Wayfarer
Authors: R.J. Anderson
Wayfarer
To Steve,
who refused to settle for easy answers,
And Mark,
who showed me it's never too late to come home.
The Queen is dying.
“I expected more of a missionary's son.”
The watchful feeling followed Timothy all the way to theâ¦
When Timothy awoke, it took him a minute of staringâ¦
A rack of brochures stood by the station exit. Timothyâ¦
It had been a long ride from Oakhaven. Hidden awayâ¦
In the glare of the streetlamp Veronica's hair was paleâ¦
Timothy seemed so cynical and world-weary at times, Linden hadâ¦
Linden felt frozen all over, numb with shock and grief.
“You lied to him!” Linden accused when Thorn came backâ¦
Timothy shoved the car door open and stepped out ontoâ¦
There was a moment of dreadful silence. Then:
They couldn't turn back. They couldn't call for helpâeven ifâ¦
Timothy's emotions were a discord of relief, fury, and disappointment.
“The coach to Cardigan leaves from the train station,” saidâ¦
“Wait!” Linden scrambled out of the boat and ran toâ¦
In the dreadful stillness that followed the Elders' verdict, fourâ¦
Veronica crouched in front of Timothy, one slim hand bringingâ¦
Timothy sat in the back parlor at Oakhaven, gazing outâ¦
“Here,” said Timothy, slinging the strap of his guitar aroundâ¦
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The Queen is dying.
The knowledge sat in Linden's belly like a cold stone as she hunched over the tub of greasy water, scrubbing her thirty-ninth plate. She'd promised Mallow, the Chief Cook, that she'd wash all the Oakenfolk's dishes in exchange for a second piece of honey cake at dinner, and at the time it had seemed a reasonable bargain. But now that she knew what was happening at the top of the Spiral Stairâthat the faery Queen was lying pale and weak upon her bed and might never rise from it againâshe wanted to heave up all the cake she'd eaten and throw the last few dishes straight back in the Chief Cook's face.
How could Mallow look smug, after bringing them such terrible news? The moment she'd spoken those words the whole kitchen had gone silent, Gatherers and cooks and scullions all staring in horrified disbelief. Yet the corners of Mallow's fat mouth were curled up in obvious self-satisfaction, as though the important thing wasn't Queen Amaryllis's fate, only that
she'd
been the first of them to find out about it.
Still, Linden didn't dare to question Mallow, or beg her for more detailsâunless, of course, she was prepared to bargain for the information. The other faeries in the kitchen must have thought the same, for they'd already gone back to work, downcast faces and trembling hands their only signs of emotion. But Linden could imagine the anxious thoughts running through their minds, because the same fears chilled her own:
How much longer can the Queen live?
Who will rule the Oak now?
And most of all:
Oh, Great Gardener, what will become of us when she's gone?
Linden bowed her head over the tub until her long brown curls almost brushed the water. She squeezed her eyes shut and her lips together, trying not to weep. To be brave, like her foster mother Knife had taught herâbut oh, she wished that Knife could be with her now!
“Don't forget these,” said Mallow's voice from behind her, and a silver tray clattered onto the counter by Linden's side.
“Not that
she's
eaten much, so be sure to scrape them first.”
In Mallow's language
scrape them
really meant
save all the good bits for me.
Linden looked at the almost untouched foodâa plate of delicately carved roast finch with mashed roots and chestnut dressingâand felt sick all over again. If the Queen couldn't even muster the will to eat, how would she find the strength to do magic? If the spells that protected the Oak weren't renewed on a daily basis, they would start to weaken, and then it wouldn't take long for disease, insects, and a host of hungry predators to start gnawing their way insideâ¦.
“Someone else can wash the Queen's dishes, Mallow,” said a calm voice from the doorway. “Her Majesty wishes me to bring Linden to her at once.”
Linden looked up, her tears draining into the backs of her eyes as she recognized the tall, grave-looking faery who had spoken. “Me, Valerian? Why?”
But Mallow spoke up before Valerian could answer. “Linden made me a bargain, Healer.
You
can wait.”
Someone gasped but quickly turned it into a cough as Mallow swung around. “Stop gawping and get back to work!” she barked, then returned her glare to Linden. “Well?”
Anger surged through Linden, and she clenched her soap-slick hands. It was one thing for Mallow to bully her own kitchen workers, or a temporary servant like Linden herself. But to be rude to Valerianâworse, to deny a request from their own dying Queenâit was intolerable.
