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Authors: Louise Welsh

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Dr Ahumibe bent and calmly began to pick up the scattered pill packets. His movements were slow, like a pearl fisher diving deep against the tide.

‘When did you speak to Buchanan?’

Stevie sank back into the seat. The silk scarf she had wrapped around her face, in an attempt to mask the stink of the basement, was still strung around her neck. Even so, Stevie supposed the air smelt bad, but she had grown used to it. She slid off the scarf and wiped her eyes with it.

‘I don’t know. A few hours ago.’

‘I phoned him but he didn’t pick up. I thought maybe . . .’ Ahumibe shook his head. ‘Was he still uninfected?’

She blew her nose on the scarf’s hem.

‘He didn’t say.’

The doctor’s eyes met hers. ‘Some people live for up to three days, others go within hours. I should take these soon.’ Ahumibe glanced at the packs of pills. ‘Once the vomiting starts they’re less reliable.’

Stevie watched his trembling fingers, the tower of boxes growing.

‘The package I was to deliver to Mr Reah was a laptop. It contained data that proved your research was flawed.’

‘I know.’ Dr Ahumibe put the final box on the top of the pile. It looked like a miniature version of Simon’s apartment block, white and modernist. ‘Simon told me.’

‘Did you kill him?’

The doctor stared at the tower he had made and then retrieved the topmost box, opened it and slid out a blister pack. He dropped the empty box in the wastepaper basket, as if it was still important to be neat, and laid the slim pack on the desk.

‘Simon died of natural causes.’

‘Buchanan attended the autopsy. He said that he found evidence Simon had been injected with something shortly before his death.’

Dr Ahumibe looked up. Sweat prickled his brow but his eyes looked less drugged, sharper than before.

‘That doesn’t necessarily mean anything.’

‘Maybe not on its own, but Simon was about to give Mr Reah data that proved the treatment you had collaborated on was worthless. You and Buchanan both had a vested interest in stopping him.’

The chemist had insisted that the treatment was effective, but Dr Ahumibe didn’t bother to contradict her. He said, ‘Simon had as big a stake in the business as we did.’

‘Did he know that it was worthless?’

‘It wasn’t worthless. There was a glitch, a temporary glitch.’

‘A glitch.’ Stevie remembered the photograph of Joy Summers, the big box-office smile framed by the wheelchair headrest. ‘Did Simon know?’

‘Not at first. None of us did.’

‘Whose fault was it?’

‘We were a team. We were all equally responsible.’

Ahumibe glanced away. It was the kind of feint that lost you the sale and Stevie knew that even though Death had both hands on his shoulders, ready to push him into a grave, the doctor was dissembling. She scooped the packets of pills from the table, shoved them into her satchel, took the gun from her pocket and pointed it at him.

The doctor looked at the gun, unmoved. ‘You’d be doing me a favour.’

‘Not if I shot you in the legs and left you to bleed to death.’

She wondered if she would be able to do it and decided that perhaps she could.

‘Go ahead. If there was an easy way out, I’ve already bypassed it.’

‘I could still make it harder for you.’

‘Do you really think so?’ The doctor held her gaze. ‘Put the gun down.’ He brushed the air in front of him with his hand, as if trying to flap something away. ‘Killing people makes you feel bad.’

‘I told you. I’m not threatening to kill you.’ Stevie slipped her finger from the trigger and rested the gun on her lap, her hand still tight around the grip. ‘The person who analysed the data on Simon’s laptop said he thought there had been a genuine mathematical mistake.’

Dr Ahumibe sighed. ‘We were all responsible,’ he repeated.

‘We don’t have time to waste on some Spartacus routine. Someone made the initial error. Who was it?’

The doctor rested his head on the desk again.

‘It doesn’t matter any more.’

‘Tell me and I’ll leave you alone. Otherwise I’m here till the bitter end, and believe me, I will make it as bitter as possible.’

Ahumibe muttered something she couldn’t make out.

Stevie said, ‘I won’t give your pills back until you tell me.’

