her was a windowâwith a view of dusk looming over Lake Washington. She'd watched the room grow darker and darker while the young man had talked to her in a voice that made her skin crawl. When he'd finally emerged from his trance, she'd promptly switched on a light. She'd practically shoved him out of her office, and then shut the door on him.
He was still on the other side of it. His relentless knocking got louder and louder.
“Go away!” she called, her voice quivering. “I mean it!”
“You're the only one who can help me!” He rattled the doorknob again. “Please, I'm sorry about what happened! You can't turn me away. You're the only one. . . .”
Olivia shot a look over her shoulder at the window. Would anyone outside hear her screaming for help? She turned toward the door again. “You need to leave!” she announced over all the pounding. “There are other businesses on this floor, and you're disturbing them.”
Her office was on the top floor of a three-story building in Seattle's Madison Valley neighborhood. Specialty shops and trendy restaurants had sprouted up in the past few years. A pricey antique store was on the ground level of Olivia's building. Down the hall from her were offices for a chiropractor, a masseur, and two lawyers.
But what she'd just said about disturbing the other businesses had been a lie. Everyone on her floorâexcept for the masseurâhad closed up at five. And the masseur was on vacation. No one else was there. No one else could hear the young man beating on her office door. No one could help her if he broke down that door and attacked her.
She never should have agreed to see him in the first place.
He'd told her on the phone yesterday that he'd spotted her ad online:
HEAL YOURSELF THROUGH HYPNOSIS !
Let Olivia Be Your Guide to a Better You!
Lose Weight, Quit Smoking, Conquer Fears and Phobias,
Increase Self-Esteem, Break Bad Habits
& Build a Happy Tomorrow!
Olivia thought the ad was simply awful. But some so-called marketing analyst had come up with the cheesy copy. He'd also wanted her to include her photo, saying that with her pretty face and shoulder-length auburn hair, she might attract even more clients. Olivia was worried she might attract the wrong type of client. So the ad ran without a photo. But the cheesy copy must have worked, because business was pretty good. At the same time, Olivia felt like a big phony.
What was the phrase?
Those who can't do, teach.
That was her. She was trying to lose weight and quit smokingâall without much success. She'd recently looked up one of those “your ideal weight” charts onlineâprobably sponsored by some fat-burning pill or weight-loss program. She didn't scroll down far enough to find out the name of the company determining just how fat or skinny she was. All she saw on her computer screen was that for her age, thirty-four, and her height, five-feet, five-inches, at a hundred and twenty-eight pounds, she was nine pounds over her “ideal weight” for a white woman. She had no idea what her race had to do with it. There was nothing on the form asking if she had any children or if she was single or widowed or divorced. That was more important than race, wasn't it?
There were no children, and the divorce wasn't final yet. She told herself that half a pack of Virginia Slims a day and nine excess pounds weren't so terrible under her current circumstances.
She did her best to help her clients conquer what she couldn't. She'd been eking out a living at it for a month nowâsort of. It wasn't quite a
living
, but she was making some money. Olivia used a combination of hypnosis and therapy in her work. But she didn't call herself a
therapistâ
no, not anymore.
Just three months ago, she'd been a counselor/therapist at the Portland Wellness Cooperative, working with some genuinely troubled patients. She'd thought she was doing some good. That had been before everything went to hell, and suddenly, there was nothing left for her in Portland anymore. She'd movedâ
retreated
had been more like itâto Seattle. Olivia had made up her mind back then that she didn't want to deal with people whose problems were any more serious than a bad habit or a curable addiction.
She had a success rate of about 75 percent with her clientsâor so the marketing analyst had recently told her. Many of those clients came back because they felt better after their sessions with herâor maybe because she'd become their new addiction. The majority of them were women. She'd taken on a few alcoholics, but most of the serious problem drinkers she steered toward AA, promising to waive her fee if they joined.
The young man had said he needed her help to quit drinking. He didn't want to go to AA. “I drink to fall asleep most of the time,” he'd told her over the phone yesterday. “It started out as kind of an insomnia cure, and I've been drinking pretty heavily for almost two years now. I'm a student and it's really starting to affect my grades. I want to quit, but I can't seem to. Anyway, I'm hoping you can help me. Maybe we can discuss it when I see you tomorrow. If it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. No harm done, y'know?”
He'd said his name was Russ Leander. But according to Olivia's caller ID, the call had come from
Stampler, C.
She should have known right then something was wrong.
She'd assumed the young man on the other end of the line had been in college, and he'd borrowed his roommate's cell phone.
But thirty-five minutes ago, she'd opened her office door to find this kid in her waiting roomâand clearly he wasn't yet college age. Sitting on the sofa in the small anteroom, he looked about fifteen years old. He was reading a magazine from the stack of periodicals on her end table. Gangly and pale, he had a mop of uncombed black hair and hauntingly beautiful blue eyes. His face seemed to be in transition from gawky adolescence to handsome young adulthood. He wore jeans, a faded red hooded sweatshirt, and black Converse All Star high-tops. Something about him was familiar. When he glanced up at her and set aside the
People
magazine, he appeared so vulnerableâand nervous. He quickly got to his feet.
Clutching the doorknob, Olivia stared at him. “Russ?”
He shoved his hands in his pockets, and nodded. “Yeah, hi, are you Olivia?”
