A Necessary Deception (12 page)

Unless she felt inclined to strangle him.

No, she would at least hear him out, then hear Barnaby out, and compare.

As quietly as she could manage, she slipped down the back stairs and stepped into the kitchen. It lay in darkness save for glowing embers on the hearth. She coaxed them into a blaze, added more coals, and swung the huge water pot over the flames. While the water heated, she prepared a tray of teapot, cups, and slices of bread and butter. More she dared not take.

She was just pouring steaming water over the leaves in the pot when she heard a footfall on the steps. With a sigh, she glanced up to see Barbara enter the kitchen.

“What are you doing here?” they asked simultaneously.

“I often make myself tea this early,” Barbara answered first. “You should have called someone to get it for you.”

“I’ve been making my own tea in the morning for seven years. Why should I do differently now?”

“Because the cook will be greatly offended. Let me help.” Barbara reached for the tray and stopped, staring. “You have two cups here.”

“I’m taking tea to our guest.”

“Alone?” Barbara’s eyes widened. “It’s improper. It’s bad enough that sister of yours acts like a tart—”

“Barbara.”

“Well, truly, Lydia, I saw her come upstairs. Her gown was all askew.”

“Yes, but that makes her an unwise young person with strong feelings for her fiancé, not a tart.”

“Perhaps, but I won’t have the servants talking about you too. I’ll come in with you.”

“You don’t like him.”

“He’s not so bad, and he’s a gentleman.” Barbara took the tray from Lydia.

“We’ll be talking in French.” It was the best solution she could find.

“It’s not what you say that matters.” Barbara preceded Lydia up the steps.

Lydia tapped on the door.

“
Entrez.
” The rich, dark voice rang strong and clear through the panels.

A frisson of awareness raced up Lydia’s spine. She rubbed her arms, feeling gooseflesh beneath her thin sleeves, and glanced at Barbara. “Yes, stay if you like.”

Then she opened the door to Christien and the truth he promised to tell her.

Christien heard Lydia coming long before she reached his room. China rattled, floorboards creaked, her voice flowed like hot chocolate along the corridor and beneath his door. Then she pushed the door open and glided in with all grace and elegance in a cream-colored gown and scarlet ribbons.

She didn’t smile at him. Indeed, her mouth appeared tight, with a muscle bunched at the side of her jaw. She kept her lashes over her eyes, concealing the expression in the velvet-brown depths.

Her companion proved a different specimen. Blonde hair frizzing around her pale face, she shot a glance at him that held pure venom, antagonism beyond the usual for even an Englishman to demonstrate toward a Frenchman.

“I don’t approve of my lady taking breakfast with you in your chamber,” Barbara announced. “But she has a mind of her own. It doesn’t bode well for her following the Lord’s will, but that’s between her and God.”

“Indeed it is.” Lydia shot her companion a frosty glare. “Monsieur de Meuse wishes to speak with me, and his injury precludes him from leaving his room.”

It might have been his imagination, but Christien thought her eyes rolled upward, in the direction of her room. His injury hadn’t prevented him from climbing the steps to spy.

To spy. He’d confessed to being a spy, and she all but ignored it. Almost as though she would believe nothing he told her, so he might as well talk if it made him feel better. As long as the blackmailing Mr. Lang’s threats kept her working with Christien, things might work out. How much better if . . .

He drew the dressing gown more tightly around him. “You ladies are very kind.”

“It’s our Christian duty.” The companion snatched the tray from Lydia and all but slammed it onto a low table. “Sit down, Lydia. I’ll serve you.”

“You needn’t—” Lydia stopped, glanced around, and drew a chair closer to the one Christien had pulled as near to the hearth as he dared.

April or not, spring in England forever chilled him.

“Unless you wish Miss Bainbridge to hear what you have to say,” Lydia said, “I recommend we talk in French.”

“Of course.” Christien glanced at the sour-faced spinster, and his heart pinched.

Her dislike of him should have curdled the milk in its Wedgwood pitcher. Yet she served with care, not spilling a drop of the tea or skimping on the butter for the bread. She might scowl at him, but she looked at Lydia with kindness and concern.

No doubt the basis for her animosity toward him. He was the enemy to Miss Barbara Bainbridge, apparently some poor relation to the family. She wouldn’t know how much of an enemy Lydia thought him. He was simply French by birth, by the first ten years of his life spent in that country, by the part of him that longed to return to the verdant countryside and strong coffee for
le petit déjouner
instead of the endless English tea. The way Miss Bainbridge stood as far away from him as possible while still handing him his cup demonstrated her unwillingness to come near him. Yet she was near him, helping Lydia because it was the right thing to do.

