Accidentally Perfect (34 page)

Turning, I see her standing near the entryway.  “What are you doing here?”

“I’m with your father.  He went around back.”
      
“Why is he even here?  This day has nothing to do with him.”

“Well, I suggest you speak to your mother-in-law about that.  Once you and she left, Vivian
cozied
up to your father instantly.  She told him about the party.  But it seems that she must have got the time wrong because it seems to have been going on for a while now.”

“No, she didn’t get anything wrong.  I only invited her for the last part of the party.”

“Oh, I see. 
Already trying to freeze her out like you do your father.”

“What the hell do you want Diane?  I’m in the middle of something.”

“I want to know why?  Why
is she good enough and I never was?”

“Fuck Diane, you know why.  You were, and apparently still are sleeping with my father.  Why would you ever think I would be alright with everything?”

“This was never about your father.  It has always been about you and me and the fact that I was never good enough for you.  Is it because my family doesn’t have billions in the bank?  Does money mean that much to you?”

“Fuck no, and if you ever knew me, then you wouldn’t be asking that question.  Your family name and what they may or may not
have has nothing to do with the fact that I’ve never had any type of feelings when it came to you.”

“I don’t believe that.  Not for one minute.”

“Well then, you are delusional Diane. You were a fuck;
that’s it. 
Someone who was there when I wanted to get off, blow a load, get my fucking rocks off. To have my dick sucked and feel like I didn’t have to return the favor.
  That’s it.  It didn’t hurt that you looked good on my arm when I needed to show my face in public.  You’ve always been a means to an end for me.  That is it.”  I know
I’m being
a complete ass, but I’m not sure how else to get through to her.  How much more can one person take because they can’t understand that they are not wanted, let alone loved in any
capacity?
  I see her eyes flick over my shoulder.

“I was pregnant Nathan.” 

I hear a gasp come from behind me.  I knew it was Laney before I even turned around.  Once I did, the look on her face was one of hurt and confusion.  Her eyes were instantly filled with tears.  Once she looked at me, she saw the truth in my eyes.  Realization quickly
settles
over her face. Laney knows I would never keep anything like this from her.  She knows how important being open and honest is to me.  If I wasn’t either of those things, then I would be just like my father.   She gave me a slight nod
of
understanding.  “You knew
Nathan; you knew,
and you did nothing.”  Diane’s voice breaks the connection between Laney and
me.

I turn back around to face her, “Diane stop it.”  I hear Laney take a few steps closer to me.

“I will not stop it,
Nathan.  How do you expect me to act when you can so easily discard me and your child like I was yesterday’s trash.”

“You really need to be on Broadway
because your acting skills are impeccable Diane, seriously.  I should actually applaud you for your performance.”

“I have no idea what you’re talking about, Nathan.”

“Jesus, first of all, there was no child Diane.  Do you think I am that stupid?  Do you

think I would ever allow my dick anywhere near you're
worn out, infested twat that you call a vagina without protection?  Do you?”

“Condoms are ever one hundred percent, Nathan.  I lost our baby.  Can you be that cruel to not even acknowledge it?  You were going to be a father, Nathan.  You were going to have a
child, and you never gave me or our baby a chance.”

“You were. Not. Pregnant.
  I own a fucking security
company,
Diane.  I spent several years in the military.  I am a pro at recon.  Do you actually think you could slip a fake pregnancy
by me? If you were really that smart, then you would have gotten knocked up by my father and tried to pass it off as mine.”

“There was no need to fake anything Nathan because I am not lying.  I don’t care if you believe me or not.  I know what was
true,
and I know the loss I felt when I lost our child.  I had to deal with it all alone because you were gone, hooking up with who
mever, and fucking her.”

“For Christ sakes Diane.
  We have been over for months. 
Months.
  I haven’t touched you in I don’t know how long and you are still trying to play this card?  I figured you out Diane, months ago when you and my father were trying to pull one over on me and take the company my mother wanted me to have.  I outed you, I humiliated
you,
and you are still trying to play the “poor me” card, and “Nathan is such a bastard”.  How much longer are you going to hold on to things that were never there?”

“I really don’t know what planet you’re living on, Diane.”  I hear Laney’s voice from behind me.

“This doesn’t concern
you
.  Once he’s done with you, once he’s tired playing daddy to someone else’s kids, he’ll be back in my bed.”

“Oh,
I highly doubt that, seeing Nathan is going to be a father to his own child in about eight months.” 

I turn to Laney.  The look on her face is one of fear.  She bites her lip when her nerves get the best of her from my lack of response.  “I’m going to be a father?”  She nods her head.

“I don’t fucking believe it.  You have got to be kidding me.” The sound of Diane’s voice grates
on
my nerves.  I do not need to hear her voice at this moment in time. 

“I don’t give a shit what you believe.  You mean nothing to me or my husband.  You are a pathetic excuse for a woman Diane.  You’re so fucked up in the head you actually think with Nathan treating you the way he does, you still have a chance with him, with my husband.”

