Authors: Nora Roberts
Her kitchen was huge and sunny, with acres of bold blue counters, four professional ovens and two ruthlessly organized pantries. Its atrium doors led out to a slate patio and several theme gardens if she felt the need for fresh air. There was a cozy sofa and overstuffed chair near a bay window if she wanted to curl up, and a fully equipped computer center if she needed to note down a recipe or check one already in her files.
The room was the largest of any in the house, and she could happily spend an entire day never leaving it.
At fifty-two, she was a very rich woman who could have lived anywhere in the world, done anything she desired. She desired to bake and to live in the community of her birth.
Though she had chosen the wall-screen TV for entertainment rather than music, she hummed as she whipped eggs and cream in a bowl.
When she heard the five-thirty news come on, she
stopped work long enough to pour herself a glass of wine. She sampled the filling she was mixing, closed her eyes and considered as she rolled the taste on her tongue.
She added a tablespoon of vanilla. Mixed, sampled, approved. And noted the addition meticulously on her pad.
She caught the mention of Woodsboro on the television and, picking up her wine, turned to see.
She watched the pan of Main Street, smiling when she caught sight of her father's store. There was another pan of the hills and fields outside of town, as the reporter spoke of the historic community.
Interested now, certain the report would focus on the recent discovery near Antietam Creek, she wandered closer to the set. And nodded, knowing how pleased her father would be that the reporter spoke of the importance of the site, the excitement in the world of science at the possibilities to be unearthed there.
She sipped, thinking she'd call her father as soon as the segment was over, and listened with half an ear as a Dr. Callie Dunbrook was introduced.
When Callie's face filled the screen, Suzanne blinked, stared. There was a burn at the back of her throat as she stepped still closer to the screen.
Her heart began to thud, painfully, against her ribs as she looked into dark amber eyes under straight brows. Her skin went hot, then cold, and her breath grew short and choppy.
She shook her head. Everything inside it was buzzing like a swarm of wasps. She couldn't hear anything else, could only watch in shock as that wide mouth with its slight overbite moved.
And when the mouth smiled, quick, bright, and three shallow dimples popped out, the glass in Suzanne's hand slid out of her trembling fingers and shattered on the floor at her feet.
S
uzanne sat in the living room of the house where she'd grown up. Lamps she'd helped her mother pick out perhaps ten years before stood on doilies her grandmother had crocheted before she'd been born.
The sofa was new. She'd had to browbeat her father into replacing the old one. The rugs had been taken up and stored for the summer, and summer sheers, dotted-swiss priscillas, replaced the winter drapes. Those housekeeping routines were something her mother had done every season, something her father continued to do simply because it was routine.
Oh God, how she missed her mother.
Her hands were clutched in her lap, white knuckles pressed hard against her belly as if she were protecting the child who'd once lived in her womb.
Her face was a blank sheet, dull and colorless. It was as if she'd used up all her energy and strength to gather her family together. Now she was a sleepwalker, slipping between past and present.
Douglas sat on the edge of a Barcalounger that was older than he was. He watched his mother out of the corner
of his eye. She was still as stone, and seemed as removed from him as the moon.
His stomach was as tight and tangled as his mother's fingers.
The air smelled of the cherry tobacco from his grandfather's after-dinner pipe. A warm scent that always lingered there. With it was the cold yellow odor of his mother's stress.
It had a smell, a form, an essence that was strain and fear and guilt, and slapped him back into the terrible and helpless days of his childhood when that yellow smear on the air had permeated everything.
His grandfather gripped the remote with one hand and kept his other on Suzanne's shoulder, as if to hold her in place.
“I didn't want to miss the segment,” Roger said, then cleared his throat. “Asked Doug to run home here and set the VCR as soon as Lana told me about it. Didn't watch it yet.”
He'd made tea. His wife had made tea, always, for sickness and upsets. The sight of the white pot with its little rosebuds comforted him, as the crocheted doilies did, and the sheer summer curtains. “Doug watched it.”
“Yes, I watched it. It's cued up.”
“Well . . .”
“Play it, Daddy.” Suzanne's voice hitched, and beneath her father's hand, her body came to life again, and trembled. “Play it now.”
“Mom, you don't want to get yourself all worked up aboutâ”
“Play it.” She turned her head, stared at her son with eyes that were red-rimmed and a bit wild. “Just look.”
Roger started the tape. The hand on Suzanne's shoulder began to knead.