He smiled at her. “Would you prefer we wait a day or two for this talk?
Peut-être
wait until I am whole enough to go down to a parlor or, better yet, my own home so you don’t have to stay here?”

“I would stay by Lady Gale regardless of your location.” Barbara took a cup of tea for herself and withdrew to the furthest seat in the room—the stool in front of the dressing table.

“It’s all right.” Lydia smiled, though it didn’t reach her eyes. She switched to French. “I warned her ahead of time we would speak in French for your sake.”

“I expect she thinks I’m too barbaric to speak King’s English for more than a sentence or two.”

“Something like that.” Lydia’s smile relaxed, and the corners of her eyes creased the tiniest bit.

“Would it help if she knew I attended Cambridge for three years?”

“Not particularly. Cambridge, you may remember, didn’t support the king in the Civil War.”

“You’re jesting,
non
?”

Lydia shook her head. “Barbara is still uncertain of the Regency we have right now. To her, taking power from the king is akin to . . . cutting off his head.”

Christien glanced at Barbara. Her face was set in such stony lines he wondered how she could open her mouth to drink her tea.

“My family came close to joining Louis,
vous comprenez
?” he reminded her.

“Indeed. And yet your father was a revolutionary from the American rebellion.” Lydia gave him a sidelong glance.

“The American rebellion was nothing like what happened in France. If war can be polite, it was in comparison.” Christien gazed into the now tepid brown liquid in his cup. “Papa loved adventure, and a war in the wilderness of the New World seemed exciting to him. He would have approved of me, if things had gone differently in eighteen three.”

“In 1803?” Lydia straightened in her chair. “What happened then?”

“You British canceled the Treaty of Amiens. The little peace with Napoleon ended, and my father was caught inside France where he was suddenly no longer welcome.” The sludge in his cup sloshed dangerously close to the rim, and he set the cup on the table. “He never reached home. Napoleon’s men captured him and killed him. They said he was a spy, was an enemy to France. But he was simply there to see his lands, to see if he could salvage something . . .” He raised his head and looked into her big, dark eyes. Though his own eyes felt hot with the tears of grief, he knew better than to shed them. “That is why I am not working for Napoleon. His men killed my father.”

She gazed right back at him without a flicker of emotion. “It is also why you could be working for Napoleon—because if England had not canceled the peace, none of that would have happened.”

“Ah, my lady, it would have. We begged Papa not to go.” From the corner of his eye, he caught movement from the companion and glanced her way. She smoothed out her features, but not before he caught her sneer.

So she disliked emotion.

Or she understood every word after all and thought him a liar?

His mouth tightened. “This is part of my story for you, my lady. At least hear me out before you say I don’t speak the truth.”

“Of course. I am sorry. You can understand my position, can you not?” For an instant, grief contorted Lydia’s features.

Christien remained still. More than still. He clamped his good hand onto the arm of the chair to stop himself from going to her, drawing her to him. She shouldn’t suffer because of the games despots played. Like his father, she was caught in the middle because she wanted to help her family, because she wanted to help him and repay an old debt.

Before this moment, he had admired her, cherished her, experienced some thoughts about her that perhaps a Christian man should not. Right then, with a yard of space and two cups of dreadful English tea between them, he accepted that he loved her, had probably loved her the moment she handed him her bracelet.

His heart expanded so that his chest could scarcely contain it, and it threatened to rip wide open and expose every feeling spilling through his lifeblood and yearning toward her.

Je t’aime. Je t’aime. Je t’aime.

I love you. I love you. I love you.

His heart pushed the words upward, choking his throat.

“My lady—” He swallowed, shook his head to send the foolishness away from his mind, if not his heart.

The love wouldn’t leave his heart.

He swallowed again, tried to speak again. “Since my father died, weeks before I reached my majority, I have dedicated my life to bringing Napoleon to his end.” Conviction rang in his tone. He couldn’t have asked for better.

He could have asked for more reaction from Lydia. She sat so still with her English reserve that he almost believed she hadn’t heard him. Likewise, her companion didn’t move. She seemed to be examining her fingernails, clean but bitten to the quick.

Resisting the urge to squirm like a schoolboy instructed to explain toads in the schoolmaster’s bed, Christien continued. “For nearly ten years, I have worked for your government inside Napoleon’s Army. I have posed as an émigré who wishes to serve the emperor to gain favor and have my family lands restored.”

“And they believe you?” Lydia’s nose pinched as though she smelled something distasteful.

“The British government gives me bits of information to feed the French.” He sighed. “Gave me. The English won’t let me go back. I have been discovered, I think. But I get ahead of myself.”

And behind in time. The house was stirring. Maids trotted up steps with water jugs sloshing and coal scuttles rattling.

Without time to coat the truth in subterfuge, he blurted out, “Your husband, my lady, was my spy master.”

