When the Night Comes (2 page)

I liked staying there.

We stayed in a guest room for a week and then we moved to a room at the back of the house that Mrs. Wilson let us have for free. She told my mum that it was just until we got on our feet, until we got settled. I didn't know what that really meant. Mrs. Wilson still wanted to make my brother and me a cooked breakfast every morning, but Mum said we should just have cereal and be polite.

Mum found a house to rent three doors down on the same street about two weeks later. It was maybe the worst house in Battery Point. There were no other houses like it—dark and faded, set back in the shadows of the tall grand houses around it. Mum had to let out a room to afford the rent. The front room. The only nice room. My brother and I shared the attic, which had a slanting roof. It was okay except the wallpaper was peeling in parts near the ceiling and the only toilet was in the back garden. I didn't like going down there in the dark, or even in the day much. But the yard had a huge walnut tree that our attic window looked out on, and when the walnuts were ripe my brother and I would stuff ourselves, eat them until our mouths were itchy and we could eat no more. Then we would smash fallen walnuts open and scatter them
around the yard for the birds, for the forest ravens that were waiting in the tree.

But I missed the B&B, how warm it was there, how bright. And sometimes after school, when my brother and I walked home from the ferry, Mrs. Wilson would be at her gate, and she'd call us in, tea and cakes waiting.

T
he cold made it hard to breathe, burnt my chest—the stone and the concrete hard under my frozen feet.

I'd take my brother's sleeve and pull him along the empty streets of Battery Point. Early, we'd walk quickly. Everything still like always—only us. Frost on the windows of parked cars, thick and opaque and stuck fast.

Mona Street, Francis Street, Hampden Road. At the end of Kelly Street there were steps down into darkness, the back of Salamanca all crumbled and decayed. Cuts in the quarry stone rounded, worn. A stone fortress, a gateway we had to pass.

Run, run—Kelly's steps.

Some of the steps were bowed and stained, and the stains looked like old blood rusted orange with time. Blood soaked into the stone. We'd go down one step at a time as quickly as we could. Down, down, and we'd try not to look ahead into the dark lane. But at the bottom, in the cold cobbled shadows, ghosts would claw at our clothes, try to grab hold of our hair, whisper in the echo of the stone.

Can you help me?

Can you see me?

Don't leave me here.

I'd pull my brother's hand hard, and we'd run and run, not even breathe, until we were through. Until we were on the other side.

Light.

The open sky.

An avenue of elm trees, the wharf beyond.

We'd slow down, catch our breath, walk out across Salamanca Place. Out along the grass and under the trees, across the road to the long wooden jetty where we'd stand and wait for the ferry to come. We'd hardly talk. We'd just wait.

We'd try not to think about Kelly's steps, about how the dead pressed up against our skin in that dark place.

T
he rain came down.

I had my japara on, the hood covering my head and my hands tucked up inside. It was too big for me, the japara, but still the heavy black material kept most of the rain out. My brother was sick, at home. He'd been coughing in the night and was probably on the couch under his duvet watching TV, waiting for Mum to get up. It was really cold in that old house in Battery Point and there was no heater.

I didn't want to go to school. I thought about going home to look after my brother, but I didn't. I just kept standing there in the rain, waiting for the ferry.

It must have been really early—there was no one else at the jetty. I could see the air when I breathed and everything was water. I looked down, watched the rain fall on the slick, black surface of the river. The drops formed perfect circles that got bigger and bigger until I could no longer follow the whole circle at once. Time and space, the raindrops were separate. They fell in a kind of silence, but then the rain got harder, suddenly bursting, and there were too many drops to follow. The whole surface of the water prickled up and became rough and jumbled. The stillness gone.

The rain smacked my japara hard and it sounded like being inside a tent. I turned so that the rain couldn't hit my face. I looked down at my feet, at my wet sneakers. I closed my eyes and listened to the rain,
listened to it fall on my hood. I imagined that the ferry was coming, that it was heading this way, pushing the water forward, pushing in against the wooden jetty. When I opened my eyes the ferry would be here and the captain, Peter, would run down from the wheelhouse to throw the thick rope around the wooden pylon and then he would help us on, one by one.

I would go inside and get dry. I could get warm.