“Fast-forward throughâhere.” Energy whipped back, had Suzanne snatching the remote, fumbling with the buttons. She slowed the tape to regular speed when Callie's face came on-screen. “Look at her. God. Oh my God.”
“Sweet Jesus,” Roger murmured. Like a prayer.
“You see it.” Suzanne dug her fingers into his leg, but
didn't take her attention off the screen. Couldn't. “You see it. It's Jessica. It's my Jessie.”
“Mom.” Douglas's heart ached at the way she said it.
My Jessie.
“She's got the coloring, but . . .Jesus, that lawyer, Grandpa. Lana. She looks as much like Jessie might as this woman does. Mom, you can't know.”
“I
can
know,” she snapped out. “Look at her. Look!” She stabbed the remote, froze the screen as Callie smiled. “She has her father's eyes. She has Jay's eyesâthe same color, the same shape. And my dimples. Three dimples, like me. Like Ma had. Daddy . . .”
“There's a strong resemblance.” Roger felt weak when he said it, husked out. “The coloring, the shape of the face. Those features.” Something was rising up in his throat that felt like equal parts panic and hope. “The last artist projectionâ”
“I have it.” Suzanne leaped up, grabbed the folder she'd brought with her and took out a computer-generated image. “Jessica, at twenty-five.”
Now Douglas rose as well. “I thought you'd stopped having those done. I thought you'd stopped.”
“I never stopped.” Tears wanted to spill but she forced them back with the iron will that had gotten her through every day of the last twenty-nine years. “I stopped talking to you about it because it upset you. But I never stopped looking. I never stopped believing. Look at your sister.” She pushed the picture into his hands. “Look at her,” she demanded and whirled back to the television.
“Mom. For Christ's sake.” He held the photo as the pain he'd shut down, through a will every bit as strong as his mother's, bit back at him. It made him helpless. It made him sick.
“A resemblance,” he continued. “Brown eyes, blond hair.” Unlike his mother, he couldn't live on hope. Hope destroyed him. “How many other girls, women, have you looked at and seen Jessica? I can't stand watching you put yourself through this again. You don't know anything about her. How old she is, where she comes from.”
“Then I'll find out.” She took the photo back, put it into
the folder with hands that were steady again. “If you can't stand it, then stay out of it. Like your father.”
She knew it was cruel, to slash at one child in the desperate need for the other. She knew it was wrong to strike out at her son while clutching the ghost of her daughter to her breast. But he would either help, or step aside. There was no middle ground in Suzanne's quest for Jessica.
“I'll run a computer search.” Douglas's voice was cold and quiet. “I'll get you what information I can.”
“Thank you.”
“I'll use my laptop back at the store. It's fast. I'll send you what I find.”
“I'll come with you.”
“No.” He could slap just as quick and hard as she. “I can't talk to you when you're like this. Nobody can. I'll do better alone.”
He walked out without another word. Roger let out a long sigh. “Suzanne, his only concern is you.”
“No one has to be concerned for me. I can use support, but concern doesn't help me. This is my daughter. I know it.”
“Maybe she is.” Roger rose, ran his hands up and down Suzanne's arms. “And Doug is your son. Don't push him, honey. Don't lose one child trying to find another.”
“He doesn't want to believe. And I have to.” She stared at Callie's face on the TV screen. “I have to.”
S
o, she was the right age, Doug thought as he scanned the information from his search. The fact that her birthday was listed within a week of Jessica's was hardly conclusive.
His mother would see it as proof, and ignore the other data.
He could read a lifestyle into the dry facts. Upper-middle-class suburban. Only child of Elliot and Vivian Dunbrook of Philadelphia. Mrs. Dunbrook, the former Vivian Humphries, had played second violin in the Boston Symphony Orchestra before her marriage. She, her husband and infant daughter had relocated to Philadelphia,
where Elliot Dunbrook had taken a position as surgical resident.
It meant money, class, an appreciation for the arts and for science.
She'd grown up in privilege, had graduated first in her class at Carnegie Mellon, gone on to get her master's and, just recently, her doctorate.
She'd pursued her career in archaeology while compiling her advanced degrees. She'd married at twenty-six, divorced not quite two years later. No children.
She was associated with Leonard G. Greenbaum and Associates, the Paleolithic Society, several universities' archaeology departments.
She'd written a number of well-received papers. He printed out what he could access to wade through later. But from a glance he assessed her as dedicated, probably brilliant and focused.
