White Lilies (A Mitchell Sisters Novel) (32 page)

I can see the hesitancy in her eyes; feel it in her body. My lips barely brush hers when I stiffen. I pull back and stare down at what separates us. Our son. The kid who just gave me a swift kick in the groin. My hand immediately goes to her belly to feel the squirms and movements I can now clearly see.

Her stomach moves even more, bouncing up and down when she giggles. “Someone doesn’t think you should have done that,” she says.

I fall to my knees and put both my hands on her still-bare belly. For the first time, I have words with my son. “Listen up, Aaron. You are not allowed to cock-block your own daddy. Dudes have to stick together.”

“Dudes have to stick together?” Skylar repeats. “Those are your first words of advice for him?”

The doorbell rings. I silently curse it and whomever pressed it for ruining our family moment. Skylar looks down at me with guilty eyes. “Um . . . I should probably get that.” She backs away from me and pulls her shirt down. She hands me the lily on her way by.

I don’t even have to ask who’s at the door. I already know. It’s written all over her.

I put the flower back with the others and then casually lean against the doorframe, watching as she lets him in.  John walks across the threshold, giving her a welcome kiss on the cheek before he sees me standing here, glaring at the two of them. He follows Skylar’s eyes over to me. His brown eyes go cold as he nods his chin at me. “Pearce,” he says. He doesn’t wait for my response before turning back to Skylar, holding out a bouquet of red roses. “These are for you.”

Skylar’s eyes momentarily flicker over to the vase full of lilies in the playroom. It happened so fast, I’m sure John didn’t even notice it. She plasters what I think is a fake smile on her face as she takes them from him. “Thank you, John. They’re beautiful.” She deposits them on the foyer table.

Skylar hates roses. How does he not know this about her after all the dates they’ve been on? Maybe he hasn’t been paying attention. Maybe he doesn’t know other important things about her either. Like how she twists the pinky ring on her right hand when she’s lying, like she’s doing right now. Or how her favorite color isn’t actually a color at all.

Or how she has a stash of pictures of me in the basement.

I laugh, looking over at the asshole trying to steal my girl. “Roses. Nice touch, man.”

“What’s so funny, Pearce?” he says with a sinister smile and arrogant laugh. “After all,
I’m
the one taking her to dinner tonight.”

“About that,” Skylar says, rubbing her stomach. “I don’t think I’m up for going out tonight. I’ve been having a lot of those Braxton-Hicks contractions and I just want to put my feet up and relax.”

John watches her hands as they rub over her pregnant belly. Then he looks over at me while his lips form a thin line. He sighs. “That’s okay, we can stay in. Want me to cook for you?”

Skylar shakes her head. “No. You don’t need to stay and take care of me. I’ll order out.”

“It’s no problem, really.” He starts to remove his coat.

“John, I think I’m just going to turn in early. Can we reschedule?”

I find it hard to control the smile that struggles to break free. She’s blowing him off. I watch the back-and-forth conversation like a Ping Pong tournament.

“Are you sure?” he asks. “I’d be happy to run and get you some food.”

“I’m sure.” Skylar reaches towards him and pulls his coat back onto his shoulders. I’m sure she didn’t mean it to be an intimate act. In fact, I think she’s doing it to get rid of him. But the mere thought of her touching him has my blood about to boil.

He turns around to open the door. “I’ll call you tomorrow, then. Take it easy, okay?”

“Don’t worry, McCormack, I’ll take care of her,” I say, still leaning in the doorway to the playroom.

He looks into the re-designed room, just now noticing how different it is. He stares at the picture on the wall before his eyes fall onto mine. If it were possible to shoot daggers from one’s eyes, I’d be dead, pinned up and hanging bloody on the doorframe.

Skylar delivers me a scolding look before walking him out.

I go over and sit on the couch, knowing my plans for the evening include rubbing the feet of my kid’s gorgeous mom.

Griffin – 2

John-the-food-guy – 0

chapter twenty-nine

A noise wakes me. I look around my dark bedroom and grab my phone to check the time.
2:00 a.m
. I pull on a pair of sweat pants and open the door to the hallway. In the dim light shining from the street into our hallway window, I can see Skylar’s bedroom door open. I stop at the threshold. “Skylar?”

