An Instance of the Fingerpost (97 page)

I was at a loss to understand his purpose in coming, for I knew he hardly recognised me as a friend, and I had certainly done nothing to encourage any intimacy. I thought perhaps he wanted to consult me on matters of historical fact, and did my best to indicate I would not assist him in any way. But instead he held up his hand to silence me in a gesture of the most perfect condescension.

‘I have come to provide you with material, not to ask your opinion,’ he said with a sly smile. ‘I wish you to keep these papers, if you will. I will certainly reclaim them some day, perhaps if my suit still has to go formally to law, but I shall be on the move in the next few months and am in no position to guard them carefully. If you keep them, you will be doing me as much a favour as I am doing you, for Dr Wallis would surely want them back if he knew where they were.’

‘I do not want them and have no desire to help you in any way,’ I said.

‘Yes,’ he said, nodding his head with the gravest satisfaction. ‘When your life of my father comes out, and people see through your pen the great man he truly was, then your career will be made. And let me assure you, that I will not abandon you. All the expenses of publication I will bear. A thousand copies at least, I think, in the finest bindings, and on the best paper.’

‘Mr Prestcott,’ I said more loudly, ‘you are a liar and a murderer and the foulest person I have ever encountered. You are killing the dearest person I know, the best person in the world, for no reason. I beg you to consider what you are doing; it is not to late to change, and undo the damage. If you go to the magistrate now . . .’

‘And to do the job perfectly,’ he said as if I had merely muttered
some conventional appreciation of his kindness, ‘you must have these. But on condition that you say nothing to anyone about them until the book is ready for press.’

More paper. I took the proffered sheets and looked at them. Complete nonsense written on them.

‘I leave it to you to detect their importance,’ he said. ‘It can serve as a puzzle for you.’

Then he laughed outright at the look of consternation on my face. ‘I must explain,’ he said, ‘for I see your perplexity. These all come from the drawer of Dr Wallis. I stole them a few weeks back.’ Prestcott leaned forward on his chair and said in a conspiratorial whisper, ‘They are in a most cunning code, and have all defeated the good Doctor. He is properly mad about it.’

‘Please,’ I said, ‘stop talking like this. Can you not hear me? Can’t you understand?’

Mr Boyle conducted his experiments with his vacuum pump, Cola mentions some of them, and noted that as the air was sucked out, the sound of the animal inside it becomes fainter and fainter, until it can be discerned no more. As Prestcott stood up once more, conducting the conversation he wished to have, hearing answers which were in his mind alone and oblivious to my words, I felt like some poor experimental beast, banging my hand against an invisible wall and shouting out at the top of my lungs, but receiving no response or understanding for my efforts.

‘Yes. He prides himself on his skill, and yet these letters elude his mind completely.’ He chuckled. ‘But he told me the key, even though he thought me too stupid to notice. Apparently, you need a book of Livy. And with it all will be revealed, he thinks. I must say I do not mind him reading his own, but I no longer want him reading my father’s letters. Which is why you must have them. He will not think of looking here.’

And with this remark, Prestcott bade me farewell and went off to amuse himself before the trial and his fateful interview with John Wallis the next day. Both of them have given their accounts, and Wallis’s is obviously the correct one, for Prestcott’s assault on him caused something of a stir, and there was a great crowd in the High Street a few weeks later to see the young man escorted from Bocardo
gaol by his uncle, and carried off so wrapped in chains he could scarcely move. It was a kindness to all, especially to him, that he should be so confined. He was too murderous to be free, and too mad to be punished. I hope it will be understood that I thought he received more consideration than he deserved.

But he left me those letters, and in particular that one crucial letter which Wallis intercepted on its way to Cola in the Low Countries; the only copy indeed, and the only proof of that Italian’s purpose here. I put it aside with scarcely a glance; even though I now knew something of how to read it; I cared nothing at that moment for intellectual puzzles. Instead, I tidied up my room with methodical precision, added the papers to my collection under the floorboards, and thus occupied my body in useless tasks while my mind resumed its melancholic reverie. Then I left the house to visit Sarah for one last time.

