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Feeling suddenly vulnerable, Marjorie plucked a red plastic stirrer from the bartender’s stash and bit down on it.

Where is Vera?

She swiveled on her stool in search of her friend, making inadvertent eye contact with an old acquaintance, John, who sat thirty feet away clutching a sweating beer stein. The last time she’d seen him, she’d probably been wearing a crystal beaded choker and dancing to SexyBack—it had been that long. She forced a smile; he nodded in return.

Oh, thank God.

Through the throngs of tattooed sleeves, she caught a glimpse of a French-inspired J. Crew striped top, a favorite of her roommate’s. By design, Vera’s crisp uniform and sharp black bob disguised her roots—more burnt toast than croissant—thanks to a quirky ex-hippie single mother.

Vera arrived beside Marjorie at the same time as a bearded young man in an ironic New Kids on the Block T-shirt. He gazed at her in silent plea. He’d been waiting for an empty stool; his new oxfords were rubbing his toes raw. Vera gave him the once-over, decided she could take him, and sat. He limped away, defeated.

She performed an exaggerated double take at the table of former high school guys. “What’s with the aging extras from
Boyz in the Hood
? I’m like choking on a mushroom cloud of Drakkar Noir. Isn’t theirs more of a cheesy Meatpacking scene?”

“I didn’t realize they’d be here.”

Approaching with drinks in hand, Mac caught sight of Vera from behind, shot Marjorie an annoyed look, and feigned a gag. Then he plastered a grin on his face and cleared his throat. “They’re here because I’m an investor.”

Vera’s snarl morphed into a smile, as she turned to face Mac. “Sorry. I didn’t realize…”

“Wait, you
own
this place?” Marjorie shook her head. “Cheater! I thought you were procuring cocktails based on your charm!”

“And I thought you were drinking alone.” He clenched his teeth. “But here’s Vera. Surprise, surprise.”

Vera had always been a hard-trying beta to Marjorie’s breezy alpha. Those roles had developed organically when, as eight-year-olds, they started a secret Care Bear Club. Marjorie was named President and Vera VP.

At the time, Marjorie’s mother, Barbara Plum, had felt concerned about the children playing nicely and asked, “Why do you need
titles
in a club with only two members?”

A young Marjorie had shrugged. “So we know who’s boss.”

Her mother loved that story.

Mac was unimpressed with Vera from the beginning. When he started at their middle school, he ignored the Care Bear VP because of her “ferretlike” pointy chin, hooked nose, and wide-set eyes. (Marjorie defended to no avail the way a smile broke through her best friend’s features like unexpected sunshine on an overcast day.) Vera claimed to hate Mac back, yet in his presence she transformed into someone too ready to laugh and agree. Nothing depressed Mac more than an easy mark.

These days, Vera had no reason to kowtow. Unconstrained by the golden handcuffs of early social success, she had spread her wings and evolved into a thriving “finance person.” Marjorie had no clue what that meant except that Vera was shackled to both her work-sanctioned BlackBerry and personal iPhone and expensed pricey dinners.

Mac leaned against the bar. “So, Vee. Long time no see. How’s old Grinch doing?”

“Grinch passed away. Like seven years ago.” Vera smiled, flattered at his memory.

“Sad story. He was a good dog.”

Marjorie rolled her eyes. Mac made a point of learning a single fact about every acquaintance to bring up later in a performance of intimacy. He often asked after Marjorie’s great-aunt Gladys with whom he claimed to have “hit it off” at a Plum family New Year’s Day party years before. No one hit it off with Gladys. She had a foul attitude and five o’clock shadow.

He might have met Vera’s mangy mutt
once
in total during a short-lived tryst. After junior year in college, Vera returned from a semester abroad in Barcelona with stories of a hot Spanish carpenter named Juan Carlos. Mac felt the man was garnering too much praise, his name too cliché to let stand. So, despite being Vera’s lifelong detractor, he showered her with attention, then, sans a challenge, dropped her.

“Congratulations, BTW,” Vera simpered.

“On?”

“This place.”

“Just the money guy.” Mac shrugged.

“But you have amazing instincts. I mean, has anything you backed been
un
successful?”

Marjorie snorted. “I’m pretty sure the sashimi ‘burlesque’ club wasn’t a big moneymaker. Or that floating restaurant in Gowanus? With the sulfur smell? Or—”

“I think we get it,” Mac snapped.

