Bad Thoughts (34 page)

      
“Sure.”

      
“I thought you would’ve started seeing Elaine Horwitz after our marriage ended. I was surprised you didn’t.”

      
“Is that why you wanted the divorce?”

      
“I thought you wanted to be with her.”

      
Shannon shook his head slowly. “I’m not at a point where I could get involved with anyone. I know most of his victims are dead, and I know we were lucky to survive, but we were still victimized by him, and with me it went on for twenty years. What I need to do now is get healthy. I know I’ll never be completely whole; all I have to do is look at my hand to realize that, but I need to heal quite a bit more before I can sort out my feelings.”

      
Susan’s eyes seemed to soften as she met Shannon’s gaze. Neither of them spoke a word until the waitress came and delivered their pizza to their table. “You don’t think you could get involved with anyone now?”

      
Shannon thought about it for a long moment. “At least no one new,” he said.

      
She kept looking at him as she moved a slice of pizza onto her plate. “Are you working or anything?” she asked.

      
“You know I’m getting disability and that covers my expenses. I’m spending quite a bit of time with my meditation and the other things I told you about, but I’m also freelancing a couple of days a week for a small detective agency in Denver. I’m only taking assignments where I feel I can do some good. I kind of like it. Eventually, I’ll spend more time with it.”

      
Susan continued looking at him. As she took a bite of the pizza, she turned from him and stared straight at it. “This is damn good pizza,” she said.

      
“I told you the food’s good here.”

      
“This could be the best pizza I’ve ever had.”

      
“I was hoping you’d like it.”

      
“I do.” She paused. “I’ll tell you, I could really see living in a town with pizza this good. You think they need legal secretaries here?”

      
“I’d have to think so. At least in Denver.”

      
“You know, I think I’m getting sick of Cambridge.”

      
“I don’t blame you.”

      
“With the taxes—”

      
“And the traffic—”

      
“And it gets so humid during the summer.”

      
“It gets hot here,” Shannon said. “But it’s a dry heat.”

      
Susan took another bite of the pizza. “I really could see moving here. But I’d need a place to stay while I got settled.”

      
“I’d be glad to put you up,” Shannon said.

      
“It might take a while before I could get my own place.”

      
“However long it took.”

      
Susan reached under the table and took hold of his gloved hand. They sat that way for a long time before either of them touched their pizza.

      
“Even if it took a lifetime,” Shannon said.
 
 

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About the author:
 

Dave Zeltserman lives in the Boston area with his wife, Judy, and his short crime fiction has been published in many venues. His third novel, Small Crimes, was named by National Public Radio as one of the 5 best crime and mystery novels of 2008. His novel, Pariah, was named by the Washington Post as one of the best books of 2009. Killer, the 3rd book in his 'man out of prison' noir trilogy will be published in the US this May. His upcoming novel, Outsourced, is currently in development by Impact Pictures and Constantin Film.
 

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