Upon the Threshold (19 page)

“I do. I want everything. I also know that while we might all come out a little bloody and bruised, we will all also come out with intense pleasure.” She had complete and utter trust in the man. “I can feel his Beast brushing against my soul. I feel its needs and that makes them my needs.” Which was, oddly enough, the truth. “I don’t understand it, but there it is. It’s like I feel what your animals need.”

“You are fully mated to us, which means the bond has begun between us that will tie us through everything. Everyone has a different story to tell of what they do or do not feel through the connection. It depends on them and their relationship. But you are right, he wouldn’t harm you no matter what form he were to take.”

“It’s just getting him to understand that he never would. I don’t think that he trusts his control, which is odd to me because he is the most in-control being that I’ve ever met. Sorry, Lukkis, but he truly is.” She sighed and then shrugged. “I think we need to wait for him and talk to him about this. I don’t like discussing him when he’s not here.” It felt weird, wrong almost.

“He is, and no offense taken. I know his control is years beyond where mine is and likely always will be. I do know that he keeps a tight rein on the Beast for a reason,” he told her. “But no, he’s never told me why. I think we need to break through the control first. Even if we were to ask, on this I know, he won’t tell either of us his reasoning.”

“Well, I don’t like that. I also don’t like that we will have to force him to see that I need everything that the two of you need.” Eli was frowning now. “How do we make him see what I want, what I need?”

Lukkis looked to be seriously considering her questions, a frown pulling his brow down, and he was pursing his lips. “Well,” he said slowly, “I think we need to get him relaxed, in a very happy place and comfortable. Then you will need to take the lead and push him into giving you what you want. You will need to find a way to feign an upset of sorts with how he’s loving you, let him know that you feel something missing, and ask for more. Don’t demand. Ease him toward realizing it himself and he should, I believe, figure out he has to let go more. It’s either that or we play really dirty with him and have him jump right into it. Which could go wrong, thus why I didn’t mention it until right now. But we may need to have a backup plan should the first not succeed.”

“But wouldn’t that hurt him? If I lied about his loving? And that’s what it would be, a lie. He never leaves me needing or wanting. I just… I guess I want and need more?” Well, that really didn’t make a lot of sense, she thought. “I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to make him see that I want what he does.”

“If you’re not getting all you want and need from him, on whatever level, then you are being left wanting. So you’re not actually lying about his loving or skills or anything like that. Look, if you’re unsure about saying anything during the act, talk to him beforehand. Let him know that you know he’s holding back and that it is unacceptable. You are his mate, and as such you expect all of him at all times, not whatever parts he feels like giving to you. Otherwise it really isn’t a full and proper mating.”

Eli nodded. She hated it, but Lukkis was right. She did feel Kraven holding back. She did feel him holding his Beast far more in check than Lukkis had. Moving so that she could just hug Lukkis once again, she nodded. “I will think about it. You are both part of my soul. That’s why I say that I love you.”

“It is a word we use as well. We are not so different, beyond the obvious, of course, Elisabeth.” He chuckled, hugging her close. “Otherwise, we are much the same as your people, just at a different stage in our evolution and with our technology. We have the same emotions and most of the same language.”

“I like that,” she said with a smile. “That we are so similar in our language and actions. I’m also very happy that we have the differences that we do. I love that you both are Beasts because I really love that part of you both.”

Smiling, he leaned in and kissed her hard. Then he jerked his head up and tipped it slightly, his gaze moving to the doorway. “Kraven’s back,” he said quietly. “I’ll go let him in since, with the amount of time he’s been gone, his hands are full.” Dropping another kiss on her lips, he climbed off the bed and went to the outer room, naked as could be.

That had Eli grinning, and she watched Lukkis walking away. Fanning herself, she licked her lips. “Good heavens, that man has the most perfect ass ever,” she whispered to herself and then blushed when she heard Lukkis calling back a thank-you to her.

They both came back into the room, Lukkis in front of Kraven, rolling his eyes. “He’s trying to claim I blinded him by answering the door as I am. I don’t understand what he means.” He paused at the end of the bed. “I am one fine male specimen.” He stepped up onto the bed and walked to her, flopping down at her side.

