Arianna's Awakening (Arianna Rose Part 1 & The Awakening Part 2) (15 page)

Luke led them through the club to the main entrance.  Arianna, Bulldog, Beth, Mike, Carrie, Ryan and Christa filed behind him.  Stepping out into the cool, quiet night air, Arianna felt the crushing squeeze anxiety had placed on her lungs begin to subside.  Once they’d reached the parking area, everyone began to disperse.  She was left alone with Luke and Stephanie. 

“I’m going to take Stephanie home first then drive you home if you don’t mind,” he said to Arianna.

Arianna felt her heart make a leap from her chest to her throat.  “Uh, okay, if that’s what you want,” she fumbled.  “Seems like a big production to go to your house then my house then back home, don’t you think?”

“I don’t mind.  I really want to be alone with you, and talk to you,” he said and looked at her again in that peculiar way he had in the nightclub.

“Fine.  If that’s what you want,” she said and hoped she hadn’t sounded cold or cruel.  Any other night before this night, being alone with him would have been exactly what she would have wanted.  But this night had not been like any other.  And she wanted to be alone. 

Luke’s face sagged a bit and she realized she’d hurt him.  “Sounds great,” she added for his benefit and watched him brighten.  “I’d like that.”  He smiled, his usual warm smile, and she found herself smiling back at him.  He pulled his seat forward and she climbed into the back seat of his pickup truck.  Stephanie assumed her position in the front seat and Luke drove. 

The drive to Luke’s house was silent, painfully silent.  The tension in the air had been so thick, Arianna swore she could see it seep from the car in ribbons when Stephanie opened the door and climbed out.  Arianna said a quick “Good night” to Stephanie, which was ignored, before positioning herself in the front seat.

She watched Stephanie stride in impossibly high-heeled shoes to the front door.  When she looked away, she slid Luke a glance and saw that he did not watch his sister, but her instead.

“I can’t believe what happened tonight,” he said.

“I know.  It was, just…crazy…what happened was crazy.”

“I’m so glad you’re okay.  You’re taking it much better than my sister.”

“Different people handle things differently I guess,” was all she could come up with.

“Yeah, you’re right.  You’re a strong person, Arianna.  I knew that from the first time we met.”

“I wouldn’t be so sure,” she said, the irony of their exchange weighing on her.

“I am sure,” he said.  “You have this, I don’t know,
energy
about you, like you can handle anything.  Shit, you fought off not one, but two guys tonight.”

He spoke to her without the slightest hint of sarcasm or suspicion, but with what she could only name as reverence.  His admiration pained her for she was no ordinary high school girl who had fended off a pair of assailants.  No, she’d had an advantage, a tremendous advantage.  And she aimed to conceal her advantage from him.

“I guess it was adrenaline or something,” she said flatly wishing he would just drive already.

He reached a hand across the console and rested it on her leg.  “Well whatever it was, I’m glad you’re okay, that you weren’t, you know, hurt,” he said and she knew exactly what he’d meant.  “And thanks for watching my sister’s back,” he added then moved his hand from her leg to the gearshift.

The car began to rumble slowly as Luke backed out of his driveway.  The short ride to her trailer park was blissfully quiet.  When Luke pulled up in front of her porch, she resisted the urge to bolt out of his truck and run inside, not stopping until she reached the shower.  She wanted,
needed
, to scrub the events of the night from her skin, fill her nostrils with the scent of strawberry shampoo in hopes of it purging the fetid stench of charred flesh from them.  She wanted to cleanse herself of the man with the neck tattoo’s touch, wash away the entire night.  She liked Luke, liked him a lot, but needed to shower, needed to process everything that had happened. 

She watched as Luke turned the key in the ignition and the engine stilled.  He opened his door and walked around to the passenger side to open hers.

“Let the wooing begin again,” he said and smiled. 

“Wow, this is some big-time wooing,” she said and smiled back, unable to resist the sincerity he’d radiated.

He took her hand and helped her out.  In the night air again, Arianna felt the need to busy her hands.  She released Luke’s hand and reached into her bag and felt for her pack of cigarettes.  Luke produced two of his own and offered one to her.  She accepted it, placed it between her lips and waited for him to light it.  He lit hers first with exaggerated arm gestures.

“Still wooing,” he joked and winked.

She wondered why, and how, he was able to behave so normally after what he’d heard.  Perhaps it was just her guilty, possibly murderous, conscience convincing her that he ought to be doubtful of the story she’d told him and nothing more. 

“Listen Arianna, I know this isn’t great timing, but I just want to say that I like you, you know?  I care about what happens to you,” he admitted.  “When you told me what happened, what that scumbag tried to do to you, I freaked out.  I wanted to kill him.  I mean
literally
kill him.”