“Laney, my God, what is going on in here? We can hear yelling from the patio.  People are going to talk if you keep this up.”  I turn around and see Vivian standing in the center of the crowd made up of my father, Natalie, Brad Stella and Troy.

“We’ll be right out.  I was just coming in to get Nathan.  It seems that he was being held up by an unwanted distraction.”

“Joseph, she actually thinks she’s
pregnant.  She actually thinks she
’s
going to have Nathan’s child, and that he would actually want it.  Can you believe that?”  I looked at my
father, and his lips were pressed in a hard, thin line.

“It’s true.  I examined her myself.  Laney is caring Nathan’s baby.”  Stella spoke up. 

“Laney, what is she talking about?  She can’t be serious.”  Vivian looks like she might pass out.

“Yes, it’s true mother.  I’m going to have a baby.”

“Why would you allow this to happen?  You are barely married.  Have you not learned anything from your
past?
  I did not raise you to make such colossal mistakes.”

“Vivian, this is none of your concern.  We don’t need your input or your nasty remarks.  My wife is going to have my baby.”  I look into Laney’s
eyes;
fear so strong resides in the pools of liquid chocolate.  

“Alright, let’s everyone come outside.  Diane, you need to take a hike and leave my house, now.  You are not wanted.  You are not family, nor will you ever be.  Father, I don’t want to hear any objections.  This is not about you or
her; it’s about two five-year-olds
out there who want to open their gifts.  If you have a problem with
that, then you can follow that piece of trash out of my house and never look back.”

I watch as Natalie gets everyone out of the house.  The reality of the situation hits me full
force,
and I drop to my knees in front of my wife and my unborn child.  

Nathan is on his knees with his arms wrapped around my waist;
face firmly pressed into my stomach. I feel him begin to shake, probably as the realization that he may be bound to me forever takes hold. I look down upon my husband, “I’m so sorry Nathan.  I’m sorry this is happening. I’m sorry if this isn’t something you wanted. I’m so stupid to allow this to happen.” I choke back my emotions along with the fear of rejection. I felt so strongly that we had something special. I felt that his love for me was so strong that time didn’t
matter,
but I may have been wrong. Just like the times before, I may have read him completely wrong. “I can fix this.  It’s still
early; I can make this go away. Just please Nathan, please tell me what you want from me?”

He looks up at me;
his normally honey eyes are now a deep amber.  His face is damp and
tear-stained. I run my finger through his hair. “Please, Nathan.” The fear that I’ve made a mistake is substantial.

“Are you really pregnant?”  My words failed
me;
I only have enough strength to nod my head. 
“How far along?”

I drop down to my knees facing Nathan, “Stella has determined I’m only a few weeks. 
Very early stages.
Possibly the first time we slept together, but I’m not certain. I’m sorry it came out that way. I’ve wanted to tell you, but I just didn’t know how.”  

“What do you mean you didn’t know how?”

“I wasn’t sure how you would react.  Everything with us has happened so
fast,
and you have been so wonderful and accepting of everything when it comes to me and my life.  I’m not sure how much you can take and what will push you over the edge.”

“You thought a baby would push me over the edge?”

“Yes.”  I close my eyes as the tears roll down my cheeks.

“Do you believe me when I tell you that I love you, Laney?” I open my eyes to look at him. “Can you say with one hundred percent certainty that I am completely in love with you? 
Without hesitation, without questions or second guessing?”

I look deep into Nathan’s eyes as he stares back at me. His eyes flick from side to side taking in my face. “Yes, I do.”

“You do?” I nod, “Then you know without a doubt that I am in this with you. I am committed to you, and the girls and here for you no matter what may come our way.”

“This wasn’t planned Nathan. This is so fast, it’s so, so fast, too fast. Don’t you think?”

“No.” His response was straightforward, without hesitation.

“No?  Do
you have any idea what the press is going to say about this? Look at my mother and her reactions. She’s just one person. Look how Diane didn’t even believe me.”

“Fuck em
, Laney Bear, fuck them all to hell.  Do they matter?  Do any of them matter?”

“No.”

“No, you’re right. They don’t. You and I are a team and the girls make us a family. This baby and any other baby we may have in the future is our family. We are the only ones that matter.” 

“So you’re okay with it? You’re okay with the baby and the crying, the dirty diapers and the sleepless nights?”

“Sleepless nights? Wait a minute. That
may be a deal breaker. I need my beauty sleep you know.  I’m not getting any younger.”

“Seriously?”

“Yes, I’m serious. How about I take the day shift, and you can take the night shift.”

“No.”

“Okay, I guess I’m okay with the sleepless nights then.”  He gives me a big smile.

“So we’re gonna have a baby.”

Nathan wraps his arms around my waist, lowering me down to the ground. His smile is still evident as he moves down my body stopping at my stomach. “We are having a baby.” He says as he stares at my stomach. His lips press firmly into my abdomen. “I’m gonna be a daddy, I mean, I’m already a dad, but I’m going to be a daddy.”  He looks up
from my stomach, “Thank you, baby, thank you.”