“I nearly dropped the entire tray, but it was the only thing keeping me from seeing too much of him,” Kraven told her. “Sort of like right now.”

Eli laughed. “Well, I think that he’s a very fine male specimen. I think that in order to feel more comfortable, you should get naked as well, Kraven, so that I can view two perfect specimens of males, my mate.” She liked how that tasted in her mouth, calling him her mate.

He lifted a brow at that and watched her, smiling in that little way he had. “Hmm,” he hummed out softly. Leaning over, he handed the tray to Lukkis or shoved it at him, could have been either. “Hold that,” he said as he let go, Lukkis desperately trying to keep everything on the tray and level. Kraven reached over his head and tugged his shirt off in one move. His pants were off in the next moment, and he was next to her other side a short time later.

Eli wasn’t able to help herself. Moving quickly, she reached out and closed her fist around Kraven’s cock and then licked the head of his cock. Then she placed her mouth over him and began to suck.

Sharp words came out of his mouth, none she could understand, but his hand was in her hair and he was growling. He wasn’t pulling her away either, so obviously he wasn’t going to fight her. She felt Lukkis get off the bed with the tray, likely best given the amount of food on the thing.

Eli looked up at Kraven and grinned, her tongue swirling over the head of his cock, and she shuddered when he growled again. “I need all of you, Kraven,” she told him simply. “No holding back, no waiting. Please give in and give me all of you?” she begged and then put her mouth back on him once more to hopefully make him lose all train of thought and simply react.

His growl had chills skating over her skin, but she knew he was holding back. Sucking harder, she felt his hand flexing in her hair. And she sensed his hold on the Beast rattling under her assault. All she had to do was push him over, and, well, hope for the best.

Eli didn’t let go of him. She moved her mouth faster and tighter on his cock. She was determined to make him let go of his Beast. Her teeth scraped over his cock. She wanted him to know how much she loved the roughness that she was doling out on him.

Vaguely she was aware on some level of Lukkis slipping out of the room. Likely a good plan if her own plan worked. At least until Kraven understood what she wanted, what she craved and needed. Suddenly she found her mouth torn off his cock, and she was on her back, Kraven’s head between her legs and feasting—no other word for it—on her pussy.

Her hands were on Kraven’s head, and she pulled him tighter to her pussy. “Yes!” she cried out and undulated against him. “More.” She growled that low growl that only her mates could have taught her. “Kraven, more,” she demanded, pure and simple.

He pushed two fingers into her pussy and another into her ass, finger fucking her as he sucked hard on her clit. He was growling deeper now. She could see his features had changed, closer to the Beast as he looked up at her with pure Beast eyes.

“There you are.” She moaned and reached out to touch his cheek. “More.” She licked her lips. “I want all of you. All of your Beast. Fuck me,” she demanded. She squeezed his fingers inside her pussy and ass. “Give in and give me everything. Let your Beast go,” she begged.

He lifted his head and growled at her, shaking his head slightly. When she tugged at his hair again, she got his attention back fully. He prowled up her and in a quick move, flipped her over onto her belly. Wrenching her hips up, he slammed his cock into her weeping pussy and began to thrust, barely giving her more than a second to even breathe.

Eli braced her hands on the bed and looked over her shoulder at him. She felt his cock and it was definitely much fatter and harder than it had been before. Her pussy wept and sucked him in and let him out readily. The sounds were perfect, and when he slapped her ass, she bit her lower lip to keep from screaming out in pleasure, worried if she did he would stop. She, however, squeezed his cock with her pussy. She demanded more as she pushed back harder on him.

He smacked her other ass cheek hard. Then he slapped her again and again, as his cock slammed into her pussy repeatedly. He was growling deep, the vibrations pouring through her body as he took her. Then he pulled his cock out, only to thrust it into her ass and wrench her up against his chest. Squeezing one breast, he fucked her ass, sliding his cock in over and over while his free hand moved down to her pussy. Where he smacked her lightly on her swollen clit.

Eli sobbed. “Kraven,” she cried out and moved right along with him. “More,” she begged. “That’s so very, very good.” It felt amazing. Each time he slapped her clit, she moaned in pleasure. His claws biting into her breast had her screaming and coming hard.

