Alien Invasion (Book 1): Invasion (13 page)

It wasn’t a matter of
if
, but
when
. They’d run out of gas sometime, finding themselves unable to fuel without an audience. Maybe once or twice, they could manage to get their gas and go. But as more time passed, those crowds would consider what the clean, fed, well-dressed family in the rich-man’s van had that they didn’t. Then there would be problems.
 

Meyer seemed to be thinking the same, and in the past half day he’d taken to buying a few extra five-gallon jugs of gasoline at each station they happened on. Those extra cans were in a storage compartment in the back, but even that made Piper nervous. What if they were rear-ended? Didn’t all that gas make them like a bomb on wheels? And even if they did have the gas, how would they use it if the streets filled up? You couldn’t fill a tank from inside. You had to get out, so they’d need to find isolated spots to do it. What if they simply drove through an area too congested to pass? Then the fuel wouldn’t matter; crowds could surround them and take the van, fighting among themselves for its spoils. And come to think of it, how did you gas up from a can? Did they have a funnel?
 

She shook the thoughts away. Those were worries for another time. Or maybe for never. If they stuck to small roads, maybe they could drive all the way to Vail without incident. Maybe they could avoid the crowds entirely. She tried to do the gas calculation in her head, wondering how many extra jugs of fuel they’d need before they stopped needing gas stations at all. But the wheels’ song on the road made her tired, and the night’s pall was heavy. She could figure it out later, or let it go and trust Meyer. He’d been right so far.
 

“I’d like to drive,” he said. She realized that he’d been watching her for a while.
 

Piper looked at the console. The car was driving just fine by itself.
 

“I need something to do.” Then, heartbreakingly, he added, “Please.”
 

Piper stood without speaking, feeling something come undone, and switched places with him. Meyer was polite, but never begged. Piper wouldn’t have refused him the driver’s seat under any conditions, but even at the most extreme moments — in far bigger negotiations over things that actually mattered — Meyer didn’t plead. If he couldn’t have what he wanted, he let it go.
 

His “please” sounded like an appeal.
 

Piper’s feeling of assurance — of trust in Meyer — slipped a notch closer to desperation. Once behind the wheel, his control restored even in the most useless of ways, he seemed to straighten and harden. Within minutes, it was easy to forget the pleading eyes he’d had earlier — not about something as silly as driving, but about his guilt over Heather, over fears he couldn’t and wouldn’t dare articulate. He was Meyer Dempsey again. And Meyer Dempsey always got what he wanted.
 

They drove that way for an hour. Two hours.
 

As the dashboard clock approached the wee hours, traffic started to swell — some unknown Indiana city on the horizon, perhaps. With more cars on the road, Meyer seemed only to want to drive faster. The van kept beeping to warn him about his speed, and he ignored it with a steely gaze forward. The kids were asleep in the back, but they woke to his aggression.
 

He cut in. And out. And in again.
 

Horns honked. Tires screeched.
 

He was driving like he had something to prove.
 

“Dad … ” said Trevor. But then he stopped, and said no more.
 

Piper gasped as Meyer cut between a car and an SUV that had been dutifully sticking to their lanes. Meyer grumbled as if their adherence to proper driving and safety was a hassle, or a weakness.
 

A horn blared behind them.
 

“Honey,” said Piper.
 

“These fucking people,” said Meyer.
 

“Maybe if you just ease back, and … ”
 

“The sooner we get there, the sooner I can ease back.”
 

“But we’re nowhere close. We’re just in Indiana.”
 

“Exactly. We’re nowhere close. Which is why we have to make up time.”
 

“Maybe we should rest.” Then, inside her head:
Maybe
you
should rest. Maybe we should all just step back for a bit
.
 

A near collision with the rear of a Buick. The van swayed, then surged into a gap. From the back, Lila lost a tiny scream.
 

“You’re scaring us.”
 

“It’s not me doing the scaring, Piper. I’m trying to do the saving.”
 

“Then you need to slow down.”
 

“Slowing down doesn’t get us where we need to be. I’d rather you were scared now. Because we should all be scared of what’s coming.”
 

Piper was usually docile, but now she felt her eyebrows bunch, her forehead wrinkle. “Shh. You’ll frighten them.”
 

The van nudged the rear bumper of a silver car ahead. The car swerved, corrected, then drifted far away from the big vehicle and its crazy driver. When Piper looked over she could see the woman on the car’s right side looking over with big, vacant eyes.
 

“Oh, I’ll frighten them, huh?” Projecting: “Hey, kids. Guess what? Aliens are coming, and we’re hauling ass to get to our doomsday bunker.” He shook his head at Piper, lowering his voice. “They know it already, Piper. Pretending nothing is wrong will only make us stupid.”
 

“And do stupid things like driving like a maniac?”
 

Meyer laid on the horn, then cut left. A second car swerved to avoid him. Piper was reminded of her father driving years ago when she’d been little, back when all of the cars had been manual, and the true test of a man’s patience had been to put him behind the wheel in heavy traffic. Her father had consistently failed that test, and Meyer was failing it now.
 

“Let me handle this, Piper.”
 

“You’ll handle us into a collision.”
 

“I’m trying to get us where we need to be.”
 

“You’re angry.”
 

“I’m angry because we’re not where we need to be, and everyone here is out for a Sunday drive.”
 

“Slow down, Meyer.”
 

“Every minute we waste … ”
 

“The bunker in Vail doesn’t do us any damn good if we’re dead in a pileup, Meyer!”
 

Meyer looked over, his fugue momentarily broken. His eyes hardened again, now fuming atop the rage.
 

