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At first, Camel's son denies the association. But Walter is persistent.

Day after day he marches into town, negotiating by telegram, and by the following Friday the son has agreed to meet us in Providence and take custody of the old man. It means we will have to continue the current housing arrangements for several more weeks, but at least it's a solution. And that's

a good deal more than we've had up to this point.

IN TERRE HAUTE, the Lovely Lucinda drops dead. After Uncle

Al recovers from his violent but short-lived bereavement, he organizes a farewell befitting "our beloved Lucinda."

An hour after the death certificate is signed, Lucinda is laid out in the Water for E l e p h a n ts

water well of the hippopotamus car and hitched to a team of twenty-four black Percherons with feathers on their headbands.

Uncle Al climbs onto the bench with the driver, practically collapsing with grief. After a moment he wiggles his fingers, signaling the start

of Lucinda's procession. She is hauled slowly through town, followed on foot by every member of the Benzini Brothers Most Spectacular Show on Earth deemed fit to be seen.

Uncle Al is desolate, weeping and honking into his red handkerchief and allowing himself only the occasional upward glance to gauge whether the procession's speed allows for maximum crowd enlargement.

The women follow immediately behind the hippopotamus wagon,

dressed all in black and pressing elegant lace hankies to the corners of their eyes. I am farther back, surrounded on all sides by wailing men, their faces shiny with tears. Uncle Al has promised three dollars and a bottle

of Canadian whiskey to the man who puts on the best show. You've never seen such grief—even the dogs are howling.

Almost a thousand townspeople follow us back to the lot. When Uncle Al stands up on the carriage, they fall silent.

He removes his hat and presses it to his chest. He digs out a hankie and dabs his eyes. He delivers a heart-wrenching speech, so distraught he can barely contain himself. At the end of it, he says that if it were up to him, he'd cancel tonight's show out of respect for Lucinda. But he cannot. It's out of his control. He is a man of honor, and on her deathbed she grasped his hand and made him promise—no, vow—that he

wouldn't let what was clearly her imminent end disrupt the show's routine and disappoint the thousands of people who were expecting it to

be circus day.

"Because after a l l ... " Uncle Al pauses, clasping his hand to his heart and sniffing piteously. He looks heavenward as tears stream down his face.

The women and children in the crowd cry openly. A woman near the front throws an arm across her forehead and collapses as the men on either side scramble to catch her.

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Uncle Al collects himself with obvious effort, although he cannot keep his lower lip from quivering. He nods slowly and continues. "Because, after all, as our dearest Lucinda knew only too w e l l ... the show must

go on!"

We have an enormous crowd that night—a "straw house," so named because after all the regular seats sell out, roustabouts spread straw on the hippodrome track for the overflow crowd to sit on.

Uncle Al begins the show with a moment of silence. He bows his head, summons real tears, and dedicates the performance to Lucinda, whose great and absolute selflessness is the only reason we are able to continue in the face of our loss. And we will do her proud—oh yes, such was our singular love for Lucinda that despite the grief that consumes us, tugging on our breaking hearts, we will summon the strength to honor her final

wish and do her proud. Such wonders you have never seen, ladies and gentlemen, acts and performers gathered from the four corners of the earth

to delight and entertain you, acrobats, and tumblers, and aerialists of the highest caliber...

THE SHOW IS ABOUT a quarter of the way through when she

walks into the menagerie. I sense her presence even before I hear the surprised murmurs around me.

I set Bobo on the floor of his den. I turn and, sure enough, there she is, gorgeous in pink sequins and feathered headdress, removing her horses' halters and letting them drop to the ground. Only Boaz—a black Arabian and presumably Silver Star's counterpart—remains tethered, and he's clearly unhappy about it.

I lean against Bobo's den, mesmerized.

Those horses, with whom I've spent every night riding from town to town to town and who normally look like regular horses, have transformed. They blow and snort, their necks arched and tails aloft. They gather

into two dancing groups, one black, one white. Marlena faces them, carrying a long whip in each hand. She raises one and waves it over her head.