Little did he know, she had likely killed at least one of them.  “Honestly, I wanted them both dead, too.”

“Feeling like I did, as angry as I was, I never felt that way about a girl so quickly.  I mean, I haven’t known you a long time, but I liked you right away.  And tonight, everything that happened,” he said then paused.  He stared at the ground for several seconds before he looked up at her and said, “It made me realize I care about you.”

Arianna wasn’t sure how to react, what to say.  Hours earlier, if he had said anything even similar to what he’d just said, and with the earnestness he’d just said it with, she would have been kissing him already.  But a lot had happened, more than he could ever know, more than she could ever tell him.  She knew that with every second that passed, every second she remained silent, he was dying a small death.  Like her, Luke did not seem like the kind of guy who offered his heart to others readily.  She cared for him too, despite the fact that she was a supernatural being with a bounty on her head.  She dropped her cigarette to the gravel beneath her and closed the distance between them.  She wrapped her arms around his waist and tipped her chin up.  He lowered his head and pressed his lips to hers.  Warm and soft, his mouth was suddenly exactly what she needed.  She began to kiss him eagerly, hungrily.  She slipped her tongue between his lips and tasted the nicotine in his hot breath.  He returned her kiss but with less intensity, less passion.  He slid his hands from her waist up her back and into her hair before cupping her face in his hands.  He slowed her fevered pace, kissing her tenderly, affectionately, until he was placing light pecks on her lips.  Then he pulled her closer, wrapping both arms around her, and hugged her tightly.  She felt the slightest trace of his excitement pressing against her belly, but knew he was exercising restraint; that their kiss had not been about sex, but something else entirely. 

They held each other for several seconds before Arianna allowed the tension in her arms to relax and she released him.  “I’m going to go inside,” she said quietly.

“I’m in no hurry if you want to hang out for a bit,” he said hopefully.

“I’ll have to take a rain check,” she replied.  “It’s not that I don’t want to be with you, because I do, I really do.  I just feel so…
dirty
.  I want to just scrub the whole night off me.”

Sadness clouded his features and Arianna felt her heart clench.  “Except for this, these last few minutes with you.  They helped, Luke.  You have no idea how much.  Hearing how you feel about me, well, it means the world to me,” she fumbled.  “Shit!  I’m so bad at this feelings stuff.  I care about you, too, okay?  You know that right?”

He did not say anything, but smiled his broad smile that made his silver eyes twinkle then kissed her lips gently. 

“Go on,” he said and patted her backside.  “Go inside and wash very bit of this night off, except for the last five minutes.  Enjoy your hot shower.  I’ll be thinking of you when I take a nice cold one myself,” he winked.

“Good night, Luke,” she said.

“Good night, Arianna.  I’ll call you tomorrow morning.”

He waited, leaning against his pickup truck until she was inside before he started the engine.  His truck wheezed and sputtered in protest as his headlights faded in the dark.  Inside, Arianna turned down the narrow hallway and headed to the bathroom, intent on purging the night from her skin.  She knew that soap and water would never rid her of what she’d seen, what she’d done; who she was.  But it was a start.

Chapter 14

Howard felt a jolt of panic shoot through him, jarring him so
abruptly, so wholly, he was forced to brace himself against a wall.  He’d just finished orating to a small group of congregants, had just left the nave of the Soldiers of the Divine Trinity Church when terror rocked him.  Shaken, he crossed himself, touching his right hand to his forehead, his belly, his left shoulder then his right.  He prayed silently, leaning against a corridor wall that led from the sacristy, where he’d left his Bible, to the presbytery, which served as both his office and private living quarters.

The sudden frightened feeling did not end despite his silent pleas, though.  Instead, it changed, transforming into a familiar sensation, one he hadn’t felt in some time, but a familiar one, nonetheless.  The initial jolt had been a mere catalyst, a warning, for the reaction that began between his ribcage and spread slowly, swelling and stretching like a great beast awakening from slumber inside of him.  Howard bit his lower lip to keep from screaming, the torturous pain branching from his abdomen unbearable.  Twisting and writing demonically, the feeling wound within him weaving and snaking down throughout him to the tips of his fingers.  He heard himself gasp as realization of what was occurring settled upon him.  Abrasive awareness scratched and clawed its way to his consciousness and he grasped that he was feeling the evil energy of the Sola.  Her power had come to fruition, had matured.  And she had used it for her own depraved purpose.

An offense against God had just been committed, and she had been responsible for it.  Of that he was certain.  Her iniquity entwined itself around his very veins with barbed tentacles, pulsing tainted lifeblood through them.  He could not be sure what exactly had happened, could not see her wicked deed, but felt it, felt her sin winding its way inside him agonizingly.

The feel of sin had not been foreign to Howard.  He knew the grotesque sensation all too well.  He, himself, had been a sinner at one time. 

