Amish Christmas Joy (19 page)

Jake shifted. He’d done what he said he would do. He’d delivered the child safely home. It was time to leave Josh and his mother to hash out what had occurred in the park. He backed away, his grip on the cane like a clamp. He spied the imploring look in Josh’s eyes. “Your son needs to tell you,” he said.

She turned back to the boy. “You’re bleeding, your eye is red and your clothes are a mess. Did you get in a fight?”

The boy nodded.

“Why? That’s not you, Josh.”

The kid yanked away from his mom and yelled, “Yeah! That’s the problem!” He stormed toward the house.

Jake took another step back.

She whirled toward him, her face full of a mother’s wrath. “What’s going on?”

“He was in a fight.”

“I got that much from him.”

“I broke it up and walked him home.” Jake could barely manage his own life. He didn’t want to get in the middle of someone else’s, but the appeal in Josh’s mother’s eyes demanded he say something. “Three boys were beating up Josh.”

“Why?”

“That you have to ask him. I came in after it started, and he wasn’t forthcoming about what was going on.”

“But something is. I get the feeling this wasn’t the first time.”

“A good assumption.”

“I’m Emma Langford.” She paused, waiting for him to supply his name.

He clamped his teeth down hard for a few seconds before he muttered, “Jake Tanner. I live around the corner, across from the park.” Why did he add the last? Because there was something in her expression that softened the armor around his heart.

The woman glanced up and down the street, kneading her fingertips into her temple. “I don’t know what to do. It sounds like they ganged up on Josh. Have you seen them around?”

“No, but I know what they look like, especially one of them close to Josh’s size. The other two were bigger than him. Maybe older.” He could understand a mother’s concern and the need to defend her child. He’d often felt the same way about the men under his command.

“So my child is being bullied.” Weariness dripped from each word.

Jake moved closer, an urge to comfort assailing him. Taking him by surprise. For months he’d been trying to shut off his emotions. Hopelessness and fear were what had him in his current condition: unable to function the way he had before his last tour of duty.

“He never said a word to me, but I should have known,” she said in a thick voice. “No wonder he’s been so angry and withdrawn these past few months.”

“That would be a good reason. Chances are he doesn’t know how to handle it, either.”

“Do you think they live in the neighborhood?” She panned the houses around her as if she could spot where the bullies lived.

“Maybe. They were in the park when the fight occurred.”

“I need to find out who’s bullying my son and put a stop to it.”

“How?” Jake could remember being bullied in school when he was in the sixth grade.

“I don’t know. Confront them. Have a conversation with their parents.”

“Often that makes the situation worse. It did for me when I was a child.” The reply came out before he could stop the words.

“But maybe it would put a stop to it. Make a difference for my son.” Her forehead creased, she glanced back at the house. “I want to thank you for what you did for Josh. Would you like some tea or lemonade?”

He hesitated. He needed to say no, but he couldn’t, not after glimpsing the lost look in the lady’s eyes.

“Please. I make freshly squeezed lemonade.” She started toward her house. “We can enjoy it outside on the porch.”

Part of him wanted to follow her, to help her—the old Jake—but that guy was gone, left in the mountains where some of his men had died.

She slowed and glanced back, anxiety shadowing her eyes. “I’m at a loss about what to do. Tell me what happened to you when you were bullied. That is, if you don’t mind. It may help me figure out what to do about Josh.”

It was just her porch. He wouldn’t be confined. He could escape easily.

He took a step toward her, then another, but with each pace closer to the house, his legs became heavier. By the time he mounted the stairs, he could barely lift them. He paused several feet from the front door and glanced at the white wicker furniture, a swing hanging from the ceiling at the far end. Thoughts of his mother’s parents’ farmhouse where he’d spent time every summer came to mind. For a moment peace descended. He tried to hold on to that feeling, but it evaporated in seconds at the sound of an engine revving and then a car speeding down the street.

The sudden loudness of the noise made him start to duck behind a wicker chair a couple of feet away. He stopped himself, but not before anger and frustration swamped him. His heartbeat revved like the vehicle, and the shakes accosted him. He clasped his hands on the knob of his cane and pressed it down into the wooden slat of the porch.

What was he thinking? He should never have accepted her invitation.

“I’m sorry. I can’t. I have stuff to do at home.” He pivoted so fast he nearly lost his balance and had to bring his cane down quickly to prevent it.

“Thank you for your help today with my son,” Emma quickly got out.

Sweat popped out on his forehead and ran down his face, into his eyes. He concentrated on the stinging sensation to take his mind off everything rushing toward him. As fast as his injured leg would let him, he hurried toward his house and the familiar surroundings where he knew what to expect. The trembling in his hands had spread throughout his body by the time he arrived in his yard.

Once inside his home, he fell back against the door and closed his eyes, trying to slow his stampeding heartbeat. His chest rose and fell rapidly as he gulped air. He slid down the length of the door and sat on the tiled foyer floor, blocking the deep ache that emanated from his recent injury.

Rage at himself, at his situation swamped him, and he slammed his fist into his palm. Pain shot up his arm. He didn’t care. It wasn’t anything compared to how he hated what was happening to him.

What are You doing, God? I want a normal life. Not be a slave to these panic attacks. Why aren’t You answering my prayers?

Copyright © 2013 by Margaret Daley

ISBN: 9781472014177

AMISH CHRISTMAS JOY

© Patricia MacDonald 2013

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