Marjorie picked up her drink, served in a mason jar with a sprig of rosemary, took a sip, and flinched. “Ugh, Mac. You got me some sweet girly drink! Don’t you know me at all?”

Mac sighed. “That’s
mine.
It’s a Hamptons Julep from the mixology menu. I got
you
a vodka soda.” He gestured toward a stemless glass of clear carbonated liquid, an acid green lime slice perched on the rim.

“Oh, I see.” She plucked the stirrer from her mouth and pointed it at him. “I didn’t realize you’d pledged Delta Gamma. Where’s this year’s spring formal, you slut?”

Mac glared at her. “It’s not a girly drink. You’re evil. I’m going back where I’m appreciated.”

“No, no, no! I was joking!” Marjorie called after him, laughing. En route back to the brunette, who waited chest foremost, Mac peered over his shoulder and shook his head at the rare failed exchange.

“What’s with you?” asked Vera. “Not that I mind seeing O’Shea tormented, but…”

“Sorry. Bad day at the office.”

Vera assumed an expression of practiced patience, readying for her friend’s
Ground Hog’s Day
laments. In her mind, Marjorie chose prolonged misery over action, much like Vera’s own long-suffering divorcée mother, to whom she had offered hours of unheeded advice. Now she grunted, “What happened
today
?”

“Ugh. It’s bad. We’re handling PR for the launch of this new liquor company, Snow Lite. Flavored vodka that promotes weight loss.”

“Right. ’Cause that makes sense.”

“It’s not only fraudulent, it’s also disgusting. Anyway, I forwarded an e-mail about the newest infusion flavors to our intern, Herb:
banana, peanut butter, pork belly.
I was continuing a joke from earlier about how the press release should promote bulimia as the diet plan, since the smell makes you want to barf…”

“Funny.” Vera did not smile.

“I could have sworn … but whatever … I guess I clicked Reply. The e-mail went to Snow’s CEO. Turns out, he wasn’t amused.”

“Oh, God.” Vera covered her face with her hands. “Did Brianne throw a mug at you again?”

Marjorie shook her head. “She’s off coffee at the moment.”

The notorious Brianne Bacht-Chit had encountered Marjorie in the early aughts at the opening of one of many white-on-white-wallpapered restaurants with mismatched “Mad Hatter” chairs and industrial sconces. Figuring that the adorable, even recognizable, twenty-something might lend
joie
to her firm, Brianne offered Marjorie a part-time “consulting” job, then began resenting and punishing her for the same reasons she was hired. Brianne was a little abusive and then a lot, and finally, for twisted reasons neither could fathom, she hired Marjorie full-time.

Marjorie sighed. “Instead, she got creepy quiet, then said, ‘When I met you, you seemed like
someone.
I was wrong. Consider yourself on probation. You’re welcome.’ Wow. I was able to repeat that verbatim. Is that a marketable skill?”

“Madge. For the eight hundredth time: You need to quit. You’re self-sabotaging.”

“Too bad about that pesky rent.”

“You’ll find the money somewhere.”

“Easy for you to say.”

Vera’s mouth dropped open. “What’s
that
supposed to mean? I work my
ass
off for what I have.” Her face contorted and her voice rose, as her rage escalated. “You sit around feeling sorry for yourself, making careless mistakes. No one hired me because I was cute at a cocktail party. If they had, I guarantee I wouldn’t have squandered the opportunity. If you’re unhappy, make changes! Or stop talking about it!”

Marjorie swore she felt plates shifting below her feet then, as if the world was turning upside down and she was powerless to stop it. It was a day for pots boiling over, for straws breaking camels’ backs. Amoebic spots squirmed before her eyes; she didn’t dare glance at the table of high school boys. “Whoa, Vee. I meant it was easy for you because you’re so together. I envy that in you.”

Vera opened her mouth, then closed it again, twice, then sighed. “I actually have something to share too.”

Marjorie took a long sip of her drink. “Sounds promising.”

Out of pity or perhaps because he now realized he was dealing with an owner’s friend, the bartender appeared and gestured toward Marjorie’s empty tumbler. She smiled despite herself, as an alcohol-induced lightness rose in her head, a welcome dulling of edges. She nodded.

“It’s good news, actually,” Vera was saying. “This isn’t quite how I planned to tell you, but … Brian and I are moving in together!”