He smacked her clit again and again, still driving his hard cock into her ass. With a snarl he bit her neck, hard enough to hold her down, but not enough to break the skin yet. She could feel the longer incisors poised to pierce her flesh as he continued to fuck her at a furious rate.

“Please,” she begged and pushed harder on him. The size of his cock was swelling in her ass, and she loved it. The smacks to her clit only made her come more and more. “Kraven, so close.” She knew that when he finally went over and gave in to that one last part of his Beast and tasted her blood, pierced her flesh, that was when she would truly belong to him.

He slammed into her, his teeth coming down and breaking her skin as he snarled. His cock got thicker, and she could feel him pulsing into her ass, his seed a hot splash into her body as he pinched her clit hard.

Eli literally saw stars and came so very hard that she was sure she had an out-of-body experience. Slumping back against Kraven, Eli smiled. Gods, that was what she had been waiting for. What she had needed. “I love you so very, very much, Kraven,” she whispered and closed her eyes with a happy, stupid smile on her face.

He was still growling. She could feel the rumble through her back, and he hadn’t released her from his teeth yet either. His hand on her breast was squeezing lightly, his other hand cupped her throbbing pussy, and his cock was slowly shrinking in her ass. Then he lifted his head and wrapped his arms around her chest, holding her tight and pressing his forehead to her shoulder.

“That felt amazing,” she whispered. “I really and truly think we should do that often. I liked it. A lot.” Even the throb of her shoulder where he had bitten her was still sending pleasure through her body.

He slid from her body and moved until she was on his lap. He still hadn’t said anything and didn’t, just wrapped her up in his arms and held her to his chest. She could hear his heart beating fast, too fast, and he was shaking ever so slightly. Slowly he rocked her in his arms, but she wasn’t sure if it was for her, or for him.

Eli hugged Kraven tightly. She didn’t say a word, just simply held on to the man. She loved him. Letting loose of the Beast was something he had needed as well. She just didn’t know how to make him see that.

It was a long time before he finally lifted his head from hers. His heart rate had finally slowed. “Are you all right?” he asked quietly. Brushing the hair back from her face, he tipped her chin up to look at her. “I didn’t hurt you, did I?” He saw the small trickle of blood from the bite and leaned in to lap it with his tongue.

“I am better than all right.” Smiling, she touched her fingers to his cheek. “I love you, Kraven. I was missing that side of you. I needed you to let your Beast go. It was perfect. Beyond perfect.”

He stared into her eyes and pressed a light kiss to her lips. “I don’t like letting go like that,” he said softly. “Quite frankly, it scares the hell out of me. Don’t push me like that again, please?” he asked, rubbing a thumb to her face. “I’ll do better and give you more, but that… When I just lose it, it scares me.”

“Why?” She whispered the one-word question because she had to know. She was curious to know why he didn’t feel secure enough to give them both everything that they obviously needed and wanted. “Talk to me, Kraven, why? You didn’t hurt me. You or your Beast, neither one could ever harm me, so why?”

He leaned his forehead against hers and closed his eyes. “I hope it stays that way, but it still scares me to just lose it. I can let go of the control if I’m the one doing it, slowly and with care. But just losing it…” He huffed out a breath.

“When I was younger, well into my training with the Beast and for the military, there was an attack on a world. We were sent out to deal with the attackers and protect the colonists. On the ground, it was chaos. I ended up getting shot with some weapon that tore my control right away and forced me into a full shift. I had no control over the Beast. My mind as it is now was stunned by the weapon, and the Beast took over. By the time I got some of my senses back, we’d slaughtered so many I was bathed in blood.”

He lifted his head and pulled her in closer to him, hugging her close. “It took me hours to pull out and back to my normal form, the Beast was that agitated. I even took a swipe at friendlies because of it. I fought down the Beast, and finally won, but it scared me. Anything that pushes me into even a partial shift scares me to the very pit of my soul.”

“Those were beings that harmed you, though. They were beings you went into combat with. With me, you and your Beast are simply loving me. You are allowing him to be a part of this mating as well as you and Lukkis. I know how odd that sounds, but the Beast really is an extension of you, and to deny him to be part is denying you to fully be part of our mating, isn’t it?” She didn’t know how that worked, to be honest.