Then she walks backward, leading them from the menagerie. The horses are completely free. They wear no halters, no side reins, no surcinglesWater for E l e p h a n ts nothing. They simply follow her, shaking their heads and flinging their legs forward like Saddlebreds.

I've never seen her act—those of us who work behind the scenes don't have time for that luxury—but this time nothing could stop me. I secure Bobo's door and slip into the connection, the roofless canvas tunnel that joins the menagerie to the big top. The reserved-seat ticket seller glances at me quickly, and when he realizes I'm not a cop goes back to his business. His pockets jingle, swollen with money. I stand beside him, looking across the three rings to the back end of the big top.

Uncle Al announces her, and she steps inside. She spins, holding both whips high in the air. She flicks one and takes a few steps backward. The two groups of horses hurry in behind her.

Marlena sashays to the center ring and they follow, high-kicking, prancing clouds of black and white.

Once she's in the center of the ring, she slaps the air lightly. The horses start circling the ring at a trot, five white followed by five black. After two complete rotations, she wiggles the whip. The black horses speed up until each is trotting beside a white horse. Another wiggle, and they ease into line so that the horses are now alternating black and white.

She moves only minimally, her pink sequins shimmering under the bright lights. She walks a small circle in the center of the ring, flicking the whips in combinations of signals.

The horses continue circling, with the white horses passing the black horses and then the black horses passing the white horses, with the end result always being alternating colors.

She calls out and they stop. She says something else, and they turn and step up so their front hooves are on the ring curb. They walk sideways, their tails toward Marlena and their hooves up on the rim. They do an entire rotation before she stops them again. They climb down and swing around to face her. Then she calls forth Midnight.

He is a magnificent black, all Arabian fire with a perfect white diamond on his forehead.

She speaks to him, taking both whips in one hand,

and offering him her other palm. He presses his muzzle into it, his neck arched and nostrils flared. S a r a G r u en

Marlena steps backward and raises a whip. The other horses watch, dancing on the spot.

She lifts the other whip and flicks its tip back and forth. Midnight rises up on his hind legs, his forelegs curled in front

of him. She shouts something now—the first time she has raised her voice—and strides backward. The horse follows, walking on his hind legs and pawing the air in front of him.

She keeps him upright all the way around the ring. Then she motions him down. Another cryptic circling of the whip, and Midnight bows, going down on the knee of one foreleg with the other extended. Marlena drops into a low curtsy and the crowd goes wild. With Midnight still bowing, she lifts both whips and flicks them. The rest of the horses pirouette, turning circles on the spot.

More cheering, more adulation. Marlena spreads her arms in the air, turning to give each section of the audience a chance to adore her. Then she turns to Midnight and perches delicately on his lowered back. He rises, arches his neck, and carries Marlena from the big top. The rest of the horses follow, once again grouped by color, crowding each other to stay close to their mistress.

My heart pounds so hard that, despite the roaring of the crowd, I am aware of blood whooshing through my ears. I am filled to overflowing, bursting with love.

THAT NIGHT, AFTER WHISKEY has rendered Camel dead to the world and Walter is snoring on the bedroll, I leave the little room and stand looking over the backs of the ring stock.

I care for these horses daily. I muck out their stalls, fill their water and feed buckets, and groom them for the show. I check their teeth and comb their manes and feel their legs for heat. I give them treats and pat their necks. They had become as familiar a part of my scenery as Queenie, but after seeing Marlena's act I'll never view them the same way again. These horses are an extension of Marlena—a part of her that is here, right now, with me.

I reach over the stall divider and place my hand on a sleek black rump. Midnight, who had been asleep, rumbles in surprise and turns his head. Water for E l e p h a n ts When he sees that it's just me, he turns away. His ears droop, his eyes close, and he shifts his weight so he's resting one hind leg.

I go back to the goat room and check that Camel is still breathing. Then I lie down on the horse blanket and drift into a dream about Marlena that will probably cost me my soul.

IN FRONT OF THE steam tables the next morning:

"Check that out," says Walter, lifting his arm to poke me in the ribs. "What?"

He points.

August and Marlena are sitting at our table. It's the first time they've shown up for a meal since her accident.