As he breathed deeply, trying desperately to exorcise the fiendish ache, memories rushed through him, swirling with the excruciating pain in a horrific dance. 

He had not sinned in more than thirty-five years.  He was a man of God and did no wrong, now.  But when he had been a boy, he hadn’t been the shining example of man he currently was.  He had not been on the righteous path he was presently on.  Long ago, he had lost his way.

When Howard had been just twelve years old, he had been living in a youth detention center for two years.  Sentenced for six months to a locked-down facility after he’d killed his mother and her lover, he had been transferred shortly thereafter to an all-boys prison camp of sorts where corporal punishment had been implemented.  There, he had experienced the most trying times of his entire life.  Brutality had abounded.  It had been part of a venomous cycle.  Guards had abused detainees and detainees had abused one another.  Howard, in particular, had endured multiple forms of cruelty.  Small for his age and delicate of feature, he had been branded a “sissy,” had been teased and taunted regularly.  But the abuses had not ended with words.  Every part of him had been raped: body, mind and soul.  Bruises had marked nearly every inch of him and improperly healed fractures and lacerations had marred his appearance.  But neither his bruises nor cuts, nor the deformities of poorly fused bones had deterred his assailants.  No, the assaults had continued.  Some had been worse than others.  Some attackers had been more zealous than others.

Among the seemingly endless string of people who had brutalized him had been two boys who’d taken particular joy in his suffering.  Howard closed his eyes and, even after thirty-five years, could still see their faces in vivid detail.  Tom Callahan and Greg Santos had both been tall and strapping for their fourteen years.  They had badgered Howard relentlessly, had called him Mother Killer.  They had said Howard had been jealous of his mother’s lover, that he had wanted to have intercourse with her and had killed them because of his incestuous desire for her.  They had accused him of heinous feelings.  But Tom and Greg had not understood that his mother had been evil, that he had killed her at God’s urging.  They had not known about his divine calling, of the power he had possessed.  And still, after decades of time spent away from the camp, free from the likes of Tom and Greg, his former name, Mother Killer, nauseated him.

Their taunts and insults, along with their continual abuse of him, had eventually taken their toll on Howard.  One day, after a particularly vicious assault that had included being sodomized then beaten, Howard had been filled with rage, and an unquenchable thirst for vengeance.  He’d yearned for it, longed for the dark feeling of revenge, of retaliation.  He’d read that revenge was a sin.  The teachings of the Bible had advised him to turn the other cheek, to forgive those who’d trespassed against him.  But with bright-red blood trickling from every orifice of his body and the sound of jeers echoing in his head, retribution had beckoned him.  In that moment, he had turned from God, had charged God with turning His back on him first.  He had succumbed to the sinister seduction of score settling.  He’d known what he’d needed to do to avenge all the atrocities Tom and Greg had committed against him.

Several of the guards had been smokers.  Having had lit cigarettes extinguished on his bare torso before they’d ravaged him, he had known all too well of their filthy habit.  Smoking had been the least of their many odious, deviant behaviors. 

Since the guards had maintained order though regular acts of brutality, they had not feared disobedience.  They had never guessed that Howard, the smallest, weakest prisoner, would take one of their numerous lighters that had littered their office, a refillable silver-plated lighter.  And they had not expected him to relieve them of a container of lighter fluid either. 

Though they had not concerned themselves with insubordination, they had been vigilant, always watching.  Howard had been forced to wait until nightfall late one evening to steal out of his room, down a long, dark hallway while everyone else had slept, to collect the lighter and flammable fluid.  He had moved with agility he’d never known he’d
retained, had crept down the corridor with the silence and stealth of a cat and had gathered his tools unnoticed.  From the guards’ office, he’d skulked back to the dormitory and searched for the cots Tom and Greg had occupied.  Their bunks had been positioned side by side, almost touching.  Like jackals, they’d stayed close to one another, existed as a vile pair. 

Howard had stood at the foot of their beds and had felt the darkness stroke him with shadowy fingers, guiding him, pushing him.  With a steady hand, he’d opened the canister of lighter fluid and had squeezed it over them, saturating them with the accelerant, careful to soak the small sheet that rested between their beds.  Then he’d taken his thumb and rolled it over the flint.  The wick had lit immediately, its golden flame swaying bewitchingly.  He’d been mesmerized by it, had needed to tear his eyes from the small flicker long enough to toss it atop the sleeping boys.  The lighter had landed exactly where he’d wanted to place it: on the sheet their bunks had shared.  The material had caught fire immediately, and the fire had instantly spread along pathways created by lighter fluid.  Both Tom and Greg’s bodies had begun to burn.  It had taken the boys several moments to rouse from their slumber and realize what had been happening.  They had awakened with a start, screaming and crying out in agony as their skin had begun to burn.  Howard had merely watched, a sense of satisfaction filling his chest as he’d smelled the fetid odor of smoldering flesh.  Tom and Greg had begun to thrash about wildly, trying to pat their bodies and smother the growing flames.  Their efforts had been useless, though. 

