Beautiful Strangers (9 page)

Revelations….

    
I didn’t waste any time
changing my clothes and hauling my ass to the car. I could fit five of my
apartment in his suite it was humongous.

  
“If we’re swift darlin, I can
make it to my interview and be back here with you for round two before dinner,”
his eyes shone with arousal.

  
I took him by surprise and
unzipped his pants, taking his length in my hands; I bent down and licked him
from base to tip before taking him in my mouth completely. Just as Jaxson was
about to bend me over the dining table, Sadie let herself into the room.

  
You have got to be fucking
kidding me! I wanted to scream.

   
Two thoughts crossed my mind.
For one I was pissed we were interrupted and two why in the hell does she have
a key to his private suite?

  
“Sadie you have always had the
worst fucking timing you know that?” Jax snapped at her pulling up his pants.

  
“Did you forget about our
interview? I was waiting for you in front of that hooker club you’re so fond
of, when I saw your car coming out the side alley. So I followed you here. How
careless Jaxson, if I was able to trail you two, who else was?”

  
I go into the bedroom to give
them a moment and let my kitten retract her claws.
Hooker
club?
I thought he had only come to Masquerade the weekend I met him?
Something else I will need to ask about later.

  
“I don’t have a problem with you
getting off, but don’t forget you have an obligation to me and yourself for
that matter, before anything or anyone else.” Princess Sadie was losing her
temper, score one for my kitten.

   
“Can you give us a minute?” he
asked her.

  
“I’ll be in the hall, don’t keep
me waiting too long. You will not fuck this tour up for me Jaxson!” She warned.

Royally Pissed!

  
“Sorry, Sadie is still pissed
about Saturday. She doesn’t like the rumors. She thinks it makes her look bad
if we appear anything less than a united front.”
 
He tries to kiss me but I am still pissed
off.

  
“Will you be here when I get
back? I’m so not finished with you.”

  
I’d be here all right, I wanted
some answers. But do I have a right to ask them of him? I took a shower and
ordered some room service while listening to Blackened Sunrise’s interview. I
thought I was going to hit the floor when I heard the DJ ask them if there were
any wedding bells in the future, but Jaxson laid that shit to rest real fast,
before Sadie could get any ideas.

  
“Nah man, right now I just want
to focus on my music, I’m in no hurry to put a ring on anyone’s finger. After
this tour I will be exploring different styles with my music, I am ready to
start working on more solo projects.”
 

   
The rest of the interview was
light and the rest of the questions were strictly about his new album and the
tour.

   
I sat there waiting for him for
another two hours. I was pissed and ready to leave. Not even a text to say he
was running behind. I was waiting for the elevator when he stepped off, and not
happy to see I was getting on.
 

  
“You are going somewhere
Grace?”
 
He asked in a very neutral tone.

   
I didn’t want to fight but this
Sadie shit was going to be clearly defined tonight if he wanted me in his life.
I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt, so I followed him back to his
suite and gave him the opportunity to explain.

   
“Gracie I would have been back
a lot sooner but Sadie said the label thought it would be good if we were seen
having dinner together. I wanted to call you but my phone died. I’ll show you
it to you, if you want me to.”

  
“I don’t need to see your phone,
Jax though it’s sweet that you would want to. I know your career comes first
and I would never ask you to put me before your music, but this whole deal with
Sadie.” I stare off feeling guilty for being so jealous.

  
“I don’t know if I’m cut out for
this, I don’t like to share. And the way she just barged in here earlier
without even knocking I didn’t like it. I know I’m not your girlfriend but if
whatever this is ever has a chance at going further you will have to put that
bitch on a leash.”

     
“There is absolutely no
reason for you to be jealous of Sadie. I haven’t been with her in months. But
let’s get a few things straight. I’m not looking for a serious relationship
right now. But if you become my girl and I am hoping one day you will want to
be if this works out. My music is important but you will be first for me
always. But you can’t act like a stubborn child every time your feelings get
hurt.” He places his hands on my shoulders as if he is about to shake some
sense into me.

  
“If you leave I will not chase
you. And as far as Sadie goes my lawyers have been trying to find a way out of
the contract for some time, but so far they haven’t found anything. So for now
I have to keep her happy, but I will only let her push things so far. And I
took my key back from her tonight; I forgot she even had one. So can we be done
with this I’ve been ready to fuck you all damn day!”

Fuck Me!

  
My kitten was glowing. Jaxson
had told me he wanted me to be his girl. I pulled the masks from my bag and
lost all train of thought, until Jax passed out from exhaustion.

   
There was something gnawing at
the back of my mind though. Jaxson had been honest with me and I have been too
up to a point. I want so badly to tell him everything about me, the real me.
All about my past with Evan, but I’m so scared he will never look at me the
same and that I will be delivering him wrapped neatly in a perfect package to
Sadie. It’s so easy to pretend with him that I’m not the girl I turned into
these past two years.

   
I would have loved nothing more
than to stay holed up in his suite with him forever. Especially after the night
we just shared, but I didn’t bring any more speed with me and I was going to be
sick soon, if I didn’t get home. I tried to sneak out of bed without waking
Jax, but as soon as my feet touched the floor he was pulling me back in
bed.
 

   
“Don’t go yet lover, I haven’t
finished with you,” he groaned tracing my jaw down to my neck with his fingers.

   
“I want to stay, but I need to
get my car before it gets towed, hard telling how many tickets I’ve received.
And don’t you have some charity thing?”
 