I walk through her room and check the bathroom.
Empty.
I make my way downstairs only to see the light over the stove illuminated like always. Skylar uses it as a night light. A habit from when she was a child and she would wake up for a glass of water. Her father got one too many stubbed toes walking her to the kitchen, so he started leaving the light over the stove on every night.

We don’t need it. The light from the lamppost comes through the windows by the front door, spreading just enough light in the main level so you can see where you’re walking. Still, she leaves it on every night. And if she forgets, I turn it on for her.

“Skylar?” I look at the couch to see if she fell asleep on it. I look in the playroom. I start to panic and decide to run back to my room and get my phone to call her. Passing by the basement stairway, I see a faint light. I descend the stairs and can’t help smiling at what I find at the bottom. I quietly watch her sift through the stack of pictures from between the couch cushions that she doesn’t know I know about.

My feet are cemented to the ground as I stare at her. Her hair is pulled up, long tendrils escaping the messy bun on the top of her head. She has on a short silky robe that falls slightly off one shoulder, revealing a matching spaghetti-strap nightgown. In the soft light of the lamp, I can’t tell what color her nightgown is. I hope it’s green. I know it would make her eyes look amazing.

She reclines back into the couch, pulling one of the pillows over her breasts. One of the pillows I used to sleep on when this couch was in my room. She brings it to her face, closes her eyes and takes in a deep breath through her nose.

Holy Shit.
She’s smelling me
.

She’s looking at her secret stash of pictures and smelling me.

I clear my throat and she jumps. She looks at the pictures in her hand and quickly shoves them down into the side of the couch, depositing the pillow right on top of them. Does she really think I didn’t notice her looking at them?

She’s quiet. She doesn’t say anything about my senior picture that I put in the mix. Maybe she didn’t see it yet. Maybe she just got down here right before I did.

She sits up and tucks her legs under her, eyeing my bare torso. Her obvious enchantment with my exposed skin makes me want to pound on my chest like King Kong.

I walk over as if I’m completely unfazed by her gawking. “Are you okay? Did you have more of those false contraction things?”

Relief washes over her face when I don’t call her out on the pictures. She shakes her head. “No. Well, yes, I get them occasionally, but that’s not why I’m down here.”

I try not to smile. I know why she’s down here. I know exactly why she’s down here. She wanted to see me. Smell me. She wants me, but being the stubborn woman she is, she just can’t admit it and let us get on with things. Things like kissing. And touching. And making love. And more kissing.

I eye her full lips and wonder if pregnancy has made them fuller, or if they’ve always been like that.

She puts her hands on her prominent belly and sighs. “I miss her.”

I close the distance between us. I’m now able to confirm that her nighttime attire is in fact green. I long to reach out and touch it, knowing it’s probably as silky as her skin. As soft as her wavy hair. I sit down next to her, leaving only a few inches of space between us.

“Me, too,” I say. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe she was looking at pictures of Erin and not ogling me.

She nods. “She was my best friend,” her small voice cracks out.

“Mine, too.” I grab her hand in mine, letting them fall to the couch between us.

Her fingers tense, but she doesn’t pull away. “I’ve never known someone so genuine and kind,” she says. “Erin was like a sister to me. Sometimes I feel so selfish, being pissed off that she died and can no longer be my friend. Not that I don’t have great friends. But it’s just . . . I don’t think I’ll ever have another friend like her.” She sniffs and wipes a tear. “I talk to her, you know. At night. I tell her about my job, about Bean, about life.” She looks over at me. “Do you think she hears? Do you think she knows what’s going on down here?”

I shake my head. “I don’t know. Sometimes I wonder the same things.”

“Do you think she would be disappointed in us?” she asks.

I shrug. I can’t answer that. Not without guilt weighing down on me. Not without making Skylar feel guilty as well. I feel like a dick not reassuring her, but the fact is, I just don’t know.

“She was the only one who never judged me,” she says.

I watch as the tears roll down her face, some being stopped by her lips, only to be swiped away as her tongue comes out to catch them. It’s all I can do not to reach out and wipe them. But we’re talking about my wife. Seems an inappropriate time to touch her so intimately.

