Authors: Merrie Destefano
Russell:
The orange light faded. In its place, dark water rolled over the horizon, poured into my lungs, black and brackish, pulling me down in a fierce undertow. A subsurface river crashed me against the rocks, thrashed me along the spiny ocean bottom until my chest ached. I fell limp and weary, wondered if in some other world I was still alive, still struggling to breathe.
Pain shot through my chest, white-hot fire and smoke. I arched my back; like a fish I flew out of the water, gasped a mouthful of air, then submerged again. Another shock wave jolted through my torso, my eyes flew open and I had a vision of the world the way it was before.
Isabelle laughing, hair in silken ringlets.
Marguerite dancing, red dress and silver earrings.
Dark water and a funeral barge, fire burning at the edges, me floating down the River Styx. I was breathing now, I think, but I was alone between worlds, heading for Hades.
Water lapping the sides of the boat, so close to immortality, if I could dip my hand over the side I would live foreverâ
Immortality. The dream that never belonged to me.
Voices. A multitude of whispering voices called me from rocky shores. Chaz. My mother. My father. They had questions for me and I tried to call back, but my throat was raw from that black, burning water. Still, my mouth moved and words came out, the dead speaking to the living, a séance that linked me one last time with the world of light.
All the while, the River Styx patiently lapped at the edge of my boat. Waiting for me to die.
If only I could dip my hand in the water.
Chaz:
The hospital lights were turned down low and everyone spoke in hushed tones, as if that would make everything easier, like it could somehow soften the blow to the gut that was on its way.
He was dying. My brother was dying and I had to talk to him. Even if he didn't answer me. I asked Mom to give us a few minutes alone. She floated into the hallway, took holo Dad on some sort of glowing leash. I closed my eyes when he drifted past. Still can't bear to get too close to that thing.
We were alone now. Russ and I. He was breathing, ragged and rough. The doctor said he'd had some sort of allergic reaction to the dart. It wasn't a strong poison, but for some reason, maybe because of his weakened state from the spikesâ¦there was no definitive answer for what was happening to him, but he probably wouldn't make it through the night.
He would never see his daughter again. Even if we could find Isabelle, right now, he wouldn't see her.
“Russ, it's Chaz.”
His body lay still, arms tucked close to his sides. His eyes blinked open as he struggled against the darkness that surrounded him. “Isabelle,” he whispered. Then a long minute later, “My baby girlâ”
I held his hand. He was looking at me now, one of those brief coherent moments before the curtain comes crashing down and the lights go out. I could barely hear his words, so I moved closer, caught him in mid-sentence.
“âthat monster took her,” he murmured, “I couldn't move, I couldn't stop himâ”
“Who was it, Russ? Tell me who took Isabelleâ”
“âdidn't you smell him that night?” He struggled to grab my shirt and pull me closer. “Didn't you smell him when everybody was chantin' and throwin' rocks? I can smell him, all the timeâ”
Rocks. Chanting. A stench wrapped around my intestines, soaked through my lungs. I could taste it in the back of my throat, heavy and sweet, like swallowing a mouthful of rotting honeysuckle. The night Dad was murdered. The nightmares. Somebody laughing in the darkness.
“Russ, are you saying that the guy who took Isabelle was there when Dad died?”
“âhe's gonna put her on the flyin' horsesâ”
“Who? Tell me his nameâ”
He stared at me, as if he saw some dark terror in the distance, something approaching faster than he expected. He took one last jealous breath, then exhaled, long and slow. He fell still, all the answers I needed still locked inside.
There was a moment when all the lights in the room seemed to dim, when the darkness came on leather wings. It sat beside me, nameless and faceless, a beast all claws and teeth. I recognized the presence. Remembered a time when we met before.
Right now, more than anything I needed closure. And accountability.
“I'll get her back, Russ,” I said, my words catching in my throat. I had to pause, had to ignore the gen-spike stench and the black slithering shadows. “No matter what it takes, I promise, I'll get Isabelle back.”
October 14 ⢠4:59
A.M
.
Chaz:
Midnight poured down into my gut, cold and stark. The monster that took Isabelle hadn't contacted us yet. I had a team of people searching the Grid for any clues. I hated to admit it, but my niece would probably turn up in the Underground Circus. I had to have people in place, watching for her.
All of them would be watching for a five-year-old, almost six-year-old, girl who would be sold in a few hours to the highest bidder.