I counted twenty drops of rain on my hood, then another twenty, and another. I kept my eyes closed. I counted forty more for good luck, then I opened my eyes.

RED. Nothing but red. A bright red wall of steel.

A ship, as tall as a building, as big as the sky, and when I looked up there was a man standing against the rail.

He was tall, dressed in white, and he was waving. I turned around, but there was no one there behind me. There was only me. Me, standing on the little jetty opposite this giant ship, the hood of my japara covering half my face, and I knew the man couldn't see my eyes, my hair. He waved again like he knew me. He waved.

Someone could see me
.

I waved back, my hand still tucked up in my japara sleeve. We were both standing in the rain, the black water between us, and I don't know why he was waving, but I waved back. I took notice.

A red ship. A red flag flying in the breeze. A man dressed in white.

Then a horn blew and I nearly jumped out of my skin. It was the ferry. People came from out of the gray nothing behind me, men in suits, other kids who caught the ferry to school, but everything was dull compared to the red. They were like fog, these people, blended into the gray rain and the concrete.

When I looked back up at the ship, the man was gone. A patch of sunlight broke through the clouds, hit the red bow, just a tiny beam. For
a second there was nothing else but the words written clear, white against red:
Nella Dan.

I said the words over and over in my head.

Nella Dan.

Nella Dan.

Nella Dan.

They made my heart beat out faster.

MS
Nella Dan

VOYAGE 1, 1986/1987 SEASON

15th September 1986

POSITION:
46° 45.000' S, 147° 27.000' E

CAPTAIN'S NOTE:
Objectives of this voyage are to complete the survey of Heard Island, and undertake the Antarctic Division BIOMASS Experiment—ADBEX III (survey krill and other zooplankton).

We have made good progress; however we have remained in a southerly direction all night in order to minimize the effect of the severe weather system.

I wake—my eyes wide.

Water smashes in against the port side and we swing wild. I cling to my bunk, my fingers grip the sheets, but my body rolls so far over that I end up against the bulkhead.

I rest there. I lie right up on that thin wall, my duvet entwined around my feet.

Come up,
Nella.
Right up.

I lie still. I wait.

Come up.

She does.

I fall back onto my bunk, take a deep breath. I keep breathing, strain to listen.

The water hits hard again and we pitch over. I tense my core but I'm
back against the bulkhead, sliding up toward the ceiling. I feel
Nella
shudder, grind her metal teeth. My bones vibrate against her. I try to relax, keep calm—
it's fine
—but there's this creaking, this screeching, as if every bolt that holds her together is coming loose. Coming apart.

Come up,
Nella.
Right up.

I feel her strain.

We snap back with a jolt and my duvet flings across the cabin. I think about getting off my bunk to get it, but it is not cold.
I'm
not cold. I don't know how long we have been in this storm. I was somewhere else, dead, not even dreaming.

Now I am here, in a cabin on a ship.

Now I am here, the Southern Ocean.

I reach for my clock, but it's not under my pillow. I feel
Nella
try to pull in, face the swell. Her energy races through me.

Come on,
Nella
—ride straight!

My cabin door flies open and light pours through. A silhouette staggers in, arms outstretched.

“Hey, Bo,” it says.

It's Soren.

“What time is it?” I yell.

He doesn't answer, but I can see him now—his face, his hair all messed up. I touch my own hair, feel how it's standing up at the back from sliding around my bunk.

We go over again, pitch sharp. The fastenings on the curtains bust loose and let in this strange light. I'm looking down from my bunk into green and blue. Looking down into water right there through my porthole. My cabin underwater—cold and deep.

“Christ,” Soren says as he slides down to the floor. He's wearing his big jacket like he's thinking of going outside, like he's thinking about going out for a walk or something. He has a bottle in his hand.

“Cheers!” he says loudly, and he leans up, swigs from the bottle.
Nella
comes back hard and everything's the right way for a moment. I take advantage of the gravity, roll off the bunk. I find my trousers, my sweater, put them on quickly.

A boot flings across the room, hits my leg. Something rolls around the floor—something hard. My travel clock. I grab it, shove it under my mattress. Coat hangers bang around inside the cupboard and we go over again. I brace against the bunk.