“I thought you'd be older,” she said. “Listen, I'm sorry, but I don't take on clients under the age of eighteen, not unless they're accompanied by an adult guardian. How old are you exactly?”
“Well, I'm eighteen,” he answered. “IâI just look young.”
“You don't happen to have your driver's license with you, do you?”
He glanced down at the carpet and said nothing.
She started to feel sorry for him. “Are you even old enough to drive?” she asked quietly.
“Of course I am. In fact, I drove here, okay? I'm sixteen, I swear.” His face turned red, and he avoided her gaze. “I'm sorry I lied. I just really need your help. The truth is IâI actually don't have a drinking problem. I only said that so you'd agree to see me. . . .”
Folding her arms, Olivia leaned against the doorway frame.
“I'm telling you this now, becauseâwell, I have a good feeling about you,” he said. “I know it sounds weird, because we've just met. But I can kind of tell about some people, and you seem like a nice person. Maybe you can help me. . . .”
“Help you with what?” she asked, frowning.
“Well, IâI got hypnotized recently, and something really strange happened while I was under. I can't explain it, because I don't remember. But thisâthis
occurrence
was so bizarre. I'm scared something might be wrong with me. I need you to hypnotize me again, so I can find out why this
thing
happened.”
Olivia's eyes narrowed. “Who hypnotized you?”
“A friend,” he answered, swallowing hard. “I was at her house with another friend last weekend, just goofing off, and she said she knew how to hypnotize people.”
“And you don't remember this
thing
that happened while you were under? Were you guys drinking or messing around with drugs at the time?”
He shook his head. “No, I swear.”
“Well, Russ, contrary to those hypnotist routines in nightclub acts, it's very rare that a subject can't remember what's occurred while under hypnosis.”
“I think my case must be very rare, too,” he replied.
“Soâwhat exactly happened? If you can't remember, certainly your friends must have told you what went on.”
“IâI'd rather not say.” He reached into his back pocket for his wallet. “Look, I have money. I just need you to put me under, and ask me some general questions about who I amâ”
“I'm sorry, Russ.” She shook her head. “You need to find yourself another hypnotist.”
“I've tried other hypnotists!” he said, waving a handful of twenties under her face. “I've been to a bunch of different hypnotists in the last couple of days. None of them can even get me into a trance. Please, you're my last hope.”
“What about your friend? Why don't you go back to her?”
He let out a defeated sigh. “I can't. I just can't.”
Olivia studied him. He didn't look like the violent type at all. Still, she wondered if he'd attacked this girl who had originally hypnotized him. Was that why he couldn't go back to her? Whatever he'd done while under hypnosis, he must have done to that girl.
“Please, ma'am,” he said, still holding out his money. “I came all the way over on the ferry from Poulsbo and drove here just to see you. Don't turn me away. All I'm asking for is a few minutes of your time. If you can't get me into a trance, I'll go away. You can keep the money. . . .”
“I can't believe you just
ma'am
ed me,” Olivia said with a roll of her eyes. She opened the door wider. “Put the wad of cash away, for God's sake. I'm not taking money from a sixteen-year-old.”
“Thank you,” he said, heading into her office. He tucked the bills back inside his wallet. “Really, thank you. Like I said, I had a good feeling about you the moment I saw you. Practically all the other hypnotists I've been toâthey were rip-off artists. They just wanted my money, I could tell.” He glanced around the office. “Plus I really like your place here. This is very nice, very professional, too.”
Shutting her office door, Olivia stared at him and wondered again why he seemed so familiarâhis looks, the sound of his voice, everything. He came across as such a sweet kid, and she felt sorry for him. But she couldn't get past the notion that this could turn around and bite her on the ass. It still wasn't too late to kick him out.
“Where do you want me?” he asked, looking at the sofaâand then at the chairs facing each other. He nodded at the one where her patients usually sat. “Is it okay if I sit here? I think the light's good here. Would you mind recording me on my cell phone?”
Olivia hesitated. “I'd rather not. I use my hands a lot when I'm putting a subject under.”
He set the phone on the edge of her desk. “Well, is it okay if I put it here?” he asked. “It won't be in your way. It's really important I get this recorded. I need to see what's happening to me when I'm under. I've set it up. It's in record mode now. You don't have to do anything. . . .”
“Fine,” she muttered. She watched him check the phone to see if he had the chair in focus. His hands were a bit shaky.
Olivia usually spoke with her clients for at least a half hour and got to know them a little before putting them under. But this young man wasn't opening up to her, and he wanted to be hypnotized right away.
“Thank you for letting me do this,” he said, heading back to the chair and sitting down. “I really appreciate it.” He shifted restlessly in the chair. “God, all of a sudden, I'm really nervous. . . .”
“Well, just relax,” Olivia said. She pulled an ottoman in front of him and sat down. She patted his arm. “Think about a place where you feel safe, Russ. Visualize itâa place where you're happy and safe and away from it all. Think of yourself in this protected place. . . .”
“This is how my friend got me into a trance,” he said. “None of the other hypnotists used this method.”
She kept patting his arm. “It works even better if you stay quiet and just go with it, Russ.”
“Yeah, of course, I'm sorry.” He shrugged uneasily. “But I guess I should tell you my name isn't really Russ. It's Collin. I'm sorry. No more lies. Thatâthat's the last one. . . .”