She would not see me; the gaoler instead told me that she was on her own for her last evening and wished to see nobody. I insisted, and offered him a bribe, and begged, and finally persuaded him to go back and ask again.

‘She will not see you,’ he said, with a look of sympathy. ‘She said you will see her tomorrow well enough.’

Her rejection saddened me more than anything, and I am so selfish that all I could think of was my own sorrow at being deprived of an opportunity to give consolation. I confess I drank more than I should have done that night, and also that it soothed me not at all. Tavern after tavern and inn after inn I went to, but could scarcely abide the company of all those happy and cheerful faces. I drank in solitude, and turned my back when even people I counted as friends approached me. Everywhere I went, people who knew who I was came up to me, and asked me about Sarah and what I thought of her. And every time I was too miserable to speak the truth. In the Fleur-de-Lys, then in the Feathers and finally in the Mitre, I shrugged and said I did not know, that it was none of my concern, she might have done it for all I knew: all I wanted to do was forget it all, so self-pitying had the drink made me.

Eventually I was thrown out for having drunk too much, and
slipped over and fell into the gutter once more; this time I stayed there until I found myself being bodily picked up.

‘Do you know, Mr Wood,’ said a soft sing-song voice in my ear, ‘I do believe I just heard a cock crow. Is that not strange for this time of night?’

‘Leave me alone.’

‘I think perhaps I would like to talk to you, sir.’

So this stranger, this Valentine Greatorex, led me to his room and sat me down by the fire and dried me, then sat opposite and regarded me seriously but with great calm until I spoke myself.

‘I went to the magistrate, and told him she was innocent,’ I said. ‘I told him that I had killed Dr Grove, not Sarah. He did not believe me.’

‘Is that so?’

‘Then I went to Dr Wallis, and told him, and he would not believe me either.’

‘I expect not.’

‘Why do you say that?’

‘Because otherwise she might not die tomorrow. You know her well, I think?’

‘Better than anyone.’

‘Tell me, please. I want to know everything about her.’

Jack Prestcott talks of this man, and how his voice fascinated and soothed, so that those he spoke to almost fell into a dream of tranquillity and obeyed his every command. So it was with me, and I told him everything I knew about Sarah, everything I have put in this manuscript and very much more, for he was fascinated by her conversation and wished to hear every word she had ever uttered. As I spoke of her words at the meeting I had attended, he gave an enormous sigh, and nodded with satisfaction.

‘And I must save her,’ I concluded, ‘I must. There must be something I can do.’

‘Ah, Mr Wood, you have read too many chivalrous romances,’ he said kindly. ‘Do you see yourself as Launcelot du Lac, perhaps, sweeping down on your charger and rescuing your Guinevere from the pyre, fighting off your enemies and taking her to safety?’

‘No. I thought if I went to the Lord Lieutenant, or the judge . . .’

‘They would not hear you,’ he said. ‘Any more than the magistrate, or this man Wallis, or even the entire court could hear you. They hear ye, indeed, but understand not; see ye indeed, but perceive not. It says so in Isaiah, and so it is.’

‘But why do so many people want her dead?’

‘You know full well already, but will not accept it in your heart. You know what you have seen, you know your scripture and you have heard her own words. There is nothing you can do, and nothing you should do.’

‘I cannot live without her.’

‘That is your punishment for your part in this.’

I had no spirit or energy to say any more, and the drink had so fuddled my brain I could barely have spoken even had I wanted to. It was Greatorex who eventually pulled me out of the chair and took me into the cold air outside, which revived me enough to walk steadily.

‘It is a purgatory, my friend, but not of long duration, you will see. Go and sleep if you can; pray if you cannot. It will soon be over.’