Yet what could she do about it? At fifteen, Linden was by far the youngest faery in the Oak, and one of the smallest besides. She had no magic, no influence, not even a proper occupation yet: It was ridiculous to think she could stand up to someone like Mallow. Linden swallowed, nodded, and began removing the uneaten food from the Queen's plate.
“No,” said Valerian, walking over. She took the plate from Linden, gently but firmly, and set it aside. “Her Majesty is not dead yet, Mallow. And even among faeries, there are duties more sacred than a bargain.” She bent and looked into Linden's face with her searching gray eyes. “The Queen has need of you. Will you come with me?”
Not commanding but asking: That was Valerian's way. And yet that simple courtesy was enough to straighten Linden's spine, making her ashamed that she had bowed to Mallow for even a moment.
“Yes, of course,” she said. “I'll come at once.”
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The Queen's apartments were nine floors up, at the top of the Spiral Stair. Through the window slit on the landing Linden could see a rare view of the whole Oakenwyld: on the east side a matted brown carpet of meadow fringed with leafless trees, and to the north and west the withered hedges and empty flower beds that separated the Oak from the nearby human House. Drab though it looked now, in just a few weeks the garden would be gloriousâbut what did that matter when the Queen would likely not live long enough
to see it? With a heavy heart Linden closed the shutter and turned away.
“There is one thing I must tell you,” said Valerian quietly as she climbed up onto the landing beside Linden. “If we should meet Bluebell on our way, let me be the one to speak. And however she may press you afterward, tell her nothing about your meeting with the Queen.”
Bluebell was Queen Amaryllis's personal attendant, a haughty but loyal faery who had served her for more than seventy years. “Why?” Linden asked.
“Think, child. How do you think the news came out that Her Majesty is dying? If Bluebell would gossip about such a serious matterâand to Mallow, no lessâthen I fear she cannot be trusted with even the least of Queen Amaryllis's secrets anymore.”
Sobered, Linden nodded her agreement, and the Healer parted the curtains and led the way inside. A distant bell jangled, and Linden braced herself for a confrontationâbut, mercifully, Bluebell seemed to be elsewhere for the moment, and they walked down the corridor unchallenged.
The Queen's bedchamber was the most elegant room Linden had ever seen. Carvings of vines and berries surrounded every door and window frame, all the furnishings were antique, and the floor was carpeted in ermine, a white pelt thick and soft enough to bury Linden's bare feet to the ankles. But the moment Linden saw Queen Amaryllis, she forgot everything else.
She had the face of a goddess, untouched by age, and yet her half-lidded eyes held the burden of centuries. No faery could expect to live much beyond three hundred and fifty, and Amaryllis had passed that age seven years ago. Now all the warmth had drained from her skin, leaving it as white as apple flesh, and she lay in the four-poster bed with her wings flattened beneath her as though she already knew that she would never use them again.
“Your Majesty,” said Valerian, dipping a curtsy, “I have brought Linden, as you asked.”
The faery in the bed stirred, and her faded blue eyes focused on Linden. “Good,” she breathed. “Come close to me, both of you.”
Valerian walked around one side of the bed while Linden moved woodenly to the other. She couldn't speak, even if she had known what to say; she could only look down at the Queen's honey-gold hair lying tangled on the pillow and gulp back the grief that threatened to choke her.
“I had hoped you would be older when this day came,” the Queen murmured. “But I cannot delay it any longer, even for your sake.” She extended one soft, fragile hand, her fingers curling around Linden's. “It is time you learned what your task must be, and how carefully we have prepared you for just such a time as this. For you are our people's greatest hopeâperhaps our only hope.”
A tremor ran through Linden as she realized that she was about to receive her life's occupation at last. But the
Oakenfolk's
greatest hope
â¦What could Her Majesty possibly mean?
“Do not fear,” said the Queen, but her voice thinned to huskiness on the final word, and though she cleared her throat she could not speak again. There was a painful pause, until Valerian spoke instead:
“Let me try to explain. By now, Linden, you must know about the Sundering, the reason we Oakenfolk can no longer work magic. Wink has told you the story, I am sure?”
Wink was the other of Linden's two foster mothers, a little redheaded faery full of affection and good intentions, but unfortunately bad at getting to the point. “Some of it,” said Linden cautiously. “I know it happened a long time ago, and that it was the fault of a faery named Jasmine.” Knife had shown her a portrait of Jasmine once, painted by the human artist who had once been Jasmine's lover: a strong-featured beauty with black hair and a mocking smile curving her lips. She'd looked proud and very determinedâthe sort of woman who might do anything. “And I know she was trying to keep our people away from humans.”