   
“Yea but, I want to ask you something
before you go, and I don’t need an answer now. How would you feel about coming
on the road with me some?”

   
I was not expecting him to ask
me that.

   
“You hardly know me, and I have
a job. Besides wouldn’t Sadie be really pissed if I were hanging around all the
time?” (Not that I cared)
 

  
“You would get sick of me. Not
to mention, wouldn’t we need to be very careful?”
 
It’s not like I wouldn’t love to travel and
see him perform.

   
“Just think about it. Sadie has
her own bus, and she has enough to entertain her on the road. She has fucked
half of our band and I am sure she will do so again.”

  
“I’m not saying no, but it’s not
a yes either. Ha, really half of the band? I would never have thought her the
type,” I giggled.

  
“Get out of here before I give
away all of my secrets,” he laughed smacking me with a pillow.
 

    
Tomorrow I will be back in the
real world, back to work and I needed to crack down on getting the costumes
ordered if they were going to be ready by Halloween. Jaxson has given me a lot
to think about and I need to find a way to reveal my past to him. But I just
don’t know how, not yet anyways. Thankfully my car was okay and I had only
gotten a fifty dollar ticket. I was feeling anxious and the familiar wave of
nausea was sweeping through me.

    
I need to balance my check
book and pay the bills I have been putting off but I have so much going on in
my head. I am on the edge of falling in love with Jax and part of me thinks he
is falling just as hard. I didn’t expect to develop feelings so quickly after
Evan, and I don’t know if I deserve to.
 

   
The selfish part of me wants to
grab onto Jax and never let go, but there’s that voice in the back of my head
telling me he doesn’t truly know the real me. We are still practically
strangers. I would love to go on tour with him and leave Nashville
behind but running from my problems won’t make them go away, it can only make
things worse.

    
Damn I’m a head case.

  
I am out of pills and there’s no
way I am calling Evan, even though the demon on my shoulder is screaming just
one more time Grace. I find my resolve and dip a little coke on my pinkie and
lick it, at least I didn’t snort it this time.

My So-Called Real Life….

   
I send a text Reggie to see if
she has gotten all the girls sizes, so we can get down to business at lunch.
Reggie and I accomplished a lot over lunch; we were able to order almost all
the costumes online. We would only have to pick up a few accessories and
makeup. Reggie volunteered to pick it up since she would be doing everyone’s
make up. I received a phone call from the last person I expected to hear from,
Sadie.

   
She was actually polite which
should have sent off warning bells, but I agreed to have dinner with her on
Sunday night. Work was slow so I got to indulge in some intense sexting with
Jax and catch up with Jocelyn in between. I had so much to tell her as she did
me.

  
Robert wants to work on things
with her. I am genuinely happy for her. I definitely don’t agree with being the
other woman, but sometimes you just can’t help who you love even if it’s wrong.

  
Who am I to judge when I am
currently hiding mine and Jax’s relationship. And with that thought, I was
reminded of Evan. Why does my life have to be so complicated? I closed that chapter
in my life or so I thought I had. But just when I think I am okay he seems to
pop up in my head and my heart.

  
Most people would probably seek
therapy after going through what Evan and I did, but I don’t need to pay anyone
to tell me how fucked up my life is. I can do that all on my own.

    
Jocelyn is a hopeless romantic
so of course she thinks I should run off on tour with Jax. The idea was
sounding all too good. She has told me numerous times to leave Evan alone, but
I am never one to take anyone’s advice.
 

      
I wasn’t going to be able to
see Jaxson the next few days, he had to put in time in the studio and approve
the final editing of the video. It is scheduled to be released next week I am
excited and nervous to see it. I told him about my dinner plans with Sadie and
he actually thought it would be good for us to spend some time together, in
case, I did decide to join them on the road.
 

  
Hell, he was probably behind the
whole thing trying to make peace between the women in his life. I can’t blame
him though; he has two girls without all the perks. Or at least I hope I’m the
only one he has perks with.

Little Lies….

   
Saturday came and I have to
admit I felt a little neglected by Jax.
 
I know he is working, but I couldn’t help feeling envious when I saw
pictures of him and Sadie looking a little too cozy in the studio online.

  
My demon takes over and I find
myself rushing to the lake to meet Evan to score more dope. I was doing so well
up until this point. I have been breaking out in sweats less and less often, my
moods are getting better too, but the nausea won’t seem to go away. My eating
habits haven’t gotten any better either. I think I’ve dropped a whole pants
size in the past two weeks.

   
Most girls wouldn’t complain
about dropping weight, but I could actually stand to gain a good fifteen pounds
easy. If only I wasn’t so damned tired all the time, I would be feeling pretty
good. Maybe I should start taking some kind of supplement or multi-vitamins.

  
I hadn’t talked to Evan or seen
him since the night he jumped up on stage. So to say I was a bit uneasy to see
him would be putting it mildly. When I get to our usual spot Evan is out in the
water and smiling, flashing his wicked dimples at me.

  
“Join me for a swim.” He called
out to me.

  
“No swimsuit.”

 
“Never has stopped you before,
and besides it isn’t like I haven’t seen you naked before.”

  
Against my better judgment I
thought what the hell and I gave Evan a little strip tease and joined him in
the water. The water is slightly chilly, but the rush is magnificent. Evan
takes me in his arms and it feels so natural, even after everything he has
done. I don’t have to hide my true self from him. He accepts me. I don’t know
what I am doing but he has this hold on me.