Walter eyeballs me. "You gonna be okay?" "Yes, of course," I say irritably.

"Okay. Just checking," he says. We pass the ever-vigilant Ezra and head for our separate tables.

"Good morning, Jacob," August says as I set my plate on the table and take a seat.

"August. Marlena," I say, nodding at each.

Marlena looks up quickly and then back at her plate.

"And how are you this fine day?" says August. He digs into a pile of scrambled eggs.

"Fine. And you?" "Wonderful," he says.

"And how are you, Marlena?" I ask. "Very much better, thank you," she says. "I saw your act last night," I say.

"Did you?"

"Yes," I say, shaking my napkin and spreading it across my lap. " I t ' s ... I don't quite know what to say. It was amazing. I've never seen anything like it."

"Oh?" says August, cocking one eyebrow. "Never?" "No. Never."

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S a r a G r u en "Really."

He stares at me without blinking. "I thought it was Marlena's act that inspired you to join this show in the first place, Jacob. Was I wrong?" My heart flips in my chest. I pick up my cutlery: fork in my left hand, knife in my right—European-style, like my mother.

"I lied," I say.

I stab the end of a sausage and begin sawing it, waiting for a response. "I beg your pardon?" he says.

"I lied. Hied!" I slam my cutlery down, a nub of sausage impaled on the fork. "Okay? Of course I'd never heard of the Benzini Brothers before I jumped your train. Who the hell has heard of the Benzini Brothers? The only circus I'd seen in my entire life was the Ringling Brothers, and they were great. Great! Do you hear me?"

There's an eerie silence. I look around, horrified. Everyone in the tent is staring at me.

Walter's jaw is open. Queenie's ears are pressed against her head. In the distance, a camel bellows.

Finally I turn my eyes to August. He, too, is staring. One edge of his moustache quivers. I tuck my napkin under the edge of my plate, wondering if he's going to come across the table at me.

August's eyes widen farther. I tense my knuckles under the table. Then August explodes.

He laughs so hard he turns red, clutching his midriff and fighting for breath. He laughs and howls until tears run down his face and his lips tremble from exertion.

"Oh, Jacob," he says, wiping his cheeks. "Oh, Jacob. I think I may have misjudged you. Yes. Indeed. I think I may have misjudged you." He cackles and sniffs, swabbing his face with his napkin. "Oh dear," he sighs. "Oh dear." He clears his throat and picks up his utensils. He scoops some egg onto his fork and then sets it down again, once more overcome with mirth.

The other diners return to their food, but reluctantly, like the crowd that watched as I expelled the man from the lot that first day. And I can't help but notice that when they return to their meals, it's with a look of apprehension.

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LUCINDA'S DEATH LEAVES US with a serious deficiency in the freak lineup. And it must be filled—all the big shows have fat ladies, and therefore so must we.

Uncle Al and August scour Billboard and at each stop make telephone calls and send telegrams in an effort to recruit a new one, but all known fat ladies appear either to be happy in their current situation or else leery of Uncle Al's reputation. After two weeks and ten jumps, Uncle Al is so desperate he approaches a woman of generous proportions in the audience. Unfortunately, she turns out to be Mrs. Police Superintendent, and Uncle Al ends up with a shiny purple eye instead of a fat lady, along with summary instructions to leave town.

We have two hours. The performers immediately sequester themselves in their train cars. The roustabouts, once roused, run around like headless chickens. Uncle Al is breathless and purple, waving his cane and whacking people if they're not moving fast enough for his liking. Tents drop so quickly that men get trapped inside, and then men who are dropping other tents must come and retrieve them before they suffocate in a vast expanse of canvas, or—worse, in Uncle Al's estimation—use their pocketknives to cut a breathing hole.

After all the stock is loaded I retire to the ring stock car. I don't like the look of the townsmen hovering around the edge of the lot. Many are armed, and a bad feeling ferments in the pit of my stomach.

I haven't seen Walter yet, and I pace back and forth in front of the open door, scanning the lot. The black men have long since hidden themselves aboard the Flying Squadron, and I'm not at all convinced that the mob won't content themselves with a redheaded dwarf instead.