As they’d thrashed, Tom had released a guttural shriek and had lunged forward.  He had latched onto Howard and had held tightly.  He’d felt the heat of Tom’s blazing form, had watched as his own clothes had begun to burn as well. 

Tom had looked like a man possessed.  He’d howled out, a raspy war cry, just inches from Howard’s face as flames crept up his neck and began to blister his chin and cheeks.  Howard had tried to shove him off, tried to pry Tom from him, but each time he had resisted, Tom had tightened his grip.

The last thing Howard Kane remembered about that fateful night was Tom pressing his fiery face to his, a blazing kiss of death, then the feeling of blinding pain searing his entire body, pain unlike any he’d ever experienced.  Voices had sounded from some distant void, and oblivion had tempted the edge of his vision.  He’d resisted at first, had focused on the voices that had likely belonged to other guests at his internment camp, or perhaps emergency personnel.  He would never be sure to whom the voices had belonged to as he had surrendered to the nothingness that had called for him.

The next memory he’d had was lying in a hospital bed.  Weeks had passed and he’d been told that he had suffered third-degree burns over the majority of his body.  He’d been wrapped in lengths of white bandages, his blisters crusting and festering beneath them. 

During the time he’d spend in the hospital recovering from his near-fatal burns, he’d sunken into a deep depression.  He had realized that he had not avenged the wrongs perpetrated against him.  He had not emerged the victor.  Tom had the final laugh.  Tom had taken from him the only attribute that he’d retained during his stay as a ward of the correctional system: his looks.  Ironically, it had been his looks, his attractiveness that had bordered on feminine prettiness that had generated such a hedonistic frenzy among the other inmates.  And even that had been stripped of him.  Howard had been mutilated beyond any form of recognition, body and soul.  He had been transformed from a beautiful twelve-tear-old boy, to a monster.  And all of it had happened in the name of vengeance. 

For months, his understanding of what his life had become had felt like bobbing lifelessly in a bottomless, blackened sea with no land in sight.  Despair had crashed against him like mighty waves, drowning him.  His dejection had lasted for nearly half a year, until one day, God had sent him a sign. 

The Lord’s sign had come in the form of literature.  A volunteer who’d brought books and magazines to patients in the hospital he’d stayed at had dropped a Bible on her way out.  Howard had groaned before stooping to pick up the holy book.  He’d had most, if not all, of it committed to memory during his eighth year of life, when his father had gone to prison and his mother had taken to drugs and men.  He had not touched a Bible in some time.  In the hospital, he had begun thumbing through it and was reminded of verse after verse of testimony that supported God’s ability to forgive him of his egregious sins.  He had flagrantly offended God, as many had before him, but God had forgiven them.  And he had known God would forgive him, too. 

Standing in his hospital room, Howard had felt right holding the Bible in his hands, in his heart.  Each word had nearly jumped off the pages, resonating with truth, with sense.  He had known from that point on that everything that had happened had happened for a reason.  He had been tested.  His suffering had been part of God’s plan for him.  Even his disfigurement had made sense in that divine moment.  Vanity issues had been eliminated in one swift motion by his burns.  He had known that no woman would ever want him, especially since his burns had spread over the lower half of his body destroying any chances of procreating or partaking of marital relations.  He had beamed at the notion that God had chosen him, had freed him of the burden of marriage and parenthood, of pride and conceit.  With all of those factors eliminated, his life had been unfettered.  He had been granted the opportunity to devote his life to God and His work.  He had been alleviated of the duty of creating a life for himself; one had been created for him.  He had sinned, had claimed the lives of two people, and would in turn, devote his life to God and pay penance for his offenses.

From that day forward, Howard had begun reading from the Bible each day, had repented each day, begging for the Lord’s forgiveness.  On his eighteenth birthday, six years later, all of his doctors and therapists in the federal hospital that had held him had unanimously decided that he had turned a corner.  They had believed he had been rehabilitated.  They had credited his devotion to Christ for his turnaround, and no longer saw him as a threat to society.  He had been released, freed to pursue his holy quest.

Propped against a wall in the hallway of the Church he’d founded nearly a quarter of a century ago, Howard’s breathing began to calm.  His pain began to subside.  While the event he’d just experienced, the agony of the Sola’s sin, had been devastatingly real, his recollection of his path had confirmed what he had always believed.  He would find the Sola and kill her as God had ordered him to, and he would end a plague intended to beset the planet before it began.