“This is my van, my plan, and I’m the only one here who’s willing to … ”
 

“Look out, Dad!”
 

Meyer’s eyes snapped forward as Trevor yelled, and he saw the back of an enormous RV looming ahead. It was stopped. The entire line of traffic had stopped, and Meyer hadn’t seen it coming. Nobody had.
 

He wrenched the wheel hard to the right, apparently deciding that rolling the van was preferable to smashing it into the RV’s back end. But they were skirting a hill that climbed to the right, and the wheels rose as momentum tipped in the same direction. The two forces seemed to cancel out, and the van remained on its spinning rubber feet. Meyer hit the brakes and jockeyed the wheel back to center, holding tight, letting up between brake pumps to prevent an imminent skid. They struck the guardrail and grated along it for maybe fifty feet, raising sparks and a grinding noise like the end of the world.
 

Then it was over. The van had stopped on the berm still six feet from the dead line of traffic. A man in a tan Oldsmobile was staring at Meyer as if he’d just committed a crime.
 

Meyer laid his hands on the wheel, his head on his hands.
 

The road had turned into a parking lot.
 

They were all going nowhere.
 

CHAPTER FOURTEEN

Meyer is standing in the middle of a plain filled with long grass so green it’s almost neon. It flows with the wind, but the motion of the grass is too perfect. It’s moving in waves, but the waves seem artificial, as if in a computer-generated effect in one of his movies. Only instead of producing this movie, he’s in it. He’s the star. He’s in this field of perfectly waving grass, and the grass is so green it’s almost lit from inside. The whole world is green, except for the sky, which is a perfect uniform blue from edge to edge, bunkering against the edges of this infinite field.
 

A caricature of reality rather than reality itself. A landscape drawn by a child.
 

There’s someone beside him. It’s Heather. Company on his journey, possibly holding his hand in the real world, beyond this vision. Meyer confronted his demons as he always does, facing his mother and father, who he watches die every time. This time he watched himself slit the throat of Sam Blackwell, Heather’s comedian friend. Not new, but never pleasant. He doesn’t always murder Blackwell, but he’s done it often enough.
 

The medicine is supposed to wash you clean, but first it must dredge the worst of what’s inside you to purge it. In real life, Meyer is never jealous of Blackwell or the way the media acts like he’s in dalliances with Heather when they share a stage. And he shouldn’t be, because he has a new wife, and Heather should be able to sleep with whomever she wants — not that he believes she’s sleeping with Blackwell.
 

But he must be jealous somewhere deep down, because more than once he’s found himself wrist deep in Blackwell’s blood, pieces of spleen and heart clinging to his shirtsleeves. More than once he’s taken Blackwell’s head entirely off, and once he saw himself reach up through the ragged neck of the severed head, somehow meeting gray matter from the brain below.
 

This time, merely slitting the man’s throat feels like a vacation.
 

“It’s so beautiful,” says Heather, her small hand in his, her voice light and more serious than it is outside of ayahuasca’s kiss.
 

“It’s too beautiful,” Meyer replies. “It’s not real.”
 

Heather smiles. “Of course it’s not real.”
 

“It’s not real in reality,” he says.
 

Heather smiles again and walks away. She’s never understood.
 

This isn’t even the real Heather; even deep in the medicine’s grip, he knows their minds haven’t truly connected. Heather, unlike Piper, likes to experiment. Piper won’t travel to Colorado to see Shaman Juha with him. She wasn’t interested in his soul trip to Peru, seeking the source. But Heather always has, and finds ayahuasca to be a real gas. But she’s never believed the way Meyer has. She’s never
seen
. His connections (and the months of clarity that follow) always seem to lift the veil for him, but never for Heather.
 

The scene changes. Now he’s not in a field. He’s on a path above Machu Picchu. He’s never been to Machu Picchu, but all places are the same once you realize that no things are actually real in reality. Once you learn the trick of cinema, it’s easy to go anywhere at all. Seeing a movie of New York every day, seeing a movie of Machu Picchu the next. There’s no difference. The only reason he’s never “been to” Machu Picchu, he now suspects, is because he’s never decided, within the privacy of his own mind, to be there instead of New York, or anywhere else.
 

Heather is beside him again. Now she’s naked, but the thought isn’t arousing. It’s simply how things are. Heather’s skin is no more who she is than her clothes are. His own skin is no more who he is than this is Machu Picchu in front of him.
 

“You found your axis once,” she says, her black hair swirling in a gentle wind. “Now find it again.”
 

The cliffside doesn’t crumble. It simply vanishes. And he’s falling, falling, falling …
 

His eyes snapped violently open, as if they’d been glued and he’d just won the battle to see. He felt a sense of departure — of being robbed of something that mattered. Meyer remembered something, just now, about Heather. He’d been with her. She’d been nude, as she’d been beneath him the last time he’d been in LA. Her body was different from Piper’s. Good, but not as young, as toned, as firm, as gravity defying. But their connection, even from the beginning, had always been more mental than physical. They had their fun times, but Heather often joked that if only their minds could fuck while their bodies stayed put, she’d be up for trying. It would beat the burden of guilt, as if mental cheating wasn’t cheating, just the same.
 

Must’ve been a sex dream. He’d woken with a cast-iron boner.
 

Piper was looking over at him. She was just to his side, up on one elbow on the makeshift bed in the converted berth, the partition curtains drawn. Meyer hadn’t loved the idea of closing the curtains when they’d pulled into the park last night, taking the exit at Piper’s insistence to wait out the line of stopped traffic and get some rest. He’d thought Lila and Raj might use the opportunity to get dirty, but Piper reminded him that Trevor was back there too. And nothing cockblocked quite like a little brother.