Right now Angelique and Pete were sleeping off the venom that some punk had shot into their veins. In the morning, they'd help put together the disjointed pieces of this puzzle. Somehow they'd each played a part in this and it was time for them to confess.
Whether they wanted to or not.
But I didn't know if I would survive that long. Isabelle was out there somewhere, scared and alone. Waiting for someone to rescue her.
I stood on a wrought-iron balcony, overlooking the French
Quarter. The day had been sliced neatly in half, divided down the middle into dark and light and I was poised on the edge of both, wondering what would happen next. I felt like I had been in this position all of my life. Waiting for a bolt of lightning to shoot down from heaven. Hoping that someone would expose the evil that had taken up residence all around me.
It was finally time for me to make a decisionâto fight, to die if I had to, risk everything to stop this madness. I didn't even know what the kidnappers wanted or who they were.
But I knew what I wanted. I could feel it boiling in my blood like a virus.
Revenge.
I wanted to see some monster's head on a pike, hear the beast drowning in the moat just outside the castle walls, and then bring the princess home, safe.
When had I turned into a warrior with barbed-wire flesh? I never asked to play this part. This was my Gethsemane, my rocky garden crucible. And I could tell a sacrifice was coming.
It was an hour before dawn.
Below me the streets flowed heavy with fog, a river of hazy gauze, a mist that stalked the city every night on panther paws. A cotton-like silence filled the sky. It ate sounds and spit them back out, half-born. Streetlights curved overhead; they winked and then went off. Suddenly the whole world narrowed down to the single street, covered with cobblestones and lined with double gallery houses, stunningly beautiful in their decay.
A phantom light danced through the mists. A precursor to the sun.
The City That Care Forgot began to reveal itself when a man on the street started to play a trumpet, the soft, haunting melody stirring ghosts from the mists. Shrouds and
skeleton-like creatures emerged from the vaporous mists; they danced and swayed. People dressed for Carnival, high on life, high on black-market alcohol, high on whatever illegal drug they could afford. Like sinuous snakes they followed the music, hips swinging, arms lifted high in mock worship.
I watched as they shifted through white shadows, until finally they disappeared through a doorway.
And then I was alone.
Is this what purgatory used to be like, back before God emptied it of the dead, before there were no more souls left? No one prayed for the dead anymore. The Pope forbade it twenty years ago.
Pray for the living, that was what he said we should do.
But nobody listened. Instead we all forgot how to pray.
I fell to my knees then as the damp, dark fog swirled around me; I lifted my hands to the heavens that I could no longer see.
In the dark night of the soul, faith feels as dry and brittle as autumn leaves.
Spare Isabelle
, I prayed.
Please
.
If there must be a sacrifice here, then let it be mine.
This time, let it be mine.
Neville:
My boss stood bathed in his own circle of light in the center of the room. As always, he wore one of those vintage virtual reality suits, the kind that masks your face and garbles your voice. A couple of gutter punks lay on the floor, feet twitching like they were having puppy dreams. The room was littered with empty bottles that once had held a homemade concoction of bliss and jive-sweet and black-market rum. Strips of century-old wallpaper sagged in the corners of the room, revealing water-stained battle wounds from a war this shotgun cottage fought and lost, long ago.
I waited for the argument I knew was coming. I didn't have to wait long.
“This isn't going to work,” my boss said.
I grinned. “Trusts me,” I said. “This here will works just fine. All pretty-pretty, likes I told ya.”
“No, it won't, you idiot. Russell Domingue is dead! I told you not to kill anybodyâ”
“I didn't kills nobody, that Domingue was pumped up with spikesâ”
“Then how are you going to get the serum now?”
“I works magic, I always does. I gots voodoo in my bloodâ”
“You're high.” The VR image fluttered and sizzled, transmission fuzzy.
“Still, I knows what to do.”
“What? Tell me, how are you going to fix this mess?”
I picked up a tray filled with jars of cosmetics: powder, rouge, lipstick. I balanced it in one hand and gestured with the other. “I's gonna paints the little girl. Just like I plans all along. Gets her ready for the flyin' horses.”
“But her father's dead and he's the one who knew where theâ”
“The uncle's the one we wants now. Him and his Newbie. They'll gets us the stuff.”
“How can you be so sure you can manipulate the uncle as easily as the father?”
I set down the tray, then flicked on a VR screen on the far wall. “Remember them surveillance tapes from the night we breaks into their house? Just watch and you'll sees.”