‘Buchanan.’ He raised his head and spat out the name. ‘Buchanan made the initial error, but Simon and I should have spotted it. Medicine is like the law: ignorance is no defence. We were all equally to blame.’

‘When did you realise?’

‘I spent the most time with the children.’ The doctor closed his eyes for a moment. His skin looked solid, as if it was made of wax or resin, some other substance than flesh. A bead of perspiration trickled down his brow and Stevie saw that the sweats were gaining ground. He said, ‘They weren’t responding as I’d expected. People think of science as being exact. In reality there are too many factors to predict results precisely, but nevertheless the general level of improvement amongst the children we treated wasn’t anywhere near as good as it should have been.’

‘Didn’t Simon notice?’

‘Simon was a good surgeon, but medicine wasn’t his life. He left most of the aftercare to me.’

‘Why didn’t you just stop operating?’

‘That was my first instinct. I called a meeting of the three of us. Buchanan turned up, Simon sent his apologies.’ A howl echoed along the hospital corridor. It sounded both animal and human; crazy in its abandon. Dr Ahumibe sipped his water and gave a small shudder. ‘There’s no point in going over any of this. It’s getting dark. We’ve had armed guards on the doors for the last few days but it sounds like they’ve surrendered us to the fates. You should leave.’

‘I promise I’ll go, as soon as you tell me what happened.’

The doctor leant back in his chair and closed his eyes. For a moment Stevie thought she might be losing him, but then he said, ‘At first Buchanan denied that there was anything wrong, but when I hit him with the cold facts, he was forced to admit that he already suspected something was awry.’ Dr Ahumibe opened his eyes and fixed his stare on her. ‘That was the word he used,
awry
, as if we were talking about a squint necktie or a badly hung picture.’

‘But you could have pulled the plug on the whole business. Why didn’t you?’

Dr Ahumibe was still gazing at the ceiling.

‘I made a promise to myself when I was a child. I remember it very clearly. I was lying in my bed at school, listening to one of the boys in my dorm crying himself to sleep, and I pledged that when I grew up, I would remember what it felt like to be an unhappy boy.’

‘Very Peter Pan.’

He looked at her again. ‘You’re wrong. Peter Pan didn’t want to grow up. I was desperate to reach an age when I would be in charge of my own life, my own destiny. But I kept my promise. I never forgot the misery of childhood and when I became a doctor I knew that I wanted to specialise in paediatrics.’ His voice cracked. ‘I have helped to save a lot of children’s lives.’

‘You also gave several children operations they didn’t need, and charged their parents money they couldn’t afford.’

A tear leaked down the doctor’s cheek, but for the first time he sounded angry. ‘Every single one of them went home healthier than when they arrived.’

‘Including Joy Summers?’

‘Joy’s death was nothing to do with the treatment.’

‘How can you be so sure?’

‘Because I’m a fucking doctor.’ Dr Ahumibe buried his face in his hands as if he couldn’t bear her to see his expression. His breath juddered. After a moment he whispered, ‘The treatment may not have had the results we initially calculated, but it did no harm and it was on the cusp of doing a lot of good.’ He dragged his hands down his face. His cheeks stretched beneath the pressure and Stevie saw the red of his lower eyelids, the bags beneath, formed from a weight of sleepless nights. Dr Ahumibe splayed his fingers against the surface of the desk and stared at them. ‘The basic premise was sound but Buchanan needed to refine the drug. He was worried that if we suddenly withdrew, our sponsors would lose confidence. We had put everything we possessed, including our reputations, into Fibrosyop. We couldn’t afford to suspend the company.’

‘So you decided to subject already sick children to operations that you knew would be ineffectual, in order to protect your reputations.’

‘We operated on a very small number of children compared to the potential good we would be able to do in the future.’ He turned to face her. ‘In the very near future. It was only a matter of time before Xander found the correct formula.’

‘You were experimenting on children.’

‘You make us sound like Josef Mengele. It wasn’t easy, but in the end we acted for the greater good.’

His tears were gone. In their place was the closed face of a disgraced MP, ready to fight his corner.