I give her hand a squeeze. “
I
never judged you, Skylar.”

She pulls her hand away, tucking it under her leg to restrict my access to it. “Yes, you did.”

“I did?”

She nods. “When we first met. I know you were only being diligent about the whole surrogacy process, but you made a snide comment about my promiscuous past.”

I close my eyes. I did say that. But not for the reason she thinks. “I’m sorry. You’re right that I said it, but it wasn’t because I was judging your past.”

Her head tilts to the side as her skeptical eyes question me.

“I said it because I was being a jackass. Because when I saw you, something inside me shifted.” I shake my head, still harboring feelings of guilt over it. “I loved Erin. I always will. And I never would have cheated on her. But I couldn’t deny my instant attraction to you. It scared me and I was trying to deflect my feelings.”

Her eyes soften and she lets out an almost inaudible laugh. “I have a confession to make, too.”

“Really?” I turn towards her, putting my arm on the back of the couch.

“This couch. I didn’t move it out of the bedroom because it reminded me of Erin. I moved it down here because it smelled of you and it was . . . distracting having it up there.” Her eyes fall to my chest once again. I wonder if she can see the way my heart beats faster every time she looks at me like this.

“Distracting, huh?” I find it hard to hide my smirk.

She ignores my expression, pushing herself up off the couch. She walks across the studio. She grabs a tissue from the desk and blots her eyes. The tissue box and the folder lying underneath it teeter off the desk, falling to the ground.

“Oh, sorry,” she says, leaning down to gather the photos that scattered across the floor.

Before I realize what happened, she gasps. “What are these?”

I try to scoop them up, but she pushes me aside. She spreads them over the desk and turns on the overhead light to get a better look. Shock washes over her face as she takes in the pictures. They’re the close-up photos I took of her weeks ago as she slept on the couch. Intimate photos of each body part. Then there are the ones I took while I waited at the coffee shop. Several of the pictures show the locket as it lies between her breasts.

Her hand comes up to touch the locket. “What the hell, Griffin? Why were you taking pictures of me when I didn’t know it?” She turns around to face me, tightening her robe as if it will add a layer of armor to protect her vulnerability. “These pictures are fucking creepy.”

I roll my eyes at her, but keep my comments about her word choice to myself. “Oh, right. I’m the creepy one.” I walk over to the couch and pull her stash out, holding them up for her to see. I thumb through them and grab a few that she took at the picnic. “You did the same thing, Skylar. You took pictures of me.”

“Ugh!” She stomps over and plucks the pictures from my hands, depositing them in the trash bin. “It’s not the same thing.”

“It’s not? What is it then? Why do you look at those pictures?”

“Because I miss Erin, you ass.”

I go over to the trashcan and pull one of the pictures out. “Because you miss Erin, huh?” I hold up the picture in front of her. “Look at this one—this close up of my face. Do you sit and look at it, fantasizing about my stubble rubbing between your legs?”

Her jaw drops. She grabs the picture from me, tearing it in two.

“Why are you so damn stubborn, woman? How come you keep stringing along John, knowing full well that I’m the man you want in your bed?”

“You?” She shakes her head. “If I recall, I
had
you in my bed. Then you ran away, Griffin. Why would I want to make that mistake again?”

“It wasn’t a mistake. We’re supposed to be together, Sky!” I yell at her.

“How come—because Erin said we should? And would you quit fucking calling me Sky!” she shouts.

“That does it,” I say, pulling her to me and crashing my lips into hers.

Her whole body stiffens, but she doesn’t push me away. She relaxes her lips and lets me kiss her.  I take her full lips between mine, lightly sucking on them, playing with them, letting her get used to me. She lets me swipe my tongue across her bottom lip and then push it into her mouth. Our kisses start slow and reserved, but quickly become more demanding. Passionate even. I can’t recall another time in my life when a simple kiss had my body on the brink of detonation. I pull her harder against me, squishing her belly between us. I grab the back of her head and angle her to deepen the kiss. She whimpers a soft, reluctant moan, but it’s enough to make me crave even more of her. It’s enough to let me know that she wants this.