Like a vintage film noir, a gritty sequence of images flashed across the screen. It was a copy of a copy and all the color had been washed out. Black-and-white digital photography had been shot in the little girl's bedroom, the sound muffled. According to the digital clock readout in the lower right corner, it started when three people walked into the bedroom at 5:56
P.M
. Isabelle, Chaz, and the Newbie. The Newbie sat in a corner, silent, looking almost like a mannequin. Chaz played with his niece, talked to her, helped her decide what to wear.
I glanced at my boss. He wasn't convinced. Yet.
The video jumped ahead to 7:08
P.M.
A blinding flash washed out the screen and erased everything. The liquid light. The tape had been tampered with, a scene removedâ
the scene that showed me breaking through the window, tossing in a ball that rolled across the floor, then ignited. The light faded.
The room was now filled with blackened bodies, all children.
My boss looked away for a moment.
I's not afraids to look. I's never afraids of what comes next. I stands with open eyes and I waits, always I waits for what needs to happenâ¦
“Watch it!” I commanded.
He turned back, VR head facing the screen.
Chaz was in the room now, frantic. Looking for something, weaving his way through the puzzle of dead children. Then he turned toward the bathroom door. “Isabelle!” he cried, his voice echoing on the recording, “Isabelle, are you in there?”
“Uncle Chazâ” The little girl's voice was almost lost beneath the roar of the crackling fire.
“Watch his face,” I said.
The video skipped again. To the part where the broken door was peeled away. Russell and Chaz glanced at each other for a brief moment.
Here the video had been enhanced to show a close-up.
Something blazed in Chaz's eyes, settled on his brow, almost as if he thought about pushing his brother aside, going in and rescuing the little girl himself. Then Russell shouldered his way through the door and picked the child up, carried her out to safety.
I paused the video.
And there, frozen on the screen, was a close-up of Chaz's face. He could no longer hold it in, tears spilled down his cheeks, revealing the secret he had tried for years to conceal.
“Do ya sees it?” I asked.
My boss nodded.
“Then tells me, what does ya see?”
“The uncle, Chaz, he⦔ He paused for a moment, stared into the black-and-white face as if he recognized the emotion, as if he could relate to the hidden longing. “He wishes that the little girl was his.”
“Exactly.”
I is the silver wind that rushes through the night trees, the invisible river that changes the course of life and death. I is the bright star that burns forever.
I is the one that brings immortality to the gutter.
Where it belongs.
Angelique:
The dart shot poison through my system. My flesh burned. A virus rushed through my veins, my blood turned into blistering, smoldering magma. I felt like I would melt, my skin was wax and it was peeling off my bones in layers. I fell on the floor of the elevator and I was on fire.
I lost consciousness.
I woke up for a brief moment. Chaz was holding me. I felt safe then. For one instant, I felt safe.
Then I slipped away again. And the nightmares began.
It felt like I was going mad, my life became one long lucid dream and I couldn't break free. Sometimes I was aware of what was going on around me, sometimes I was sure that I was dreaming, but at other times reality seemed to take on a new meaning.
I was in a hospital and Chaz was with me. I couldn't see him, but I could sense his thoughts, pushing through the membrane of my mind.
I was falling in love with him.
But I couldn't.
I was standing in the hills of Scotland, beside William, his dark hair laced with silver, the lines on his face deeper than when we first married. He laughed, a thick, rich, boisterous sound, and he took me in his arms. We danced in the long grass while our herd of sheep watched. He kissed me and I leaned against him, hungry for his touch.
“It's been so long, Will,” I said.
“Long, my love?” He laughed again. “Have you already forgotten this morning?”
I couldn't remember anything but this moment on this hill, this now. I wanted to stay with him forever, then I remembered. The dark cloud. My rebellion.
I had taken the Fresh Start chip.
He pulled away from me then, his touch cold, as if he had just remembered it too.
“You shouldn't have done that,” he said. “You've damned yourself now.”
“That's not true,” I argued. “The Pope saidâ”
“And now, Miss High And Mighty herself believes everything the Pope says.”
“No, that's not what I meant.”
“It isn't too late,” he whispered, now from a distant mountaintop. He was growing smaller and smaller, traveling farther away by the second.
“Too late for what?”
“To pay a penance for your sin.”
Don't go, don't leave me alone, I don't want to be damned
. But he faded away and I was alone in the dark, in this horrid unending hallucination.
And I knew there would be a reckoning soon.