‘Where did Simon fit into all of this?’

Pain puckered Dr Ahumibe’s brow, but he managed to inject some malice into his voice.

‘Simon had a hot date and didn’t turn up for the meeting, so we made the decision to continue without him. When he eventually checked in, a day or so later, I told him there was nothing to worry about. It was what Simon wanted to hear.’ Dr Ahumibe bent forward, clenched by some kind of spasm. The howl sounded again somewhere in the hospital, this time shadowed by a chorus of crazy laughter. ‘No one murdered Simon. I would have laid down my life for him. Both of us would.’ A crash of overturning furniture shook the floor. He said, ‘Aren’t you scared?’

‘Terrified, but I can’t afford to give in to it. Not if I’m going to survive.’ Stevie fingered the handle of the gun. ‘You keep telling me that the three of you were best buddies, but Simon’s note insisted the laptop went to Reah and no one else. He was adamant I wasn’t to trust you or Buchanan.’

‘All Simon was worried about was covering his own back. Xander and I took the strain for months before Simon noticed. He should have got down on his knees and thanked us for bearing his share of the pressure. Instead he threatened to go to the authorities or the press.’

‘And so you killed him.’

‘I never killed anyone, until today.’ Dr Ahumibe took another sip of the water on his desk and then held a hand out towards her. ‘I need the tablets.’ Stevie ignored his outstretched palm and after a moment he said, ‘Buchanan would have brought Simon round eventually. Si was the squeaky wheel, the one that demanded the most attention, but Buchanan always persuaded him in the end.’

‘What if he couldn’t, this time?’

Dr Ahumibe took a handkerchief from his pocket. He splashed some of the water from the bottle on it and then held the handkerchief to his forehead.

‘It was the only way.’ He doubled over and retched into the wastepaper basket. ‘Simon would have recognised that, eventually.’

Stevie looked away, trying not to gag. Ahumibe said, ‘Give me the tablets.’

‘I will. I promise you.’ She paused to let him recover and then asked, ‘What happened to Geoffrey Frei?’

The doctor retched again. He looked up, his face puddle-grey, and whispered, ‘You’re torturing me.’

‘Your treatment cut sick children open and pumped them full of a useless drug. That was torture.’

Ahumibe was slumped forward in his chair now. He whispered, ‘People like you see the world in one dimension. Things are either good or bad, no muddied waters. If it were up to you, there’d be no progress.’ The doctor wiped his mouth with his damp hanky. ‘I don’t know what happened to Frei. He was mugged. Or perhaps it was a pickup gone wrong. Geoff loved his wife, but he needed other forms of release. He knew cruising was risky. He would give up for a while, but sooner or later old habits always reasserted themselves.’

‘He was investigating you.’

‘So what?’

‘You don’t think it’s a coincidence? Frei and Simon were both in a position to expose you and Buchanan and they both died under suspicious circumstances. Hope Black is dead too. I found her lying on the floor of Simon’s apartment. Her head had been smashed in.’

‘The whole world is dying. Everyone except for you.’ Dr Ahumibe leant over and retched into the wastepaper basket again. The sounds he made were dry and painful and Stevie felt her own stomach clenching in response. When the doctor looked up there was spittle on his chin. He wiped it on the sleeve of his shirt. ‘Xander was devastated by Simon’s death. He came to the hospital to break the news to me. At first he was too upset to speak. We’ve known each other most of our lives but I’d never seen him like that. I thought perhaps something had happened to William, his son. Later, after he’d broken the news, Xander told me that when he saw Simon curled up dead in his bed, it was like seeing him again as a boy, back when we shared a dorm at school. The image haunted him.’

Stevie leant forward.

‘Buchanan said he saw Simon dead in his own bed? Are you sure he wasn’t referring to when he saw him at the morgue?’

‘No, it was before Simon was brought to the morgue. Xander told me there was a picture of the three of us, taken when we were students, hanging on the wall of Simon’s bedroom. He found it deeply moving. We were as close as family.’

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