She jumped. “Charles?” Her hand flew to her mouth, and her face paled.

The companion sprang to her feet so fast she knocked over the stool. “What is it?” she demanded in English. “Is he maligning your sainted husband?”

“If Charles was sainted,” Lydia muttered, “then there is no hope for Christendom.”

“Lydia.” The companion’s jaw dropped.

“Sit down, Barbara, please.” Lydia clasped her hands in her lap, though they continued to tremble. “Monsieur de Meuse has succeeded in gaining my attention.”

“
Tres bien.
” Christien gave her a wry smile. “Very good indeed. Shall I continue?”

She nodded.

If he were closer, he would have taken her hands in his, warmed them, calmed them. He was not near enough, and the pain in his shoulder prevented him from moving. He settled for catching and holding her gaze. “Charles ended up left behind in Spain because he had paused to get a message to me. It was all chaos with the horses left on the beach and trying to swim out to their masters on the ships, and baggage left behind. Our men were looting and gleeful, and no one noticed me finding the chevalier and getting him to my quarters. We were able to talk before he succumbed to his wounds and before anyone would disrupt us. He gave me the names of other men. One was a Monsieur Lang—please, hear me out.”

Lydia inclined her head. The errant curl bobbed against her cheek, a distraction. A temptation.

Christien heaved a silent sigh of relief and tried to proceed as quickly as he could, for now he heard one of the sisters talking in the corridor, the pretty blonde saying she intended to ride.

Lydia sprang to her feet. “Barbara, stop her. She can’t go riding this early without someone going with her.”

“I can’t leave you here alone with a . . . gentleman.” Barbara remained put.

“Monsieur de Meuse is a gentleman, whatever else we think of him. My virtue is safe, and so is my reputation if you don’t go telling everyone I’m here.” Lydia glanced toward the door, outside which Miss Honore now spoke in her trilling songbird of a voice.

“Mr. Frobisher is bringing the horses around from the mews in five minutes. I positively must be ready.”

“Now, Barbara.” Lydia’s expression was fierce.

Mouth shut as tight as a miser’s purse, Barbara rose and stalked to the door. She slammed it behind her.

“Why does she dislike me so?” Christien reverted back to English.

“It’s not you personally.” Lydia returned to her chair. “It’s the French. She lost her fiancé in the early days of the war.”

“I am sorry for her then. We’ve all lost too much in this war. And now we’ve this trouble with America too. More wars. More death. I’ve been trying for ten years to see it end.” He fixed his gaze on her face, drawing her attention. “With England the victor. Without that, Napoleon will conquer the world, and we do not want his regime here.”

“So you have worked to stop it. How then did our government let you get into our prison?” The question held curiosity, interest, not a sneer or speculation.

Christien relaxed for the first time since the night before. Even the pain in his shoulder diminished to a dull throb. “I was a French Army officer. Quite simply, I was on my way from Marseilles to Cadiz, as I’d been on leave, and my ship was taken by the British Navy. I couldn’t divulge who I was without giving myself away to my fellow officers and risking the British not believing me at the same time, so I had to go to prison and trust that you would help, as Charles said you would. I did not have as great a faith in you as he did upon his deathbed, but he said something about favors you owed.”

“Did he?” Her face contorted. Her eyes glistened.

“Does this distress you, my dear—my lady?”

“It doesn’t matter. Continue.” She nearly barked out the words. “You contacted me. With the intention of blackmailing me into getting you into Society?”

“No, I had nothing to do with blackmail. My Mr. Lang had nothing to do with blackmail. I fully intended to go to your house in Tavistock and await orders. But while on my way there, the guard slipped me a message that said I was in danger and must vanish, must get out of Devonshire immediately. He helped me escape, so I went to Falmouth and sold the bracelet for passage to somewhere. I planned to go to Guernsey.”

“So how did you end up in—Exeter, was it?” She tilted her head to one side, a little smile on her lips.

“Hastings, my lady.” He smiled back. “Lang. He caught up with me there, in truth. He took me to Hastings because he said no one would look for me there. I have been there for a month at his home, eating well and resting. He has been with me, telling me of what he thinks may happen here in England, and we have been planning what to do.”

She sat up straighter. “Happening here in England?”

“
Oui.
Unrest is here with the length of the war and the losses, the trouble with America, and the machines in the north. We think Napoleon has sent men to foment more trouble, incite riots and revolution here.”

“No.”

“Yes.” He leaned forward, reaching out, but not quite able to touch her. “The countryside is ripe for revolutionaries to harvest. People are hungry and tired of losing their loved ones to war. The king has failed them in his madness, and the prince regent is a man led more by pleasure than—”

“Hush, you speak sedition.” Her face whitened, her knuckles whitened.