I did as he said, and spent the entire night in the deepest prayer, for myself and for Sarah, begging God with all my might that He should intervene and stop the madness He had visited on the world. My faith is weak, a disgrace to anyone who has in life been favoured as I have. I have been spared riches and fame and power and position, just as His goodness has saved me from poverty and great illness. Whatever dishonour is mine I have brought on myself, and whatever accomplishment is by His grace alone. Despite that, I did not believe enough. I prayed fervently, I used every device I knew to achieve that peaceful sincerity of submission that I had felt but once, when on a horse in dead winter with Sarah behind me. One small part of my soul, at least, knew that I was doing nothing but filling out the hours until the inevitable took place. Again and again I threw myself back into the struggle, getting ever more desperate in my attempts to force my rebellious spirit into calm. But I had spent too long amongst the rationalists and those who told me that the age of miracles was past, and the signs of the divine given to the Fathers
of the Church had been taken from the world, never to come again. I knew it was not the case, and knew that God could and did intervene in men’s affairs still, but I could not accept it with my whole heart. I could not say those simple words, ‘Thy will be done,’ and mean it. I meant, I know, ‘Thy will be done if it agrees with what I want,’ and that is not prayer, nor is it submission.

My prayers failed. And shortly before dawn I lifted up my head and abandoned the attempt, and knew that I was alone. I knew that I would receive no help and that the one thing I desired most of all would not be given me. I would lose her and at that moment knew that Sarah was the most precious part of my life, and the most precious thing that would ever be in my life. I accepted my punishment and in the quiet of dawn and despair perhaps then I prayed truly for the first time. All I know is that the darkness lifted from me and a feeling of the most profound peace came to rest on my soul, and I found myself on my knees once more, thanking God with all my heart for His goodness.

I did not know what would happen and could not understand how it could possibly be that the inevitable march of man’s cruelty could be thrust aside. But I no longer questioned or doubted. I dressed myself as warmly as possible, took my thickest cloak – for although spring had come it was still frosty at dawn – and joined the throng of people walking down towards the castle to see the execution.

There was only one person to die that day; the judge was as merciful with others as he was vengeful with her, and the affair would be over in only a short time. As I approached the mob gathered round the big tree in the courtyard, the rope already hanging from the thick bough and the ladder in place, my heart sank and the doubt came upon me once again, but with a mighty effort of will I pushed all such thoughts from me. I did not even know why I was there; certainly there was no purpose in it, and I did not wish Sarah to see me. But I knew that it was necessary, somehow, and that her life depended on my presence, although I could not begin to comprehend how.

Lower was also there, with Locke and a few burly fellows, one of whom I recognised as a porter from Christ Church. Strange company, I thought, before it dawned on me what he was proposing. I had not seen him now for several days, but I should have realised he would
not readily pass up an opportunity to get more material for his book. He was a kind man but dedicated to his work; the look of grim determination on his face as he paced up and down was not that of someone who anticipated any enjoyment from imminent events; but he was certainly not going to flinch from them.

I avoided him; I had no desire for conversation and I scarcely even noticed another small party, who were standing to one side, talking loudly and making coarse jokes, and clustered around the Regius professor. Had I paid more attention, I have no doubt I would also have given more significance to the whispered conference between Lower and his associates, to the way they positioned themselves next to the hanging tree, and the look of grim satisfaction on Lower’s face as he surveyed the coming battlefield and the disposition of his forces.

And then Sarah was brought out, in heavy chains and between two large guards, although scarce any were needed, so small and frail and weak did she look. It made my heart break to see her; her eyes were heavy and the blackness of the rings around them was made more visible by the deathly pallor of her face; her beautiful dark hair was uncovered, but seemed beautiful no longer; she had always combed it lovingly, it was her greatest – indeed her only – vanity. Now it was matted and unkempt, and was bundled up coarsely above her neck so it would not get in the way of the rope.