“Yes,” said Valerian. “Jasmine's experience of humans had been bitter, and she came to believe that faeries were better off without them. She thought that our reliance on human contact to give us new ideas and creative skills was mere laziness and habit, and if she could give us a way to maintain our population we would soon learn to thrive independently. So she cast a spell that would enable us to
replace ourselves with eggs when we died, instead of having to take human mates or adopt unwanted human children as our ownâbut she used up nearly all our magic in order to do it. And though Jasmine believed the ultimate benefit to our people would be far greater than the cost, she was wrong.”
Wrong
was an understatement, Linden knew. In Jasmine's day there had been more than two hundred faeries living in the Oak, but after the Sundering so many had been killed by predators and other misfortunes, and so few of their precious eggs had survived long enough to hatch, that only forty-five Oakenfolk now remained.
“I understand,” she said. “But what does this have to do with me?”
“We need our magic back,” Valerian said simply. “Queen Amaryllis cannot endure much longer, and once she is gone, the rest of us will soon perish unless we find a way to undo Jasmine's spell. Our only hope is to seek out other faeries who still have all their magic, and beg them to lend us some of their power. But how could any of us undertake such a long and dangerous journey, when we have so little idea of where to go, and still less chance of getting there?”
It was a good question: At their small size and with no magic to protect them, none of their people could possibly survive long outside the Oak. Linden frownedâthen her face cleared as she realized what the Healer must have in mind. “You want me to talk to Knife for you?” she said. “Of course I willâbut surely there's no need. She'd do it if
you asked her, I know she would.”
But the Queen looked pained, and Valerian shook her head. “We have no doubt of your foster mother's loyalty, or her courage. But she is human now, no longer one of us, and it is unlikely that any faeries outside our own Wyld would speak to her. Besides, it is Knife's duty to guard the Oakenwyld against crows and foxes, and provide food for our people. She cannot go.”
No, of course not, thought Linden regretfully. Especially not with Queen Amaryllis so close to dying, and the Oak more vulnerable than ever.
“But Knife has already done much to help,” Valerian continued. “The time you have spent with her in the House, learning of humans and their ways, has given you a unique understanding of the world beyond the Oak. If the opportunity arises for one of our people to venture out in search of other faeries, no one is better equipped for the task than you are.”
Shock froze Linden's blood in her veins, then set her whole body afire. “Me? But I'm so⦔
So small. So weak. So frightened.
She wasn't like Knife, who even as a faery had been tough enough to take down a crow with a single arrow and fight off rats bare-handed. Linden had no fighting skills, and no magic, either: How could she possibly do what they were asking of her?
The Healer's face softened. “This is difficult for you, I know. But rest assured, we have not made this decision
lightly. Nor does Her Majesty intend to send you out into the world without first giving you all the help she can.” She bent toward the Queen and said in a low voice, “Do you wish to do it now? Are you sure you will not rest a little first, and gather your strength?”
Amaryllis's reply was barely audible, exhaled on a ragged breath. “Yesâ¦it must be now.”
Valerian bowed her head. “Then I will not oppose you. I only pray that Linden and I will prove worthy of such a sacrifice.”
Sacrifice?
What in the Great Gardener's name was Queen Amaryllis planning to do? Linden's anxiety must have shown on her face, because the Queen's fingers tightened around her own, reassuring. Then she whispered: “Do you give me your service?”
Linden's eyes welled up, but she bit her lips and nodded. Fearful or not, she still trusted the Queen, believed in herâeven though what she was asking seemed impossible.
“Dear child,” Amaryllis murmured, “you have been the joy of my old age. I wish I could go with you, when the time comes. But since I cannot⦔
And with those words a silvery glow kindled above her heart and began to radiate outward. Dim at first, but growing brighter as it spread, it rippled down the Queen's outstretched arms to her fingertipsâand before Linden could so much as gasp, the light enveloped her as well.
She could feel the magic all around her, dancing sparks
against her skin: When she looked wide-eyed at Valerian, she saw the Healer surrounded by the same eerie glow. Linden started, but Amaryllis held her fast, and the light expanded until the three of them were contained in a swirling, incandescent bubble.
“Half my magic I give to you, my ambassador,”
the Queen's voice echoed in Linden's mind, clear as only thoughts could be.
“Yours are the glamours, the spells of illusion and temporary change. At need, they will conceal you from your enemies and confound those who would do you harm. But use them wisely and in good conscience, not for selfish gain.”