Marjorie struggled to reconcile the pendulum swing from anger to enthusiasm—a bit bipolar. “That’s great, Vee. I’m so happy for you guys.”

“Good. Because there’s more.”

Where is that drink?

“We found an apartment.”

“Already? Wow. So quick!”

“Well, not
that
quick.”

They were silent for a beat. “I … How quick, Vera?”

Vera mumbled something incomprehensible into her bony hand.

“What was that?”

“We’ve been looking for like two months, okay?! I didn’t tell you ’cause I wasn’t sure how you’d react. You’re not the biggest fan of change.”

“So, you’re moving out.” Marjorie glanced down at her palm, where she’d crumpled her napkin into a stress ball. “When?”

Vera avoided her gaze. “This weekend.”


This
weekend?” Marjorie choked. “Vera, it’s Thursday! Rent is due next week! What am I supposed to do about the other half?”

Vera glared. “This isn’t about
you
! For
once
!”

“Giving me notice would have been just normal, common courtesy!”

“Well, things haven’t been
normal
between us for a while.” Vera stood and grabbed her tote; her blunt bob maintaining military formation. “Look, I can’t do this right now. I’ve gotta go. Just keep the apartment or something.”

“You know I can’t afford it alone!”

“Find a new roommate.”

“Where?”

“Online.”

“Have you not heard of the Craigslist Killer?”

Vera’s lips wobbled guiltily before forming a resolute line. “I knew you’d try to make me feel bad about this. You can’t stand that I found someone before you did.”

Marjorie shook her head. “This isn’t a Lifetime original movie, Tori Spelling. I think our twenty-year friendship deserves a slightly more nuanced interpretation.”

“Whatever. Brian said you’d act this way.”

Brian.
Motherfucking short, squat Brian with ruddy cheeks that suggested cheeriness but were more likely the result of respiratory distress from too many pizza burgers. Self-serving, rude, blowhard Brian with his long hair that he fancied “hip,” his requisite black Audi, boilerplate East Hampton house (not big enough to be “impressive” but within the boundaries of “the right hood”).

He was the first male to show consistent interest in Vera, who was too smart not to know that she was settling. So Marjorie had struggled to hide her disgust, enduring hours of drivel about the cost of Brian’s boxy suits and Yankees season tickets (he didn’t even follow baseball!). Though she considered him Satan’s spawn, he actually grew up in Cherry Hill, New Jersey (not hell per se), the unremarkable child of a housewife and a discount furniture manufacturer who sat
on the bench
of his school’s mediocre football team, winning him enough status to feel entitled but also cheated. Perpetual frat boy Brian, who invaded Marjorie’s personal space one drunken night in their apartment’s narrow kitchen after Vera passed out and tried to stick his fat white-spotted tongue down her throat, promising—between saliva strands—that it would be “their secret.” Brian, whom Marjorie had rebuffed with too much obvious revulsion.

“Vera. Be reasonable,” Marjorie coaxed. “You’re leaving me homeless with only a few days’ notice.”

“It’s pathetic to live with a roommate at twenty-eight years old anyway. I’m saving you from yourself.”

In that moment, Marjorie saw Vera’s rodent resemblance, after all. “Seriously?”

“Things can’t always go your way,
Madgesty.
” At that, Vera stormed out, leaving Marjorie alone in DIRT. (The irony of the name could not be ignored.)

The bartender arrived with Marjorie’s drink, waving her debit card back into her wallet, as Mac sat down beside her. The guy in the oxfords missed his chance at a stool again.

“You okay?”

Marjorie shrugged. The day was both important and unimportant. She was both fine and unfine. With her balled-up napkin, she stanched a tear before it realized its potential, then raised her glass. She and Mac both swigged.

And, as the world teetered imperceptibly on its axis, the blossom attached to Marjorie’s bottom fluttered to the floor.

 

2

Marjorie’s popularity came in middle school like an early birthday present—not totally unexpected but a treat nonetheless.

One afternoon in seventh grade, she arrived late to an assembly led by a self-defense expert named Terry in high-water sweatpants and a T-shirt that read
SAFETY FIRST; DANGER WORST.
She was accompanied by a life-size dummy named Carl. (Some recent muggings were being blamed on kids from a nearby juvenile hall, though the perpetrators were actually a bad seed foursome from the school’s own sophomore class—a truth that had yet to trickle down to the teachers’ lounge.)

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