It was difficult to see the baby who'd kicked her legs and pulled his hair as any of those things.
What he could see was a woman who'd been raised by well-to-do, respected parents. Hardly baby-napping material. But his mother wouldn't see that, he knew. She would see the birthday and nothing else.
Just as she had countless times before.
Sometimes, when he let himself, he wondered what had fractured his family. Had it been that instant when Jessica disappeared? Or had it been his mother's unrelenting, unwavering determination to find her again?
Or was it the moment when he himself had realized one simple fact: that by reaching for one child, his mother had lost another.
None of them, it seemed, had been able to live with that.
He would do what he could, as he had done countless times before. He attached the files, e-mailed them to his mother.
Then he turned off his computer, turned off his thoughts. And buried himself in a book.
T
here was nothing like the beginning of a dig, that time when anything is possible and there is no limit to the potential of the discovery. Callie had a couple of fresh-faced undergraduates who might be more help than trouble. Right now they were free labor that came along with a small grant from the university. She'd take what she could get.
She would have Rose Jordan as geologist, a woman she both respected and liked. She had Leo's lab, and the man himself as consultant. Once she had Nick Long pulled in as anthropologist, she'd be in fat city.
She worked with the students, digging shovel samples, and had already chosen the two-trunked oak at the north-west corner of the pond as her datum point.
With that as her fixed reference they'd begin measuring the vertical and horizontal location of everything on the site.
She'd completed the plan of the site's surface the night before, and had begun to plot her one-meter-square divisions.
Today they'd start running the rope lines to mark the divisions.
Then the fun began.
A cold front had dumped the humidity and temperatures into the nearly tolerable range. It had also brought rain the night before that had turned the ground soggy and soft. Her boots were already mucked past the ankle, her hands were filthy and she smelled of sweat and the eucalyptus oil she'd used to discourage insects.
For Callie, it didn't get much better.
She glanced over at the toot of a horn, and this time the interruption had her leaning on her shovel and grinning. She'd known Leo wouldn't be able to stay away for long.
“Keep at it,” she told the students. “Dig slow, sieve thoroughly. Document everything.”
She walked over to meet Leo. “We're finding flakes in every shovel sample,” she told him. “My theory is we're in the knapping area there.” She gestured to where the two students continued to dig and sieve the soil. “Rosie will verify rhyolite flakes. They sat there, honing the rock into
arrowheads, spear points, tools. Go a little deeper, we'll find discarded samples.”
“She'll be here this afternoon.”
“Cool.”
“How are the students doing?”
“Not bad. The girl, Sonya, she's got potential. Bob, he's able and willing. And earnest. Really, really earnest.” She shrugged. “We'll wear some of that down in no time. I tell you what I figure. Every time I turn around, somebody's bopping by here wanting a little tutorial. I'm going to put Bob on community relations.”
She glanced back. “He's got this farm-fresh Howdy Doody face. They'll love that. Let him give the visitors a nice little lecture on what we're doing, what we're looking for, how we do it. I can't be stopping every ten minutes to play nice with the locals.”
“I'll take that for you today.”
“That's great. I'm going to run the lines. I've got the surface plan worked up, if you want to take a look. You can give me a hand with marking the plots in between your outdoor classroom obligations.”
She glanced at her ancient Timex, then tapped the list she'd already made and fixed to her clipboard. “Leo, I'm going to need containers. I don't want to start pulling bones out of the ground and have them go to dust on me once they're out of the bog. I need equipment. I need nitrogen gas, dry ice. I need more tools. More sieves, more trowels, more dustpans, buckets. I need more hands.”
“You'll have them,” he promised. “The great state of Maryland has given you your first grant on the Antietam Creek Project.”
“Yeah?” She grabbed his shoulders as the delight burst through her. “Yeah? Leo, you're my one true love.” She kissed him noisily on the mouth.
“Speaking of that.” He patted her dirty hands, stepped back. She was too pleased to notice he was putting safe distance between them.
“We're going to have to discuss another key member of the team. While we do, I want you to remember we're all
professionals, and what we're doing here could have enormous impact. Before we're done, this project could involve scientists from all over the world. It's not about individuals, but about discovery.”
“I don't know where you're going, Leo, but I don't like how you're getting there.”
“Callie . . .” He cleared his throat. “The anthropological significance of this find is every bit as monumental as the archaeological. Therefore, you and the head anthro will need to work together as coheads of the project.”