Amelia's Story (Box Set the Complete Series Books 1 & 2) (30 page)

Rosie was also a lovely girl. I really liked her, I just did not feel as close to her as Debbie. I think this was because of her close relationship with our father. One weekend we went to our Uncle Nigel’s wedding. I was outside the venue chatting with Rosie, and I started to talk to her about the awful letter I had received from our father a few weeks before. But I was stopped in my tracks. She already knew about it. She said she did not want to get emotionally involved. So after that I never really felt as if I could talk about my father to Rosie. She had a close relationship with him, so it made complete sense that she did not want to discuss the letter with me, and I really did not want to put her in an uncomfortable position. It would not have been fair to her. Though, I was hurt by this. However, I didn’t let it show that day, and immediately changed the subject.

The discovery of my new family was not the great one I had hoped for. I was once again rejected by my father. This made me angry at myself for allowing this to happen once again. After all the trouble I had gone to in finding them; I had left myself wide open to be hurt. And hurt I was.

I was developing a very close relationship with my beautiful grandparents. They were amazing; it was as if we had known each other for years. However, they were so fragile, and my grandfather was not in the best of health, which made me so sad. My grandma tells me often that I had just made it when I found them. A few years later and I may have been too late. I love my grandparents, and so does my daughter. We go up to visit them at least three times a year; we book a hotel and stay by the seaside for a few days. Although things did not work out with my father the way I had hoped, I felt blessed that I had my grandparents in my life again. And I would make the most of what time we all have left together. My time with my grandparents is what is important to me. They have been in my life for two years now. We take lots of pictures each time we visit; we talked about everything and anything. I had never felt complete as a person before. I used to feel alone in the world; I always felt as if something was missing. But now I felt totally complete; I have my beautiful princess, my husband, and my grandparents. I have my famil
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the family I had always wanted so badly. I was no longer alone. I love my grandparents very much. It’s as if I was never separated from them.

However, as lovely as my new-found sister Debbie is, she recently announced her marriage to a wonderful man call
ed Stephen. I was so happy for her. I was so pleased she had finally found happiness. She called me up to tell me that she would be having a small wedding over the next 12 months, mainly for our grandparents. There was no mention that myself, Lilliah and Lucas would not be invited. So the following week, assuming I would be invited I went out and bought a lovely new dress for the occasio
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a very classy knee-length dress with matching shoes.

A few weeks later I received a text message from Debbie informing me that her upcoming wedding would be just a small one and only her sister Rosie and my grandparents had been invited. To say I was sh
ocked is an understatement. We had only been in each other’s lives two years. Debbie had stayed with us at our house on a couple of occasions. We had cooked for her and made her feel at home. I thought we had formed a special bond.  I was very upset. I cried for quite a long time. I never would have expected that news, not in a million years, especially as she had known of my life, and the rejection by our father and my mother. I thought I was a sister too. I love her dearly; I am so happy for her, but very disappointed that I was not invited to her wedding which was taking place in London
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just an hour’s drive away from where I live. I could not get my head around this at all. My husband was devastated for me. He could see the hurt etched all over my face. He told me to forget it and not take it to heart, that she meant no ill feeling towards me, “It’s your grandparents that truly matter. They love you, Amelia.” I thought yes, Lucas, you are right.

I had gained two new half-sisters and loved them dearly even though I was feeling rejected, and disappointed. I had to look at the situation from Debbie’s point of view, if she had of invited us, well, she would have to invite all the other people that were not invited too, then it may of got complicated for her. However, I could not help thinking how lovely it would have been to have seen my new found half-sister getting married and to have been a part of it all.

I was never reunited with my two sisters that I was separated from all those years ago when we were all children. They are grown-up now and living their own lives I expect. I wish I could tell you that we are altogether once again, that we found each other and became close like we were all those years ago. However, sadly we are all lost to each other now. I have to be forever grateful that Jake and I were reunited and that to this day we remain as close as ever.

Becoming a writer: my destiny

When my daughter turned two, I decided I was going to write my life story for her; it was such an incredible one. I often wondered how I would tell her everything. So I started writing my autobiography. Now I had all the pieces to my jigsaw puzzle. Although I had never intended to write my story, my idea was inspired by my daughter. It is for Lilliah that I am telling my story. I want her to have a complete jigsaw; I want her to have all the answers to any questions about her mother. I did not want her to walk through life with half a puzzle, as I once had. It was so important to me that she felt complete. So by the time Lilliah was two years and 9 months old, I had completed my first book, “Amelia’s Story,” the first part of my journey.

I am happy now. My life is a good one; but it did not come at all easy. I still hold on to the thought that a person can lose everything they have in an instant; it’s these thoughts that keep me very grounded. My princess is now three and a half years old. I write full-time now, my perfect job. I am passionate about two things: my daughter and writing. They both complete my life. I know my grandparents are proud of what I have achieved in my life, against all the odds. They have their granddaughter back. I visit them as often as I possibly can; I know our time together is very limited as they are both in their late 80’s now and not in the best of health. My grandma often says to me that I found them just in time.

Whilst writing this book I was taken on the most incredible journey through time. I re-visited old ghosts, and came to terms with my past. Finally, I was able to lay it all to rest. I had kept my promise to Jake and moved him closer to me and my family and gave him a lovely home where he too could feel secure for the rest of his life. I had
realised my own dream of becoming a home owner, a writer and a mother. I will never take my life for granted. Now I cherish my life more than anyone could possibly know. I make the most of every single second.

My wish list is still growing; I have ticked many things off along the way, and added many
more too. I still have dreams to fulfill and a strong determination to accomplish them.

I have learnt so much along my journey, the most important thing is this: don’t allow others to stand in the way of your dreams. Anything is possible if you want it badly enough.

When my daughter smiles at me, my heart melts. When my daughter says, “Mummy I love you,” my heart melts. When my daughter gives me the tightest hug and kisses me goodnight, again my heart just melts. My daughter is my whole world. Amelia is happy now.

The child, first and foremost.

THE END

Acknowledgements

I would like to say a huge thank you to the following great people:

My husband: for his unwavering support throughout the creation of this book. I could not have done this without you. I love you with all my heart.

My mother-in-law Kamla: for taking care of my princess at crucial points during my writing, this time was invaluable to me. Without your help I would not have completed my work for quite some time!

My brother-in-law Harj: for all his technical support. Your I.T. knowledge is phenomenal, not to mention you saved me a fortune – all greatly appreciated.

My dear friend Sam: for reading the first draft of my book and giving me some much needed feedback.

My best friend Karen: for your advice and support from the beginning to end, and allowing me to use you as a sounding board.

To H F Pixel: for designing my book cover which captures the very essence of what my book is about.

The Shropshire Social Services record department: for allowing me access to my care reports and case review reports.

And to my twitter family: a bunch of great authors for their advice and support along the way - this was very humbling (you know who you are).

About the author

Dawn G. Torrens third novel, “Broken Wings” is a heart-wrenching and intense romance novel. One of love, loss and undying hope. Joshua a bomb disposal expert for the British
Army and Angelina an editor for a small town newspaper. The story is set between Lake Windermere in the UK and Afghanistan. Now available on Amazon for kindle.

Dawn G. Torrens is happily married with a five-year-old daughter. She lives in
Birmingham, England and has recently released, "Tears of Endurance (book one)" and "Whispers from Heaven (book two)," a two-book story, an emotion-charged story, that has had many readers reaching for the tissue box... 

The author is currently penning The Poppy Fields Trilogy, due for release March 2014.
             

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